I hate it when people come to visit...
they will tour the house like it's very fun-.-
and then we have to spend the whole day cleaning up the house so that it's presentable?
just don't show your guests the rooms!! you can say it's private and there's nothing wrong with that.
have some people coming over tonight but they are very....
ohwell...the kids are kind of...not sociable...
lol if you meet them you might be ?!!! I didn't even do anything...
argh...overall, not looking forward to tonight.
another chem sac this coming friday...why can't the world just stop for one day and everyone can play and be happy...
if technology didn't advance then we would all still be cavemen?!!
the world out there is so competitive, the society is just a race to the top of the ladder...
why has mankind become so greedy?
greedy for money, for power etc. of course there are people in the world who aren't like that...
but I believe everyone wants to succeed whether they try or  not...

it is a hot day today...stepping out in the sun will probably give you heatstroke.
water plants!!~ grapevine in my backyard refuses to grow...even though I flood it's pot at least once every day unless it's raining...
before I left for singapore, the whole vine was covered in leaves and then now when I came back the vine was pratically dead-.- all the leaves drying up and dropping off etc. looks like we have to wait till next year...



school's starting again): the day after tomorrow
not looking forward at all-.-
lol...I think I'm becoming a pig, sleeping almost 10 hours every night!! ;P
thursday, go to to school, 3.30 leave school for "camp" go back the next day from there by yourself-.-
and most of the school starts on 4 feb!!! which is like one week later!!
school hasn't even started and I know when's my next test o.0
haven't even got all my textbooks yet...have to get it tomorrow...
another year I say,
and realise it's the last year in high school=I'm old?!!
well, there's no point grabbing at the past
the past will remain the past...but I'm so uncertain about my future><
at the moment I'm just trying to get the highest ATAR score possible...so that I can have a larger variety of courses I can take...but after VCE then what...LOL...
anyway, rdm fact o.0
my eyelid's swollen for no reason o.0 it looks more like it gained weight...and it doesn't hurt or itch so WHAT IS IT!!!!!!!!



do you really not know? are you pretending not to know?
since young I hated that place.
do you know how I felt?
It's not like I like it
I hate spectacles
I hate it
do you not know?
It's not like I ask for a high degree
Do I look like I like it?
I can't stand the way the stupid optometrist stares at me and talks to me as if I don't care about my eyes enough to take care of them
Even if I did take care my degree still increases every time
It's not my fault.
I hate it.
Every time, spending money on new lenses, new frame etc.
you think I want to?
every optician shop makes me shudder
why are there so many in the world?
why is it just ME that has such a high degree?
just because we have to use up the insurance we payed for.
thanks a lot.



have been wanting to post about my trip back in singapore but too lazy...hehe...
in the last 10 minutes of 2011, I should talk about the year.
it has been an eventful year
so will the next and the next
each year more memories are added, so has the memories of this year
I met many new friends, got to know people from a new church, but still being in contact with singapore friends
maybe I've got the best of both worlds! :P
didn't do as well as I wanted to for VCE but I will do my best next year
anyway,
here's wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!! and set your goals!!



since it's going to be the last night I'll be online at this kind of hour(12.15am) in singapore, I think I should blog
went to miriam's house today
sat downstairs and talked and took pictures
now gina has a lot of unglam pictures-.-
too bad michelle couldn't come today because of sore throat
yesterday we went to bugis to uh...take neoprints
lol...in conclusion, we wasted $12 altogether
ate pepper lunch fr lunch again yesterday
ate chicken instead
walked to iluma, went to the arcade only to realise that you need the card to play
and obviously we didn't have any so ended up walking around city hall
although it was kind of boring but somehow it was fun
I actually enjoyed it
slippers gave me blisters again today
I think I should get another pair...even after pasting so many plasters on my slippers and on my foot,
I still get blisters-.-
went to take passport photos this morning
didn't take too long to find the place(:
then I went to my grandma's house, ate lunch then went to jurong point
and finally, I found fahrenheit's album. Finally found it after looking through quite a few popular stores.
then went to miriam's house(:
spent abot an hour just eating the pacifier lollipop thing HAHA
not going out tomorrow until about 3
until then~



decided to write my gan xiang about band now since there's no band next week=I won't see them anymore
and also the erm...review of my bad haircut that I wasted $14 on-.-
let's talk about the waste of money first. I paid $14 and now my fringe is too short and my ponytail is fat and short(no shape at all) all I can say is I can't wait for my hair to grow out again

anyway, regarding band, I want to first thank the hostel gate uncle for letting me in(not like the one at the front gate-.-) although yesterday you told me no visitors can go in by hostel gate(or any other gate) without a teacher's permission, thanks for letting me in. It meant a lot to me. But, what if I told you the next time you see me is many years later? What if I told you my juniors/seniors/batchmates might not see me until maybe a few years later?
anyway, enough about that. Shall talk about senior band first. Listening to a full band(although not with many people) again feels really good. A totally different soud from a band comprising of mostly flutes and with the lowest instrument being the trombone. For once I actually heard an in tune note from a whole band. this has actually never occurred in my life in junior band. Ms Chan hopes that senior band will perform well for syf, either maintaining a silver or even getting a gold. Listening the pieces senior band is not too bad. Although I won't be able to experience the bonding of the whole band for the same purpose again, I wish senior band all the best and I hope you will really perform well. I also wish I could play with klarinutz once again but I guess that's just not possible. Tried playing Jiayi's instrument and realised my air is super weak now. Maybe it's because I haven't practised at all since the last band practice.
now,junior band. Until now, tuning is still terrible, high notes still killing chickens(sha ji), crescendo still forcing. Did we pass all these mistakes on to our juniors? Tuning has always been a big problem, so has high notes. How to make you all understand that crescendo does not mean jut forcing more air to make your volume louder? It doesn't in fact. Can you even tell you are going FLAT when you crescendo? I almost fainted on Tuesday when I heard the band crescendo during warm-up. Excuse me, that is not called crescendo but that's called from normal air to forced air. Juniors high C still flat, that one no choice but to train air. Quite understandable why ms chan will scold junior band. She's much nicer in senior band you know? maybe it's because the junior band has so many people so it's harder to control? But honestly I also like senior band's soud more than junior band. More people may mean more volume but more people have to be kept in line like for running notes etc. And how come you all come in the same note same time also can cue differently one arh? Anyway, you all must jiayou ok!! I know it's not easy to get back that gold but try your best and have no regrets once you get off that stage. I just hope no one will step off that stage feeling regretful over what you did on that stage. Remember, one chance and it's over.



went to band today
finally got into school
attended mdm so kah lay's farewell ceremony
no tears were shed, good thing principal didn't see me in my section tee and shorts
stayed for junior band but I believe I wasted my time
spent more than an hour just on warmup and tuning
and they already tuned before assembling-.-
in the end left when they almost finished tuning and warming up
left for lunch with my batch ppl!!(:
but so many people weren't here today
band is diferent
I don't know so many people, so many people don't know me
senior band is really relaxed compared to junior band
now I can fully understand why teaching junior band is so hard
firstly, there are so many people, so many sections
secondly, people don't listen to each other, high notes also just blast, crescendo also force until so flat
thirdly, whatever you say just goes in and comes out
sure some people try to apply whatever they learn but there are some just don't do anything
tuning also don't listen whether in tune or not, so many waves
As a person playing clarinet, I know how hard it is to be in tune all the time but at least TRY to listen to maybe the person beside you?
and junior arh...how come the note is come in the same time but cue different time one leh? if you cue different time then isn't it equating to not playing together, needless to say come in together?
honestly, I'm kind of disappointed
I was hoping something might change but nothing has changed for the better so far, well in the tuning aspect that is
tuning out how to talk about playing pieces?
by putting how many days to syf on the board does it motivate the band to work harder? or will it just serve as a count down for a day of disappointment that you will remember for a very long time
most people will only experience syf once in sec school
very few will go twice
those who go twice know what it's like, lead the rest
I hope the result won't be disappointing as it was last year
see you guys on thursday then...
would be good if you guys had a short sectionals because there are some things I hope to say, but don't actually know how to say it.



I believe my holiday is ruined
can't even enter rv anymore
I thought I could always call that place mine but I guess I thought wrong
I can't even go in, much less surprise anyone or help with any problems
It's so fustrating knowing that there are so many problems and NONE are getting solved
and I can't even go in to see them
you want me to watch from outside the gate?!!
I spent so long finding the school, finding the school's main entrance only to be told I can't go in
come on, I will most like see them for about 2 weeks once a year,
is that fair to me?
I understand it's the rule but do I look like I will cause chaos in the school?
I just want to visit the people I haven't seen in a whole year,
is that so difficult? I have things to give them can I just see them to at least personally give it to them?
no obviously I can't.
I just thought I could help a little bit, but now I can't
I don't want to get caught, I don't want anybody who helps me to be in trouble
this is really fustrating



finally took the uh...long-anticipated pictures of my new house(:

My house from outside

the garage on the right

small wooden balcony outside

cherry blossom tree outside my house

My front door(look at the handle!!)

hallway

on the left of the hallway is the piano/computer room

go a little further and it's my room(bookshelf opp. bed,cupboard on the left of bed, study table opp. my very messy dressing table)

hallway continued

David's room after the hallway turn(we painted his whole room including ceiling!!!)

then there is the toilet after David's room(redid this toilet)

another toilet, in another turn in the hallway

laundry/pantry opposite the toilet above

pantry

and opposite the turn, is the kitchen(: and further down is my dining table)

living room on the right of the front door(opposite the piano/computer room)

backyard(see the grape vine?) good weather so we washed a lot of clothes(:

shed at the back of the house(our temporary storeroom)

lemon tree

apricot tree

that's all(:



THE YEAR IN REVIEW
today marks one year from the first day I had in Australia, 1 December 2009
once again, thanks to everyone who took the time to see me off the airport, it meant a lot to me
this day marks a new chapter in my life, the big move - to Australia
and last Saturday I moved to my permanent home
sure, everything has changed.
Lifestyle, school, friends etc.
of course I miss things in Singapore
but I've learnt to move on
we aren't separated for life and we can always email/webcam/call
still remember the reasons holding me back from moving,
firstly, leaving all me close friends behind
secondly, clarinets. As a senior, you can't stop worrying about your section, especially when each batch is getting worse and worse and you have no idea what's the problem
thirdly, pkc. After serving there for 3 years, I kind of miss that place.
but, ohwell, there are many new things to look forward to in Australia

so many things have changed in Singapore too
the new school compound, new teachers(especially new principal), moving on to year4
I actually feel really old talking about being year 4 but I'm now in year 5?!! haha
doing VCE next year, have no idea about my degree of preparedness
don't even ask me what I want to do when I grow up or what course I want to do in uni
I'm just going to study hard, do my best and see what my score can get me into
likewise, you people study hard too ok!! and practise hard(klarinutters) and don't get kicked out of the school!!

most importantly, I want to thank my friends for being there through everything and  may our friendship will last the test of time.

“时间是一道不能反转的门”，
一旦过去了，就永不回头。
再多的想念也没用，
还是继续为自己的未来努力吧！



was watching a video on fb of kids singing 'in whom I can trust' in phpps hall
it has been a long time since I saw the hall...
don't even remember much of the hall...just rmb the important areas of the schcool...
1st level, canteen
2nd level, staff room
3rd level, library
4th level, hall
and the rest are classrooms...still remember complaining about having to climb up 14 flights of stairs at least twice every day bcos as the oldest we get the highest classrooms BUT we don't need to share lockers with other levels...and the puny-sized field that got transformed into a small little triangle you can hardly call a field(it used to be bigger in the old building) spent 2 years in each school compound, the oldest, holding school and the new one...quite even-ed out..I sort of miss out
David in contrast doesn't miss a single part of peihwa-.- he claims he can't even remember the school song when I still can remember it...

urgh-.- have to go now...wil continue the post another day



no school todayyy~
tomorrow is melbourne cup = horse racing = public holiday
going to pon house swimming on friday so technically I only have 2 days of school this week!!(: haha...

posted a video of me playing yu jian on facebook not long ago...
that song means a lot to me I guess...it's hard to put it in words...
only my batch knows it...and plays it err...occasionally(:
klarinutz arh...how are you guys doing now huh!! are you ppl improving in the right direction or the wrong direction!! so true that every batch is worse than the last...rvcb used to be a good band and we...kinda ruined it-.- ohwell...我无话可说

Also, this is kinda late but...
thanks to the people who wished me happy birthday and the manymany people who err...forgot since I deactivated my facebook then for bio exam...lol...IM THE PERSON WITH THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS MS CHAN *waves hand* felt like a really normal day, even more normal than other days...will uh...post a picture of the cake a later time since the picture's not in this computer...felt quite old after my birthday o.0



this shall be the last post before bio exam(friday)
I  THINK I'm prepared...not very sure....need to memorise all the definitions for the different terms...read through...err...evolution again? I think that's all actually o.0 then back to doing practice papers...
saw on yahoo singapore that haze is very bad!!

anyway, today's perforance was ok...and there was actually extra bio revision lessons after school so i sat there for 20minutes hopped off to my performance, hopped back in 30 minutes...the performance was.......
screwed the introduction of the last piece...but the rest was...kinda ok...not as good as the rehearsals

have an ugly sock tan): it's mayb 7cm above my ankle?!!! it's not very obvious but can sort of see a line there>< i used to have a sock tan like BELOW MY ANKLE and now it's way higher, a random place above my ankle-.-

dinner now...study later(: blog NEXT WEEK...lol...



