It's been 3 full days since I've been back and it's been good so far.




Struggling to focus here.
Listening to the recording of a lecture and it's so heavily loaded with content..and I decided to be stingy and print my notes smaller, which leaves me with tiny little spaces to write notes -.-

Just did a total lecture count..I have at least 27 lectures to listen to. Not even including the pre-recorded ones they like to give us as extra work. Add self-study topics on top of that, plus assignment due on wednesday. The next three weeks ain't going to be easy. But I guess if I have to stay up late to get work done then so be it..it's a sacrifice I will have to make.

Exam timetable is out. It's not..terrible but we start quite early this time. One on the 10th then 17th then 19th June. It's alright, not that terrible. Well nothing can compare to having exams on consecutive days right. Been there, done that. The night in between was a mad rush of balancing I-need-to-finish-revision and I-deserve-a-break. Lol. I always feel entitled to have a break after a test or an exam and seriously do nothing for the rest of the day but you know, some circumstances just don't work that way.

I don't even sleep well nowadays :/ Can't fall asleep at night and then waking up at 7++ in the morning isn't exactly the best thing. I used to be able to fall back to sleep if I woke up to early but now I can't..I just get so restless :/ Getting old maybe?!!

Things are somewhat starting to fall in place. I'm waiting on a few deliveries to arrive this week so hopefully they all arrive in time. Spent my day packing thy room, completed something, did 1 lecture..and in the process of finishing another one at the moment. Well yea, that's my day.

We have this group assignment thing due on wednesday and gahhhh there is this someone. Someone with more patience than I do has explained what needs to be done for her segment and she goes to do it..and what is typed up is not even relevant to the information that the question is asking for. Had to look through it and redo it last night, but it's lacking references everywhere for that part :/ We're meeting up tomorrow to complete it so hopefully we will be able to complete it...Well it is due on wednesday so we do have to finish it no matter what..Sigh, this never ending group work with people who don't contribute their fair share. WHY DO THESE PEOPLE EXIST WHYYYYYY.

Alright, enough of the ranting..effective studying needs to be completed!!!



The real craziness has begun. Or so I think. Okok it isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Just have to finish up the assignment due on Wednesday, study for the test for this Friday and work on the other assignment due the 27th.



Really shouldn't be blogging right now D:
I don't know why, I keep typing up posts and deleting them. I've typed up 2 posts just before typing this one but I've decided to keep them unpublished. Maybe I'll post them one day. When I do well in the future perhaps. One day when I can look back and tell myself how foolish I was back then to worry so much. 

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:34

I'm so tired. Yesterday was one of those crappy days. Even thinking about it now is putting me in a bad mood. I really can't wait until April is over. It's been so...tumultuous even though we're only a bit more than halfway through it. At this point in time, I just want out. Go somewhere where I can breathe in peace without having to think of repercussions and the future. 





Blundering through storms.
Not literally but still.
I wasn't expecting it to be a walk in the park but definitely am I not prepared for what's coming up next. In the 3 weeks of April that we have in uni before the next placements block,
16th April - Test
20th April - Test
22 April - Group Assignment due
24 April - Test, applications for internship in a certain area finish
30 April - Test
And then intersperse those with gazillion lectures and tutes and workshops and what does that give you? A dead me. LOL. Not literally.
And so I have spent my 1 week midsem break trying to get some studying and note writing down so I don't find myself sinking in a deep never-ending abyss of doom. And also in between those, we have so many self-study topics and readings to do I can't even D:
Do you know how discouraging it is? To finally be able to feel that you've caught up only to realise that you've only just got to the foot of the real mountain you've to climb?
Doesn't really help that no one else in my group for the group assignment has done ANY work at all for it. I can safely say that I've done almost half of the assignment already, myself. And this was meant to be a 5-person group. 1 person is un-contactable even. With all these tests in the way, why wouldn't they want to work on it now?! ARGH. I don't want to end up working on the stupid assignment when we have a test due 2 days after it's due. As much as you guys are busy, I'm busy too, but can't you even bother to reply?!! Some people...
There I was waiting for May and a good holiday when I realised all this crap was going to happen..before May -.- So until May, it's wading in the good ol' waist-deep mud until I reach the other end...
All the uni peeps in sg, jiayou for your exams!!



I have this friend. She constantly makes me question the definition of a good/true friend.
To her, a good friend is someone who would correct you when you're doing something wrong or behaving in a way that would turn people off etc.
But to me, isn't a good friend someone who would accept you for the way you are?
I am very blessed to be able to say I have 2 of these who have been there for me no matter what, even after all these years - and we're not even in the same continent now! But never in the close to 10 years that I've known both of them has any one of them told me I shouldn't say something in a certain way or I shouldn't complain or I should do this this this. These are friends I can feel comfortable with even if we're silent.
But with this other friend, it's different. I feel like she's judging me for the way I talk, for the things that I say and she'll correct me because she thinks that's what a good friend would do. She does have a point but I feel like it doesn't have to be in my face every time we talk. She says she's very blunt and it can come off the wrong way and if I feel there's something she needs to change I can always bring it up to her. That's something she accepts but sometimes I really hate it that something or other will come up in a conversation over the phone. If it's correcting me over a word I say wrong or funny, it's ok, but I don't exactly want to be told how to do things or how to say things because someone else thinks it's not right. Is this really what a true friend should be like?
You know, we're all looking for acceptance in this vast cold world. In the workforce, the one who tells you off are the people who care about you and the people who sit there and do nothing are the ones who will shoot you down later. But do I really need to be corrected on how I said/asked something in a group chat with people I never knew existed? Maybe I'm in a late rebellious stage but I really don't think I need to be told how to behave or how I should do things.
A lot of the times it really gets on my nerves and maybe we're this way because we have a different perception of what a good friend should be like. Both are correct but I think there has to be a balance and a limit for what your friend should and should not interfere with. Is this going too far this time? Yes I think so. I have to admit, I was so very close to flaring up and after the phone call I was actually quite pissed off and I could tell she was too. But you have to have your limits when approaching people.
What's your definition of a good friend?



