I probably shouldn't be posting now at work but then..no customers are walking into the shop at all..sigh

Was thinking about stuff on the train journey to work today.
What do you consider a good friend or a close friend? When we were kids, being someone's best friend probably meant knowing all the little details of that friend(like their favourite colour for example), memorising their number and playing together a lot (no innuendo intended). But then as I grew older, I think that definition of a good friend has changed. I don't think I know that many tiny little details about my close friends. Even I don't know those tiny little details about me. Like what's my favourite colour? I don't know LOL depends on my mood and the weather I guess, I don't really have a favourite colour anymore. Anyway, back to the main point, I think as I grow older, a best friend means someone who has my absolute trust and someone I can share anything with. There can be tons of little facts you know about acquaintances but I guess if you can't share some things with them, you wouldn't consider them friends. Then again, I think you really know who may be your friends for life(quite literally) when you can disappear for a long period of time, say a year, and still be able to talk with them comfortably. Every time I head back to Singapore, when I meet my friends, it feels like we're just continuing where we left off, like I never left at all, which is kind of touching in that sense I guess. I can't find a friend like that here. It's been what, 3 years(start of the 4th year now)? Sure I have friends but once the holidays start, it's as quiet as a deserted wasteland or something. The people whom I thought I was close to just don't feel close enough if that even makes sense. Maybe because all the people I'm making friends with are at least a full year older than me, I don't know. In all seriousness, I really miss my friends. I miss just taking a bus to get out of the house. I miss going crazy together, I really do. My dad's going to take his citizenship test sometime this year, and my mum's not taking it yet. As for me, I have to do it on my own now since I'm legally an adult. But then do I really want to? Australia is nice, it really is, but then the friends I make just seem..distant no matter how close we may appear to be. And it's not like I'm planning to go back to Singapore to work because I don't see any future in my profession in Singapore. Recently I've been seriously thinking about uni. I don't even know why I chose this course now. At first when I chose it and got in, I guess I was relieved in a way because I guess I don't really have an interest in commerce. But after studying one year, I can say I don't know where I'm heading. I enjoy uni, like the stuff we learn is interesting but about the profession itself, then I'm not so sure. People keep telling my mum that I should quickly try to get a job in a pharmacy because it's now quite hard to find a job there and I need experience, the more the better. And so, my mum has been nagging me now to go to some shopping centre pretty far away to hand in my resume to the 'busiest place in Melbourne' or something like that. I'm really doubting my career choice to be honest. I just got a job one and a half months ago and now you're telling me to abandon ship and get another job? If you didn't know, I'm currently working for my parents' friend from church, aunty E. She was nice enough to take me in without any experience. She's not paying me a lot and has me work almost every day but the fact that I got my first job with her is good enough. I can't just abandon ship now after just one and a half months?! Yes, I will look for another job this year but now just isn't the time. For some reason, I'm starting to dread what my future life may look like.



Just encountered a difficult customer. Mother an daughter pair, both pretty old, mother being nicer and more reasonable than her daughter..
They said they bought something before Christmas and it doesn't work no matter which phone they try it on. They demanded a refund without a receipt and the daughter claimed to have thrown the receipt away since she didn't think that she would have to bring it back. First of all, which shop can give you a refund when you don't have the receipt-.- want a refund then keep your receipt!! The daughter literally shouted her story at least 5 times consecutively why I should give her a refund and said if I don't give a refund then she will take this further. Like what, sue us? Break or damage the shop or products? Her mum said that she spent $30 on it and it was a lot of money for her daughter. Well from the clothes they were wearing and how they mentioning spending a lot of money in the shop before Christmas, I highly doubt so. If $30 is a lot to you then a court summon would probably get you bankrupt then? You want my pity or empathy? Sorry you get none. It's not like they were beggars or something. Even if the daughter worked part time at a supermarket or something, she would definitely get $30 in at most 3 hours considering her age. The minimum pay per hour in Australia that I have heard if so far is $8 an hour. Therefore if she works anywhere, I can confirm that $30 isn't considered that much. Before I started working, $30 was a lot but then that was because I ha literally nothing and had to ask my parents for money. Now that I'm working, I can get $30 in 3-4 hours, so how much is $30 to her? She's not in rags, has a boyfriend so what in the world is $30?! I think her mother also couldn't stand her yelling her story so many times(in the exact same phrasing somemore) and told her to shut up lolol. Gave her the refund in cash and then they finally left. Worst thing is, after they left when I checked the product to see if it works with my iPod or not(it's supposed to work with mp3, mobile phones or laptops), it freaking works. Looks like those people don't know about an ON AND OFF SWITCH that exists in our modern society and neither did they try looking for one. Should have tried it in front of them and make the daughter shut up-.- if only I checked their claims earlier..the daughter actually looks older than my mum ok, like what is this-.- so ridiculous!!!



It is the last hour of 2012 (At least in Melbourne that is) and I thought it appropriate to post.
I know I mentioned 2 posts ago that I had a lot if things to post about and I would post it soon but unfortunately..this forgetful person here has forgotten what she was supposed to post about..for now, a new years eve post will suffice.

A lot has happened this year 2012 and already so quickly this year is coming to an end in 55minutes. I would say 2012 is definitely one of the years that I will not forget because so much has happened this year it isn't a year that will be wiped clean from memory. I wouldn't say 2012 started well for me. Not doing as well as I expected to in my exam just left me in a quite dejected mood. Regardless, my dad suggested to take the train to the city to watch the fireworks there so that's how we welcomed 2012. After attempting to look for a job and finally giving up in the holidays at the start of the year, I pretty much slacked for the entire holiday until the last week before uni started. Suddenly we received a call from my uncle informing is of my ahgong's passing. Rushed back the day after the call, the Saturday just before uni started. Came back after the wake and tarted uni. Lode went on and during Easter my dad brought us somewhere..and again informed of the death of another relative, this time of my dad's cousin's wife and eldest teenage son. Not to mention also, Whitney houston's death also shocked many this year. Had also been hearing from quite a few people about the death of their relatives, most of them losing a grandparent. (the phrasing for that last sentence was a bit awkward, sorry..not going to think how to phrase it now)
Not to forget, the several dates where the world was predicted to end. December 21 2012..guess what, the world's still spinning, lives are still moving on.

There are many things that have happened this year that I'm really thankful for and i'm glad to say I don't think I did much that I was regretful about. Hopefully next year will be a good year and I will blog again tmr.
For now,
A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR, HAPPY 2013. May God's name be glorified and may many more people learn of His name and His love in the new year. Have a blesses year ahead!



MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY AND ENJOY THE TIME WITH YOUR FAMILIES!! Ok I don't know why I typed in caps..but uh, you get my point :D



I actually have a lot to post about but I'm just too lazy/tired at the moment to do any real blogging for now..so bye and anticipate my next post hahah



If I could, I would fly to the moon right now.

Results are out earlier than the date given to us but at least I won't spend the first day of work fretting. I did the same as the first semester but different arrangement of grades. For the subject I was fretting about and worrying about so much, I passed and did quite well surprisingly. But really, I'm so so happy that I didn't fail that subject. Thank You God for answering my prayers.

First day of work tomorrow. Hopefully I learn everything quickly and be able to be a reliable worker ;D Must now go find out how to get there..but as of now, life's good :D



I'm feeling very..conflicted right now.
I want to be happy but yet I feel uneasy and apprehensive.
Reason for being happy? I got a job, like finally. Not going to disclose much but it's not at a pharmacy. Not going to reveal anymore, but if you really want to know then ask me personally. I am really happy I am hired. Finally I can start earning some money for myself so I don't have to keep asking my parents for money when I want to buy something or when I'm going out. Looks like I'll be able to go to the uni ball next year ;D

Uneasy because..exam results are out this coming monday, 3rd of Dec. Screwed up 1 exam but that may be enough to make me stay back a year to redo that subject. And also this from the intranet..

"Students who fail 25% (1 unit) in a semester will be required to see the Unit Coordinator of the failed unit. A form will need to be signed by the Unit Coordinator and returned to Academic and Student Services before Week 3 of the following semester. "
Basically..you see the unit coordinator and tell them why you failed and probably why you deserve the chance to retake the subject again or something like that I think. I am praying so hard that I didn't fail. I think I have about 30-35% from other assignments. Not sure what the passing mark is but the exam constitutes 60% of the final mark so I need 20% out of the 60% to get 50% overall. Not sure what the passing mark is(I think it's 48% or something like that?) Well, hopefully I didn't fail too badly at the exam :/ Darn psychology..
The other subjects, I guess I walked out feeling quite good, knowing I  probably did my best. Not sure about how to results will come out though. Every time I walk out of an exam feeling happy and satisfied, the results always come out below my expectations. I think there's a set of results for another test out already but I can't seem to see it or find the folder for it. I'm not sure if it's already out(although I think it is) and I can't access it for some reason. It doesn't show up in my 'grades' folder..so strange because I remember how my friends were talking about how badly they did? I feel worried, I really do.



Struck lottery and posting twice a day?
I didn't realise I already posted this morning but whatever, another post won't kill.

It has suddenly hit me that I am actually not good at anything in particular.
In school, despite it being a bilingual school, the students' command of both English and Chinese was neither very good nor very bad. Speaking in general here, because there are definitely some who are very good in either. Me being the average or even below average student is fluent in both English and Chinese but I cannot safely say that I have mastered either.
This doesn't end with my command of languages. Even though I play at least 2 instruments(attempting to learn one more now), I cannot say I have mastered either one. Both are somewhat there, neither excellent nor terrible.
It's like everything is hanging in limbo, being neither good nor bad and in that sense I guess I haven't found what I am good at.
How do I stand out from the crowd? At the moment, I believe I'm overshadowed in every single aspect.