AHHH dead dead dead
first of all, friday bio paper...I have no idea whether I'm prepared or not...did like at least 10 papers already I think...but my short-answer is still very lousy...
secondly, tmr I have a quartet performance AFTER SCHOOL(what in the world was I thinking when i agreed><) AND I need to pick David and WALK HOME WITH HIM FROM THE TRAIN STATION and how am I supposed to do that when the stupid performance starts at 4 and he ends school at 3.30(walk to the station 4.00?!)?!!! and it's not like I can tell my mother that I have performance...she will just bite off my head-.- bcos she needs to go somewhere?!! and now I can't pick David and what am I supposed to do nowwwww><
checked the stupid tram and train times(inefficient transport) I will reach the station like 4.45-.- which is 1 hour later...and obviously David will kill me>< and my mum will kill me too>< AHHHHH....WHY OF ALL DAYS AND TIMES SERIOUSLY?!!! why must we start at 4!!!!!!!>< can't we start once school ends? I believe none of the people need lunch since we get lunch time during school hours...35 minutes break before starting...IT'S NOT NEEDED LUH!!! agreeing to play in that quartet is a stupid mistake in itself
ate up my whole week's lunchtime(every day) and now I even need to stay back for the stupid performance that starts at 4 and practically wastes my whole day after school when my VERY IMPORTANT EXAM is on FRIDAY what the?!! I can't even email the girl by school email because there are SO MANY PEOPLE IN THE SCHOOL WITH THE SAME NAME AND I DON'T KNOW HER SURNAME-.- and it's weird if I just email the teacher DIRECTLY which I bet she won't see until tmr or mayb even later...HOWHOWHOWHOWHOW....somebody help me>< if I tell my mum I go see teacher then she will ask why cannot go another day-.-...AHHHHHHHHHHH....HELPHELPHELP>< I am regretting my decision a whole lot...if only the stupid performance starts EARLIER...shall try asking tmr...because I really can't stay...if they insist then...I'm sorry I really can't stay...



it's 10/10/10 today!!(:
and I should start getting off the computer...
3 more weeks til bio exam...
first week of school was ok...
just that i had to fall sick right on the first day of school until now-.-
performance next week level of readiness? ZERO
lol...the band just sounds nothing like what we're supposed to sound...well, in my view anyway.
everything is everywhere...and so....quite messed up



term break!! 3 weeks of holiday/studying/sleeping
haha...lots to catch up this holiday...
had formal last week...i think a lot of people saw the pictures?
and I guess it's high time I post again haha...since the last post was like in june o.0 long time ago...
last term of the year
it has been really quick...been in Australia for 10 months alr...
2 more months to mark a year..
I actually have nothing to do when I'm bored of homework...
just a lot of studying for biology since I have 2 sacs to do...
and 2 chapters to go through for the holidays...

found the scores for taeyang's wedding dress online...I can play the introduction now haha...and the rest...sounds quite weird at the moment...

what else can I talk about):

hmm...it's spring now!! although it was cold today...all the clouds arh): blow yourself away luh-.-
but it's getting a lot warmer haha...can wear summer dress to school next term already...after 2 terms(half a year) of wearing winter uniform...take at least 10 minutes wearing winter uniform...
because need to wear shirt inside and then the school shirt and school jumper and then for the bottoms, wear stockings and then wear shorts and then wear skirt and last of all blazer...
ah...that's all for today~



the degree of coldness is crazy-.-
currently is uh...11.6 degrees, overnight 7 degrees-.-
locked out of classroom today-.- the whole class
during like class assembly thing and the whole class was like standing outside freezing...
it feels exaggerated-.-
like my shampoo is more solid?!!
and my mother buys coconut milk in cans and the top SOLIDIFIES bcos it's cold-.-
and to top it off i have a runny nose-.-

but anywayyyyyy,
school closes next weeeeeeeeek~
last week of school b4 holidays and only 2 levels are actually having normal lessons while the rest of the school is like away having fun-.-
going skiing on 2 july XD although i dunoe how to ski hehe...
so irritating that singapore hols end when i start...
ohwell...i will make very good use of this holiday to studyy
haha...i always say that but end up otherwise-.-

my batch stepping down on friday o.0
never thought that this day would come so fast...
klarinutz uh...after seniors step down you all must work hard ok!!(:
although i have no idea how you all sound right now...but...definitely after seniors leave the section and band will sound weaker but you all just have to jiayou and play louder luh ok!!(:
can't believe next year is syf again...2 years seems quite fast uh><
last week of band prac o.0 and drills HAHA
does anyone know when the sec 1s are joining junior band as in like main band?

OHYES...i twas the shortest day in Australia ystd, dunoe if anyone knew? dunoe whether it applies in singapore or not? didn't know until somebody told me o.0 can't really tell anyway
the sun sets super early nowadays...like 4++ 5? and in summer at 9pm then the sun sets-.- so much difference...2 more months of winter~ in korean shows when it's like winter then when they speak then have the fog coming out of their mouth right, then over here today at like 10++am still have that fog thing...so cold uh><

anybody watch world cup? o.0 i somehow tend to watch the very late ones and end up sleeping but waking up occasionally to watch o.0 watched the south korea vs Greece one haha SO PRO!!(:but then lost to argentina...lol...ok...this was quite a while ago no idea about recent matches o.0 i just know usa played? haha...
that's uh..all for today?!!



and uh....that's it.



it's a random cloudy day but the clouds aren't dark clouds.
it's the holidays now!!(: haha...lol...
hmm...no motivation to really post something-.-
heard that the promotion criteria was changed o.0
to promote GPA 2.5 and at least B4 for english and chinese o.0
they lowered the gpa o.0
hmm...
whatelsewhatelsewhatelse><
APRIL FOOL'S DAY TMR!!(: not like i'll go prank anyone-.-
whenever i go online hardly anybody is online-.- so i don't use the computer for very long?!! haha...
ohwell...i shall just go reply emails!!(:



super long time before i blogged...lol...
some er...promised pictures i haven't taken yet...lol...
like the one of my house and err...my uniform?!!
haha...

everyone's busy in singapore...
it's chinese new year eve...but it totally feels like a normal weekend...
going to my dad's friend's house for dinner tonight then going some pot luck thing at another person's house...
it's also valentine's day tmr...quite cool haha chinese new year and valentine's day on the same day!!(:

went for band prac on thursday...lol...the intrument i used was...-no comments-
lol...it's plastic and i haven't heard of that brand before...and apparently one of the pads dropped off and i was like squeaking a whole lot...so malu-.- then i had to use a reed size 2...lol...so i was super flat?!! then i decided not to play since i can't play in tune and i keep squeaking lol...
but in the end it sort of got "fixed" then i can play some notes-.- you can actually see the pad MOVING when you press the key to open the hole-.- i was like NO WONDER cannot play properly...lol...found the pieces simple...more of catching up with the speed but yea...but not much of a challenge...like no high notes, no running notes, no weird weird rhythm...oh well...that's so far...but the band is super unbalanced...bcos everyone plays what they want to play...so...no tubas o.0 and a lot of ppl play flutes o.0
about half the band consists of flutes? haha yea...but it's ok...
some ppl may know about this o.0 but my parents said buy a secondhand clarinet for me...my dad says they confirm will not buy a new one for me but then will confirm not buy me a plastic one...can't find any secondhand buffet RC...quite sad...but there is buffet E-11...have to go try to find out...
i think im nuts-.-(as nuts as klariNUTZZ HAHAH) like actually buying a clarinet?!! me?!

heard about all the crazy stuff that's happening in rv...like right now, the crazy gpa year 4s are supposed to get to get promoted and the A2 for o lvl higher chinese...and about extended band hours and more and more practices...all i can say now is JIAYOU!!(: but i can't do much o.0

hmm...what else did i want to say o.0
don't rmb but wish everyone happy chinese new year and valentine's day!!(: haha...



today's date is 01012010
o.0 so many zeros and ones
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!(:

and tmr band members performing for tone poem...
all the best and...dun err...
screw it!!(:

tmr everyone needs to go to school early...
so...finally moving in to the new campus...
and im not there to see it o.0
so...i shall try to go back and see it soon!!(:

that's all~
jiayou for tmr!!(:



it's the last day of 2009...
it's not only the last day of 2009...
it's the last day of this decade...
goodbye to 2009, welcome to 2010 o.0

tmr is the start of a new decade...
the start of a new year...
another day...

the new start of another chapter, with manymany changes...
this century has been said to be the worst century in dunoe how man year's history...
with all the natural disasters and eh...some big stuff like 911...so...
yea...goodbye to the bad endings and hello to a good beginning...
it's not been a very good year from the start i guess...well...
syf starting off etc. etc.
like it wasn't great for band...then for schoolwork it was better than 2008 o.0
but yea...can be better...

hoping to stay up late tonight...
in time to countdown to new year with singapore...haha and taiwan(:
excited and looking forward to the new year...
hope you are too(:

lastly, wishing everyone a
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!



how was everyone's christmas?
spent Christmas with a quite messed up house o.0
bcos had to unpack...
finally have clothes o.0

hmm...school is starting soon in singapore...
shipped stuff have arrived...
done a lot of packing...
there's no trace that i've lived in that house for almost 10 years...
furniture all gone...
house already sold...
fading away...
only source of showing i existed in singapore is my friends...
and the emails...
sometimes i wonder...
what will we talk about the next time i see you all...
will it be different?
will i change?
will everyone change?
i guess so...
but there's nothing i can do...

miss someone calling me AUNTYYYYYYYYYYY *hugs*
and miss someone tlkaing about the DBSK and fahrenheit stuff with me *winks*
and miss being part of band
miss my clarinet(evan how's my clarinet o.0)

memories are still there...but fading...in the future...
in the future...not as many memories...
thanks for being my friend, my sister and yea....applies to YOU!(:
hope we can remain that way...for manymany years to come...
i don't regret knowing you all at all
thanks for being there for me & everything...

anyway...wishing everyone a




have decided to blog like...after one week of arriving in what sarah calls the KANGAROO LAND-.-
lol...i find it amusing but no, melbourne doesn't really have kangaroos, mayb in the wildlife reserves or something but other than that, you don't see them...
wanted to post after hearing the news that ms ek is leaving...well...and compared to the newer principal...she's loads better....from what i heard and read at this article o.0
the new principal is the ex-principal of JJC...and after i read the online article i think he's loads worse than llm...

http://www.gamerzplanet.net/forums/spam/162255-jjcs-principle-removes-his-sheep-clothing-the-true-face-of-torment.html

here's the article...and amazingly i still can log in to ivle?!
haha...aiyooooo...still rmb the time all of us talk about her...lol...and getting pissed bcos of what she said and the veryveryvery long talks she gave during assembly at the field...lol...and well...yea...din appreciate luh...to be honest...

after reading that article im thankful i left><
haha...he's scaryyyyyy>< but i shall still go back and visit><
and tie up my hair in case i get caught by him if i go back><
i scared lehhhhhhh!!><
now the whole school knows she's leaving i think o.0
a lot of ppl know she's leaving at least...

there's a lot of changes for 2010...a year of change we could say...o.0
like i mean...change of school campus, change of principal, im not there anymore, change of school uniforms...etc. etc.

haha...well...things come and go...but the most important thing is to look forward...
a new chapter, a new beginning, an end results in a beginning...a beginning with changes etc. etc.

it was raining this morning...was super cold...good thing i din go out><
won't have internet tmr...and for i dunoe how long...so...post first(:
will try to post more photos on fb(:
haha...
bye for now(:



the last band prac...
'the last' suddenly sounds so near...
when i thought it's manymany days away...
but actually...it isn't that long...
reality suddenly sets in...it's 11 days left...
thanks everyone for their well wishes and presents...i really appreciate those little things a lot...
like...the class farewell parties...it was totally something i din expect at all...
although i dun really appear surprised...but i really feel very happy and touched and grateful...
it's been 3 years i have spent in RV and i have gathered another 3 years...of beautiful memories that i will keep and remember...
i type like im leaving tmr-.-
was taking pictures of my instru just now...b4 i left the house...for 3K-ilograms farewell party...
and...yea...had a lot of fun and will miss everyone loads...
and monday had 2Deja vu farewell party too...and tmr...have sec 3 band dinner thing at pizza hut...
and strangely...all are dinners o.0
anyway...im talking about this bcos tmr is the last band prac ir rather the last drills...i dun think we have combines tmr...since they din ask us to bring clothes to change...
hope that everyone will do their best tmr(:
have fun doing PT!!(:



today is the last day of school...can't believe sec 3 life is OVER
like...wow....term 3 and term 4 pass by super fast!!
then now...school hols alr...
tmr...last day of october(:
and tmr is halloween o.0
and damien huang came to our class when we were in the hall then he wrote on the whiteboard
"happy halloween! and regards from me. damien huang"
lol...and gave everyone a lollipop(:
haha...will miss the air-con class room a lot!!):
like how many schools have so many air-con classrooms?!
lol...have band camp coming up...
6-7 nov...and eh...many band pracs...
haha....
and ms chan said some sec 3s might be able to perform with senior band for the yuhua concert...
on the 20 decemeber...
haha...and she got quite pissed with us today...
lol...what for?
playing rubbish...as usual...lol...
a lot of ppl din come today...hmm...
due to eh....other commmitments o.0
haha...hmm....nothing much to say...just that...
will miss the 3 years we have had in the current campus at queensway...
haha...i mean...2 syf's have been practised in this campus...
dunoe how many lessons and cca we have attended at this campus
and all the events...
so...3 years of memory in the current campus!!(:



i think there's something wrong with the all the air-cons today...
it's like very cold><
first it was the LT1 air-con...bcos went there to take the CID paper...
then go in immediately freeze...super cold...
ended up shivering o.0
then it was the tuition centre air-con...
wah...super cold also....
whats wrong with all the air-cons today?!
then go home the bus also so cold...lol...
and there was this guy that keep standing in front of me and smoke at the bus stop-.-
ew....
i passed CID!!
and i was expecting to fail/get C6 at most o.0
haha...lol...hmm...why do i have like nothing to say now...



on thursday...the bicultural programme thing...wah...
6 hours of chinese in school then after go home chinese tuition 2 hours. -.-
studying a whole day of chinese will make you quite...er....

then friday...
after track assembly, then mr lee asked some people to stay back...
then he called my name...
then i was thinking DIE...isit ask me go chem remedial or something?!
lol...then actually is ask us if we interested in suzhou GPP...haha...
lol...then he was like those comfirm cannot one can go alr...then more than half the people walked off...lol...
poor mr lee o.0
but this is like the first time a teacher asked me to join some programme o.0
then friday was like some games day...
started with don't forget the lyrics...
haha....
then had some games....like stations games...
haha...
then there was cca...
and ms chan din come so we had sectionals...and gimling and wenhui came o.0
stress arh!! haha...then we spent a lot of time on tuning o.0
and there's no cca on tuesday o.0
but there's cca on the last day of school...
haha....



hehe...the next 3 days have some special programme o.0
tmr have some bicultural thing...
but rv's bicultural programme's are forever chinese-.-
lol....BIcultural
means TWO which is english and chinese
but then....
haha....chinese all the way tmr...no lessons o.0
and need to wear pe to school...
then friday and nxt tuesday...
bring pe to school
bcos we have some programme organised by the  SCs
then next monday is promotion day(:
so no school....

did CIP in the school library today...
and the ari con was spoilt...
and me and michelle got stuck pasting pages into the book...
lol...and after pasting the pages of the book still can't fit into the book....
and benjamin and joel were doing CIP too...
and for the last 10 minutes or less then we went outside the library...
haha...the temperature in the library is higher than the temperature OUTSIDE the library...-.-
it was so warm...i started sweating after a hour-.-

and i need to dig out my expositary test essay
so dead....i dunoe where is it now><
need to go findddddd):
but i dun think i can find it...
howhowhowhowhowhow!!



haha...
i think i shall put all the names up after all...lolololol....
haha...

thank you to:
zoenin(emperor(: ),sarah,miriam,michelle,ruth,jieying,yunfei,kimyee,junze,chinhong,weikai,joy,eemin,paul,clement,
james,qianyi,yihan,gimling,vengyi(changjin!!),jialing,hueychyi,Ps yvonne,benson,shimin,sebby(sebastian o.0),danish,gracia,shaokai,evan,liang shixian,kaixuan,meilin,marilyn,billy

lol....zoenin!! i put your name(:!! haha....lol...
thanks for the present also(:
haha...lol...i typed out all the name o.0
haha....all those messages made my day(:

anyway...today was an interesting practice(:
we sight-read 'the sound of music'
and ms chan was asking who know the story...lol...
then she was saying mayb holiday have time will show us the show o.0
lol...i have it at home o.0
haha....movie marathon o.0
zi-highing...
anyway....that's not exactly the main point of today's interesting practice.
haha...
bcos CO air-con spoilt and they open the doors...and so can hear them playing from upstairs...
lol...then they were playing a kitaro song...haha...coincidentally, i also have that at home o.0
from upstairs it sounded quite nice(:
haha....then when they were playing the floor was vibrating...and can hear the drums...was quite cool...haha...
never felt that from CO before o.0
haha...anyway...ms chan was saying...
after listening to CO that song for 3 weeks she forget our melody alr...
haha....
then she say can be fei1 xia2 alr...lol...suit the music...haha...she even did some action with the music and it was very very funny!!
haha....
then a few times before we started playing then CO started the meoldy part again...
then ms chan was like suddenly forget howto conduct us...
HAHAHHAA....super funny...
then everyone will end up laughing...lol...
hhaha...
and...ms christine teo is a new band teacher o.0
and next year the BIG WALK 2 JAN involve only sec3 and sec4...and 2 jan is like a SATURDAY...
lol...
and the school anniversary also...only involve sec3 to year5(current levels)
which means haha...i will be involved o.0
lol...