It's been a long while since I've posted, partly due to the fact that I had nothing really interesting going on with my life, two because I have typed up posts and ended up deleting them.
But it is with great heaviness and emptiness in my heart that I type this post up.
It is rare for Singaporeans to rally together at this magnitude. I think many have said this(or at least on my Facebook..), it is difficult to grieve a man whom I have never met nor personally known. But I can safely say that he is someone who has my respect for what he has done for Singapore.
I was born and raised for most part of my life in a modern, peaceful and prosperous Singapore, all of which wouldn't be possible without his dedication. I grew up in a Singapore where I learnt about his achievements from social studies lessons. How many countries have been able to transform from a third world country to a first world country in the short span of less than 50 years? He led a small fishing port to our dizzying heights of today. I think it's safe to say that it's undeniable what he has helped Singapore to achieve as a nation, as a country. Much has changed in the past 50 years but he stood firm in the ways he believed Singapore should grow and prosper. He had the vision, and the determination to achieve. Not many have the determination, courage and wisdom that he had in leading Singapore. Not many can lead such a small country to the heights we experience today, and for that, thank you Mr Lee. You are an inspiration and a great leader. You have left behind a legacy manifested in the peace and prosperity we often take for granted. Thank you for your unwavering love and dedication to this nation.
#RIPLKY #OnceASingaporeanAlwaysASingaporean

"I have no regrets. I have spent my life, so much of it, building up this country. There's nothing more that I need to do. At the end of the day, what have I got? A successful Singapore. What have I given up? My life."





Finally back to reality and the 3 weeks of 'holiday' are over. 



Hello world! Day 2 of placements. 



Sigh..every update on the incident that I see, my heart still drops.
And this is considering I never knew who she was until this incident.
'Sad' can't even begin to describe this feeling. It's more of disbelief and shock, that this can happen, and has happened. I wasn't like this the first time round, thankfully maybe because no one else was seriously injured, unlike this incident where there are updates on the injured member's conditions.
This incident has really made me more scared of driving now because well, who knows what will happen.

I will be leaving for my rural placement on Sunday for 3 weeks, so will be praying for a safe journey and for me to be a safe driver...
Well, let's just say my track record for driving isn't exactly clean..my parents are entrusting me with the car so I better take good care of it. As I said, I will be going away for 3 weeks to the countryside..where wifi connection is not available, meaning I will only have my phone plan's data and credit to last me the entire time. It's going to be a busy 3 weeks, but I will have fun and hopefully come back a better driver...and parker..



Not sure how much you are a kpop listener but if you are, pretty sure you've heard of the sad sad tragedy that occurred a few days ago. To be honest, it's kind of thrown me off the tracks and I can't really keep my mind focussed on doing anything. It's just so so sad that it happened this way. I've only ever heard the name of the group and never heard their music or knew the member's names but I think the whole kpop fandom has really come together in the light of this.
To me, she is someone I just "met" through a computer screen but what happened to her is so closely similar to something that happened to 2 distant relatives of mine it's almost personal. Seatbelts may be the most uncomfortable thing ever but really, please wear your seat belts. Every day, young people around the world have passed in a car accident where they didn't have their seat belts on, I'm pretty sure it happens commonly. The seat belts are there for a reason. No matter how much you hate them, they are for your protection. When I was younger and my mum told me to put on my seatbelt if not, in an accident I could be flung out of the car, to be honest I didn't really believe it. How can a person fly out from a car window when the car window is so small? Or how could a person fly out through the back windscreen when the space for the person to manoeuvre is so small? Surely the doors can block the person from flying out? Time and now time again has reminded me that this is possible.
This tragedy is so sad because those girls were just travelling home after a performance. Few hours ago they were dancing and singing around on stage and a few hours later, all this happened. She was so young and they haven't even had to chance to really showcase all that they were. The distant relatives that I mentioned before were mother and son. And the son was even younger than I was. They don't get to grow old, don't get to fulfil their ambitions, don't get to have their own families because all was taken from them at the high of their lives. Despite me not being close to any of them, knowing of anything like this still shatters me. No one should have to pass this way. No one. That's why, please put on your seat belts, even if it's just for a 5 minute ride because you never know what will happen.
Rest in peace and condolences to her family. I can't imagine what her family must be going through now, especially her parents.
For the other 2 members in critical condition, pray that they will recover fully. Regardless of the outcome, what has happened, has happened.
I think everyone's heart is weighed down and hurt by what has happened to such a young girl who was just beginning to realise her dream. We can never predict what will happen in the future, even if it's the next minute. You never know when your last breath will be, it could be the next minute, or even second. Take care everyone, wear your seat belts.



Some people really lack the decency sometimes..



Have got Tablo's cover of Taeyang's Eyes, Nose, Lips on replay atm. So beautiful.