So fed-up right now.
Writing up my resume so I can finally go get a job and I am getting so fed-up with it.
First of all, there isn't really much to put on it other than my academic stuff. I have no work experience nor do I have any references. Even volunteer work..the only volunteer work I ever remember doing was CIP - cleaning beaches, visiting a children's home, hanging up national flags at a HDB block for national day and hamper wrapping, and to be honest, that's it. I don't have anything else and all the CIP that I've ever done is not even relevant to what I'm applying for. Also, all the CIP activities were done more than 3 years ago. I have nothing. Singapore education has never prepared me for half studying and half working. I didn't even have to work during holidays in Singapore because holidays were spent studying, doing holiday homework and cca. Can't I just honestly tell the interviewer about this? I was actually planning to put my high school teachers contacts. I asked my friend about it and she thought it would be weird if I was already past 1st year uni but still using high school teacher contacts. She thought using uni lecturers or tutors would be more appropriate. But then, my lecturers or tutors don't even know of my existence!! Should I still email and ask anyway? I was thinking maybe I could email one of the lecturers because I did quite well in the assignments, but then I realised that's the subject which I screwed up the exam, maybe not such a good idea since he would probably look it up to see what he could say. Furthermore, he's not a full-time lecturer. So again, I'm stuck in a rut.  I googled about the lack of work experience and they said you can put volunteer work instead, or odd jobs like baby-sitting. But then again, it's not very relevant at all to what I'm applying for-.- Then I googled about the lack of references. They said you could use personal references such as family friends who can testify your character and how you work. But then it was also said that use of personal references should be minimised and emphasis on those are often not taken into account. I read somewhere that sometimes if you blow the interviewer away at the interview, they often won't ask for the references.
I honestly feel like coming clean and telling the interviewers that I don't have any work experience whatsoever, nor do I have any references, but I'm willing to work hard to prove myself given the chance.

I texted another friend about what she put on hers(she got a job recently) and she also said she had no work experience and had nothing on her resume(although I do think she has some work experience from year10 that was..compulsory if I'm not wrong). Asked her about the work experience part and the references part. Hopefully she sees it soon.
If I really can't write up a resume, then I guess I'll have to volunteer somewhere.



Today's weather is HOTHOTHOT!! High of 34 degrees today. It's the kind of weather where you don't feel like doing anything. This apparently is a behavioral mechanism with regards to body temperature regulation. Less movement means less heat production, preventing increase of the body's core temperature.

Anyway, something funny happened last Thursday. My mum brought my brother(year 7) for some trial Maths tuition and then having nothing better to do, I tagged along. We walked into the room and then the tutor was like uh..so who is here for the trial? Hahaha so do I look that young or does my brother look matured or both..

I know there's a lack of structure and flow in this post but whatever, I shall blame the weather.



Exams are over, it's the holidays and I have time on my hands so, why not blog?
Talking about exams..I really feel uneasy about my results. They're not out yet but I still feel..very uneasy about it.

Anyway, it is really about time I started blogging again after the crazy exam study period.
I owe my friend a birthday letter and I still haven't gotten down to writing it yet because I can't find some stuff..argh I really have to start doing something before I waste my entire life away.
Need to finish my resume this weekend and start the job hunting next week. My mum keeps bugging me to quickly get one before all the spots are taken. I think the only reason why I keep putting it off is firstly, my resume is so empty and..embarrassing if you think about it. Other than academic qualifications, nothing else is worth putting on it. Secondly, I'm so worried about the interview. Generally I'm terrible at spontaneous replies. I'm just hoping that the place that I apply will take me even though I don't have any work experience or whatsoever. One thing Singapore education didn't exactly prepare students for. Well, in Singapore it makes sense to not work until after A levels but over here, people start working early and rack up all types of work experience. It's so hard><

Anyway, I was thinking about something the other day and it hit me that it's interesting how our brains register something as funny and trigger laughter. There are many different types of things that make us laugh, different things for different people but how do we determine if something is funny or not? Do we learn to tell what is funny or not funny?



It's been quite a while since I updated.
Exams finished on monday, so in short, I've been doing nothing for this entire week. Well, not exactly nothing haha. Packed my room and when I say pack up I mean like take everything of the shelves and out of the drawers and start packing again. One thing to note..I have so much stuff. Dug out a lot of things that had sentimental value to me and reading all of it just made me smile and think how blessed I am for the friends God has put in my life. Sure I've met a few unpleasant people along the way, misunderstandings formed in some friendships and now I can safely say it was all worth it. Without meeting those unpleasant people and having the misunderstandings that I did, I would not have the same close friends I have today. I'm a person that values sentimental stuff a lot, like I keep letters and birthday letters from my friends (I even have a metal box for it haha). I even have some notes we ever passed in class. Digging all of it out and taking a look at those things again makes me miss them so much more.

I also finished watching Iljimae, the Lee JunKi version. Can I say, I do not regret spending 20 hours of my life watching that drama. This is one of the dramas that made me cry and laugh throughout. I started the drama on wednesday I think and then already from episode 1 I started crying because it's so..sad and touching. The child actors are really good, especially the boy that acted as the young Lee Geom. No show ever has made me cry in the first episode, not even One Litre of Tears, and this drama definitely caught my attention from the first episode. I have no idea why people find the first 5 episodes or so boring. The OSTs are so sad but beautiful at the same time. I really wouldn't mind watching this again. I took really long to decide what show to watch because nowadays, most of the taiwanese dramas have storylines that are very..typical? I don't really know how to describe them but they don't have storylines that get your attention from the first episode. Don't think I'll watch any taiwanese dramas in the meantime, even the older ones. Not even planning to watch sunshine angel that I planned to watch ages ago, it has my favourite singers/actors in it but the storyline just doesn't sound interesting. Should I watch The Return of Iljimae? Somehow, Lee JunKi is stuck in my head as THE Iljimae and he doesn't act in The Return of Iljimae. Dara has a small feature in it though :/ Should I watch it? I read somewhere that JunKi's version of Iljimae was more action-packed and has an older demographic whereas The Return of Iljimae is for a younger group of people. Went to read some reviews about Iljimae and quite a few of them say the script was messed up? I thought it was pretty ok/good. One thing most of the reviews put down as the good points was the acting, and that one I do agree. The acting was so real that I sort of thought they were the actual characters themselves, I thought it was really convincing. Meanwhile, shall watch the latest episode of running man! hahhaha



Casually posting during dinner since I haven't posted in quite a while..ok maybe just over a week. The past week I've been attempting to study, notice the word attempting. No idea why but I've lost every single bit of motivation to study now..how easily I get distracted just shocks me. I think I know my stuff for tomorrow's exam so hopefully I won't be thrown off my feet and walk out confidently knowing I did well. I've never felt this calm before exams before..really worrying considering this is the day before my fort exam. To be honest, I haven't even started studying for my other exams a next week. More crazy cramming coming up so won't be blogging anytime until 12 nov. To all A level takers, all the best!!



It has been a very uneventful birthday today, not that I was expecting any surprises.
It is quite sad that no one from my high school has wished me happy birthday yet. Today is ending in 3 hours and I haven't got a single one from people I called my 'close friends'. Maybe they forgot, or they remembered the wrong day or something? Somehow people keep remembering my birthday at october 20-something. No..it's not. Especially one of them..I thought we were pretty close and during my high school reunion she mentioned the exact number of days left till my birthday, but then how come today..ohwell, I shall not let myself get too disappointed about this because there is more.

First happy birthday came from zoenin in facebook messages. Second from my dad on iMessages. Third, surprisingly, from a uni friend by text. I find it EXTREMELY ironic how I only told maybe 1 friend from uni when my birthday is and I get a text message from another person while my high school friend publicly declared my birthday when nobody knew(so technically all of them know now) and I haven't received a single message. Hmm..interesting. Got to uni(had a test today-.-) and the birthday wishes started pouring down haha. I had no idea everyone knew, I don't even know how..

Most disappointing thing was when I got home. Turns out because my brother wants to learn baseball, he went to a baseball practice thing at 5 and came back at like..7+ I think. In then end, no cake and no eating out, and here I am, going to end my birthday listening to my lecturer talk about pregnancy and lactation just like a usual friday night. I didn't want my birthday to be a big deal in school/uni but like at least at home would be nice you know, just saying. Instead, our activities have to revolve around my brother, yea thanks so much. I could have found someone to go out and eat dinner with and sort of celebrate, but I didn't, just to come home and slack off and help to cook my own dinner. It was only until 8+ that my mum asked whether I wanted to go out and get a cake and I was like...what shop is open for you to buy a cake at this hour. Yes I do appreciate the effort my mum tried to put in but it seems sort of insensitive to ask whether or not I want to get a cake when there probably isn't going to be a store open. My mum actually wanted my dad to drive her out to buy a cake but my dad said the same thing and refused to drive. So in the end, we're going to buy a cake tomorrow and go out for dinner. I think I'm sort of anal about celebrating birthdays ON the birthday itself but, what can I do? My family isn't the kind to plan surprises, nor do they place a strong emphasis on birthdays because..it's just a birthday. Celebrating early or late doesn't really matter. I wouldn't argue with this if my birthday was on a weekday but today is friday..and it's my 18th...I'm sorry and I know I sound spoilt saying this but I'm going to say it anyway. It's my 18th birthday, why does my birthday have to revolve around what my brother wants to do? All my friends were asking what I'm going to do tonight and I said nothing, because that's how my family celebrates birthdays. It's always a cake just before we go to sleep and that's it for a birthday. For the first time ever, I don't have a cake on my birthday. Way to remember my 18th?