and mr chng gave loads of maths hw today that im going to do in school tmr...lol...
it's really a lot-.-
haha...and i should be doing not blogging><
haha...
so...that's all~ haha...
thanks everybody for the birthday wishes!!(:



hmm...today is 19102009
haha...and it's well...
my day....
haha...
and also ms chan's birthday(:
happy birthday n=ms chan!!(:
today's weather was great too...
very sunny and sky was so blue but it was very very hot...
haha....
anyway...
hmm...a lot of people wished me happy birthday and i feel very happy...lol...
it's like...a lot of people know you and so on...
haha...no wonder all those 偶像 can always be very happy on their birthdays o.0
they have like so many fans wishing them happy birthday...
got to know many people this year...haha....
anyway....
want to thank everyone who wished me happy birthday o.0
i was thinking whether i should put down all the names...but nobody will see right...lol...
lol...and i decided not to put it up...but anyway...
thankyou everybody!!
haha...

another year has passed...and i feel old-.-
and i still want to grow taller....lol...
another year....to keep as memories(:
haha...
oh and i got a chocolate  cake...went out to buy it and ended up sweating like crazy o.0
haha....i shall put a picture of the cake up soon o.0
haha...
bye~
see everyone tmr(:
haha...

happy birthday to me!!(: lol...
(in the process of zi-highing o.0)



it's saturday...
and i finished watching 1 litre of tears...
and it's really very sad and very touching....
it makes me appreciate being able to move...
we take our mobility for granted...it is something we do every day...
be it walking, running or even talking...
we do it every day,
not taking to mind that some people can't even walk...
the heartless glances some people show the disabled...
it's not like they like it but they still must face it...
they still can get hurt...although they may appear ok....
"If I were a flower, then now I’d be a bud. I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets." and I really don’t want to say things such as "I want to go back to how things were before." I recognized how I am right now; and I will continue to live on." - Aya Kitô
 http://www.symphonyoflove.net/blog/95/1-liter-of-tears.html
i think this is a review of some sort....
it is really inspiring...
like....really appreciate yourself now...and live life to the fullest...
lol...
haha....
and study...lol...
that's all
i think i might watch it again...
when i have the time...
haha...
to motivate myself o.0











shouldn't be posting...but...
now i know why...
some ppl want to study music...
when you're pissed or whatever, music can change your mood...
it can make you feel sad, happy etc...
it's like listening to music...
is a way to get rid of all the wordly feelings...
playing music, listening to music...it's like being in your own world...
the music just flows...

decided to go back to pei hwa after all....wasn't exactly planning to go back..but since i was early...why not...
went popular first...since it's like opposite each other...then passed by this gift shop so shu bian go buy present and go back lor...
then...i picked my brother...
and i srsly dunoe what the school is trying to do...
the teachers are ok with us going to the staff room but they insist in keeping us in the canteen...
and wait for the teachers to come down...
and it took ages for them to come down..
then i was practically chased home by my mother...
she keep calling me-.-
just bcos my brother was there...
then i was like so pissed then just leave lor...
but luckily o.0
just b4 i left i met my p6 form teacher leh(:
haha...
and my mother was wondering why i so black-face...
is like...NOT MY FAULT OK...
they only allowed us to go in at 12.50 when their school programme end at 12.30 -.-
and i asked my brother if he minded waiting for a while...
and he was OK with that...
and my mother wasn't -.-
just don't understand it sometimes...
somehow i think it's the people that you love most can make you the most pissed, the most sad/hurt....etc....
...............................
and then she started explaining that if i wanted to visit teachers then i should say earlier then dun pick my brother...
but it's like this is one of those rare times i actually get released earlier than him and pick him on the way home so...why not what...i save somebody a trip...
made me quite bad mood for the rest of the day
i sound like im some aunty complaining-.-
so...i shall not continue...
haha...and i shall listen to MUSIC(:
haha...
happy studying everyone o.0
tmr no school...



"When it comes to getting things done, multitasking is a bane not a blessing, according to Stanford University researchers."
o.0...
haha...thanks to some recent discussion about whether technology is a bane or a boon...i know what a bane means(:
haha...
there's half day tmr...
and i haven't finish chem prac 17...
need to pass up tmr..
and i left the suibi-.-
i think my dad is flying back this wednesday...
o.0...
i think im addicted to joe hisaishi's summer o.0
haha...i keep playing it over and over again o.0
lol...his piano is so nice><
but amazingly he learned violin first...
never heard that he played violin o.0
so cool!!
i want to go out tmr):
but i no money to go...
and anyway need to study...
i decided to become a very very good kid(:
haha...i even made a list of what  i have to study...
like worksheets, notes etc.
o.0
and i just realised that we have A LOT A LOT to study...
thank God i dun have to take scs paper for eoys><
haha...
i think we're going to get our progress report soon right...
so not looking forward to it...
this year's really gone very fast..
faster than the past 2 years...
it's like...not long ago...we changed class and dunoe anyone...
and now...it's like...haha...lol...
not say very united lar...
but okok class...
hmm....
yea...many things happened this year...
haha...
"They couldn't help thinking about the task they weren't doing," Ophir said of multitaskers. "They can't keep things separate in their minds."
Testing also showed that multitaskers weren't superior when it came to remembering or organizing information in their minds. Researchers showed students letters and asked them to remember repeated appearances.
"The low multitaskers did great," Ophir said. "The high multitaskers were doing worse and worse the further they went along because they kept seeing more letters and had difficulty keeping them sorted in their brains."
o.0 some yahoo news...o.0
multi-tasking is BAD?!
but it saves time(:
i think this is like the official last post b4 the eoys...unless something crops up...
haha...
i shall go on hiatus~ haha...
JIAYOUS FOR EOYS EVERYBODY!!



wow...i have to get studying><
was listening to joe hisaishi's piece summer.
wow...his playing is ________
totally stunned...
oriental wind is also quite nice...
and his psirited away song - one summer's night...
haha...
it's really really very nice(:
got our 2nd piece since the sec 4s left...
it feels helpless being a senior...
it's like...we're not improving...
oh...this new piece is called Joe Hisaishi's Works 3 o.0
has 4 songs inside i think
Summer, Oriental Wind, HANA-BI, and some song with japanese name>< dunoe how to read...
and apparently this song has many solos o.0
flutes have like 3 solos...
french horn also have solo...
haha...listened to joe hisaishi playing summer...
wah...i can't believe we have to sound like that><
or rather I have to sound like that...
lol...
why do i feel that we/i will ruin the first part of the piece><
zzz...
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!
to all teachers o.0
haha...although it's early><
haha...ppl...let's go study(:



o.0...today was and is an amazing day o.0
firstly, miriam slept earlier than me today o.0
how amazing is THAT(:
haha...
and secondly...
we got to sight-read some score composed by joe hisaishi...
and it has like the kind of 6 notes in 1 beat kind of rhythm...and
some of the weird rhythm has caused my sense of rhythm to go haywire...
like if i sing rhythm i dun even know what im singing-.-
 zzz...
i shall go sleep now o.0
good night...er...morning everybody...



lol...i have no idea why im blogging...
when i got so much work to finish...
i dun understand...
why....
i dunoe how to do trigo-.-
when it's e-maths...which is supposed to be easier....
and i can do sum of roots and multiplication of roots and that is a-maths...
it's like supposed to be what...
harder?!
can't believe it...
got to write chinese compo in class tmr...
got to finish bio assignment...
mr chng decided to go super fast...until i dun even know what he's doing><
and he gave us 5 pages of homework today?!
lol...
and the best thing yet...
tmr morning i have section run...
zzz...
and we're like sight-reading some song tmr...
i think it's called summer...
haha...by a japanese guy...i dunoe how to spell his err...surname><
haha...



time flies..
this year passed by really quickly...
and i can't believe im gonna be sec 4 next year...
never imagined it to be THAT fast...
all the erm...
craziness...
wow...
this year really passed quickly...
like how the wind blows past...
but never blows back...
memories are to be made and kept...
im still thinking whether i should go back on teacher's day o.0
but i dun think i will...i shall see whether they having half day or not(:
haha...
hmm...
still have maths ws to do...
and maths notes trigo part 3...
and i still dunoe how to do -.-
haha...
it's only a few months time...
when we will step down o.0
that's sad):
the sec 2s will be sec 3s and the sec 1s will be sec 2s and the sec 3s will be sec 4s...
o.0...
which reminds me...
i must collect section fund...
next week...
$5 each...
and i am feeling hopelessly BROKE now-.-
lol...









I am wondering why so many people changed to livejournal-.-
lol...and i can't figure out the problem with the archiving thing...
err...anybody know how to do?
i din have to do it last time
and now i dunoe why it doesn't work-.-
my mother keeps saying that need to go study...
zzz...sec 1s are officially in main band now...
and ms chan decided to play pomp and circumstance
finally we get to actually play something proper...
like pecori night and the version of the Gong qi jun...
those are like warm-ups...and yet...
we cant play the, properly without mistake...
was searching through my old scores...
found the old gong qi jun
the other version...the harder one...
if we played that now our band will crash...
honestly...
sometimes i just can't stand it...
someone keeps thinking she's damn pro...and is like...comeone...you're no better than all of us...
among the the rest your age yes, you may be good BUT other people will catch up...
you will never be the best in the future with this kind of attitude...
you'll just make people dun like you...
i think i sound mean...
do i?
finally managed to settle the tagboard and fixed the broken links o.0
changing blogskin makes ppl busy o.0
tmr is jiro's birthday(:
haha...
hmmm...i dunoe what to write now...
LOL...
5 weeks to eoys!!
better go study><
trigo is horrible/weird-.-



hmm...changed blogskin...and there's something wrong with the archiving system...
and.. need to change my tagboard o.0
not totally fixed yet...need to get used to using html again...
after not touching it for like SO LONG
haha...
5 more weeks to EOYS
zzz
haha...will ifx up more of my blog...erm...later on...
but anyway...
WHO EVEN COMES HERE-.-
lol....



hmmm...i just realised how near the exams are><
they are like only 6 weeks away, including this week...
so...better start studying><
haha...this term is really wah...so fast-.-
-not good-
hmm...GOOD LUCK MIRIAM FOR YOUR PIANO EXAM(:
wah...you play the scales so fast...
and i think i play my scales half the speed of yours-.-
lol...
tmr there's band...
another practice, another day
wonder what's new...
nothing in fact...
help the sec 1s fit in,
settle our basics(which are obviously not there)
finally can hear how horrible we sound without the sec 4s and do SOMETHING...
bcos...we aren't what we used to be...
we're worse....much much worse...
there's a long way ahead...
and our standard is dropping like i dunoe what...
zzz...
haha...



feeling so confused lately...
why is it that in shows the ppl have open places where they can just scream out loud...
like release whatever they're feeling then...and
we don't...singapore is really.....too small -.-
everywhere you go there's concrete...
singapore is really a city...like concrete everywhere...

i really dunoe what to do now...
ppl i want to discuss with...all not online...
telling my parents wun help....like....they wun understand...
it's not that kind of "i-did-something-unforgivable" thing...but...
i just dunoe how to explain it...
im like standing at the crossroads...and can't make a decision...
and the roads dun meet...
in fact...they go further....and further away...
im not sure how to make this decision...
i dun even know...
if im even making the right decision...
it;s so hard...to make this decision...
what does God want me to do...
what does He want us to do...
i dunuoe...
i really don't...
feel so helpless that i can't even make a decision for myself...
feel so useless...
i can't even decide what colour clothes i want to buy...
no wonder i can't make a decision...
no wonder james was saying women are not decisive...
apparently the erm...reservice ppl were sharing...
women dun even know what they want...how can men know what THEY want...
true...if you look at it at a certain angle...
WHYWHYWHY are decisions so hard to make...
i really dunoe what to do...
i dunoe what i want...
so many ppl have their own ambitions...
i dun even know what i want to be...
since young...i never had any ambition...
and when those weird self-introduction things included MY AMBITION
i would just fake something....bcos i really dunoe what i want to be...
i dun even know what i want...
simple decisions i can't make...
others?
no need to say more...
must really start to think through what i want...
those ppl who know...dun tell anybody ok...thanks(:
listening to chu1 kou3...
how come i can't find my chu1 kou3
decisions...
are really hard to make...
im not sure if i will make the right choice....



haha(: it's national day
and i just realised how great it is to have national day on a sunday(:
bcos we get a super long weekend(:
haha...
shall reply tags...
zoenin - eh...i heard they selling hse o.0i hope they shift out soon o.0
evan - lol...mayb she did-.-

haha...
we shall thank someone for giving us PUBLIC criticism
lol...
we'll SHOW her..
that we can be BETTER
and make her TAKE BACK her words...
lol...
jiayou RVCB(:



shall post afte after such a long time(:
today had chem prac....and ICAS maths
and ndp rehearsal...
i forgot to bring calculator):
and i think i lost it...zzz...i can't find it...
not good news

apprently my neighbours never got taught manners...
how SAD
like you know my house need to tap card then can go in....and apparently...my neighbour's name is sarah...dunoe how to spell...but HEY it still sounds like that...
well....she was picking her younger sister...and they were like doing the skateboarding thing....and boviously both of them are like younger than me...
then i opened the door bcos i need to get home and apparently they din bring the card...
although i only saw the older sister first...
then apparently their parents din teach them to say THANK YOU
wow...i sound like im insulting their parents but HEY....their children reflect them?! lol...like we have had another encounter with their mother-.- and apparently they behave similarly...
and this is not the first time i opened the door for both sisters...and both times they din say thankyou...
wow....maybe im petty but don't they even know their manners?! i think the older sister is like sec school alr lar...-.-
then when we got into the lift...i din press their floor number...
i pressed my own...
and the older sister pressed it and started staring at me like a got something written on my face...like PLEASE STARE AT ME...lol
my face is super clean lar please....
stare what stare...
somemore she's not until my shoulder lar....still stare
stare what...i have NOTHING written on my face lar...
make me bad mood when i got home...
lioke what is this lar...no manners totally...
staring is like WRONG....lioke did anybody ever tell her that?!
the nxt time i see them i shall walk the other way and totally ignore them...
not WORTH my attention...
like seriously...
being young is NOT an excuse...
as long as you go to school you will know how to say THANKYOU
but apparently THEY don't
hmm....what have their parents been doing-.- or rather what have THEY been doing...
like so what if i dunoe them...it's like basic courtesy...
BASIC BASIC BASIC
like the basics of basics...
i have no idea why im getting so pissed just talking about them...they are like a waste of MY time-.-

and ndp rehearsal was weird...
we supposed to stand in a semicircle and ended in something like a U-shape...
LOL...
and apparently we were not loud enough?
haha...