Anyway, I'll be going on rural placements in 3 weeks time for 3 weeks. I'm actually looking forward to it. There's some crap going on about getting there etc. because we haven't got a car. Initially I thought we could at least have 1 car so we can get there at least but now none of us can get a car so well, my parents can send me but not the others because..there are tons of stuff to bring. Stuff for 3 weeks, bed linen, blankets and pillows, if we're not renting a car then I'll probably bring my bicycle too. The accommodation is about 3.5km from the place I will be doing my placement at, and according to google, it's 40 minutes walk and 10 minutes cycle time so yea, not going to walk-.- the nearest train station from the accommodation is about 40-50 minutes walk so yea, my 2 other friends that are going with me..well if they're not renting a car then they'll be pretty stranded, unless they wait for a bus? I don't know. I think they're pissed though. Maybe at me or maybe at the situation of not having a car to get there and get to their workplaces. But it's not my fault E can't cycle and her mum doesn't allow her to take the car, and apparently the "three hour plus drive" is "insane" so she's not driving. I don't think J has a car but she can cycle so at least if we don't get a car then I can lend her a bike too and cycle to the placement place.(She didn't my text about it though? So idk) Whatever, maybe it's something I said but everything I said on the chat is the truth and are just suggestions. They have to come up with something themselves if not they'll just have to v-line it there and somehow make their way to the accommodation place. Maybe I can pick them from the station? Maybe. I don't know. Isn't exactly my parents' job to do such errands just because only MY parents are in Melbourne. Yes of course we should help if we can but we can't go overboard you know?  My dad's view is, you have a car, and you can drive, it's your problem if you don't use it, he's not a chauffeur, he doesn't have to send you all the way there. The best he can do is drive in front and you follow behind but if you want to make your own life difficult then there's nothing we can do. I've already suggested renting a car and all that and even checking prices. Not taking it, then fine. I'm going to be selfish here and say I can get there just fine, I don't exactly have to solve your transportation issues. I just hope this doesn't turn to a quarrel or anything because well..we will be living in the same house for 3 weeks together and if this turns to a quarrel, it won't be very comfortable now will it. And over such a trivial matter? Whatever, I'll leave you to solve the problem yourself. As long as someone can get there and get the keys in time, it's all good. Initially I thought this was going to be fun but now it seems like there's more trouble than fun coming this way. Bleh, whatever, tell me if you think I'm wrong about all this. Answers please someone! No one is talking to me lol, am I that annoying...
Anyway, good night!



To all the patriotic Singaporeans out there,
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!
and to all the unpatriotic Singaporeans out there,
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO YOU TOO!!

Wow, just did a count and it's the 5th time I can't watch the ndp on my own television. Have watched the live broadcast 3-4 times now I think? I have to say, the quality of the live stream this year is so much better than last year's. Last year's kept getting cut off and hanging while this year, it got cut off once for mine but the rest ran smoothly.
Funny how I'm more patriotic when I'm not in sg. To me, I guess sg will always be home no matter what colour passport I hold. It's the place I grew up and fostered the many friendships. It's the place where I endured through hectic school and CCA and waking up in the wee hours in the morning. It has been a while since I've been back but nevertheless, I still think of sg as home. Every year, the thing that really warms my heart are the ndp songs. They add songs year after year but the old ones are still the best. It's the ones we grew up singing. Those are the ones that are really sung from the heart. I think after all these years, Home is still my favourite. Reach Out For The Skies is not too bad either, but somehow this one hasn't lasted the time. I think there were 2 new songs back in 2007/2008 that they tried to teach us in school during music lessons but I have no recollection on what their song titles even are..I really enjoyed the band music this year. I've never really noticed it previously but the band that played sounded so good outdoors. Anyone who has played in the open before will understand how hard it is to sound decent.
Anyway, Happy 49th Birthday SG! May you continue to prosper and grow like a ferocious lion. ❤



Whoo! I was talking about my online shopping order in my previous post, hoping that the delivery would be in the coming week. Well, my stuff's here! Got home from work just now and was told that I got my parcel already! Wasn't expecting it to be delivered today because well..how many people work on Sundays right. So, because I spent more than $100 (guilty spender here ahem...), I qualify for free express shipping which is estimated to take 3-5 days for delivery. Being a noob at all this online paying and understand the shipping stuff, I googled it and some people said that it's 3-5 working days and it doesn't include customs times and all that as 3-5 days is the transit time. My order was shipped on the 16th of July and arrived today so yea, it isn't 3-5 working days and the customs was really fast..for mine at least. Quite happy with what I got, except for one of the shirts maybe..can't decide if I like it or not now that it's arrived. It's a lot bigger than I expected so hmm.. Really happy with the rest of the stuff though! Ehehehehe, was happily ripping through all the packaging like a little kid at Christmas LOL. I have seen online that people get their orders in a nice white yesstyle box. Mine didn't come in a box though, but it was all still nicely contained in a bag with yesstyle printed on it. Not much to worry about your package being damaged because if the individual clothes aren't in plastic bags, they're wrapped in paper. I bought a pair of earrings and it came in a plastic bag in a bubble wrap pocket. Pictures hmm..I'll consider putting some up ;)
That's all for now hehe



About time for a life update! 



心里好不安



Motivation to study : none -.- 



WTH



For some reason..I'm so sleepy right now.
Got 3 lectures down, almost died listening to just 5 minutes of the 4th lecture. Going to try to finish it maybe a bit later.
Currently at state library, hmm seems my productivity levels are significantly highly than when I'm at home. Unless I'm having a good day at home of course.

Can't wait for what's going to happen later and over the next week. There goes my entire week without any studying(I have tests the 2 weeks after next week..) but I'm still looking forward to it anyway. Going to spend time with my bffs hehe, the last time we met up was at least 2 years ago.
Time flies and has not limits, sigh and we're all getting old haha. And with this age comes declining energy levels HAHAHHA. Excuses excuses.

Alright, enough procrastination. Have to study hard so that I can enjoy next week!!



Hoho it's been a long time since I've blogged eh ;)



죽는 맛 



Alright I'm back again with another post. This one is kind of a jumble of everything I did for the second half of my week in Fiji.

After the previous 2 posts, you would now know that Fiji is a place people mainly go for the beaches and the weather so you must be wondering WHERE ARE THE BEACHES!