Just logged into facebook and saw that I got a message from my senior haha, I'm quite surprised to see it since he's quite busy. But then again, my birthday isn't that hard to remember for band members because I have the same birthday as the conductor! Happy birthday ms chan!



So..this will be my last post ever as a 17-year-old.
5 minutes to midnight now. Do I sound like I'm anticipating it? I'm not, really.
Truthfully, tomorrow will just pass like any other day and I might even forget that it's my birthday.
I think in the recent years, my parents have been more excited about my birthday than I have been. Just now, my parents asked whether I wanted to go out with friends or do something tomorrow. Well, I don't think my friends know when's my birthday and I don't exactly want them to know. Turned off my facebook timeline. Hmm, I don't think I'll do anything special tomorrow. Go to uni for a test, come home, slack off, maybe do some work, and there you go, a perfectly ordinary friday night. No wild crazy 18th party for me. I'm not the crazy party type where everyone gets drunk.
2 minutes to midnight now, I better read up my prac manual for the test tomorrow><





So many happenings in the span of 2 hours today..I'm so tired physically right now-.-

First of all, IT'S WUZUN'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!! Hahah it's been quite a few years now and it's been getting harder to follow his news since he sort of disappeared from the media's radar..but anyway, happy birthday to him! So many people have the 1010 birthday. Ok, maybe not that many but quite a few. It's wuzun's birthday, miss A's Suzy(she's the same age as me :O) and my friend from uni's birthday! Mine's coming up soon too, but honestly, I don't want anybody to know..I don't know why but I want it kept..private, I don't need surprises or presents on my birthday. I think at the moment, the people who know my birthday are my closest friends and my parents. No, not my entire family knows because..my brother is not cool and doesn't know when my birthday is-.- it was quite a shock when I was having a prac today and a friend came up and said that my birthday's coming p really soon too. I almost does of a heart attack, because I was looking at the lay day of this semester(which also happens to be my birthday) and then she asked of that was my birthday and I can't..lie about it can I? So I told her yes and I can't believe she remembers it till now..really hope she doesn't tell other people when it is. If I could, I wouldn't even turn up on my birthday but then..I have a test on that day...

Anyway, on to what made me so tired. The genius that I am forgot to bring my Myki(public transport card - same thin as the ez-link card) and when I was going home(about 5) just before I was going to tap my card, I realised my card wasn't in my bag. Being the klutz that I am, I immediately sat down somewhere and rummaged in my bag, even resorting to taking everything out and putting everything back in again. Of course, it was sitting at home and I couldn't find it, so I thought it dropped somewhere. I immediately caught a tram back to uni, searched near some areas in uni where I sat down and found nothing. With nothing I can do, I caught the tram again and headed back to the train station(melb central), hoping I can buy a metcard(a paper ticket system the government is trying to phase out). The metcard is a paper ticket that you can buy before each trip you travel. And as they are trying to stop that system and move to Myki, which is the same system as the ez-link cards, they don't sell those cards anymore. Went to the customer service to ask, only to be told I have to get another myki so i can get home. Not willin to spend so much money, I walked the distance of 5 tram stops o another big train station(flinders st) to see if they still sold metcards. They didn't, so i went to catch a tram again since some of the old ones still have the machines that sell the metcards. Little did I know, the machine only accepts coins and I only have notes. Attempted to change money with passengers on the tram and I was pleasantly surprised haha. Asked this man if he had coin change for $10. I needed $6.50 in coins for the metcard an since Australia doesn't have $2 notes, he had to give me all in coins. He literally dug in all of his pockets to see of he had change. Turns out he only had $4 in coins and told me it's ok to take it if it was enough(without giving him back any money). I gave it back to him since it wasn't enough and thanked him. Asked a woman after that and she emptied her entire wallet coin pocket for me, counting all her 10 and 20 cents for me. In the end she was short by a dollar and then somehow I ended up with $4 from her. Thanked her profusely and decided to risk buying the cheaper concession ticket for kids under 17. Bought the ticket, got off and went to the station(melb central) and put my card in. Put the card in, and the machine said "no trips left" and I was wondering why. Took the card back and saw the EXPIRED on it-.- I feel so cheated..in Facebook terms, I was trolled. Seriously, I was panicking and thinking I finally found a way to get home and I'm told my ticket is expired..no choice but to buy a full fare Myki card and spent $10. But then, at least I got home and found my card. I was praying so hard on the train that my card wasn't lost but at home, so praise God!

To the gentleman and the lady who tried so hard to find change for me and volunteered to just give me the money, thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart. It's just a small gesture and although you'll probably never see me again or read this, I was really touched by your actions and so once again, thank you so so so much for trying to help!



Ok, here I am posting again as if I've nothing better to do, but really though, I've tons of things to do. Just had to go crazy over some things hahaha.

Firstly, 빅뱅 is currently in Singapore, in the midst of their alive tour concert at this moment in time. AHHHHHHH>< And here I am, not doing much with my life. Maknae Seungri who is 3 years older than me has already earned millions and here I am, slacking my life away. So ironic how I like them now and then they hold their first south-east asian concert leg and have 2 concert nights in Singapore when I'm not there now. I was thinking if only I was in Singapore but then again, I would be studying for A lvls at this time of the year, so not really much hope of seeing them just yet lol. Tickets are expensive though. Ticket prices start at $128. I remember the Fahrenheit one starting at $68 or $78 I think. But then now that I think about it, it's been 4 years already. Inflation maybe? Watched a few of the alive tours already performed on youtube and yea, it's quite similar I guess, just without the thrill of being in the crowd and being able to see them with your own eyes and breathe the same air hahahha.

Second thing I have to mention is, that 炎亞綸's new EP/album is going to be officially released on my birthday! No kidding. I've always seen facebook comments on singers promotion pictures that the albums are released on their birthday and now finally, there's one released on my birthday!! HAHHAHA.

Ok, enough of going crazy for today. I know I said a week ago that I would post about the testimony that I heard but I haven't got down to doing that yet. I'll have to do that when I'm free, not at the moment. Maybe I'l try to type a bit every day. We'll see. Have a calculations test this coming tuesday. Second day we're back in uni and they have to have a test that requires 80% to pass. It's open book though, so I hope I'll do well. That elusive full mark is really..elusive.



Like today's weather, I've been feeling sort of grey, gloomy and rainy today. 不知为什么，心里就是觉得空虚虚的。

Went to a birthday dinner buffet last night. So many people went, as many as 40 I believe, all but one are older than me. Well considering that they were celebrating two peoples' birthday, I guess it's reasonable for that size. Anyway, I know both birthday girls from high school and so there were quite a few of them from high school and a few boys. Some of the girls I'm quite close to I guess. But then I found it so tiring last night, just trying to socialize and catchup with what's going on in their life. I found myself shrinking as the night went on, maybe also due to the fact that I woke up at 7 in the morning. Went to sleep once I got home.

Today though, I'm still feeling an emptiness. Maybe it's the hormones going mad or something but I still feel the same as last night. Not much joy or enthusiasm in doing anything, not even for eating(with regard to buffet last night). So tired of socializing, so tired of forcing myself to study, so tired of everything. Feeling so lonely in this world somehow. Yes I have friends here, yes I contact my friends in Singapore, yes I still contact my best friends, but yet I feel alone, like some void. Is God going to fill that void? I don't know, maybe my hormones are really going mad. I haven't even contacted my 'close-friend' from uni yet this week. She has contacted me either, maybe because she doesn't really use Facebook or something. Anyway, end of this emo post, have to listen to at least one more lecture before I sleep tonight!



Not been posting for a week or so, been trying to catch up with lectures but obviously not really working haha.

Anyone keeping up with kpop news will know about seungri's scandals, yes with an 's'. There's been like 2 in such a short period of time. Well in the first scandal, apparently he had intercourse with a woman who took pictures of him while he was sleeping(topless) and revealed some really weird supposedly 'sexual habits' that he had. Well honestly, if you tip your head to the right to look at the picture of the sleeping face, it doesn't really look like him..like the face shape doesn't look right, or maybe it's just me. Although I don't support celibacy, he's an adult that can be responsible for his own actions so I guess in a sense, I'm not that concerned whether or not it's true. Didn't see an official statement from YG about this translated on websites so I'm not sure if they've made an official statement about it. Second scandal was a Japanese actress/model hugging and kissing him in the late night. I watched the video and well, she hugged him and kissed him but he didn't have any reaction. He didn't push her away or hug her/kiss he back. It said somewhere that she was drunk? So awkward at this part in the video where the girl adjusts her clothes before leaving the karaoke lounge and she just pulls her dress down slightly and revealing her chest..but anyway, it was published by apple daily from Taiwan. Trust taiwan's paparazzi...taiwan I still love you but I have no respect for your paparazzi I'm sorry. YG made an official statement saying nothing scandal worthy was done that night. Funny how everyone shut up after that. All it requires is A sentence. Interesting to see how private lives are invaded just because they're famous.

On another note, saw 2 articles that caught my eye yesterday on yahoo. One was about how science may one day prove God doesn't exist. Well, you don't exactly see people looking for how science does prove that God exists do you. Like my previous post about how tree is some sort of physical proof of God's existence? What are the chances that a big bang occurs that can create one planet out of 8(used to be 9) that has perfect conditions to support life? Why do some people want to believe so badly that God doesn't exist? Let's move on to the second article now. Some Harvard researcher examined some fragment that showed that early Christians believed Jesus had a wife because apparently the fragment says that Jesus said 'my wife' 'can be my disciple' or something like that. First of all, the bible never said Jesus had a wife. How is it possible for Jesus who is God himself to marry a sinful human? And in Hebrews 5:8-10, God appointed Jesus as a high priest with his obedience. Being the Son, he would obey his Father and therefore obey the 10 commandments. God doesn't allow celibacy, do you think Jesus would commit Celibacy? I don't think so.