life's short...
like really short...
you never know when you'll die...like you may be alive and kicking...and the next day you're dead
CHOICHOICHOI touch wood ok
i mean look at michael jackson...
he was like having REHEARSALS....and everyone knows what a great dancer he is...
short while later? he's dead...
some ppl think ther life's a drama...
i think there are other ppl...who's life is more drama thaan you could ever imagine...
at least i know of someone who'e life is SUPER drama...
although i dun even know her name...but let's just say...
our life is not a drama compared to the lives of others

OH...and miriam asks me to post on my blog that she grew taller and she is about to jump over the moon...and i commented that we can count down and when she jumps over the moon i can like video her-.-
LOL...anybody want to watch also? can contact miriam and we'll arrange a wonderful time to watch her jump over the moon...like a movie you know(:
haha

folding cranes...1000...as sands of time slowly runs out?
as time ticks by...



hais...all i can say is
thanks H1N1 -.-
bcos of you we can't have concert and dun have speech day-.-
then we had to stay back for the AYG opening when there's only sec 1's again bcos of H1N1
then we were like ignored?!
until the whole thing ended and mrs yiow actually thanked us and said we did a wonderful performance or something like that
and the sky was amazingly full of rain clouds
and it actually din rain and there was NO lightning risk alert
so in the end we did it in at the field
then the person taking photos took a picture of me when we were playing
no lar...it wasn't only me
then they were passing the erm...torch
and it was quite pretty..as in the fire very pretty
haha...
then just now watch on tv then have 3 torch-bearers go light the cauldron at singapore indoor stadium i think...live...
hmmm...looks a bit like a mix of national day and olympics-.-
all the sec sch ppl...
i think...justr watched the last part...
then my mother say YOU WANT TO WATCH THIS WU LIAO THING ARH
then i was like never say anything...
then off the tv...anyway i din even know what they doing
oh...back to the AYG in school...
well...was supposed to play olympic spirit...memorise until so can3 then end up not playing that song-.-
played promotion march instead...haha...



school reopens tmr...
haha...
got to keep this short...my chem tuition teacher coming soon
like erm...supposed to come in 20 minutes
LOL...
hm...still need to do a bit of last minute homework...
and need to look through alympic spirit again
dun wanna screw up tmr-.-
not a very good thing
hm...
i dunoe what to say-.-



hmm...
let's just say...
i prefer smrt buses
like i dun have good impressions of sbs buses...
no offence and im not anti-sbs but...
their bus drivers are like ______
it's like...hmmm...
one time...my wallet dropped into the lift hole...
then need to wait for the maintenance guy to come and get it out...which was i think a few weeks later...
then...one fine day...
joanne had to go hwachong for some prize giving ceremony thing...then my house near there then take taxi with her lar...
she dun wan go herself also mah...
then i took a sbs bus....
then obviously i dun have my ez-link card -.-
then i put in 55cents
then the uncle was like scolding me...-.-
WHERE IS Your BUS CARD? HUH? THIS ONE FOR CHILD'S RIDE!
i was like thinking HEY smrt bus uncle also never say anything you scold me for what.
and my wallet is at the bottom of the lift -.-
like what do you want me to do?
i can't do anything!!
then he just waved me on the bus-.-
and today...need to go school for AYG rehearsal...in the morning
then i took 51...change bus..
and everybody knows 51 is a sbs bus -.-
and so i stand at the door lar...like im not even blocking anybody...
and when anybody wants to get off i give way like give A LOT of way to them in fact
NONE of them complain
then the bus driver at just one bus stop b4 school the bus stop...
ask me to go over
then i was like thinking...he need what help
then he was like
ARE YOU GETTING OFF THE BUS? IF NOT WHY ARE YOU STANDING AT THE DOOR?
i believe the first incident is not exactly my fault...but nobody else say anything then he must scold me-.-
then the second incident was i dunoe...mayb i am wrong...but i wasn't blocking anyone in any way-.-
so i dunoe whether im wrong or what
and there was another incident but i dun wan to say...bcos i think that was my fault...
something small...
but apparently i think the other sbs-es bus i take that doesn't have this weird problems is 166 and 170
yay(:
i think I shall try to Not take other sbs buuses b4 i get scolded...yet again for doing something "wrong"
hmm....someone tell me....
for the incident today...
was i right?! or wrong?!

today...was the AYG rehearsal...and to be honest...i plsy then keep getting lost/mixed up -.-
must go memorise properly...
anyway...we played horribly...like everyone could hear that....
soooooooo...hais...
monday school reopens alr...
why are the holidays over...
that fast -.-
but i managed to finish the zuo he de chao ji ah ma
haha...and i never managed to finish other books b4(:
i think a lot of ppl going to chiong homework alr...
haha...jiayoujiayou~



had PT today and ms chan din come
and now my face is red/pink -.- although is not sunburn
bcos we had PT under the hothot sun from about 9 to 11.30
the time usually not so hot but looking at the weather today
it was like oven liddat
and the sun so bright
had combine drills with sec 1s today....and all i can say is good try after 2 times of PT
like....a lot if expected from them after so few sessions of PT
and i think im gonna be sick soon -.-
not a good sign
my throat is pain -.-
must be the CIP we did ystd
then never bring enough water
then today PT under the very hot and bright sun
and we learnt a new command...some u-turn thing
then it was very messy
tmr they're gonna do the yearly erm...."ritual" so called of welcoming the sec 1s....but im not going -.-
shall not reveal the "ritual" until it's OVER like in a few hours time
haha
hmmm...
i realise i have done like veryvery little homework...and half the hols are GONE alr
like i still haven't read san guo yan yi -.- like i read 4 chapters -.-
goto start catching up...
wah....dunoe why today so tired -.-
have maths tuition from 7-9 then i was like thinking how come i feel so tired
tmr they have to assemble by 8.15...like HEY that is so early





111th post...
nice number(:
anw...i am srsly wondering how i managed to memorise other scores so easily -.-
bcos im having a hard time memorising the olympic spirit ><
like memorise very long and still can't get it
i spent a lot of time on promotion march also -.- finally remembered....but im still stuck with olympic spirit!!!!!!
howhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhow
going to memorise on the bus tmr alr lar...zzz...
today had CIP
and it wasn't fun
and the water at east coast is like SO EXPENSIVE
and we only had to fill one plastic bag bcos apparently NO MORE ALR
then the plastic bag have manymany holes
and can tie knots at the holes until the capacity of the plastic bag is like reduced by HALF
haha...LOL
need to go memorise olympic spirit
hm....not exactly feeling the olympic spirit....



my parents esp. my mother always thinks i dun study
and they only notice the times that i dun study and dun care about the times that i actually DO study
like last night my mother was saying eh....nxt tuesday cannot go to school arh bcos i dun see you studying -.-
then monday go east coast pick rubbish. then she was like eh. can dun go a not
go pick rubbish can, go study cannot -.-
like who in the world said i din study?!
and apparently now...my whole life revolves around maths?!
like maths and maths and maths
woooooooooo~
just bcos they saw me using the com they say
eh...how come i always see you in front of the computer?
they obviously only see the time im NOT studying like let's say taking a break and come say i din study -.-
then when im studying what are they doing? some other stuff and dun care what im doing -.-
i somehow always do things the wrong way -.-

anw...got to memorise 3 scores -.-
the olympic spirit, honor band, and promotion march
alamak...all by tuesday
and guess what
we have to march and play at the same time for the AYG
olympic spirit is hard enough to play/memorise when sitting down...
marching will be definitely no air
and there is like a clarinet SOLI
if im not wrong -.-
and it's all SLURRED
so it's supposed to sound joined tgt....but when you're marching of course very chuan
win ler...
then ms chan was saying we make it this way
if one person in the section never memorise, that section die
if one section never memorise, the while band die
-.-
then sebby was reiterating this on friday
then we were like YES SIR
then he was like
ok....i think we're gonna die on tuesday -.-
bcos we're supposed to memorise by tuesday
and we're gonna do that for drills...
so drills with instruments while playing the 3 pieces...
haha...and we're supposed to see if we want the syf photos
and they cost _______
unbelievably high prices!!!
like the largest photo which is i not sure how nig cost like $180?!
HAPPY NEW YEAR?!
going to see the photos online first then see whether want to buy a not (:
cheapest one is like $12

hmm....events looking forward to in band(:
29th june - AYG
11th july - performance as a guest band @ yuhua concert (ANYBODY WANT TO GO?? xp )
18th july - speech day

and nxt year we should be able to get our very own RV CONCERT
haha...(:



praying hard now that i won't be quarantined!!!
like this is horrible....the swine flu thing
my brother has fever for like 4-5 days and finally is going to see a doctor now
and thus i dunoe
he fever so many days then go see doctor
then later he quarantined
then our whole family will be like quarantined also
which is like NOT a joke
if we are i will definitely smack my brother
i need to go to sch tmr!!!
like TOMORROW
although the quarantine is like only 2 days if im not wrong
still means that i can't go out of the house -.-
and im stuck at home doing WORK
like TWO WHOLE DAYS OF STUDYING
will die one leh ><
which means i can't go sch, can't go church etc. etc.
please God dun let us be quarantined):
Amen~



it think my brother is the most irritating person on earth when it comes to being sick
you will just want to whack his head...like seriously
he will either act damn sick and complain and complain non-stop
or he will make a lot of super high pitched voices and make the WHOLE house so noisy
and he's like doing that now
and when i was sleeping he stole my handphone charger
and now i can't on my phone bcos there's not batt and i dun have the charger
how irritating can he get?!
then he starts sms-ing me all kinds of stupid stuff
like "you look like a pig" etc.
and obviously as a sister im not so STUPID as to even reply them -.-
like who cares about his stupid sms-es
i dun even noe what's his prob
so act for what
suck up
my mother at home he's like mouse liddat
dun even say anything
then watch the usual KOREAN DRAMAS on the com with her
then he starts whining about WHY I CANNOT PLAY COMPUTER
and then my mother will make him do work
then he will complain WHY GOT NO REST ONE and throw his tantrum
ahem....excuse me....you have been slacking/resting for HOW MANY DAYS ALR HUH
and so now...just to inform everybody
I CAN'T SMS UNTIL I FIND WHERE MY BROTHER HIDE MY HANDPHONE CHARGER
it's all HIS fault.
can't stand it
anybody has a brother like mine? i know how you feel -.-



hmmm...im doing maths homework -.-
when no one i asked has doen it yet -.-
was just randomly thinking about primary sch...
the horrible p6 days when i had to be a loner -.-
when i was sec 1 i went back i think during chinese new year....
then i was like hello to this person and that person -.-
acting like their good friend...
haha....can imagine their reaction....
they must be thinking what the heck does this person think she's doing
haha...
in fact i think a lot of ppl hated me....
thanks to er hmmmm short form? SA
dun need to disclose names bcos anyway no one who knows me knows her
ok....mayb except the pei hwa ppl....
hais....there are like so many types of ppl out there....
the hypocrites, backstabbers etc...
name them and they're there
well....all i can say is, it's over...
nothing much to talk about
at least i did better than the oh-im-so-popular SA
hahaha...hais....mayb im suan-ing her but...
given another chance, i so do NOT want to talk to her
she's one of the worst ppl i ever knew...and i shall keep it in the erm....garbage part of my memory
LOL
hahaha...
anyway
i can go band
like i CAN GOOOOOOO
woohooooo....no one will see someone as happy as me when they say they can go holiday cca practices
haha....
too bad lor...bcos i always have a problem on even going to normal practices sometimes -.-
i shall not continue jabbering and get on with maths(:
I MUSTMUSTMUST finish june holidays hw this time.
i think i accomplished a lot compared the past few years -.-
3 sui bi and the geog ws....plus im doing maths nowwwwww
hahahha....
ok....i shall doo hw now(:
PS. happy climbing over the mt everest of hw everbodyyyy(:
ok...so i can't say it really is a lot compared to the past few times...



this is like going to be the last post....
of erm....i dunoe how long...
very very very long
bcos my results are obviously horrible and my current gpa for only midyears
is like i just scraped passed
soo....
and im like supposed to get a gpa 3....
only some ppl know about this gpa 3
but anyway
that 3 really means a lot to me
and i can't even get it when ppl around me are getting it so easily
like a 3. something is like not high enough for them...
and im just simply aiming for a 3
that i can't even get
they make it look so simple
and wun be using the computer for a very long time
bcos my mother's going to keep the laptop during the holidays and i'll be at home erm...
doing maths
i dun even know if i can make it to cca this friday
holiday practices?
i think i duneed to go
with the results i got
my mother will NOT let me go...
and there goes the last chance to perform with seniors b4 they leave band and we officially take over....
oh well....
wish me good luck tmr
it'll probably be one of the most horrible days in my life...
i wish everything could be fine...



MINOTAUR
haha(:
we won cross country againnnnn(:
but they recycle the trophy every year
and although we won lke last year and this year
they didn't inscribe it -.-
so sad...
there's like only unicorn's name there
and there was like not enough water and we can't go to our bags to take water
-.-
and they expect us to cheer when we need WATER
haha
then b4 the race started we were making the weird sound...according to miriam is like someone hyperventilating?!
hahahahahahaha....
today the weather was much better than last year...
in terms of the heat
the sky was like cloudy so no sun
then not hot(:
which is very goooooood
gna have new piece on friday=sight reading again
lol...



my gpa is really in the longang now...
probably on it's way to the erm...sewagesystem to be flushed into the sea...where it wwill sink at i dunoe where
far far away
tmr there's cca and we'll be sight-reading a few pieces...
and i can gurantee that my sight-reading is 101% horrible...
but it's easier than piano bcos for piano it's like for both left and right hand and need to play tgt...
so...
see how...
the midyears have totally killed me...
after alll
WE CAN ONLY DIE ONCE IN A LIFETIME
unless you can die twice?
dun tell me...
it's a bit...erm...
scary?
being a baby is great i realise
they just cry and eat and sleep
-.-
if only life were that simple --- 101% impossible
welll...let's just say life is compmlicated...and it's getting more horrible by the term...
i was saying if the mathematicians didn't exist then we wouldn't be lke studying maths....
and if all those weird events didn't happen in the past...
we wouldn't have to study it...
of course the technology has improved...
and everyone is getting smarter...
but how come i feel im getting no smarter but getting more stupid -.-
whywhywhywhywhywhywhy
i have no idea at all how to tell my mother my results....
although i told some---the good ones of course
and the rest are...
horrible
my mother was like scolding my brother for maths that he did very lousy...
i dun dare tell her man
she will kill me
like i got muchmuch lower...
and he gets killed alr...
then i will definitely get killed...
howhowhowhowhow...
my mother was saying
why i haven't get back papers yet...then she was like YOU SURE A NOT
bcos my brother got his papers back alr...
and his exam was like later than mine....
i will tell her nxt week...
i promise myself
annd i'll prob not blog for a super super long time after i tell her my results...
it's a crazy competitive world out there
i hate it
you study like crazy, work like crazy and retire and no one will care about you anymore
what's this?!
it's a crazy...crazy world out there...