TBH, I only took pictures of the beach on the last few days and when we first arrived, it was sort of rainy weather so the river water caused the seawater to become a dirty greyish colour..not very attractive at all. Didn't manage to catch a nice sunset on camera so, apologies..without further adieu












Bula bula! Haha it's been 4 days since I've got back but the Fiji spirit is still alive at home. I just realised and shall apologise for the extremely low quality photos I posted before..after all, they are from my phone so, can't really expect much eh?

Today's post will just be about Fiji Day 5.

We booked a tour to Robinson Crusoe Island(Likuri Island) the night before with the resort. They charter a bus for the resort guests to leave at 9.30am, head to a second resort to pick up more people and then head to a small jetty alongside the Tuva River where all the guests were split into 2 boats which we took to the river mouth where the Robinson Crusoe Island is located.






















BULA! Literally meaning life, every employee greets you whenever you walk past with the blessing of a good life. I've really enjoyed my week there and so I'll share it with you now. (I'm not being paid, just sharing my experience)

Warning: It's going to be picture heavy so you have been warned..

Fiji is well, a place known to many Australians, and not at all known to most Singaporeans. Majority of the country's income is based on their tourism industry and Australians make up a majority of the tourists there. Everywhere you go, at least 50% of the tourists there are Australian. Fiji consists of a group of 333 islands and less during high tide. They have a population of not even a million people and they are located in the south pacific sea with tropical humid weather. It is their monsoon season at this time of the year, making it more humid. Their ancestors practised cannibalism but that clearly stopped and their dominant belief system is Christianity. The population there is pretty diverse, they have the natives, some Indians, some Chinese and Koreans(and I'm not sure what else). According to my parents, they are a third world country and on the way from Nadi airport to the resort, you can see the condition of the houses which most of the people are living in.

So, we booked a night flight, leaving on the night of the 17th and we arrived in Nadi(pronounced Nandi) at 6+ in the morning on the 18th(Saturday). It's a short flight of about 5 hours. Their daylight saving ended last week so their time is now only 1 hour ahead of Melbourne time. The flight itself wasn't that interesting..after all it was a night flight and we were meant to sleep. We took Fiji Air and their service staff was alright I guess, satisfactory but not excellent. The entertainment choice..was alright too, I plugged in the headphones, set up a playlist and let it run..while I slept so I can't really comment much on that can I? They had hunger games(the first one) but I've watched it before, and it's not really the kind of movie I would watch again even though it's good and also especially at that hour? No thanks. Haha. The humidity isn't as bad as Singapore I think, it doesn't slap you in the face once you step off the plane..

So we arrived at our resort a few hours later. I don't think I'll reveal the name now, but I might change my mind later..for now, let the picture overload begin! (:









Alright, after one day of procrastination(amidst cleaning up the house and going grocery shopping..), it would be nice to see what I've been up to for the past week yes?  I mentioned I would be going away in my last post but didn't mention where, and so now, I'll tell you haha. I spent a lovely week in FIJI!! I'll probably need some time to sort and compile the photos we took from different devices so I'll most likely type up one entry first, and put in the photos I took with my phone, then I'll edit and maybe add in more pics taken from the camera. It's been such an enjoyable week, I'm already missing Fiji and the people there. I miss the night skies, the beach and the people..the resort was beautiful, food was..overpriced and expensive though :/ I can still close my eyes and see the place in my head now and hear the roar of the ocean. Beautiful beautiful place. Sigh..Fiji, you are missed.



Lol I say I'll do so many things but everything ends up nowhere..
Anyway, to finish the previous story, the woman said she was going to take the same train too but point is, she still had enough money on her card to tap on and get on the train, she didn't have to top it up there..she could have just let me go first because I'll just take like 1 minute and clearly her credit cards or whatever weren't working-.- Goodness..even thinking about all this again makes me fed up.

It's been a hot hot hot week in Melbourne, temperatures hitting over 40 degrees. Been chilling on the sofa in the living room right under the evaporative cooling vent because it's just so hot. Kudos to the tennis players playing in the Australian Open even with this heat. Even just stepping outdoors is enough to warrant groans and complaints haha. Ohwell, apparently it's going to cool down after tomorrow. Joke is, I'm going away tomorrow haha.

Had my first driving lesson this morning too. Seems like I'm almost ready to drive solo :OO Booked the driving test to be on 7 Feb which is..really soon. We'll see how that goes eh haha.



SO.MAD. 



Sigh..I've been going about blogger and google-ing for an hour now but I still can't figure out how I can get the music to play..I don't want to sign up for a dropbox account and upload some music files to the public domain..so frustrating :/ I don't know how to do this..html code is not something I know very well )):



How's everyone's new year been so far? Mine's been alright I guess, could have been better, but life moves on. 



Lol okay, I shall eat my words..since today is the last day of 2013, might as well do some reflection right?
This year's gone by in a flash. This blog has come a long way, now that I think of it. It's contained a lot of my random moments, a lot of happy and sad moments, and now so quickly it has almost reached 6 years of existence. A quick check showed that this blog first started existing on the 26th January 2008, what a coincidence, it's Australia Day :D Thanks anyone reading frequently for enduring my countless rants and whatnots. Time has passed by so fast, so much faster than I would have liked it to go, but as they say, time waits for no man(such a cliched phrase but anyway). Like I said in my previous post, I'm not particularly looking forward to the new year, nor am I looking forward to the end of 2013, it's just another opportunity to reflect on what I have, and what I can give.  I've never really had any new year's resolutions well because..I'm not really one to set such goals and try to achieve them. Why not set them as an on-task basis and create goals along the way? Even if I have made new year resolutions in the past, I would have forgotten about them 2 weeks into the new year. So, not going to set any resolutions for this year. It's been a fast but crazy year, but I hope everyone has had a good year and have a year as good and if not better year starting tomorrow. Tomorrow is always a new beginning (:



It's the last day of 2013, yet it's just another day. 