Heard a testimony from a guy that God literally rise him front the dead. When everyone gave up on him, God revived him. Shall share about it in a post tomorrow.



Blogging at this unearthly hour is unhealthy. Really. I have no idea why I am posting now at 1am. Didn't post over the weekend so maybe my hands are getting itchy.

Went jogging/walking when I got back from uni today. Time to start exercising since spring has started and it's not that cold anymore. I used to complain about PE and didn't enjoy it much(especially 2.4) but now I guess I sort of appreciate the government's efforts in incorporating PE into the curriculum. In Melbourne once you get to the senior years o high school, you no longer have compulsory PE lessons and lazy people like me just don't exercise at all except for those once a year sport events. When you get to uni it's even worse. You eat outside more for lunches and obviously don't have PE. A lot of people here go jogging and swimming regularly but not having that kind of lifestyle, I just sit at home all day sitting and hermit-ing around the house. Realized how bad my stamina is now. Think I shall work toward building it up again, about my previous standard 2 and a half years ago? I read somewhere that when you have more muscles you have a higher metabolism so you tend to burn up more calories even at rest. Well, for now just trying to build up some stamina and then next will be abs haha. Not like rock hard pacs but more toned? I think it is slightly unsightly to wear tighter shirts and have a bulge sitting there, especially now since summer is coming and well, you wear less material compared to winter where you're all covered up.

Was thinking about stuff in the shower(lol I'm weird it's ok..) I think I blogged about this before but I'll just talk about it since it's stuck in my head. Anyway, when I went back last year, I went to this church gathering thing for the helpers of the kids church and then we were doing some worksheet that was involved in the game that we played. Anyway, there was a question on the worksheet in Chinese asking you to classify certain materials and there was 橡皮 on it. Although being quite certain 橡皮 is rubber, it din't fit on the flow chart and I asked to double check what it was. This older girl answered me and told me 橡皮 is plastic..and then she said in a sort of superior voice that she confirmed it was correct and she was from some JC(I don't remember which one, but it was quite good I think). Now that I keep thinking of it, it's so funny lol. Can you imagine a 橡皮袋?!! A 橡皮擦 is called 橡皮擦 for a reason, it's called a rubber, I'm pretty sure 塑胶 is plastic. Anyway, stupidly I accepted what she said hahah but anyway, anyone reading this will now know that 橡皮 is rubber and 塑胶 is plastic.

Alright, shall end here for today. Going to dreamland!





EEEEEEnteresting statistics I have for this blog. Yes I know I spelt 'interesting' wrong there.

So weird..I have 2 page views from people who searched 'your butt has touched me most 9gag' like what?! I don't think I have a picture from 9gag that came with those words. Don't have that many readers since I started this long time ago when everyone had a blog and I don't think my life is that interesting that many people will read about it. 21 pageviews from singapore, and I have readers from Russia, Australia, Germany, US, China and Mexico(in order of decreasing pageviews) I didn't even know about this stats thing until recently. Obviously I haven't been exploring the new blogger dashboard layout.

Really tired today. Had a test today and it went well so..at least my lack of sleep paid off.
Was going to finish studying one topic each day since monday but that obviously didn't work out very well since I had to stay until 11.30pm the night before and wake up at 5.30am to actually finish studying all the notes. Arrived in uni at 8.30am, skipped 2 lectures to study some more and look through the tute sheets and the workshop I had yesterday.

I really shouldn't be complaining because all my friends(in Singapore) are probably only getting 3-4 hours sleep just studying for prelims and preparing for A's. It's so soon I can't believe it. That would be me now if I didn't move. Till today, I still believe I wouldn't have survived if I stayed. I think coming to melbourne has made me mature a lot in regards of motivation. Went to a pretty good high school but then kinda slacked off without the motivation. I wasn't doing well, I wasn't really paying attention in class and all those kind of things. When I came here, everything changed. In a sense, things seemed more achievable than it is in Singapore. I guess that made me feel more motivated to study hard and to actually do well and aim high, because no matter how high I aimed in Singapore, I never ever met my goal. To date, the only time I have met my goal in terms of academic results would probably be my PSLE result. Everything else hasn't been able to meet up to that yet.

Anyway, sorry for the lack of a picture in this post. Didn't find anything interesting to take pictures of. Weather was so-so today, one minute with the crazy wind and the next with blue sky and sun, that's melbourne weather for you. Apparently the wind's going to be very strong(120km/h) for the next 2 days or so. Every night, the wind's blowing like crazy, it almost feels like the house will start shaking. Maybe that's why I saw 2 ambulances and 1 fire engine drive past uni today. How often do you see so many emergency services dispatched in a day? \

Alright, I'm really sleepy now. Will post again tomorrow, hopefully with a picture too!



Back from uni now, been a long day..especially without my pencil case! Was walking home just now along the train tracks, not the main pathway past the front of houses but by the back and look what I saw! The beauty of God's creation never fails to make me smile(:
Have a good day!



This dumb person here(points to self) forgot to bring her pencil case today, meaning I have no stationary..the lat time I forgot to being my pencil case was like years ago I think..it's been a while. Blogging gin my lecture now because I don't have my notes nd neither do I have my stationary-.- such. Genius, forgetting to do do many things..ok I should start acting attention.



Spring is officially here!! Well, yesterday was the first day of spring but I sort of forgot to post about it. It's really early but I can't get back to sleep due to the chorus of birds outside my window. No kidding. I ever called my friend once on Skype and she was like DO YOU LIVE IN A FOREST?!! So many birds...

Once I get out of bed, the bird chorus stops-.- jut went outside to take some nice pictures and the air is cold and fresh! Wouldn't mind going jogging in this weather. Should probably get some work done since I'm already up.. Have a test on Thursday, not much time left to study..



Finally finished my 2000 word essay! Stayed up till 1am last night finishing up the referencing. I think towards the end my argument points were quite..rubbish. But I finished it before the deadline so..thankful that I managed to finish it on time. Was super malu and didn't know about the declaration for original work. In the end I printed another copy in uni, stuck a note to it and handed in a second copy. Better to be safe than sorry!

Had a lot of free pancakes today too! Uni had free pancakes during lunch and of course I put maple syrup! Then after uni, went to eat free pancakes at pancake parlor. You have to like their page an claim the offer. It's so nice haha. It probably sounds disgusting but pancakes with ice cream and maple syrup is so delicious!

Anyway, why I titled this post realization? I read something online yesterday(while I was supposed to be doing my essay) and one thing was quite interesting really. People who don't believe in God believes our universe began from what is known as the big bang. Scientists may have theorized it and even proven that it is true but what they are unsure of, is why or rather, the cause of the big bang that created the universe one fine day. Did the big bang just happen to occur and just happen to create the universe in which earth is the only planet able to support life? Is it just coincidence that earth is the only planet with an appropriate amount of water and an atmosphere to support life? Is it coincidence that the Earth is located not too far and yet not too near the sun? There was some info about the moon being perfectly sized too but I don't remember the details. On deeper thought, I don't think all this is coincidence. It was made to happen. If not, wouldn't we all exist out of coincidence? In the beginning, God commanded for light and it was given. It wasn't said how but it just did. Maybe the big bang did occur on God's command. Some food for thought(: accompanied by a picture of pancakes!




Spring is here!! Fixed the piasaweb thing and so here's the first of the barrage of pictures that I hope to post in future updates!



Guess I was wrong after all, which is a good thing of course :D

Weather's turning sososo nice. I will go fix the blogger app on my iPod after I finish this post..it's been a bit too long-.- Yay! Then I can post pictures more often! Pictures of..stuff I see around, nature etc.

Apparently it's going to rain tomorrow and it's really cold tomorrow too so boooo):

Anyway, had a single tute today from 3-4pm, and that's my entire timetable for today. For one of the few rare times I actually knew how to do the tute sheet. It's  not a good sign that I'm not sure what I'm doing but I think it's getting better now because I actually know how to do my chem tute sheets with all the mechanisms, determining starting products and products because now I actually get it. Did mechanisms last term too but..I didn't really get it and had to resort to memorising tons of equations that in the end I forgot almost half so..at least now I understand it and can try to end up with some possible product.

Still now done with my essay :/ Finished like a quarter of my last point and the conclusion. I must finish it tonight because I need to start studying for my test next week. Need to edit the answers for some questions for a group assignment also due on friday.

Meeting my primary school friend next thursday! Actually, I think we knew each other since kindergarten. I AM NOT KIDDING. Since K2 to be exact. We were in the same class and then ended going to the same primary school. Was never really THAT close but it's still quite amazing that she remembered me lol. Being very..unpopular in primary school(not like I was extremely popular in high school or over here either), I didn't expect anyone other than less than 10 people to remember me. I actually remember quite a lot of people but I think they probably won't remember/recognise me anymore. I think I've changed so much, character-wise or appearance-wise, I've changed so much I think not many people will recognise me haha. I'll be quite shocked if some people see me in public and actually recognise me haha. Even in sec2/sec3 in chinese tuition I met 3 other guys all my year from the same primary school and I'm quite sure not a single one of them recognised me. I just found one of them on facebook lol. I even remember his full name-.- Only 3 other peihwa people are mutual friends..should I add him? We were even tablemates in P3 I think. Anyway, the friend I'm meeting, I don't she has changed that much honestly. More mature looking, straight hair now, probably still as tall haha (yes she and her twin sister were so tall last time). She has a twin sister haha, don't think I'm going to meet the sister. Was closer to her than to her sister I think. I couldn't tell them apart in primary school lol. Now after a bit of facebook stalking, I realise the way they smile for photos is different haha. Think we're going for churros! :D Quite excited and nervous about the meeting haha. Don't know if I'll have anything interesting to say lol I'm quite a boring person.