I hate it when people come to visit...
they will tour the house like it's very fun-.-
and then we have to spend the whole day cleaning up the house so that it's presentable?
just don't show your guests the rooms!! you can say it's private and there's nothing wrong with that.
have some people coming over tonight but they are very....
ohwell...the kids are kind of...not sociable...
lol if you meet them you might be ?!!! I didn't even do anything...
argh...overall, not looking forward to tonight.
another chem sac this coming friday...why can't the world just stop for one day and everyone can play and be happy...
if technology didn't advance then we would all still be cavemen?!!
the world out there is so competitive, the society is just a race to the top of the ladder...
why has mankind become so greedy?
greedy for money, for power etc. of course there are people in the world who aren't like that...
but I believe everyone wants to succeed whether they try or  not...

it is a hot day today...stepping out in the sun will probably give you heatstroke.
water plants!!~ grapevine in my backyard refuses to grow...even though I flood it's pot at least once every day unless it's raining...
before I left for singapore, the whole vine was covered in leaves and then now when I came back the vine was pratically dead-.- all the leaves drying up and dropping off etc. looks like we have to wait till next year...

school's starting again): the day after tomorrow
not looking forward at all-.-
lol...I think I'm becoming a pig, sleeping almost 10 hours every night!! ;P
thursday, go to to school, 3.30 leave school for "camp" go back the next day from there by yourself-.-
and most of the school starts on 4 feb!!! which is like one week later!!
school hasn't even started and I know when's my next test o.0
haven't even got all my textbooks yet...have to get it tomorrow...
another year I say,
and realise it's the last year in high school=I'm old?!!
well, there's no point grabbing at the past
the past will remain the past...but I'm so uncertain about my future><
at the moment I'm just trying to get the highest ATAR score possible...so that I can have a larger variety of courses I can take...but after VCE then what...LOL...
anyway, rdm fact o.0
my eyelid's swollen for no reason o.0 it looks more like it gained weight...and it doesn't hurt or itch so WHAT IS IT!!!!!!!!

do you really not know? are you pretending not to know?
since young I hated that place.
do you know how I felt?
It's not like I like it
I hate spectacles
I hate it
do you not know?
It's not like I ask for a high degree
Do I look like I like it?
I can't stand the way the stupid optometrist stares at me and talks to me as if I don't care about my eyes enough to take care of them
Even if I did take care my degree still increases every time
It's not my fault.
I hate it.
Every time, spending money on new lenses, new frame etc.
you think I want to?
every optician shop makes me shudder
why are there so many in the world?
why is it just ME that has such a high degree?
just because we have to use up the insurance we payed for.
thanks a lot.

have been wanting to post about my trip back in singapore but too lazy...hehe...
in the last 10 minutes of 2011, I should talk about the year.
it has been an eventful year
so will the next and the next
each year more memories are added, so has the memories of this year
I met many new friends, got to know people from a new church, but still being in contact with singapore friends
maybe I've got the best of both worlds! :P
didn't do as well as I wanted to for VCE but I will do my best next year
anyway,
here's wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!! and set your goals!!

since it's going to be the last night I'll be online at this kind of hour(12.15am) in singapore, I think I should blog
went to miriam's house today
sat downstairs and talked and took pictures
now gina has a lot of unglam pictures-.-
too bad michelle couldn't come today because of sore throat
yesterday we went to bugis to uh...take neoprints
lol...in conclusion, we wasted $12 altogether
ate pepper lunch fr lunch again yesterday
ate chicken instead
walked to iluma, went to the arcade only to realise that you need the card to play
and obviously we didn't have any so ended up walking around city hall
although it was kind of boring but somehow it was fun
I actually enjoyed it
slippers gave me blisters again today
I think I should get another pair...even after pasting so many plasters on my slippers and on my foot,
I still get blisters-.-
went to take passport photos this morning
didn't take too long to find the place(:
then I went to my grandma's house, ate lunch then went to jurong point
and finally, I found fahrenheit's album. Finally found it after looking through quite a few popular stores.
then went to miriam's house(:
spent abot an hour just eating the pacifier lollipop thing HAHA
not going out tomorrow until about 3
until then~

decided to write my gan xiang about band now since there's no band next week=I won't see them anymore
and also the erm...review of my bad haircut that I wasted $14 on-.-
let's talk about the waste of money first. I paid $14 and now my fringe is too short and my ponytail is fat and short(no shape at all) all I can say is I can't wait for my hair to grow out again

anyway, regarding band, I want to first thank the hostel gate uncle for letting me in(not like the one at the front gate-.-) although yesterday you told me no visitors can go in by hostel gate(or any other gate) without a teacher's permission, thanks for letting me in. It meant a lot to me. But, what if I told you the next time you see me is many years later? What if I told you my juniors/seniors/batchmates might not see me until maybe a few years later?
anyway, enough about that. Shall talk about senior band first. Listening to a full band(although not with many people) again feels really good. A totally different soud from a band comprising of mostly flutes and with the lowest instrument being the trombone. For once I actually heard an in tune note from a whole band. this has actually never occurred in my life in junior band. Ms Chan hopes that senior band will perform well for syf, either maintaining a silver or even getting a gold. Listening the pieces senior band is not too bad. Although I won't be able to experience the bonding of the whole band for the same purpose again, I wish senior band all the best and I hope you will really perform well. I also wish I could play with klarinutz once again but I guess that's just not possible. Tried playing Jiayi's instrument and realised my air is super weak now. Maybe it's because I haven't practised at all since the last band practice.
now,junior band. Until now, tuning is still terrible, high notes still killing chickens(sha ji), crescendo still forcing. Did we pass all these mistakes on to our juniors? Tuning has always been a big problem, so has high notes. How to make you all understand that crescendo does not mean jut forcing more air to make your volume louder? It doesn't in fact. Can you even tell you are going FLAT when you crescendo? I almost fainted on Tuesday when I heard the band crescendo during warm-up. Excuse me, that is not called crescendo but that's called from normal air to forced air. Juniors high C still flat, that one no choice but to train air. Quite understandable why ms chan will scold junior band. She's much nicer in senior band you know? maybe it's because the junior band has so many people so it's harder to control? But honestly I also like senior band's soud more than junior band. More people may mean more volume but more people have to be kept in line like for running notes etc. And how come you all come in the same note same time also can cue differently one arh? Anyway, you all must jiayou ok!! I know it's not easy to get back that gold but try your best and have no regrets once you get off that stage. I just hope no one will step off that stage feeling regretful over what you did on that stage. Remember, one chance and it's over.

went to band today
finally got into school
attended mdm so kah lay's farewell ceremony
no tears were shed, good thing principal didn't see me in my section tee and shorts
stayed for junior band but I believe I wasted my time
spent more than an hour just on warmup and tuning
and they already tuned before assembling-.-
in the end left when they almost finished tuning and warming up
left for lunch with my batch ppl!!(:
but so many people weren't here today
band is diferent
I don't know so many people, so many people don't know me
senior band is really relaxed compared to junior band
now I can fully understand why teaching junior band is so hard
firstly, there are so many people, so many sections
secondly, people don't listen to each other, high notes also just blast, crescendo also force until so flat
thirdly, whatever you say just goes in and comes out
sure some people try to apply whatever they learn but there are some just don't do anything
tuning also don't listen whether in tune or not, so many waves
As a person playing clarinet, I know how hard it is to be in tune all the time but at least TRY to listen to maybe the person beside you?
and junior arh...how come the note is come in the same time but cue different time one leh? if you cue different time then isn't it equating to not playing together, needless to say come in together?
honestly, I'm kind of disappointed
I was hoping something might change but nothing has changed for the better so far, well in the tuning aspect that is
tuning out how to talk about playing pieces?
by putting how many days to syf on the board does it motivate the band to work harder? or will it just serve as a count down for a day of disappointment that you will remember for a very long time
most people will only experience syf once in sec school
very few will go twice
those who go twice know what it's like, lead the rest
I hope the result won't be disappointing as it was last year
see you guys on thursday then...
would be good if you guys had a short sectionals because there are some things I hope to say, but don't actually know how to say it.

I believe my holiday is ruined
can't even enter rv anymore
I thought I could always call that place mine but I guess I thought wrong
I can't even go in, much less surprise anyone or help with any problems
It's so fustrating knowing that there are so many problems and NONE are getting solved
and I can't even go in to see them
you want me to watch from outside the gate?!!
I spent so long finding the school, finding the school's main entrance only to be told I can't go in
come on, I will most like see them for about 2 weeks once a year,
is that fair to me?
I understand it's the rule but do I look like I will cause chaos in the school?
I just want to visit the people I haven't seen in a whole year,
is that so difficult? I have things to give them can I just see them to at least personally give it to them?
no obviously I can't.
I just thought I could help a little bit, but now I can't
I don't want to get caught, I don't want anybody who helps me to be in trouble
this is really fustrating

finally took the uh...long-anticipated pictures of my new house(:

My house from outside

the garage on the right

small wooden balcony outside

cherry blossom tree outside my house

My front door(look at the handle!!)

hallway

on the left of the hallway is the piano/computer room

go a little further and it's my room(bookshelf opp. bed,cupboard on the left of bed, study table opp. my very messy dressing table)

hallway continued

David's room after the hallway turn(we painted his whole room including ceiling!!!)

then there is the toilet after David's room(redid this toilet)

another toilet, in another turn in the hallway

laundry/pantry opposite the toilet above

pantry

and opposite the turn, is the kitchen(: and further down is my dining table)

living room on the right of the front door(opposite the piano/computer room)

backyard(see the grape vine?) good weather so we washed a lot of clothes(:

shed at the back of the house(our temporary storeroom)

lemon tree

apricot tree

that's all(:

THE YEAR IN REVIEW
today marks one year from the first day I had in Australia, 1 December 2009
once again, thanks to everyone who took the time to see me off the airport, it meant a lot to me
this day marks a new chapter in my life, the big move - to Australia
and last Saturday I moved to my permanent home
sure, everything has changed.
Lifestyle, school, friends etc.
of course I miss things in Singapore
but I've learnt to move on
we aren't separated for life and we can always email/webcam/call
still remember the reasons holding me back from moving,
firstly, leaving all me close friends behind
secondly, clarinets. As a senior, you can't stop worrying about your section, especially when each batch is getting worse and worse and you have no idea what's the problem
thirdly, pkc. After serving there for 3 years, I kind of miss that place.
but, ohwell, there are many new things to look forward to in Australia

so many things have changed in Singapore too
the new school compound, new teachers(especially new principal), moving on to year4
I actually feel really old talking about being year 4 but I'm now in year 5?!! haha
doing VCE next year, have no idea about my degree of preparedness
don't even ask me what I want to do when I grow up or what course I want to do in uni
I'm just going to study hard, do my best and see what my score can get me into
likewise, you people study hard too ok!! and practise hard(klarinutters) and don't get kicked out of the school!!

most importantly, I want to thank my friends for being there through everything and  may our friendship will last the test of time.

“时间是一道不能反转的门”，
一旦过去了，就永不回头。
再多的想念也没用，
还是继续为自己的未来努力吧！

was watching a video on fb of kids singing 'in whom I can trust' in phpps hall
it has been a long time since I saw the hall...
don't even remember much of the hall...just rmb the important areas of the schcool...
1st level, canteen
2nd level, staff room
3rd level, library
4th level, hall
and the rest are classrooms...still remember complaining about having to climb up 14 flights of stairs at least twice every day bcos as the oldest we get the highest classrooms BUT we don't need to share lockers with other levels...and the puny-sized field that got transformed into a small little triangle you can hardly call a field(it used to be bigger in the old building) spent 2 years in each school compound, the oldest, holding school and the new one...quite even-ed out..I sort of miss out
David in contrast doesn't miss a single part of peihwa-.- he claims he can't even remember the school song when I still can remember it...

urgh-.- have to go now...wil continue the post another day

no school todayyy~
tomorrow is melbourne cup = horse racing = public holiday
going to pon house swimming on friday so technically I only have 2 days of school this week!!(: haha...

posted a video of me playing yu jian on facebook not long ago...
that song means a lot to me I guess...it's hard to put it in words...
only my batch knows it...and plays it err...occasionally(:
klarinutz arh...how are you guys doing now huh!! are you ppl improving in the right direction or the wrong direction!! so true that every batch is worse than the last...rvcb used to be a good band and we...kinda ruined it-.- ohwell...我无话可说

Also, this is kinda late but...
thanks to the people who wished me happy birthday and the manymany people who err...forgot since I deactivated my facebook then for bio exam...lol...IM THE PERSON WITH THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS MS CHAN *waves hand* felt like a really normal day, even more normal than other days...will uh...post a picture of the cake a later time since the picture's not in this computer...felt quite old after my birthday o.0

this shall be the last post before bio exam(friday)
I  THINK I'm prepared...not very sure....need to memorise all the definitions for the different terms...read through...err...evolution again? I think that's all actually o.0 then back to doing practice papers...
saw on yahoo singapore that haze is very bad!!

anyway, today's perforance was ok...and there was actually extra bio revision lessons after school so i sat there for 20minutes hopped off to my performance, hopped back in 30 minutes...the performance was.......
screwed the introduction of the last piece...but the rest was...kinda ok...not as good as the rehearsals

have an ugly sock tan): it's mayb 7cm above my ankle?!!! it's not very obvious but can sort of see a line there>< i used to have a sock tan like BELOW MY ANKLE and now it's way higher, a random place above my ankle-.-

dinner now...study later(: blog NEXT WEEK...lol...