It's been 3 full days since I've been back and it's been good so far.


Struggling to focus here.
Listening to the recording of a lecture and it's so heavily loaded with content..and I decided to be stingy and print my notes smaller, which leaves me with tiny little spaces to write notes -.-

Just did a total lecture count..I have at least 27 lectures to listen to. Not even including the pre-recorded ones they like to give us as extra work. Add self-study topics on top of that, plus assignment due on wednesday. The next three weeks ain't going to be easy. But I guess if I have to stay up late to get work done then so be it..it's a sacrifice I will have to make.

Exam timetable is out. It's not..terrible but we start quite early this time. One on the 10th then 17th then 19th June. It's alright, not that terrible. Well nothing can compare to having exams on consecutive days right. Been there, done that. The night in between was a mad rush of balancing I-need-to-finish-revision and I-deserve-a-break. Lol. I always feel entitled to have a break after a test or an exam and seriously do nothing for the rest of the day but you know, some circumstances just don't work that way.

I don't even sleep well nowadays :/ Can't fall asleep at night and then waking up at 7++ in the morning isn't exactly the best thing. I used to be able to fall back to sleep if I woke up to early but now I can't..I just get so restless :/ Getting old maybe?!!

Things are somewhat starting to fall in place. I'm waiting on a few deliveries to arrive this week so hopefully they all arrive in time. Spent my day packing thy room, completed something, did 1 lecture..and in the process of finishing another one at the moment. Well yea, that's my day.

We have this group assignment thing due on wednesday and gahhhh there is this someone. Someone with more patience than I do has explained what needs to be done for her segment and she goes to do it..and what is typed up is not even relevant to the information that the question is asking for. Had to look through it and redo it last night, but it's lacking references everywhere for that part :/ We're meeting up tomorrow to complete it so hopefully we will be able to complete it...Well it is due on wednesday so we do have to finish it no matter what..Sigh, this never ending group work with people who don't contribute their fair share. WHY DO THESE PEOPLE EXIST WHYYYYYY.

Alright, enough of the ranting..effective studying needs to be completed!!!

The real craziness has begun. Or so I think. Okok it isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Just have to finish up the assignment due on Wednesday, study for the test for this Friday and work on the other assignment due the 27th.

Really shouldn't be blogging right now D:
I don't know why, I keep typing up posts and deleting them. I've typed up 2 posts just before typing this one but I've decided to keep them unpublished. Maybe I'll post them one day. When I do well in the future perhaps. One day when I can look back and tell myself how foolish I was back then to worry so much. 

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:34

I'm so tired. Yesterday was one of those crappy days. Even thinking about it now is putting me in a bad mood. I really can't wait until April is over. It's been so...tumultuous even though we're only a bit more than halfway through it. At this point in time, I just want out. Go somewhere where I can breathe in peace without having to think of repercussions and the future. 



Blundering through storms.
Not literally but still.
I wasn't expecting it to be a walk in the park but definitely am I not prepared for what's coming up next. In the 3 weeks of April that we have in uni before the next placements block,
16th April - Test
20th April - Test
22 April - Group Assignment due
24 April - Test, applications for internship in a certain area finish
30 April - Test
And then intersperse those with gazillion lectures and tutes and workshops and what does that give you? A dead me. LOL. Not literally.
And so I have spent my 1 week midsem break trying to get some studying and note writing down so I don't find myself sinking in a deep never-ending abyss of doom. And also in between those, we have so many self-study topics and readings to do I can't even D:
Do you know how discouraging it is? To finally be able to feel that you've caught up only to realise that you've only just got to the foot of the real mountain you've to climb?
Doesn't really help that no one else in my group for the group assignment has done ANY work at all for it. I can safely say that I've done almost half of the assignment already, myself. And this was meant to be a 5-person group. 1 person is un-contactable even. With all these tests in the way, why wouldn't they want to work on it now?! ARGH. I don't want to end up working on the stupid assignment when we have a test due 2 days after it's due. As much as you guys are busy, I'm busy too, but can't you even bother to reply?!! Some people...
There I was waiting for May and a good holiday when I realised all this crap was going to happen..before May -.- So until May, it's wading in the good ol' waist-deep mud until I reach the other end...
All the uni peeps in sg, jiayou for your exams!!

I have this friend. She constantly makes me question the definition of a good/true friend.
To her, a good friend is someone who would correct you when you're doing something wrong or behaving in a way that would turn people off etc.
But to me, isn't a good friend someone who would accept you for the way you are?
I am very blessed to be able to say I have 2 of these who have been there for me no matter what, even after all these years - and we're not even in the same continent now! But never in the close to 10 years that I've known both of them has any one of them told me I shouldn't say something in a certain way or I shouldn't complain or I should do this this this. These are friends I can feel comfortable with even if we're silent.
But with this other friend, it's different. I feel like she's judging me for the way I talk, for the things that I say and she'll correct me because she thinks that's what a good friend would do. She does have a point but I feel like it doesn't have to be in my face every time we talk. She says she's very blunt and it can come off the wrong way and if I feel there's something she needs to change I can always bring it up to her. That's something she accepts but sometimes I really hate it that something or other will come up in a conversation over the phone. If it's correcting me over a word I say wrong or funny, it's ok, but I don't exactly want to be told how to do things or how to say things because someone else thinks it's not right. Is this really what a true friend should be like?
You know, we're all looking for acceptance in this vast cold world. In the workforce, the one who tells you off are the people who care about you and the people who sit there and do nothing are the ones who will shoot you down later. But do I really need to be corrected on how I said/asked something in a group chat with people I never knew existed? Maybe I'm in a late rebellious stage but I really don't think I need to be told how to behave or how I should do things.
A lot of the times it really gets on my nerves and maybe we're this way because we have a different perception of what a good friend should be like. Both are correct but I think there has to be a balance and a limit for what your friend should and should not interfere with. Is this going too far this time? Yes I think so. I have to admit, I was so very close to flaring up and after the phone call I was actually quite pissed off and I could tell she was too. But you have to have your limits when approaching people.
What's your definition of a good friend?