Ohyes, before I forget haha
Spotted a double rainbow today! For the first time too! Really clear double rainbow, and then the entire primary rainbow(the obvious one) could be seen. So the entire arch was over the road. It was drizzling slightly, grey skies and the sun from the back. So beautiful haha God's promise ;)



无奈



Downloaded the blogger app on my ipod and tried to post something on it with a picture and it says I have to sign on to picasaweb first..what is that?! I thought it would be more convenient so I don't have to log in all the time and it will be more convenient to post pictures since I take pictures most of the time with my iPod but noooo, now I have to fix the picasaweb thing-.- Going to spend a bomb tomorrow..quite literally. Going out for lunch with my friends tomorrow(XIAO LONG BAO HAHAHA). The food at that shop isn't too expensive..aiming maybe about $10. Then after that, going for coffee at max brenners(I don't even know where the outlet is) with other friends and then going bowling. Bowling itself is..not cheap. Ok to someone who's working will probably find all this reasonable but to the non-working me..it's quite a large spenditure(did I spell it right?!) of money ok! And then getting a lift back from a friend. Yes, I have friends that can drive haha 



Goodness..I really have no comment about one of my lecturers..
The notes he gives don't even make sense and he keeps cancelling lectures and says it's for active learning. In the first lecture, he said, if you don't understand, read your lecture notes. And a few lectures later he says OH you don't need to know this stuff, you just have to understand it. Like SERIOUSLY?!  Even in the lectures, he doesn't even teach properly, like I have not taken a single thing out of his lectures at all. Shall not reveal about his position too much but he is like one of the deans. We don't pay our fees to walk out of every lecture wondering what the heck the lecturer is talking about. First of all, even if you want us to do active learning, give us clear and understandable notes first! Not the notes that you give us with barely any information explaining what is going on. If the whole cohort of students are complaining, shouldn't it be a problem with the lecturer? Even the tute sheet that was uploaded. How are we supposed to do it when everything is so vague? Even the units for measurements aren't even put in WHO IN THE WORLD KNOWS WHAT YOU MEAN?! I can't read your mind, that's for sure. You can have all the knowledge about this topic but you obviously aren't teaching it to us in a comprehensible way. Yes, we shouldn't be spoon-fed but the amount of information you give us is way too little. What do you expect us to do with that meagre bit of information that jumps around everywhere? Even in your lectures you can go from the first page to the last page and back to the middle somewhere. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS YOU-.-



Really shouldn't be blogging(considering I have an oral presentation tmr) but nevertheless, here is another blog post.

I think I really do think a lot. Or maybe I'm just insecure. Or maybe I'm just oversensitive. My friend from uni recently started treating me sort of differently, not like being mean to me but just not as..lively/friendly as when we first became friends. Like with other people she seems quite cheerful and happy but then somehow she seems distant from me. Because she gets off the train stop after mine and we have the same timetable, we usually go home together and for about maybe the past week, we have had almost nothing to say on the train journey home, and in uni I just sit and listen. I'm not exactly her best friend but like I think the friendship is changing? Or am I just thinking too much as usual? I'm quite confused right now. Like I think last thursday, I purposely disappeared to the uni library after lecture and she was walking in front to the tram stop. She texted me about 10minutes later asking where I went, and the next morning I met her on the tram and all was good, and then now it has returned to the slightly awkward atmosphere again. So many questions passing through my mind, some of which are quite stupid..like is she angry at me? Did I do something? Or is she just tired of hanging out with me-.- I think I'm thinking too much right. I keep reassuring myself that I am thinking too much but..it isn't really working. Well, all I can do now is see how it develops.

I'm a pretty slow person also. I'm quite awkward as well, especially with adults, teachers and strangers. I am the kind of person that doesn't know what to say and my slow mind takes a hundred years to think of something to say or a conversation topic-.- Usually before I sleep I think about my day and all the stupid things I did that day haha, and end up regretting a lot of things I said and I even think up funny replies to something someone said that day. Yes, I'm that weird. I don't know why. And just out of the blue, I want to thank all my best friends who have put up with my weirdness and lameness and uh..slowness/retardedness over the years, especially miriam and sarah and zoenin. I can't seem to find a best friend here. I mean I do have friends, quite a lot I guess, but not any close/good friends that I can share everything with. Maybe it's too soon to speak since it's only been 3 years but it isn't impossible.

愛 - heart, friendship.
Friendship from the heart?



ahhhh I remember what I was going to post about hahahah
Saw this posted on youtube I think on the singapore 9gag account





I must really be getting old-.-
Was organising thoughts in my head about a post and then when I logged in I don't remember what I was going to post..

It's the end of the first week back at uni! So tired..just the first week and they let us know that we have to do a presentation in 3 weeks and a 2000-words essay end of next month..looks like it's going to get very busy :/ Research itself already takes so long and then plus preparing the actual end product plus doing all the referencing..and it's only the first week back. Need to kick myself into the studying rhythm again. After the holidays..I've continued sloth-ing and still watching videos and going around facebook. I really need to start getting serious soon><

Unlike what I planned..as usual..I haven't finished the birthday stuff, like the inefficient person I am-.- ahhh I will try my veryveryvery best to finish it this weekend and post it next week.

Hmm..I forgot what else I was going to post so I'll update again sometime..



Really weird for me to post so many times a day in such a long time, especially considering that I posted a long one just before.




Before logging in I had plenty of things to type up but then I suddenly blanked when I came to the posting screen..


Yet another hectic semester ahead. Was laughing at a friend's timetable last semester(he had 8am starts 3 times a week) and then now..I have 9am starts 3 or 4 times a week-.- I don't end as late though, latest I've seen so far is at 4, and usually it's about 2-3pm which is still ok I guess..I have weird tutorials though :/ One tutorial(same subject) once every 2 weeks is at 3-4pm and that's the only thing I have in uni that day-.- In short,  I have to travel at least 2 hours to and fro from uni and spend an hour in uni..waste of my time. Talking about uni, I forgot to pay my semester 2 fees hahhahaha. I paid only last night when it was due last friday lol. Called the uni yesterday to check if I could still pay and was answered by this very bored-sounding receptionist person. Well, anyway, paid up and it takes 5 days to process. At most, I just don't have internet access in uni for the first 2 days.

The holidays has passed by really quickly, and as usual, didn't accomplish much of what  wanted to do.

Don't even know what I DID accomplish during the holidays lol not even watching/finishing any dramas. I somehow lost interest..maybe I'll start watching sungkyungkwan scandal hahah(song joongki!! :D) Finished only one drama series which has to be my record low for a 5 week holiday lol. Not even interested in fahrenheit's dramas. Was planning to watch so many not long ago, like sunshine angel(wuzun and rainie yang), fated to love you 2(rainie yang), absolute boyfriend(Jiro and goo hye sun), Alice in wonder city(Aaron yan) and I have lost total motivation to watch any of them. Apparently the ratings for the more recent ones being absolute boyfriend and alice in wonder city doesn't have very good viewership ratings and the storylines are all a bit... Also read a bit of news about Jiro being rumoured to leave Fahrenheit which will cause permanent disbanding of Fahrenheit. Here: http://asianfanatics.net/forum/topic/772261-fahrenheit-on-the-verge-of-disbandment/
I wasn't really shocked when I read it. Honestly, I used to really like them and then after wuzun left and I came to melbourne everything sort of cooled down. After wuzun left there was no news about them and I don't even know what they all are doing now. I didn't even know aaron was shooting a drama until it finished shooting-.- Apparently all the movies wuzun has worked on since he left(2-3 movies) were all bombs at the box office, and maybe aaron is preparing a new album? Calvin is still hosting the Asia entertainment show thing(I don't even know the name and can't watch it anywhere) and Jiro I think is moving off into acting also. So anyway, there are speculations that after he releases his album, he might not renew his contract. Well, they all are getting quite old(especially compared to the kpop stars and other young taiwan singers) so I'm not surprised that they're heading off in different directions.  What has happened has happened and what is to come will come. At least there's the memory off all 4 together, once upon a time.

Was going to learn korean this holidays too..as of now, I can read the korean alphabet but..vocab is still a problem :/ It's so hard to learn it now at this age..and I'm not even that old-.- Been watching a lot of running man episodes hahah. It's so funny! The permanent members are all so funny lol. Would watch family outing season 1 if there were more episodes..I think I finished most of them long time ago..

Shall move on to what I actually DID do during the holidays hahah. Spent the first week hermitting at home-.- because some people still had exams and I didn't really want to disturb anybody during the exam season. Went out a lot the first 2 weeks of holiday, met friends, went out almost every day and then when the school holidays for high school began, I stopped going out that much lol, went out like once a week-.- AND THEN, here comes the exciting event lol! I WENT SKIING! Drove to mt buller last thursday, arrived in the evening. Weather forecast for mt buller was raining(and that's not good because it will melt the snow and then if it turns to cold it will turn to ice and you can't exactly ski on ice..) so we didn't rent the skis when we arrived. Stayed at a nice place overlooking a lake and some hills and it had a real fireplace! We were provided with a full basket of firewood and uh..2 logs remained when we left lol..Anyway, that night my brother and I used the jacuzzi bath tub in the toilet. It's been so long since I've been in a bathtub hahah. Anyway, next morning(friday) my dad woke us at 7.30 in the morning, got out of the house an hour later and went to rent the skis. Got fitted with all the stuff and then drove up the mountain. Had like 2 runs on the beginner run and uh, I was so scared lol, so scared of losing control and falling down-.- Furthermore it was really foggy and raining a bit so visibility was quite low. Anyway, my dad signed us all up for lessons and so my brother went to the kids one(because he's under 15 hahahhaha) and I went to the same one as my dad. Actually, I went to a class for level 3 skiers and there weren't enough people to supervise so..we joined with the level 4 people(which my dad went to. I think I was the youngest and super paiseh because I was super slow and kept getting tangled/falling down and everyone had to wait for me-.- Learnt parallel skiing and I think I sort of got it. Anyway, my brother lost the helmet that we rented before his lesson and the kids must have helmet to take the lesson so..in the end he took mine and we didn't find the one he lost. How was it lost?(so amazing right-.-) He was complaining about it being troublesome etc. and gave it to my dad to put in his bag and the genius of my brother didn't zip the bag and it quite simply fell out when we took the chairlift..cost like $50 to replace it. The person at the shop was also quite stunned how we lost a helmet lol..like a helmet is so huge..it's quite hard to lose right? WRONG.