AHHH dead dead dead
first of all, friday bio paper...I have no idea whether I'm prepared or not...did like at least 10 papers already I think...but my short-answer is still very lousy...
secondly, tmr I have a quartet performance AFTER SCHOOL(what in the world was I thinking when i agreed><) AND I need to pick David and WALK HOME WITH HIM FROM THE TRAIN STATION and how am I supposed to do that when the stupid performance starts at 4 and he ends school at 3.30(walk to the station 4.00?!)?!!! and it's not like I can tell my mother that I have performance...she will just bite off my head-.- bcos she needs to go somewhere?!! and now I can't pick David and what am I supposed to do nowwwww><
checked the stupid tram and train times(inefficient transport) I will reach the station like 4.45-.- which is 1 hour later...and obviously David will kill me>< and my mum will kill me too>< AHHHHH....WHY OF ALL DAYS AND TIMES SERIOUSLY?!!! why must we start at 4!!!!!!!>< can't we start once school ends? I believe none of the people need lunch since we get lunch time during school hours...35 minutes break before starting...IT'S NOT NEEDED LUH!!! agreeing to play in that quartet is a stupid mistake in itself
ate up my whole week's lunchtime(every day) and now I even need to stay back for the stupid performance that starts at 4 and practically wastes my whole day after school when my VERY IMPORTANT EXAM is on FRIDAY what the?!! I can't even email the girl by school email because there are SO MANY PEOPLE IN THE SCHOOL WITH THE SAME NAME AND I DON'T KNOW HER SURNAME-.- and it's weird if I just email the teacher DIRECTLY which I bet she won't see until tmr or mayb even later...HOWHOWHOWHOWHOW....somebody help me>< if I tell my mum I go see teacher then she will ask why cannot go another day-.-...AHHHHHHHHHHH....HELPHELPHELP>< I am regretting my decision a whole lot...if only the stupid performance starts EARLIER...shall try asking tmr...because I really can't stay...if they insist then...I'm sorry I really can't stay...

it's 10/10/10 today!!(:
and I should start getting off the computer...
3 more weeks til bio exam...
first week of school was ok...
just that i had to fall sick right on the first day of school until now-.-
performance next week level of readiness? ZERO
lol...the band just sounds nothing like what we're supposed to sound...well, in my view anyway.
everything is everywhere...and so....quite messed up

term break!! 3 weeks of holiday/studying/sleeping
haha...lots to catch up this holiday...
had formal last week...i think a lot of people saw the pictures?
and I guess it's high time I post again haha...since the last post was like in june o.0 long time ago...
last term of the year
it has been really quick...been in Australia for 10 months alr...
2 more months to mark a year..
I actually have nothing to do when I'm bored of homework...
just a lot of studying for biology since I have 2 sacs to do...
and 2 chapters to go through for the holidays...

found the scores for taeyang's wedding dress online...I can play the introduction now haha...and the rest...sounds quite weird at the moment...

what else can I talk about):

hmm...it's spring now!! although it was cold today...all the clouds arh): blow yourself away luh-.-
but it's getting a lot warmer haha...can wear summer dress to school next term already...after 2 terms(half a year) of wearing winter uniform...take at least 10 minutes wearing winter uniform...
because need to wear shirt inside and then the school shirt and school jumper and then for the bottoms, wear stockings and then wear shorts and then wear skirt and last of all blazer...
ah...that's all for today~

the degree of coldness is crazy-.-
currently is uh...11.6 degrees, overnight 7 degrees-.-
locked out of classroom today-.- the whole class
during like class assembly thing and the whole class was like standing outside freezing...
it feels exaggerated-.-
like my shampoo is more solid?!!
and my mother buys coconut milk in cans and the top SOLIDIFIES bcos it's cold-.-
and to top it off i have a runny nose-.-

but anywayyyyyy,
school closes next weeeeeeeeek~
last week of school b4 holidays and only 2 levels are actually having normal lessons while the rest of the school is like away having fun-.-
going skiing on 2 july XD although i dunoe how to ski hehe...
so irritating that singapore hols end when i start...
ohwell...i will make very good use of this holiday to studyy
haha...i always say that but end up otherwise-.-

my batch stepping down on friday o.0
never thought that this day would come so fast...
klarinutz uh...after seniors step down you all must work hard ok!!(:
although i have no idea how you all sound right now...but...definitely after seniors leave the section and band will sound weaker but you all just have to jiayou and play louder luh ok!!(:
can't believe next year is syf again...2 years seems quite fast uh><
last week of band prac o.0 and drills HAHA
does anyone know when the sec 1s are joining junior band as in like main band?

OHYES...i twas the shortest day in Australia ystd, dunoe if anyone knew? dunoe whether it applies in singapore or not? didn't know until somebody told me o.0 can't really tell anyway
the sun sets super early nowadays...like 4++ 5? and in summer at 9pm then the sun sets-.- so much difference...2 more months of winter~ in korean shows when it's like winter then when they speak then have the fog coming out of their mouth right, then over here today at like 10++am still have that fog thing...so cold uh><

anybody watch world cup? o.0 i somehow tend to watch the very late ones and end up sleeping but waking up occasionally to watch o.0 watched the south korea vs Greece one haha SO PRO!!(:but then lost to argentina...lol...ok...this was quite a while ago no idea about recent matches o.0 i just know usa played? haha...
that's uh..all for today?!!

and uh....that's it.

it's a random cloudy day but the clouds aren't dark clouds.
it's the holidays now!!(: haha...lol...
hmm...no motivation to really post something-.-
heard that the promotion criteria was changed o.0
to promote GPA 2.5 and at least B4 for english and chinese o.0
they lowered the gpa o.0
hmm...
whatelsewhatelsewhatelse><
APRIL FOOL'S DAY TMR!!(: not like i'll go prank anyone-.-
whenever i go online hardly anybody is online-.- so i don't use the computer for very long?!! haha...
ohwell...i shall just go reply emails!!(:

super long time before i blogged...lol...
some er...promised pictures i haven't taken yet...lol...
like the one of my house and err...my uniform?!!
haha...

everyone's busy in singapore...
it's chinese new year eve...but it totally feels like a normal weekend...
going to my dad's friend's house for dinner tonight then going some pot luck thing at another person's house...
it's also valentine's day tmr...quite cool haha chinese new year and valentine's day on the same day!!(:

went for band prac on thursday...lol...the intrument i used was...-no comments-
lol...it's plastic and i haven't heard of that brand before...and apparently one of the pads dropped off and i was like squeaking a whole lot...so malu-.- then i had to use a reed size 2...lol...so i was super flat?!! then i decided not to play since i can't play in tune and i keep squeaking lol...
but in the end it sort of got "fixed" then i can play some notes-.- you can actually see the pad MOVING when you press the key to open the hole-.- i was like NO WONDER cannot play properly...lol...found the pieces simple...more of catching up with the speed but yea...but not much of a challenge...like no high notes, no running notes, no weird weird rhythm...oh well...that's so far...but the band is super unbalanced...bcos everyone plays what they want to play...so...no tubas o.0 and a lot of ppl play flutes o.0
about half the band consists of flutes? haha yea...but it's ok...
some ppl may know about this o.0 but my parents said buy a secondhand clarinet for me...my dad says they confirm will not buy a new one for me but then will confirm not buy me a plastic one...can't find any secondhand buffet RC...quite sad...but there is buffet E-11...have to go try to find out...
i think im nuts-.-(as nuts as klariNUTZZ HAHAH) like actually buying a clarinet?!! me?!

heard about all the crazy stuff that's happening in rv...like right now, the crazy gpa year 4s are supposed to get to get promoted and the A2 for o lvl higher chinese...and about extended band hours and more and more practices...all i can say now is JIAYOU!!(: but i can't do much o.0

hmm...what else did i want to say o.0
don't rmb but wish everyone happy chinese new year and valentine's day!!(: haha...

today's date is 01012010
o.0 so many zeros and ones
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!(:

and tmr band members performing for tone poem...
all the best and...dun err...
screw it!!(:

tmr everyone needs to go to school early...
so...finally moving in to the new campus...
and im not there to see it o.0
so...i shall try to go back and see it soon!!(:

that's all~
jiayou for tmr!!(:

it's the last day of 2009...
it's not only the last day of 2009...
it's the last day of this decade...
goodbye to 2009, welcome to 2010 o.0

tmr is the start of a new decade...
the start of a new year...
another day...

the new start of another chapter, with manymany changes...
this century has been said to be the worst century in dunoe how man year's history...
with all the natural disasters and eh...some big stuff like 911...so...
yea...goodbye to the bad endings and hello to a good beginning...
it's not been a very good year from the start i guess...well...
syf starting off etc. etc.
like it wasn't great for band...then for schoolwork it was better than 2008 o.0
but yea...can be better...

hoping to stay up late tonight...
in time to countdown to new year with singapore...haha and taiwan(:
excited and looking forward to the new year...
hope you are too(:

lastly, wishing everyone a
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

how was everyone's christmas?
spent Christmas with a quite messed up house o.0
bcos had to unpack...
finally have clothes o.0

hmm...school is starting soon in singapore...
shipped stuff have arrived...
done a lot of packing...
there's no trace that i've lived in that house for almost 10 years...
furniture all gone...
house already sold...
fading away...
only source of showing i existed in singapore is my friends...
and the emails...
sometimes i wonder...
what will we talk about the next time i see you all...
will it be different?
will i change?
will everyone change?
i guess so...
but there's nothing i can do...

miss someone calling me AUNTYYYYYYYYYYY *hugs*
and miss someone tlkaing about the DBSK and fahrenheit stuff with me *winks*
and miss being part of band
miss my clarinet(evan how's my clarinet o.0)

memories are still there...but fading...in the future...
in the future...not as many memories...
thanks for being my friend, my sister and yea....applies to YOU!(:
hope we can remain that way...for manymany years to come...
i don't regret knowing you all at all
thanks for being there for me & everything...

anyway...wishing everyone a


have decided to blog like...after one week of arriving in what sarah calls the KANGAROO LAND-.-
lol...i find it amusing but no, melbourne doesn't really have kangaroos, mayb in the wildlife reserves or something but other than that, you don't see them...
wanted to post after hearing the news that ms ek is leaving...well...and compared to the newer principal...she's loads better....from what i heard and read at this article o.0
the new principal is the ex-principal of JJC...and after i read the online article i think he's loads worse than llm...

http://www.gamerzplanet.net/forums/spam/162255-jjcs-principle-removes-his-sheep-clothing-the-true-face-of-torment.html

here's the article...and amazingly i still can log in to ivle?!
haha...aiyooooo...still rmb the time all of us talk about her...lol...and getting pissed bcos of what she said and the veryveryvery long talks she gave during assembly at the field...lol...and well...yea...din appreciate luh...to be honest...

after reading that article im thankful i left><
haha...he's scaryyyyyy>< but i shall still go back and visit><
and tie up my hair in case i get caught by him if i go back><
i scared lehhhhhhh!!><
now the whole school knows she's leaving i think o.0
a lot of ppl know she's leaving at least...

there's a lot of changes for 2010...a year of change we could say...o.0
like i mean...change of school campus, change of principal, im not there anymore, change of school uniforms...etc. etc.

haha...well...things come and go...but the most important thing is to look forward...
a new chapter, a new beginning, an end results in a beginning...a beginning with changes etc. etc.

it was raining this morning...was super cold...good thing i din go out><
won't have internet tmr...and for i dunoe how long...so...post first(:
will try to post more photos on fb(:
haha...
bye for now(:

the last band prac...
'the last' suddenly sounds so near...
when i thought it's manymany days away...
but actually...it isn't that long...
reality suddenly sets in...it's 11 days left...
thanks everyone for their well wishes and presents...i really appreciate those little things a lot...
like...the class farewell parties...it was totally something i din expect at all...
although i dun really appear surprised...but i really feel very happy and touched and grateful...
it's been 3 years i have spent in RV and i have gathered another 3 years...of beautiful memories that i will keep and remember...
i type like im leaving tmr-.-
was taking pictures of my instru just now...b4 i left the house...for 3K-ilograms farewell party...
and...yea...had a lot of fun and will miss everyone loads...
and monday had 2Deja vu farewell party too...and tmr...have sec 3 band dinner thing at pizza hut...
and strangely...all are dinners o.0
anyway...im talking about this bcos tmr is the last band prac ir rather the last drills...i dun think we have combines tmr...since they din ask us to bring clothes to change...
hope that everyone will do their best tmr(:
have fun doing PT!!(:

today is the last day of school...can't believe sec 3 life is OVER
like...wow....term 3 and term 4 pass by super fast!!
then now...school hols alr...
tmr...last day of october(:
and tmr is halloween o.0
and damien huang came to our class when we were in the hall then he wrote on the whiteboard
"happy halloween! and regards from me. damien huang"
lol...and gave everyone a lollipop(:
haha...will miss the air-con class room a lot!!):
like how many schools have so many air-con classrooms?!
lol...have band camp coming up...
6-7 nov...and eh...many band pracs...
haha....
and ms chan said some sec 3s might be able to perform with senior band for the yuhua concert...
on the 20 decemeber...
haha...and she got quite pissed with us today...
lol...what for?
playing rubbish...as usual...lol...
a lot of ppl din come today...hmm...
due to eh....other commmitments o.0
haha...hmm....nothing much to say...just that...
will miss the 3 years we have had in the current campus at queensway...
haha...i mean...2 syf's have been practised in this campus...
dunoe how many lessons and cca we have attended at this campus
and all the events...
so...3 years of memory in the current campus!!(:

i think there's something wrong with the all the air-cons today...
it's like very cold><
first it was the LT1 air-con...bcos went there to take the CID paper...
then go in immediately freeze...super cold...
ended up shivering o.0
then it was the tuition centre air-con...
wah...super cold also....
whats wrong with all the air-cons today?!
then go home the bus also so cold...lol...
and there was this guy that keep standing in front of me and smoke at the bus stop-.-
ew....
i passed CID!!
and i was expecting to fail/get C6 at most o.0
haha...lol...hmm...why do i have like nothing to say now...

on thursday...the bicultural programme thing...wah...
6 hours of chinese in school then after go home chinese tuition 2 hours. -.-
studying a whole day of chinese will make you quite...er....

then friday...
after track assembly, then mr lee asked some people to stay back...
then he called my name...
then i was thinking DIE...isit ask me go chem remedial or something?!
lol...then actually is ask us if we interested in suzhou GPP...haha...
lol...then he was like those comfirm cannot one can go alr...then more than half the people walked off...lol...
poor mr lee o.0
but this is like the first time a teacher asked me to join some programme o.0
then friday was like some games day...
started with don't forget the lyrics...
haha....
then had some games....like stations games...
haha...
then there was cca...
and ms chan din come so we had sectionals...and gimling and wenhui came o.0
stress arh!! haha...then we spent a lot of time on tuning o.0
and there's no cca on tuesday o.0
but there's cca on the last day of school...
haha....

hehe...the next 3 days have some special programme o.0
tmr have some bicultural thing...
but rv's bicultural programme's are forever chinese-.-
lol....BIcultural
means TWO which is english and chinese
but then....
haha....chinese all the way tmr...no lessons o.0
and need to wear pe to school...
then friday and nxt tuesday...
bring pe to school
bcos we have some programme organised by the  SCs
then next monday is promotion day(:
so no school....

did CIP in the school library today...
and the ari con was spoilt...
and me and michelle got stuck pasting pages into the book...
lol...and after pasting the pages of the book still can't fit into the book....
and benjamin and joel were doing CIP too...
and for the last 10 minutes or less then we went outside the library...
haha...the temperature in the library is higher than the temperature OUTSIDE the library...-.-
it was so warm...i started sweating after a hour-.-

and i need to dig out my expositary test essay
so dead....i dunoe where is it now><
need to go findddddd):
but i dun think i can find it...
howhowhowhowhowhow!!

haha...
i think i shall put all the names up after all...lolololol....
haha...

thank you to:
zoenin(emperor(: ),sarah,miriam,michelle,ruth,jieying,yunfei,kimyee,junze,chinhong,weikai,joy,eemin,paul,clement,
james,qianyi,yihan,gimling,vengyi(changjin!!),jialing,hueychyi,Ps yvonne,benson,shimin,sebby(sebastian o.0),danish,gracia,shaokai,evan,liang shixian,kaixuan,meilin,marilyn,billy

lol....zoenin!! i put your name(:!! haha....lol...
thanks for the present also(:
haha...lol...i typed out all the name o.0
haha....all those messages made my day(:

anyway...today was an interesting practice(:
we sight-read 'the sound of music'
and ms chan was asking who know the story...lol...
then she was saying mayb holiday have time will show us the show o.0
lol...i have it at home o.0
haha....movie marathon o.0
zi-highing...
anyway....that's not exactly the main point of today's interesting practice.
haha...
bcos CO air-con spoilt and they open the doors...and so can hear them playing from upstairs...
lol...then they were playing a kitaro song...haha...coincidentally, i also have that at home o.0
from upstairs it sounded quite nice(:
haha....then when they were playing the floor was vibrating...and can hear the drums...was quite cool...haha...
never felt that from CO before o.0
haha...anyway...ms chan was saying...
after listening to CO that song for 3 weeks she forget our melody alr...
haha....
then she say can be fei1 xia2 alr...lol...suit the music...haha...she even did some action with the music and it was very very funny!!
haha....
then a few times before we started playing then CO started the meoldy part again...
then ms chan was like suddenly forget howto conduct us...
HAHAHHAA....super funny...
then everyone will end up laughing...lol...
hhaha...
and...ms christine teo is a new band teacher o.0
and next year the BIG WALK 2 JAN involve only sec3 and sec4...and 2 jan is like a SATURDAY...
lol...
and the school anniversary also...only involve sec3 to year5(current levels)
which means haha...i will be involved o.0
lol...