It's been a long while since I've posted, partly due to the fact that I had nothing really interesting going on with my life, two because I have typed up posts and ended up deleting them.
But it is with great heaviness and emptiness in my heart that I type this post up.
It is rare for Singaporeans to rally together at this magnitude. I think many have said this(or at least on my Facebook..), it is difficult to grieve a man whom I have never met nor personally known. But I can safely say that he is someone who has my respect for what he has done for Singapore.
I was born and raised for most part of my life in a modern, peaceful and prosperous Singapore, all of which wouldn't be possible without his dedication. I grew up in a Singapore where I learnt about his achievements from social studies lessons. How many countries have been able to transform from a third world country to a first world country in the short span of less than 50 years? He led a small fishing port to our dizzying heights of today. I think it's safe to say that it's undeniable what he has helped Singapore to achieve as a nation, as a country. Much has changed in the past 50 years but he stood firm in the ways he believed Singapore should grow and prosper. He had the vision, and the determination to achieve. Not many have the determination, courage and wisdom that he had in leading Singapore. Not many can lead such a small country to the heights we experience today, and for that, thank you Mr Lee. You are an inspiration and a great leader. You have left behind a legacy manifested in the peace and prosperity we often take for granted. Thank you for your unwavering love and dedication to this nation.
#RIPLKY #OnceASingaporeanAlwaysASingaporean

"I have no regrets. I have spent my life, so much of it, building up this country. There's nothing more that I need to do. At the end of the day, what have I got? A successful Singapore. What have I given up? My life."



Finally back to reality and the 3 weeks of 'holiday' are over. 

Hello world! Day 2 of placements. 

Sigh..every update on the incident that I see, my heart still drops.
And this is considering I never knew who she was until this incident.
'Sad' can't even begin to describe this feeling. It's more of disbelief and shock, that this can happen, and has happened. I wasn't like this the first time round, thankfully maybe because no one else was seriously injured, unlike this incident where there are updates on the injured member's conditions.
This incident has really made me more scared of driving now because well, who knows what will happen.

I will be leaving for my rural placement on Sunday for 3 weeks, so will be praying for a safe journey and for me to be a safe driver...
Well, let's just say my track record for driving isn't exactly clean..my parents are entrusting me with the car so I better take good care of it. As I said, I will be going away for 3 weeks to the countryside..where wifi connection is not available, meaning I will only have my phone plan's data and credit to last me the entire time. It's going to be a busy 3 weeks, but I will have fun and hopefully come back a better driver...and parker..

Not sure how much you are a kpop listener but if you are, pretty sure you've heard of the sad sad tragedy that occurred a few days ago. To be honest, it's kind of thrown me off the tracks and I can't really keep my mind focussed on doing anything. It's just so so sad that it happened this way. I've only ever heard the name of the group and never heard their music or knew the member's names but I think the whole kpop fandom has really come together in the light of this.
To me, she is someone I just "met" through a computer screen but what happened to her is so closely similar to something that happened to 2 distant relatives of mine it's almost personal. Seatbelts may be the most uncomfortable thing ever but really, please wear your seat belts. Every day, young people around the world have passed in a car accident where they didn't have their seat belts on, I'm pretty sure it happens commonly. The seat belts are there for a reason. No matter how much you hate them, they are for your protection. When I was younger and my mum told me to put on my seatbelt if not, in an accident I could be flung out of the car, to be honest I didn't really believe it. How can a person fly out from a car window when the car window is so small? Or how could a person fly out through the back windscreen when the space for the person to manoeuvre is so small? Surely the doors can block the person from flying out? Time and now time again has reminded me that this is possible.
This tragedy is so sad because those girls were just travelling home after a performance. Few hours ago they were dancing and singing around on stage and a few hours later, all this happened. She was so young and they haven't even had to chance to really showcase all that they were. The distant relatives that I mentioned before were mother and son. And the son was even younger than I was. They don't get to grow old, don't get to fulfil their ambitions, don't get to have their own families because all was taken from them at the high of their lives. Despite me not being close to any of them, knowing of anything like this still shatters me. No one should have to pass this way. No one. That's why, please put on your seat belts, even if it's just for a 5 minute ride because you never know what will happen.
Rest in peace and condolences to her family. I can't imagine what her family must be going through now, especially her parents.
For the other 2 members in critical condition, pray that they will recover fully. Regardless of the outcome, what has happened, has happened.
I think everyone's heart is weighed down and hurt by what has happened to such a young girl who was just beginning to realise her dream. We can never predict what will happen in the future, even if it's the next minute. You never know when your last breath will be, it could be the next minute, or even second. Take care everyone, wear your seat belts.

Some people really lack the decency sometimes..

Have got Tablo's cover of Taeyang's Eyes, Nose, Lips on replay atm. So beautiful.