Then on saturday, we planned to go skiing again and then drive back from there afterwards. So we got up around 8 and then eat breakfast, pack up ad checkout. The owner has a veryveryvery friendly/passionate black dog which I also know is a female lol. My dad went to return some DVDs and the cabin keys and then the dog was there at the door. I opened the car door slightly and made this clicking noise and then the dog came right next to the car immediately :O and then I made the clicking sound again and the dog like turned on it's back for my to rub the belly lol. So cute! But then it wasn't a very pretty dog but still! And then the dog like turned back and fit it's head under my arm lol and started licking my chin. I spent days and weeks with my cousin's dog and he refuses to show any attention ot affection for me and this dog licks my face the first time I touch it lol what is this-.- My dad came out and was going to leave so I stood up and then the dog stood on it's hind legs also and like "hugged" me at the waist and it actually wouldn't let go, it was hugging quite tightly lol. My dad was like you can stay here, we're leaving and then he laughed and started the engine, so I had to push he dog off ): then I smelt like a dog after I got in the car.. drove up the mountain again and yes, went skiing again. Went on the beginner runs a few times and my brother who kept calling me a noob kept falling down and I had to help him get up-.- Went for 2 or 3 rounds on the beginner run and then had nut bars for lunch haha the nut bar was so cold and hard-.- Went to try an intermediate run that my dad claimed to be ok and not too difficult. THE SLOPE WAS SO STEEP AND THE PATH WAS SO NARROW, and all the other people are literally speeding down the slope. If you don't know, you increase your skiing speed by going straight, and you slow down by turning left and right making a continuous 'S' shape. So, the path being narrower means you have less space to turn on a steep slope and you go veryveryvery fast, and I tend to lose control..but anyway, my brother fell face forward and when you're skiing you can't move your legs as you like because you can break your leg. And so, when he fell down, I was behind him and..I tried to stop beside to help and crashed into him/under him and then he started screaming like a banshee-.- I honestly thought I like cut his fingers or broke his leg seriously-.- He screamed so loud, my dad almost 10-20m in front stopped skiing and walked up the steep slope to see what happened, and about 5 ladies came to see what was wrong and if they could help. In the end, there was a ski teacher and she called for ski patrol and so, my brother had to walk somewhere and got driven to the end of that run to take the chairlift up. And then I continued skiing down with my dad, fell down quite a few times also..super steep slopes. At the end I was surprised I wasn't aching anywhere lol. It started snowing very heavily at the end, like just queuing for the chairlift left us covered in snow. Met my brother at the top and turns out he was ok-.- so we went back to the beginner run and went on that quite a few times, each time having to wait for my brother somewhere..visibility was so bad that day. Snowing and hailing non-stop. It got quite painful when it hailed when we were on the chairlift lol because all the ice is flying and hitting your face-.- collected so much snow and hail just sitting on the chairlift haha. Visibility levels were so low especially at the top of the mountain, like people 3-5metres away would appear very hazy, on the chairlift you can barely see the chair in front. Anyway, we finished skiing about 4 and then there was a massive queue to take the shuttle bus back to the car park and so, collected more snow there while waiting for the bus. Finally got back to the carpark and our car was snowed in lol..like the roof and the windscreen and the windows. Was quite cool seeing this scene after more than a decade(I don't even remember that much of seeing this in the US). Brother had fun sweeping the snow. Sooo, we got changed, like removed the ski boots(too cold to change the wet ski pants) and began driving down the mountain and then it was DARK, like once we finished removing the ski boots and loading the ski gear in the backseat(no space in the boot lol), the sky was BLACK. Drove the mountain slightly and was stopped and told to put on the snow chains for the tyres. Dad couldn't get it on properly, spent half an hour fixing it, but at least we got it on. began driving down from there at about 6.45pm, took maybe half an hour or less to get to the down to return the ski gear and then begin on the way home. Stopped at a small town on the way home at 9+ and got a pizza because my dad was hungry(we only ate a nut bar for lunch and no dinner). When we finally reached the suburb we live in(so tempted to say MY suburb hahhaha) we went to this restaurant 'Straits of Malacca' ate char kway teow at like 11+ lol..was quite embarassed because I was wearing a hoodie and big fat track pants with slippers(since I changed in the car and it's harder to put on tights and shorts) and my hair was in a mess(I even tied my fringe up ok-.-) and I walked in with the hood covering almost my entire face lol and everyone inside stared at me when I walked in hahahha I seriously looked like I was wearing pyjamas hahahha. And then we finally went home from there and reached home at 12++am. Couldn't be bothered taking shower and since I'm already dressed in sleeping attire, I slept with my hood on on the sofa hahah with the cushions lol. Woke up bright and early to shower and wash hair hahaha. Good memories though, I enjoyed myself a lot! :D

The day after skiing is the worst..your whole body is aching hahahah. Your arms from pulling yourself using the ski poles, your thighs for..I don't know what and your butt..from falling down(ok luh..this time wasn't as bad as 2 years ago when I went to Falls Creek(another skiing area). It was quite painful to hold up pots and pans and water jugs with one hand hahahha

some pictures!














the new blogger format is really...
finally managed to finish one of the birthday presents!! Finished it last night haha
But I think postage is going to be quite expensive..

I'm feeling sort of nervous..I really really hope I pass organic chem. I'm not even worried about the other subjects, just stupid organic chem..argh I don't want to fail and do it again next year><



After being redirected to several different pages, I'm finally on this 'publish post' page -.-
I figured I should blog more now that it's the holidays and I actually have time to blog now, then leave my blog to partially rot during the school term.
Would look for a new blogskin but..I'm a bit too unmotivated(nice word for lazy) and I don't think as many blogskins are being put up anymore since blogger is sort of losing popularity(or already has..)
The number of people who read my blog is probably close to zero, but then again, my blog was never THAT popular haha.

It's been 2 and a half weeks, half of my holiday gone, nothing much accomplished LOL.
Good news, I got full marks for my mydispense test! :D Exam result out next monday, not really anticipating that one ): Don't think I'll do well, keep thinking that I failed organic chem too..typing this out just makes me scared :O

High school holiday ends after next week and so..stuck with my brother for one more week.
Apparently my dad's planning to go skiing but then there isn't enough snow to ski yet. My dad's friend(church friend) wants to go along with us as well and..I think it's going to be a bit awkward? Like he has 2 daughters, 1 a year older than me but same level(1st year uni) and 1 younger(a year older than David) and how should I put this. They're very err..independent? The older daughter won't go(we're friends but..not that close) and the younger daughter is quite :O Like super independent, I think even much more than me lol, I wouldn't so she's mature but..aiya I also don't know how to describe. Never mind I give up trying to describe-.-

Was supposed to go ice-skating(again) with my brother on tuesday but then hmm..we had an optometrist appointment and then ice-skating on tuesdays turn out not to be at half price during school holidays so yes, it was a lot more expensive and so we aren't going lol. But then also because we spent almost our whole afternoon at the optometrist-.- Because my brother, mother and I had scheduled eye tests and my brother went to try wearing contact lens(and took quite a while) and uh..just casual scanning of the insides and curvatures of our eyes(whatever that may indicate) so we spent quite a while there..
Would like to go one more time before uni starts again but I don't think anyone will go with me LOL..then  I think the week school reopens for my brother, there aren't trains running-.- Train line maintenance = bus replacement service. A bit troublesome to get around :/

Finished with one birthday letter. The present however..I haven't started on and thus, I haven't sent anything I'm sorry>< I know I'm late by like manymany months and moons but..I will get it done this holiday or else I will drag it on forever to the end of the year-.-





It's almost midnight and I really should be sleeping since my friend's coming over tomorrow to bake(lol it's so funny because I don't even have half of the equipment needed and she has to bring even an electric mixer hahahah)

Anywayyyy, wanted to blog finally because I have something to blog about haha (I'm sorry, I sound a bit hyper now..)
WENT ICE-SKATING TODAYYY!!
Look how happy I still am haha
Went for lunch then took the city circle tram to the medibank icehouse.
Tuesday is half-price day so it cost $13.50 to get in. Was pretty crowded even though the high school kids are supposed to be in school...not saying that high school kids were there but yea..I thought there would be less people there so the number of people there was pretty surprising. When we arrived the ice was incredibly rough and having been away from the ice for more than a year, for a moment I thought I forgot how to ice-skate and it sort of freaked me out..I thought I could skate pretty well(self deception?) Well, as I said, the ice was really rough and having not skated for more than a year I fell..like 3 times today>< Most number of times I have ever fallen on the ice in one time. Usually I fall at most once but today was..eventful LOL Went out of the rink quite a few times to tighten the skate laces, have no idea why my left skate kept moving at an angle. The ice was shaved and WOOHOO 3 quick smooth rounds around the rink and in no time it was rough again. In my opinion, which should be a consensus among everyone, is that the very first round after the ice is resurfaced is the very best one. So smooth and I skated so well haha. It's like literally flying across the ice(although I'm not that pro) but yes, that exhilaration and excitement just pumped. Anyway, watching videos on how to skate backwards and how to do crossovers was a waste of my time-.- Couldn't even try it because there were so many people and I would just crash into another person about to fall down too, and also because my blades of the skates aren't sharp at all and skating normally is hard enough, what more crossovers and skating backwards? So I didn't try at all. With people on professional skates whizzing past me by the second, I have no confidence in trying that safely haha. Looks like I fall less when I skate with Sarah :P