and mr chng gave loads of maths hw today that im going to do in school tmr...lol...
it's really a lot-.-
haha...and i should be doing not blogging><
haha...
so...that's all~ haha...
thanks everybody for the birthday wishes!!(:

hmm...today is 19102009
haha...and it's well...
my day....
haha...
and also ms chan's birthday(:
happy birthday n=ms chan!!(:
today's weather was great too...
very sunny and sky was so blue but it was very very hot...
haha....
anyway...
hmm...a lot of people wished me happy birthday and i feel very happy...lol...
it's like...a lot of people know you and so on...
haha...no wonder all those 偶像 can always be very happy on their birthdays o.0
they have like so many fans wishing them happy birthday...
got to know many people this year...haha....
anyway....
want to thank everyone who wished me happy birthday o.0
i was thinking whether i should put down all the names...but nobody will see right...lol...
lol...and i decided not to put it up...but anyway...
thankyou everybody!!
haha...

another year has passed...and i feel old-.-
and i still want to grow taller....lol...
another year....to keep as memories(:
haha...
oh and i got a chocolate  cake...went out to buy it and ended up sweating like crazy o.0
haha....i shall put a picture of the cake up soon o.0
haha...
bye~
see everyone tmr(:
haha...

happy birthday to me!!(: lol...
(in the process of zi-highing o.0)

it's saturday...
and i finished watching 1 litre of tears...
and it's really very sad and very touching....
it makes me appreciate being able to move...
we take our mobility for granted...it is something we do every day...
be it walking, running or even talking...
we do it every day,
not taking to mind that some people can't even walk...
the heartless glances some people show the disabled...
it's not like they like it but they still must face it...
they still can get hurt...although they may appear ok....
"If I were a flower, then now I’d be a bud. I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets." and I really don’t want to say things such as "I want to go back to how things were before." I recognized how I am right now; and I will continue to live on." - Aya Kitô
 http://www.symphonyoflove.net/blog/95/1-liter-of-tears.html
i think this is a review of some sort....
it is really inspiring...
like....really appreciate yourself now...and live life to the fullest...
lol...
haha....
and study...lol...
that's all
i think i might watch it again...
when i have the time...
haha...
to motivate myself o.0







shouldn't be posting...but...
now i know why...
some ppl want to study music...
when you're pissed or whatever, music can change your mood...
it can make you feel sad, happy etc...
it's like listening to music...
is a way to get rid of all the wordly feelings...
playing music, listening to music...it's like being in your own world...
the music just flows...

decided to go back to pei hwa after all....wasn't exactly planning to go back..but since i was early...why not...
went popular first...since it's like opposite each other...then passed by this gift shop so shu bian go buy present and go back lor...
then...i picked my brother...
and i srsly dunoe what the school is trying to do...
the teachers are ok with us going to the staff room but they insist in keeping us in the canteen...
and wait for the teachers to come down...
and it took ages for them to come down..
then i was practically chased home by my mother...
she keep calling me-.-
just bcos my brother was there...
then i was like so pissed then just leave lor...
but luckily o.0
just b4 i left i met my p6 form teacher leh(:
haha...
and my mother was wondering why i so black-face...
is like...NOT MY FAULT OK...
they only allowed us to go in at 12.50 when their school programme end at 12.30 -.-
and i asked my brother if he minded waiting for a while...
and he was OK with that...
and my mother wasn't -.-
just don't understand it sometimes...
somehow i think it's the people that you love most can make you the most pissed, the most sad/hurt....etc....
...............................
and then she started explaining that if i wanted to visit teachers then i should say earlier then dun pick my brother...
but it's like this is one of those rare times i actually get released earlier than him and pick him on the way home so...why not what...i save somebody a trip...
made me quite bad mood for the rest of the day
i sound like im some aunty complaining-.-
so...i shall not continue...
haha...and i shall listen to MUSIC(:
haha...
happy studying everyone o.0
tmr no school...

"When it comes to getting things done, multitasking is a bane not a blessing, according to Stanford University researchers."
o.0...
haha...thanks to some recent discussion about whether technology is a bane or a boon...i know what a bane means(:
haha...
there's half day tmr...
and i haven't finish chem prac 17...
need to pass up tmr..
and i left the suibi-.-
i think my dad is flying back this wednesday...
o.0...
i think im addicted to joe hisaishi's summer o.0
haha...i keep playing it over and over again o.0
lol...his piano is so nice><
but amazingly he learned violin first...
never heard that he played violin o.0
so cool!!
i want to go out tmr):
but i no money to go...
and anyway need to study...
i decided to become a very very good kid(:
haha...i even made a list of what  i have to study...
like worksheets, notes etc.
o.0
and i just realised that we have A LOT A LOT to study...
thank God i dun have to take scs paper for eoys><
haha...
i think we're going to get our progress report soon right...
so not looking forward to it...
this year's really gone very fast..
faster than the past 2 years...
it's like...not long ago...we changed class and dunoe anyone...
and now...it's like...haha...lol...
not say very united lar...
but okok class...
hmm....
yea...many things happened this year...
haha...
"They couldn't help thinking about the task they weren't doing," Ophir said of multitaskers. "They can't keep things separate in their minds."
Testing also showed that multitaskers weren't superior when it came to remembering or organizing information in their minds. Researchers showed students letters and asked them to remember repeated appearances.
"The low multitaskers did great," Ophir said. "The high multitaskers were doing worse and worse the further they went along because they kept seeing more letters and had difficulty keeping them sorted in their brains."
o.0 some yahoo news...o.0
multi-tasking is BAD?!
but it saves time(:
i think this is like the official last post b4 the eoys...unless something crops up...
haha...
i shall go on hiatus~ haha...
JIAYOUS FOR EOYS EVERYBODY!!

wow...i have to get studying><
was listening to joe hisaishi's piece summer.
wow...his playing is ________
totally stunned...
oriental wind is also quite nice...
and his psirited away song - one summer's night...
haha...
it's really really very nice(:
got our 2nd piece since the sec 4s left...
it feels helpless being a senior...
it's like...we're not improving...
oh...this new piece is called Joe Hisaishi's Works 3 o.0
has 4 songs inside i think
Summer, Oriental Wind, HANA-BI, and some song with japanese name>< dunoe how to read...
and apparently this song has many solos o.0
flutes have like 3 solos...
french horn also have solo...
haha...listened to joe hisaishi playing summer...
wah...i can't believe we have to sound like that><
or rather I have to sound like that...
lol...
why do i feel that we/i will ruin the first part of the piece><
zzz...
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!
to all teachers o.0
haha...although it's early><
haha...ppl...let's go study(:

o.0...today was and is an amazing day o.0
firstly, miriam slept earlier than me today o.0
how amazing is THAT(:
haha...
and secondly...
we got to sight-read some score composed by joe hisaishi...
and it has like the kind of 6 notes in 1 beat kind of rhythm...and
some of the weird rhythm has caused my sense of rhythm to go haywire...
like if i sing rhythm i dun even know what im singing-.-
 zzz...
i shall go sleep now o.0
good night...er...morning everybody...

lol...i have no idea why im blogging...
when i got so much work to finish...
i dun understand...
why....
i dunoe how to do trigo-.-
when it's e-maths...which is supposed to be easier....
and i can do sum of roots and multiplication of roots and that is a-maths...
it's like supposed to be what...
harder?!
can't believe it...
got to write chinese compo in class tmr...
got to finish bio assignment...
mr chng decided to go super fast...until i dun even know what he's doing><
and he gave us 5 pages of homework today?!
lol...
and the best thing yet...
tmr morning i have section run...
zzz...
and we're like sight-reading some song tmr...
i think it's called summer...
haha...by a japanese guy...i dunoe how to spell his err...surname><
haha...

time flies..
this year passed by really quickly...
and i can't believe im gonna be sec 4 next year...
never imagined it to be THAT fast...
all the erm...
craziness...
wow...
this year really passed quickly...
like how the wind blows past...
but never blows back...
memories are to be made and kept...
im still thinking whether i should go back on teacher's day o.0
but i dun think i will...i shall see whether they having half day or not(:
haha...
hmm...
still have maths ws to do...
and maths notes trigo part 3...
and i still dunoe how to do -.-
haha...
it's only a few months time...
when we will step down o.0
that's sad):
the sec 2s will be sec 3s and the sec 1s will be sec 2s and the sec 3s will be sec 4s...
o.0...
which reminds me...
i must collect section fund...
next week...
$5 each...
and i am feeling hopelessly BROKE now-.-
lol...





I am wondering why so many people changed to livejournal-.-
lol...and i can't figure out the problem with the archiving thing...
err...anybody know how to do?
i din have to do it last time
and now i dunoe why it doesn't work-.-
my mother keeps saying that need to go study...
zzz...sec 1s are officially in main band now...
and ms chan decided to play pomp and circumstance
finally we get to actually play something proper...
like pecori night and the version of the Gong qi jun...
those are like warm-ups...and yet...
we cant play the, properly without mistake...
was searching through my old scores...
found the old gong qi jun
the other version...the harder one...
if we played that now our band will crash...
honestly...
sometimes i just can't stand it...
someone keeps thinking she's damn pro...and is like...comeone...you're no better than all of us...
among the the rest your age yes, you may be good BUT other people will catch up...
you will never be the best in the future with this kind of attitude...
you'll just make people dun like you...
i think i sound mean...
do i?
finally managed to settle the tagboard and fixed the broken links o.0
changing blogskin makes ppl busy o.0
tmr is jiro's birthday(:
haha...
hmmm...i dunoe what to write now...
LOL...
5 weeks to eoys!!
better go study><
trigo is horrible/weird-.-

hmm...changed blogskin...and there's something wrong with the archiving system...
and.. need to change my tagboard o.0
not totally fixed yet...need to get used to using html again...
after not touching it for like SO LONG
haha...
5 more weeks to EOYS
zzz
haha...will ifx up more of my blog...erm...later on...
but anyway...
WHO EVEN COMES HERE-.-
lol....

hmmm...i just realised how near the exams are><
they are like only 6 weeks away, including this week...
so...better start studying><
haha...this term is really wah...so fast-.-
-not good-
hmm...GOOD LUCK MIRIAM FOR YOUR PIANO EXAM(:
wah...you play the scales so fast...
and i think i play my scales half the speed of yours-.-
lol...
tmr there's band...
another practice, another day
wonder what's new...
nothing in fact...
help the sec 1s fit in,
settle our basics(which are obviously not there)
finally can hear how horrible we sound without the sec 4s and do SOMETHING...
bcos...we aren't what we used to be...
we're worse....much much worse...
there's a long way ahead...
and our standard is dropping like i dunoe what...
zzz...
haha...

feeling so confused lately...
why is it that in shows the ppl have open places where they can just scream out loud...
like release whatever they're feeling then...and
we don't...singapore is really.....too small -.-
everywhere you go there's concrete...
singapore is really a city...like concrete everywhere...

i really dunoe what to do now...
ppl i want to discuss with...all not online...
telling my parents wun help....like....they wun understand...
it's not that kind of "i-did-something-unforgivable" thing...but...
i just dunoe how to explain it...
im like standing at the crossroads...and can't make a decision...
and the roads dun meet...
in fact...they go further....and further away...
im not sure how to make this decision...
i dun even know...
if im even making the right decision...
it;s so hard...to make this decision...
what does God want me to do...
what does He want us to do...
i dunuoe...
i really don't...
feel so helpless that i can't even make a decision for myself...
feel so useless...
i can't even decide what colour clothes i want to buy...
no wonder i can't make a decision...
no wonder james was saying women are not decisive...
apparently the erm...reservice ppl were sharing...
women dun even know what they want...how can men know what THEY want...
true...if you look at it at a certain angle...
WHYWHYWHY are decisions so hard to make...
i really dunoe what to do...
i dunoe what i want...
so many ppl have their own ambitions...
i dun even know what i want to be...
since young...i never had any ambition...
and when those weird self-introduction things included MY AMBITION
i would just fake something....bcos i really dunoe what i want to be...
i dun even know what i want...
simple decisions i can't make...
others?
no need to say more...
must really start to think through what i want...
those ppl who know...dun tell anybody ok...thanks(:
listening to chu1 kou3...
how come i can't find my chu1 kou3
decisions...
are really hard to make...
im not sure if i will make the right choice....

haha(: it's national day
and i just realised how great it is to have national day on a sunday(:
bcos we get a super long weekend(:
haha...
shall reply tags...
zoenin - eh...i heard they selling hse o.0i hope they shift out soon o.0
evan - lol...mayb she did-.-

haha...
we shall thank someone for giving us PUBLIC criticism
lol...
we'll SHOW her..
that we can be BETTER
and make her TAKE BACK her words...
lol...
jiayou RVCB(:

shall post afte after such a long time(:
today had chem prac....and ICAS maths
and ndp rehearsal...
i forgot to bring calculator):
and i think i lost it...zzz...i can't find it...
not good news

apprently my neighbours never got taught manners...
how SAD
like you know my house need to tap card then can go in....and apparently...my neighbour's name is sarah...dunoe how to spell...but HEY it still sounds like that...
well....she was picking her younger sister...and they were like doing the skateboarding thing....and boviously both of them are like younger than me...
then i opened the door bcos i need to get home and apparently they din bring the card...
although i only saw the older sister first...
then apparently their parents din teach them to say THANK YOU
wow...i sound like im insulting their parents but HEY....their children reflect them?! lol...like we have had another encounter with their mother-.- and apparently they behave similarly...
and this is not the first time i opened the door for both sisters...and both times they din say thankyou...
wow....maybe im petty but don't they even know their manners?! i think the older sister is like sec school alr lar...-.-
then when we got into the lift...i din press their floor number...
i pressed my own...
and the older sister pressed it and started staring at me like a got something written on my face...like PLEASE STARE AT ME...lol
my face is super clean lar please....
stare what stare...
somemore she's not until my shoulder lar....still stare
stare what...i have NOTHING written on my face lar...
make me bad mood when i got home...
lioke what is this lar...no manners totally...
staring is like WRONG....lioke did anybody ever tell her that?!
the nxt time i see them i shall walk the other way and totally ignore them...
not WORTH my attention...
like seriously...
being young is NOT an excuse...
as long as you go to school you will know how to say THANKYOU
but apparently THEY don't
hmm....what have their parents been doing-.- or rather what have THEY been doing...
like so what if i dunoe them...it's like basic courtesy...
BASIC BASIC BASIC
like the basics of basics...
i have no idea why im getting so pissed just talking about them...they are like a waste of MY time-.-

and ndp rehearsal was weird...
we supposed to stand in a semicircle and ended in something like a U-shape...
LOL...
and apparently we were not loud enough?
haha...