Anyway, I'll be going on rural placements in 3 weeks time for 3 weeks. I'm actually looking forward to it. There's some crap going on about getting there etc. because we haven't got a car. Initially I thought we could at least have 1 car so we can get there at least but now none of us can get a car so well, my parents can send me but not the others because..there are tons of stuff to bring. Stuff for 3 weeks, bed linen, blankets and pillows, if we're not renting a car then I'll probably bring my bicycle too. The accommodation is about 3.5km from the place I will be doing my placement at, and according to google, it's 40 minutes walk and 10 minutes cycle time so yea, not going to walk-.- the nearest train station from the accommodation is about 40-50 minutes walk so yea, my 2 other friends that are going with me..well if they're not renting a car then they'll be pretty stranded, unless they wait for a bus? I don't know. I think they're pissed though. Maybe at me or maybe at the situation of not having a car to get there and get to their workplaces. But it's not my fault E can't cycle and her mum doesn't allow her to take the car, and apparently the "three hour plus drive" is "insane" so she's not driving. I don't think J has a car but she can cycle so at least if we don't get a car then I can lend her a bike too and cycle to the placement place.(She didn't my text about it though? So idk) Whatever, maybe it's something I said but everything I said on the chat is the truth and are just suggestions. They have to come up with something themselves if not they'll just have to v-line it there and somehow make their way to the accommodation place. Maybe I can pick them from the station? Maybe. I don't know. Isn't exactly my parents' job to do such errands just because only MY parents are in Melbourne. Yes of course we should help if we can but we can't go overboard you know?  My dad's view is, you have a car, and you can drive, it's your problem if you don't use it, he's not a chauffeur, he doesn't have to send you all the way there. The best he can do is drive in front and you follow behind but if you want to make your own life difficult then there's nothing we can do. I've already suggested renting a car and all that and even checking prices. Not taking it, then fine. I'm going to be selfish here and say I can get there just fine, I don't exactly have to solve your transportation issues. I just hope this doesn't turn to a quarrel or anything because well..we will be living in the same house for 3 weeks together and if this turns to a quarrel, it won't be very comfortable now will it. And over such a trivial matter? Whatever, I'll leave you to solve the problem yourself. As long as someone can get there and get the keys in time, it's all good. Initially I thought this was going to be fun but now it seems like there's more trouble than fun coming this way. Bleh, whatever, tell me if you think I'm wrong about all this. Answers please someone! No one is talking to me lol, am I that annoying...
Anyway, good night!

To all the patriotic Singaporeans out there,
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!
and to all the unpatriotic Singaporeans out there,
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO YOU TOO!!

Wow, just did a count and it's the 5th time I can't watch the ndp on my own television. Have watched the live broadcast 3-4 times now I think? I have to say, the quality of the live stream this year is so much better than last year's. Last year's kept getting cut off and hanging while this year, it got cut off once for mine but the rest ran smoothly.
Funny how I'm more patriotic when I'm not in sg. To me, I guess sg will always be home no matter what colour passport I hold. It's the place I grew up and fostered the many friendships. It's the place where I endured through hectic school and CCA and waking up in the wee hours in the morning. It has been a while since I've been back but nevertheless, I still think of sg as home. Every year, the thing that really warms my heart are the ndp songs. They add songs year after year but the old ones are still the best. It's the ones we grew up singing. Those are the ones that are really sung from the heart. I think after all these years, Home is still my favourite. Reach Out For The Skies is not too bad either, but somehow this one hasn't lasted the time. I think there were 2 new songs back in 2007/2008 that they tried to teach us in school during music lessons but I have no recollection on what their song titles even are..I really enjoyed the band music this year. I've never really noticed it previously but the band that played sounded so good outdoors. Anyone who has played in the open before will understand how hard it is to sound decent.
Anyway, Happy 49th Birthday SG! May you continue to prosper and grow like a ferocious lion. ❤

Whoo! I was talking about my online shopping order in my previous post, hoping that the delivery would be in the coming week. Well, my stuff's here! Got home from work just now and was told that I got my parcel already! Wasn't expecting it to be delivered today because well..how many people work on Sundays right. So, because I spent more than $100 (guilty spender here ahem...), I qualify for free express shipping which is estimated to take 3-5 days for delivery. Being a noob at all this online paying and understand the shipping stuff, I googled it and some people said that it's 3-5 working days and it doesn't include customs times and all that as 3-5 days is the transit time. My order was shipped on the 16th of July and arrived today so yea, it isn't 3-5 working days and the customs was really fast..for mine at least. Quite happy with what I got, except for one of the shirts maybe..can't decide if I like it or not now that it's arrived. It's a lot bigger than I expected so hmm.. Really happy with the rest of the stuff though! Ehehehehe, was happily ripping through all the packaging like a little kid at Christmas LOL. I have seen online that people get their orders in a nice white yesstyle box. Mine didn't come in a box though, but it was all still nicely contained in a bag with yesstyle printed on it. Not much to worry about your package being damaged because if the individual clothes aren't in plastic bags, they're wrapped in paper. I bought a pair of earrings and it came in a plastic bag in a bubble wrap pocket. Pictures hmm..I'll consider putting some up ;)
That's all for now hehe

About time for a life update! 

心里好不安

Motivation to study : none -.- 

WTH

For some reason..I'm so sleepy right now.
Got 3 lectures down, almost died listening to just 5 minutes of the 4th lecture. Going to try to finish it maybe a bit later.
Currently at state library, hmm seems my productivity levels are significantly highly than when I'm at home. Unless I'm having a good day at home of course.

Can't wait for what's going to happen later and over the next week. There goes my entire week without any studying(I have tests the 2 weeks after next week..) but I'm still looking forward to it anyway. Going to spend time with my bffs hehe, the last time we met up was at least 2 years ago.
Time flies and has not limits, sigh and we're all getting old haha. And with this age comes declining energy levels HAHAHHA. Excuses excuses.

Alright, enough procrastination. Have to study hard so that I can enjoy next week!!

Hoho it's been a long time since I've blogged eh ;)

죽는 맛 

Alright I'm back again with another post. This one is kind of a jumble of everything I did for the second half of my week in Fiji.

After the previous 2 posts, you would now know that Fiji is a place people mainly go for the beaches and the weather so you must be wondering WHERE ARE THE BEACHES!