Went to some restaurant/shop place nearby and ate churro's. If you don't know what it is(I didn't know lol I ate it for the first time today) sorry no pictures so go google it! Walked around that area, went into a clothes shop and shoe shop and then went home haha. Felt good catching up with my high school friends although not all of them were there. Had truckloads of fun today (although my feet are a bit sore..hmm) but more fun awaits these holidays! ;D haha



I was bored..so I figures I should blog (it sort of rhymes o.0)
WELL, it's been raining these past few days, the airs still so dry though and I think I'm falling sick ):
It's so hard to practise piano/clarinet and play guitar because firstly, my hands can so cold just playing for 10 minutes. Secondly, my fingers move slower/can't move as fast especially when I play piano.
Been practising a song for a while now and somehow it's still not smooth flowing because my brain isn't processing the notes quick enough and my fingers aren't really coordinating either-.- and then with this cold..it's harddd

Supposed to write birthday letters by this week and I haven't even begun to do that yet. Haven't picked up a pen since my last exam LOL. Been trying to get myself to write but..I guess, there's so much to say and I don't really know how to put all of it in words? I say almost the same things year in and year out, maybe it is starting to sound very repeated, I don't know. ARGH but still, I promised to finish it after my exams and so I have to, no complaints.

Might go ice-skating next tuesday! Well, I am going but not confirmed which day. Been watching the korean drama "Triple", it's an ice-skating show and well..I feel so inspired to learn ice-skating LOL. I guess it's the same with dancing haha, I feel a bit jealous that I'm not so coordinated but yet I want to learn. Been watching videos on how to do crossovers and skating backwards, might try next week when I go. Saw a video of a simple spin as well but I think to actually be able to do things like that you have to wear the professional skates which..I don't have and have no plans to buy. Watched the performances of Kim Yuna, at the winter Olympics(I think she won 2010 gold?) She makes skating look SO EASY-.- Like all her jumps and spins are just :O Very clean spins and jumps, and she was 19 when she won gold. All that is 100% hard work and of course talent.

Now it's the holidays, I figured I should also start exercising. Ever since coming to Australia, the only time I ran was during school cross country and even then I still walked LOL. Unfit level: extreme!! Running to the train station from my house is enough to make me pant like crazy..ok maybe not like after 2.4 but yes, still panting quite heavily. Time to work on the abs too LOL getting fat-.- Especially now it's winter..eating more doesn't really help :/ Really need to start exercising hahahah

oh lol.. blogger format changed and I stupidly tried to scroll down and look for the publish button-.-



It's about time I blogged again. It's been like what, 3 months? And the whole blogger format changed..

Anyway,
THE EARTH SHOOK JUST NOW.
Earthquake somewhere I think, hopefully everyone is safe.
First time experiencing the ground shake. In the past, while watching an earthquake on tv, I actually wondered how it felt for the ground to shake..because obviously the ground doesn't move like a mobile vehicle.
Was sitting on my bed, reading Sarah's blog and then I felt my bed vibrating and for a moment I thought I was trembling(I even lifted up my hand to check) and turns out it wasn't me when suddenly I felt/saw the whole wall opposite me lurch :O and then it stopped. Heart dropped into my stomach slightly and didn't know what  to do. I guess that's what people feel when disasters happen? Helpless. Because you have no idea what is happening and by the time they do know, maybe it's too late.

EXAMS ARE OVERRR
Spent the past 3 weeks sleep deprived and memorising my head off. This is the first time I slept so little before exams seriously. There is so much to study and to memorise and if you start studying too late you're screwed. Was so frantic for my first uni exams LOL. Hopefully, I'll do well. Last minute studying is really terrible. 5 weeks of holiday now. Most people are going  away..guess I'll continue hermit-ing at home for the next 5 weeks haha.

Quite a few things I hope to accomplish this holiday though.
#1 Write my wayyyyy overdue birthday letters and post them
#2 Practise piano and relearn some theory/ guitar too!
#3 Learn Korean?
#4 Painting
#5 Watch shows

hmm..that's all for now actually. One week for each one LOLOL hahah

That's it for today! :D



Been wanting to post for a while but just..been lazy about it.

I probably shouldn't be posting now at work but then..no customers are walking into the shop at all..sigh

Was thinking about stuff on the train journey to work today.
What do you consider a good friend or a close friend? When we were kids, being someone's best friend probably meant knowing all the little details of that friend(like their favourite colour for example), memorising their number and playing together a lot (no innuendo intended). But then as I grew older, I think that definition of a good friend has changed. I don't think I know that many tiny little details about my close friends. Even I don't know those tiny little details about me. Like what's my favourite colour? I don't know LOL depends on my mood and the weather I guess, I don't really have a favourite colour anymore. Anyway, back to the main point, I think as I grow older, a best friend means someone who has my absolute trust and someone I can share anything with. There can be tons of little facts you know about acquaintances but I guess if you can't share some things with them, you wouldn't consider them friends. Then again, I think you really know who may be your friends for life(quite literally) when you can disappear for a long period of time, say a year, and still be able to talk with them comfortably. Every time I head back to Singapore, when I meet my friends, it feels like we're just continuing where we left off, like I never left at all, which is kind of touching in that sense I guess. I can't find a friend like that here. It's been what, 3 years(start of the 4th year now)? Sure I have friends but once the holidays start, it's as quiet as a deserted wasteland or something. The people whom I thought I was close to just don't feel close enough if that even makes sense. Maybe because all the people I'm making friends with are at least a full year older than me, I don't know. In all seriousness, I really miss my friends. I miss just taking a bus to get out of the house. I miss going crazy together, I really do. My dad's going to take his citizenship test sometime this year, and my mum's not taking it yet. As for me, I have to do it on my own now since I'm legally an adult. But then do I really want to? Australia is nice, it really is, but then the friends I make just seem..distant no matter how close we may appear to be. And it's not like I'm planning to go back to Singapore to work because I don't see any future in my profession in Singapore. Recently I've been seriously thinking about uni. I don't even know why I chose this course now. At first when I chose it and got in, I guess I was relieved in a way because I guess I don't really have an interest in commerce. But after studying one year, I can say I don't know where I'm heading. I enjoy uni, like the stuff we learn is interesting but about the profession itself, then I'm not so sure. People keep telling my mum that I should quickly try to get a job in a pharmacy because it's now quite hard to find a job there and I need experience, the more the better. And so, my mum has been nagging me now to go to some shopping centre pretty far away to hand in my resume to the 'busiest place in Melbourne' or something like that. I'm really doubting my career choice to be honest. I just got a job one and a half months ago and now you're telling me to abandon ship and get another job? If you didn't know, I'm currently working for my parents' friend from church, aunty E. She was nice enough to take me in without any experience. She's not paying me a lot and has me work almost every day but the fact that I got my first job with her is good enough. I can't just abandon ship now after just one and a half months?! Yes, I will look for another job this year but now just isn't the time. For some reason, I'm starting to dread what my future life may look like.

Just encountered a difficult customer. Mother an daughter pair, both pretty old, mother being nicer and more reasonable than her daughter..
They said they bought something before Christmas and it doesn't work no matter which phone they try it on. They demanded a refund without a receipt and the daughter claimed to have thrown the receipt away since she didn't think that she would have to bring it back. First of all, which shop can give you a refund when you don't have the receipt-.- want a refund then keep your receipt!! The daughter literally shouted her story at least 5 times consecutively why I should give her a refund and said if I don't give a refund then she will take this further. Like what, sue us? Break or damage the shop or products? Her mum said that she spent $30 on it and it was a lot of money for her daughter. Well from the clothes they were wearing and how they mentioning spending a lot of money in the shop before Christmas, I highly doubt so. If $30 is a lot to you then a court summon would probably get you bankrupt then? You want my pity or empathy? Sorry you get none. It's not like they were beggars or something. Even if the daughter worked part time at a supermarket or something, she would definitely get $30 in at most 3 hours considering her age. The minimum pay per hour in Australia that I have heard if so far is $8 an hour. Therefore if she works anywhere, I can confirm that $30 isn't considered that much. Before I started working, $30 was a lot but then that was because I ha literally nothing and had to ask my parents for money. Now that I'm working, I can get $30 in 3-4 hours, so how much is $30 to her? She's not in rags, has a boyfriend so what in the world is $30?! I think her mother also couldn't stand her yelling her story so many times(in the exact same phrasing somemore) and told her to shut up lolol. Gave her the refund in cash and then they finally left. Worst thing is, after they left when I checked the product to see if it works with my iPod or not(it's supposed to work with mp3, mobile phones or laptops), it freaking works. Looks like those people don't know about an ON AND OFF SWITCH that exists in our modern society and neither did they try looking for one. Should have tried it in front of them and make the daughter shut up-.- if only I checked their claims earlier..the daughter actually looks older than my mum ok, like what is this-.- so ridiculous!!!