life's short...
like really short...
you never know when you'll die...like you may be alive and kicking...and the next day you're dead
CHOICHOICHOI touch wood ok
i mean look at michael jackson...
he was like having REHEARSALS....and everyone knows what a great dancer he is...
short while later? he's dead...
some ppl think ther life's a drama...
i think there are other ppl...who's life is more drama thaan you could ever imagine...
at least i know of someone who'e life is SUPER drama...
although i dun even know her name...but let's just say...
our life is not a drama compared to the lives of others

OH...and miriam asks me to post on my blog that she grew taller and she is about to jump over the moon...and i commented that we can count down and when she jumps over the moon i can like video her-.-
LOL...anybody want to watch also? can contact miriam and we'll arrange a wonderful time to watch her jump over the moon...like a movie you know(:
haha

folding cranes...1000...as sands of time slowly runs out?
as time ticks by...

hais...all i can say is
thanks H1N1 -.-
bcos of you we can't have concert and dun have speech day-.-
then we had to stay back for the AYG opening when there's only sec 1's again bcos of H1N1
then we were like ignored?!
until the whole thing ended and mrs yiow actually thanked us and said we did a wonderful performance or something like that
and the sky was amazingly full of rain clouds
and it actually din rain and there was NO lightning risk alert
so in the end we did it in at the field
then the person taking photos took a picture of me when we were playing
no lar...it wasn't only me
then they were passing the erm...torch
and it was quite pretty..as in the fire very pretty
haha...
then just now watch on tv then have 3 torch-bearers go light the cauldron at singapore indoor stadium i think...live...
hmmm...looks a bit like a mix of national day and olympics-.-
all the sec sch ppl...
i think...justr watched the last part...
then my mother say YOU WANT TO WATCH THIS WU LIAO THING ARH
then i was like never say anything...
then off the tv...anyway i din even know what they doing
oh...back to the AYG in school...
well...was supposed to play olympic spirit...memorise until so can3 then end up not playing that song-.-
played promotion march instead...haha...

school reopens tmr...
haha...
got to keep this short...my chem tuition teacher coming soon
like erm...supposed to come in 20 minutes
LOL...
hm...still need to do a bit of last minute homework...
and need to look through alympic spirit again
dun wanna screw up tmr-.-
not a very good thing
hm...
i dunoe what to say-.-

hmm...
let's just say...
i prefer smrt buses
like i dun have good impressions of sbs buses...
no offence and im not anti-sbs but...
their bus drivers are like ______
it's like...hmmm...
one time...my wallet dropped into the lift hole...
then need to wait for the maintenance guy to come and get it out...which was i think a few weeks later...
then...one fine day...
joanne had to go hwachong for some prize giving ceremony thing...then my house near there then take taxi with her lar...
she dun wan go herself also mah...
then i took a sbs bus....
then obviously i dun have my ez-link card -.-
then i put in 55cents
then the uncle was like scolding me...-.-
WHERE IS Your BUS CARD? HUH? THIS ONE FOR CHILD'S RIDE!
i was like thinking HEY smrt bus uncle also never say anything you scold me for what.
and my wallet is at the bottom of the lift -.-
like what do you want me to do?
i can't do anything!!
then he just waved me on the bus-.-
and today...need to go school for AYG rehearsal...in the morning
then i took 51...change bus..
and everybody knows 51 is a sbs bus -.-
and so i stand at the door lar...like im not even blocking anybody...
and when anybody wants to get off i give way like give A LOT of way to them in fact
NONE of them complain
then the bus driver at just one bus stop b4 school the bus stop...
ask me to go over
then i was like thinking...he need what help
then he was like
ARE YOU GETTING OFF THE BUS? IF NOT WHY ARE YOU STANDING AT THE DOOR?
i believe the first incident is not exactly my fault...but nobody else say anything then he must scold me-.-
then the second incident was i dunoe...mayb i am wrong...but i wasn't blocking anyone in any way-.-
so i dunoe whether im wrong or what
and there was another incident but i dun wan to say...bcos i think that was my fault...
something small...
but apparently i think the other sbs-es bus i take that doesn't have this weird problems is 166 and 170
yay(:
i think I shall try to Not take other sbs buuses b4 i get scolded...yet again for doing something "wrong"
hmm....someone tell me....
for the incident today...
was i right?! or wrong?!

today...was the AYG rehearsal...and to be honest...i plsy then keep getting lost/mixed up -.-
must go memorise properly...
anyway...we played horribly...like everyone could hear that....
soooooooo...hais...
monday school reopens alr...
why are the holidays over...
that fast -.-
but i managed to finish the zuo he de chao ji ah ma
haha...and i never managed to finish other books b4(:
i think a lot of ppl going to chiong homework alr...
haha...jiayoujiayou~

had PT today and ms chan din come
and now my face is red/pink -.- although is not sunburn
bcos we had PT under the hothot sun from about 9 to 11.30
the time usually not so hot but looking at the weather today
it was like oven liddat
and the sun so bright
had combine drills with sec 1s today....and all i can say is good try after 2 times of PT
like....a lot if expected from them after so few sessions of PT
and i think im gonna be sick soon -.-
not a good sign
my throat is pain -.-
must be the CIP we did ystd
then never bring enough water
then today PT under the very hot and bright sun
and we learnt a new command...some u-turn thing
then it was very messy
tmr they're gonna do the yearly erm...."ritual" so called of welcoming the sec 1s....but im not going -.-
shall not reveal the "ritual" until it's OVER like in a few hours time
haha
hmmm...
i realise i have done like veryvery little homework...and half the hols are GONE alr
like i still haven't read san guo yan yi -.- like i read 4 chapters -.-
goto start catching up...
wah....dunoe why today so tired -.-
have maths tuition from 7-9 then i was like thinking how come i feel so tired
tmr they have to assemble by 8.15...like HEY that is so early



111th post...
nice number(:
anw...i am srsly wondering how i managed to memorise other scores so easily -.-
bcos im having a hard time memorising the olympic spirit ><
like memorise very long and still can't get it
i spent a lot of time on promotion march also -.- finally remembered....but im still stuck with olympic spirit!!!!!!
howhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhow
going to memorise on the bus tmr alr lar...zzz...
today had CIP
and it wasn't fun
and the water at east coast is like SO EXPENSIVE
and we only had to fill one plastic bag bcos apparently NO MORE ALR
then the plastic bag have manymany holes
and can tie knots at the holes until the capacity of the plastic bag is like reduced by HALF
haha...LOL
need to go memorise olympic spirit
hm....not exactly feeling the olympic spirit....

my parents esp. my mother always thinks i dun study
and they only notice the times that i dun study and dun care about the times that i actually DO study
like last night my mother was saying eh....nxt tuesday cannot go to school arh bcos i dun see you studying -.-
then monday go east coast pick rubbish. then she was like eh. can dun go a not
go pick rubbish can, go study cannot -.-
like who in the world said i din study?!
and apparently now...my whole life revolves around maths?!
like maths and maths and maths
woooooooooo~
just bcos they saw me using the com they say
eh...how come i always see you in front of the computer?
they obviously only see the time im NOT studying like let's say taking a break and come say i din study -.-
then when im studying what are they doing? some other stuff and dun care what im doing -.-
i somehow always do things the wrong way -.-

anw...got to memorise 3 scores -.-
the olympic spirit, honor band, and promotion march
alamak...all by tuesday
and guess what
we have to march and play at the same time for the AYG
olympic spirit is hard enough to play/memorise when sitting down...
marching will be definitely no air
and there is like a clarinet SOLI
if im not wrong -.-
and it's all SLURRED
so it's supposed to sound joined tgt....but when you're marching of course very chuan
win ler...
then ms chan was saying we make it this way
if one person in the section never memorise, that section die
if one section never memorise, the while band die
-.-
then sebby was reiterating this on friday
then we were like YES SIR
then he was like
ok....i think we're gonna die on tuesday -.-
bcos we're supposed to memorise by tuesday
and we're gonna do that for drills...
so drills with instruments while playing the 3 pieces...
haha...and we're supposed to see if we want the syf photos
and they cost _______
unbelievably high prices!!!
like the largest photo which is i not sure how nig cost like $180?!
HAPPY NEW YEAR?!
going to see the photos online first then see whether want to buy a not (:
cheapest one is like $12

hmm....events looking forward to in band(:
29th june - AYG
11th july - performance as a guest band @ yuhua concert (ANYBODY WANT TO GO?? xp )
18th july - speech day

and nxt year we should be able to get our very own RV CONCERT
haha...(:

praying hard now that i won't be quarantined!!!
like this is horrible....the swine flu thing
my brother has fever for like 4-5 days and finally is going to see a doctor now
and thus i dunoe
he fever so many days then go see doctor
then later he quarantined
then our whole family will be like quarantined also
which is like NOT a joke
if we are i will definitely smack my brother
i need to go to sch tmr!!!
like TOMORROW
although the quarantine is like only 2 days if im not wrong
still means that i can't go out of the house -.-
and im stuck at home doing WORK
like TWO WHOLE DAYS OF STUDYING
will die one leh ><
which means i can't go sch, can't go church etc. etc.
please God dun let us be quarantined):
Amen~

it think my brother is the most irritating person on earth when it comes to being sick
you will just want to whack his head...like seriously
he will either act damn sick and complain and complain non-stop
or he will make a lot of super high pitched voices and make the WHOLE house so noisy
and he's like doing that now
and when i was sleeping he stole my handphone charger
and now i can't on my phone bcos there's not batt and i dun have the charger
how irritating can he get?!
then he starts sms-ing me all kinds of stupid stuff
like "you look like a pig" etc.
and obviously as a sister im not so STUPID as to even reply them -.-
like who cares about his stupid sms-es
i dun even noe what's his prob
so act for what
suck up
my mother at home he's like mouse liddat
dun even say anything
then watch the usual KOREAN DRAMAS on the com with her
then he starts whining about WHY I CANNOT PLAY COMPUTER
and then my mother will make him do work
then he will complain WHY GOT NO REST ONE and throw his tantrum
ahem....excuse me....you have been slacking/resting for HOW MANY DAYS ALR HUH
and so now...just to inform everybody
I CAN'T SMS UNTIL I FIND WHERE MY BROTHER HIDE MY HANDPHONE CHARGER
it's all HIS fault.
can't stand it
anybody has a brother like mine? i know how you feel -.-

hmmm...im doing maths homework -.-
when no one i asked has doen it yet -.-
was just randomly thinking about primary sch...
the horrible p6 days when i had to be a loner -.-
when i was sec 1 i went back i think during chinese new year....
then i was like hello to this person and that person -.-
acting like their good friend...
haha....can imagine their reaction....
they must be thinking what the heck does this person think she's doing
haha...
in fact i think a lot of ppl hated me....
thanks to er hmmmm short form? SA
dun need to disclose names bcos anyway no one who knows me knows her
ok....mayb except the pei hwa ppl....
hais....there are like so many types of ppl out there....
the hypocrites, backstabbers etc...
name them and they're there
well....all i can say is, it's over...
nothing much to talk about
at least i did better than the oh-im-so-popular SA
hahaha...hais....mayb im suan-ing her but...
given another chance, i so do NOT want to talk to her
she's one of the worst ppl i ever knew...and i shall keep it in the erm....garbage part of my memory
LOL
hahaha...
anyway
i can go band
like i CAN GOOOOOOO
woohooooo....no one will see someone as happy as me when they say they can go holiday cca practices
haha....
too bad lor...bcos i always have a problem on even going to normal practices sometimes -.-
i shall not continue jabbering and get on with maths(:
I MUSTMUSTMUST finish june holidays hw this time.
i think i accomplished a lot compared the past few years -.-
3 sui bi and the geog ws....plus im doing maths nowwwwww
hahahha....
ok....i shall doo hw now(:
PS. happy climbing over the mt everest of hw everbodyyyy(:
ok...so i can't say it really is a lot compared to the past few times...

this is like going to be the last post....
of erm....i dunoe how long...
very very very long
bcos my results are obviously horrible and my current gpa for only midyears
is like i just scraped passed
soo....
and im like supposed to get a gpa 3....
only some ppl know about this gpa 3
but anyway
that 3 really means a lot to me
and i can't even get it when ppl around me are getting it so easily
like a 3. something is like not high enough for them...
and im just simply aiming for a 3
that i can't even get
they make it look so simple
and wun be using the computer for a very long time
bcos my mother's going to keep the laptop during the holidays and i'll be at home erm...
doing maths
i dun even know if i can make it to cca this friday
holiday practices?
i think i duneed to go
with the results i got
my mother will NOT let me go...
and there goes the last chance to perform with seniors b4 they leave band and we officially take over....
oh well....
wish me good luck tmr
it'll probably be one of the most horrible days in my life...
i wish everything could be fine...

MINOTAUR
haha(:
we won cross country againnnnn(:
but they recycle the trophy every year
and although we won lke last year and this year
they didn't inscribe it -.-
so sad...
there's like only unicorn's name there
and there was like not enough water and we can't go to our bags to take water
-.-
and they expect us to cheer when we need WATER
haha
then b4 the race started we were making the weird sound...according to miriam is like someone hyperventilating?!
hahahahahahaha....
today the weather was much better than last year...
in terms of the heat
the sky was like cloudy so no sun
then not hot(:
which is very goooooood
gna have new piece on friday=sight reading again
lol...

my gpa is really in the longang now...
probably on it's way to the erm...sewagesystem to be flushed into the sea...where it wwill sink at i dunoe where
far far away
tmr there's cca and we'll be sight-reading a few pieces...
and i can gurantee that my sight-reading is 101% horrible...
but it's easier than piano bcos for piano it's like for both left and right hand and need to play tgt...
so...
see how...
the midyears have totally killed me...
after alll
WE CAN ONLY DIE ONCE IN A LIFETIME
unless you can die twice?
dun tell me...
it's a bit...erm...
scary?
being a baby is great i realise
they just cry and eat and sleep
-.-
if only life were that simple --- 101% impossible
welll...let's just say life is compmlicated...and it's getting more horrible by the term...
i was saying if the mathematicians didn't exist then we wouldn't be lke studying maths....
and if all those weird events didn't happen in the past...
we wouldn't have to study it...
of course the technology has improved...
and everyone is getting smarter...
but how come i feel im getting no smarter but getting more stupid -.-
whywhywhywhywhywhywhy
i have no idea at all how to tell my mother my results....
although i told some---the good ones of course
and the rest are...
horrible
my mother was like scolding my brother for maths that he did very lousy...
i dun dare tell her man
she will kill me
like i got muchmuch lower...
and he gets killed alr...
then i will definitely get killed...
howhowhowhowhow...
my mother was saying
why i haven't get back papers yet...then she was like YOU SURE A NOT
bcos my brother got his papers back alr...
and his exam was like later than mine....
i will tell her nxt week...
i promise myself
annd i'll prob not blog for a super super long time after i tell her my results...
it's a crazy competitive world out there
i hate it
you study like crazy, work like crazy and retire and no one will care about you anymore
what's this?!
it's a crazy...crazy world out there...

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