TBH, I only took pictures of the beach on the last few days and when we first arrived, it was sort of rainy weather so the river water caused the seawater to become a dirty greyish colour..not very attractive at all. Didn't manage to catch a nice sunset on camera so, apologies..without further adieu










Bula bula! Haha it's been 4 days since I've got back but the Fiji spirit is still alive at home. I just realised and shall apologise for the extremely low quality photos I posted before..after all, they are from my phone so, can't really expect much eh?

Today's post will just be about Fiji Day 5.

We booked a tour to Robinson Crusoe Island(Likuri Island) the night before with the resort. They charter a bus for the resort guests to leave at 9.30am, head to a second resort to pick up more people and then head to a small jetty alongside the Tuva River where all the guests were split into 2 boats which we took to the river mouth where the Robinson Crusoe Island is located.




















BULA! Literally meaning life, every employee greets you whenever you walk past with the blessing of a good life. I've really enjoyed my week there and so I'll share it with you now. (I'm not being paid, just sharing my experience)

Warning: It's going to be picture heavy so you have been warned..

Fiji is well, a place known to many Australians, and not at all known to most Singaporeans. Majority of the country's income is based on their tourism industry and Australians make up a majority of the tourists there. Everywhere you go, at least 50% of the tourists there are Australian. Fiji consists of a group of 333 islands and less during high tide. They have a population of not even a million people and they are located in the south pacific sea with tropical humid weather. It is their monsoon season at this time of the year, making it more humid. Their ancestors practised cannibalism but that clearly stopped and their dominant belief system is Christianity. The population there is pretty diverse, they have the natives, some Indians, some Chinese and Koreans(and I'm not sure what else). According to my parents, they are a third world country and on the way from Nadi airport to the resort, you can see the condition of the houses which most of the people are living in.

So, we booked a night flight, leaving on the night of the 17th and we arrived in Nadi(pronounced Nandi) at 6+ in the morning on the 18th(Saturday). It's a short flight of about 5 hours. Their daylight saving ended last week so their time is now only 1 hour ahead of Melbourne time. The flight itself wasn't that interesting..after all it was a night flight and we were meant to sleep. We took Fiji Air and their service staff was alright I guess, satisfactory but not excellent. The entertainment choice..was alright too, I plugged in the headphones, set up a playlist and let it run..while I slept so I can't really comment much on that can I? They had hunger games(the first one) but I've watched it before, and it's not really the kind of movie I would watch again even though it's good and also especially at that hour? No thanks. Haha. The humidity isn't as bad as Singapore I think, it doesn't slap you in the face once you step off the plane..

So we arrived at our resort a few hours later. I don't think I'll reveal the name now, but I might change my mind later..for now, let the picture overload begin! (:







Alright, after one day of procrastination(amidst cleaning up the house and going grocery shopping..), it would be nice to see what I've been up to for the past week yes?  I mentioned I would be going away in my last post but didn't mention where, and so now, I'll tell you haha. I spent a lovely week in FIJI!! I'll probably need some time to sort and compile the photos we took from different devices so I'll most likely type up one entry first, and put in the photos I took with my phone, then I'll edit and maybe add in more pics taken from the camera. It's been such an enjoyable week, I'm already missing Fiji and the people there. I miss the night skies, the beach and the people..the resort was beautiful, food was..overpriced and expensive though :/ I can still close my eyes and see the place in my head now and hear the roar of the ocean. Beautiful beautiful place. Sigh..Fiji, you are missed.

Lol I say I'll do so many things but everything ends up nowhere..
Anyway, to finish the previous story, the woman said she was going to take the same train too but point is, she still had enough money on her card to tap on and get on the train, she didn't have to top it up there..she could have just let me go first because I'll just take like 1 minute and clearly her credit cards or whatever weren't working-.- Goodness..even thinking about all this again makes me fed up.

It's been a hot hot hot week in Melbourne, temperatures hitting over 40 degrees. Been chilling on the sofa in the living room right under the evaporative cooling vent because it's just so hot. Kudos to the tennis players playing in the Australian Open even with this heat. Even just stepping outdoors is enough to warrant groans and complaints haha. Ohwell, apparently it's going to cool down after tomorrow. Joke is, I'm going away tomorrow haha.

Had my first driving lesson this morning too. Seems like I'm almost ready to drive solo :OO Booked the driving test to be on 7 Feb which is..really soon. We'll see how that goes eh haha.

SO.MAD. 

Sigh..I've been going about blogger and google-ing for an hour now but I still can't figure out how I can get the music to play..I don't want to sign up for a dropbox account and upload some music files to the public domain..so frustrating :/ I don't know how to do this..html code is not something I know very well )):

How's everyone's new year been so far? Mine's been alright I guess, could have been better, but life moves on. 

Lol okay, I shall eat my words..since today is the last day of 2013, might as well do some reflection right?
This year's gone by in a flash. This blog has come a long way, now that I think of it. It's contained a lot of my random moments, a lot of happy and sad moments, and now so quickly it has almost reached 6 years of existence. A quick check showed that this blog first started existing on the 26th January 2008, what a coincidence, it's Australia Day :D Thanks anyone reading frequently for enduring my countless rants and whatnots. Time has passed by so fast, so much faster than I would have liked it to go, but as they say, time waits for no man(such a cliched phrase but anyway). Like I said in my previous post, I'm not particularly looking forward to the new year, nor am I looking forward to the end of 2013, it's just another opportunity to reflect on what I have, and what I can give.  I've never really had any new year's resolutions well because..I'm not really one to set such goals and try to achieve them. Why not set them as an on-task basis and create goals along the way? Even if I have made new year resolutions in the past, I would have forgotten about them 2 weeks into the new year. So, not going to set any resolutions for this year. It's been a fast but crazy year, but I hope everyone has had a good year and have a year as good and if not better year starting tomorrow. Tomorrow is always a new beginning (:

It's the last day of 2013, yet it's just another day. 

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