It is the last hour of 2012 (At least in Melbourne that is) and I thought it appropriate to post.
I know I mentioned 2 posts ago that I had a lot if things to post about and I would post it soon but unfortunately..this forgetful person here has forgotten what she was supposed to post about..for now, a new years eve post will suffice.

A lot has happened this year 2012 and already so quickly this year is coming to an end in 55minutes. I would say 2012 is definitely one of the years that I will not forget because so much has happened this year it isn't a year that will be wiped clean from memory. I wouldn't say 2012 started well for me. Not doing as well as I expected to in my exam just left me in a quite dejected mood. Regardless, my dad suggested to take the train to the city to watch the fireworks there so that's how we welcomed 2012. After attempting to look for a job and finally giving up in the holidays at the start of the year, I pretty much slacked for the entire holiday until the last week before uni started. Suddenly we received a call from my uncle informing is of my ahgong's passing. Rushed back the day after the call, the Saturday just before uni started. Came back after the wake and tarted uni. Lode went on and during Easter my dad brought us somewhere..and again informed of the death of another relative, this time of my dad's cousin's wife and eldest teenage son. Not to mention also, Whitney houston's death also shocked many this year. Had also been hearing from quite a few people about the death of their relatives, most of them losing a grandparent. (the phrasing for that last sentence was a bit awkward, sorry..not going to think how to phrase it now)
Not to forget, the several dates where the world was predicted to end. December 21 2012..guess what, the world's still spinning, lives are still moving on.

There are many things that have happened this year that I'm really thankful for and i'm glad to say I don't think I did much that I was regretful about. Hopefully next year will be a good year and I will blog again tmr.
For now,
A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR, HAPPY 2013. May God's name be glorified and may many more people learn of His name and His love in the new year. Have a blesses year ahead!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY AND ENJOY THE TIME WITH YOUR FAMILIES!! Ok I don't know why I typed in caps..but uh, you get my point :D

I actually have a lot to post about but I'm just too lazy/tired at the moment to do any real blogging for now..so bye and anticipate my next post hahah

If I could, I would fly to the moon right now.

Results are out earlier than the date given to us but at least I won't spend the first day of work fretting. I did the same as the first semester but different arrangement of grades. For the subject I was fretting about and worrying about so much, I passed and did quite well surprisingly. But really, I'm so so happy that I didn't fail that subject. Thank You God for answering my prayers.

First day of work tomorrow. Hopefully I learn everything quickly and be able to be a reliable worker ;D Must now go find out how to get there..but as of now, life's good :D

I'm feeling very..conflicted right now.
I want to be happy but yet I feel uneasy and apprehensive.
Reason for being happy? I got a job, like finally. Not going to disclose much but it's not at a pharmacy. Not going to reveal anymore, but if you really want to know then ask me personally. I am really happy I am hired. Finally I can start earning some money for myself so I don't have to keep asking my parents for money when I want to buy something or when I'm going out. Looks like I'll be able to go to the uni ball next year ;D

Uneasy because..exam results are out this coming monday, 3rd of Dec. Screwed up 1 exam but that may be enough to make me stay back a year to redo that subject. And also this from the intranet..

"Students who fail 25% (1 unit) in a semester will be required to see the Unit Coordinator of the failed unit. A form will need to be signed by the Unit Coordinator and returned to Academic and Student Services before Week 3 of the following semester. "
Basically..you see the unit coordinator and tell them why you failed and probably why you deserve the chance to retake the subject again or something like that I think. I am praying so hard that I didn't fail. I think I have about 30-35% from other assignments. Not sure what the passing mark is but the exam constitutes 60% of the final mark so I need 20% out of the 60% to get 50% overall. Not sure what the passing mark is(I think it's 48% or something like that?) Well, hopefully I didn't fail too badly at the exam :/ Darn psychology..
The other subjects, I guess I walked out feeling quite good, knowing I  probably did my best. Not sure about how to results will come out though. Every time I walk out of an exam feeling happy and satisfied, the results always come out below my expectations. I think there's a set of results for another test out already but I can't seem to see it or find the folder for it. I'm not sure if it's already out(although I think it is) and I can't access it for some reason. It doesn't show up in my 'grades' folder..so strange because I remember how my friends were talking about how badly they did? I feel worried, I really do.

Struck lottery and posting twice a day?
I didn't realise I already posted this morning but whatever, another post won't kill.

It has suddenly hit me that I am actually not good at anything in particular.
In school, despite it being a bilingual school, the students' command of both English and Chinese was neither very good nor very bad. Speaking in general here, because there are definitely some who are very good in either. Me being the average or even below average student is fluent in both English and Chinese but I cannot safely say that I have mastered either.
This doesn't end with my command of languages. Even though I play at least 2 instruments(attempting to learn one more now), I cannot say I have mastered either one. Both are somewhat there, neither excellent nor terrible.
It's like everything is hanging in limbo, being neither good nor bad and in that sense I guess I haven't found what I am good at.
How do I stand out from the crowd? At the moment, I believe I'm overshadowed in every single aspect.

So fed-up right now.
Writing up my resume so I can finally go get a job and I am getting so fed-up with it.
First of all, there isn't really much to put on it other than my academic stuff. I have no work experience nor do I have any references. Even volunteer work..the only volunteer work I ever remember doing was CIP - cleaning beaches, visiting a children's home, hanging up national flags at a HDB block for national day and hamper wrapping, and to be honest, that's it. I don't have anything else and all the CIP that I've ever done is not even relevant to what I'm applying for. Also, all the CIP activities were done more than 3 years ago. I have nothing. Singapore education has never prepared me for half studying and half working. I didn't even have to work during holidays in Singapore because holidays were spent studying, doing holiday homework and cca. Can't I just honestly tell the interviewer about this? I was actually planning to put my high school teachers contacts. I asked my friend about it and she thought it would be weird if I was already past 1st year uni but still using high school teacher contacts. She thought using uni lecturers or tutors would be more appropriate. But then, my lecturers or tutors don't even know of my existence!! Should I still email and ask anyway? I was thinking maybe I could email one of the lecturers because I did quite well in the assignments, but then I realised that's the subject which I screwed up the exam, maybe not such a good idea since he would probably look it up to see what he could say. Furthermore, he's not a full-time lecturer. So again, I'm stuck in a rut.  I googled about the lack of work experience and they said you can put volunteer work instead, or odd jobs like baby-sitting. But then again, it's not very relevant at all to what I'm applying for-.- Then I googled about the lack of references. They said you could use personal references such as family friends who can testify your character and how you work. But then it was also said that use of personal references should be minimised and emphasis on those are often not taken into account. I read somewhere that sometimes if you blow the interviewer away at the interview, they often won't ask for the references.
I honestly feel like coming clean and telling the interviewers that I don't have any work experience whatsoever, nor do I have any references, but I'm willing to work hard to prove myself given the chance.

I texted another friend about what she put on hers(she got a job recently) and she also said she had no work experience and had nothing on her resume(although I do think she has some work experience from year10 that was..compulsory if I'm not wrong). Asked her about the work experience part and the references part. Hopefully she sees it soon.
If I really can't write up a resume, then I guess I'll have to volunteer somewhere.

Today's weather is HOTHOTHOT!! High of 34 degrees today. It's the kind of weather where you don't feel like doing anything. This apparently is a behavioral mechanism with regards to body temperature regulation. Less movement means less heat production, preventing increase of the body's core temperature.

Anyway, something funny happened last Thursday. My mum brought my brother(year 7) for some trial Maths tuition and then having nothing better to do, I tagged along. We walked into the room and then the tutor was like uh..so who is here for the trial? Hahaha so do I look that young or does my brother look matured or both..

I know there's a lack of structure and flow in this post but whatever, I shall blame the weather.

Exams are over, it's the holidays and I have time on my hands so, why not blog?
Talking about exams..I really feel uneasy about my results. They're not out yet but I still feel..very uneasy about it.

Anyway, it is really about time I started blogging again after the crazy exam study period.
I owe my friend a birthday letter and I still haven't gotten down to writing it yet because I can't find some stuff..argh I really have to start doing something before I waste my entire life away.
Need to finish my resume this weekend and start the job hunting next week. My mum keeps bugging me to quickly get one before all the spots are taken. I think the only reason why I keep putting it off is firstly, my resume is so empty and..embarrassing if you think about it. Other than academic qualifications, nothing else is worth putting on it. Secondly, I'm so worried about the interview. Generally I'm terrible at spontaneous replies. I'm just hoping that the place that I apply will take me even though I don't have any work experience or whatsoever. One thing Singapore education didn't exactly prepare students for. Well, in Singapore it makes sense to not work until after A levels but over here, people start working early and rack up all types of work experience. It's so hard><

Anyway, I was thinking about something the other day and it hit me that it's interesting how our brains register something as funny and trigger laughter. There are many different types of things that make us laugh, different things for different people but how do we determine if something is funny or not? Do we learn to tell what is funny or not funny?

It's been quite a while since I updated.
Exams finished on monday, so in short, I've been doing nothing for this entire week. Well, not exactly nothing haha. Packed my room and when I say pack up I mean like take everything of the shelves and out of the drawers and start packing again. One thing to note..I have so much stuff. Dug out a lot of things that had sentimental value to me and reading all of it just made me smile and think how blessed I am for the friends God has put in my life. Sure I've met a few unpleasant people along the way, misunderstandings formed in some friendships and now I can safely say it was all worth it. Without meeting those unpleasant people and having the misunderstandings that I did, I would not have the same close friends I have today. I'm a person that values sentimental stuff a lot, like I keep letters and birthday letters from my friends (I even have a metal box for it haha). I even have some notes we ever passed in class. Digging all of it out and taking a look at those things again makes me miss them so much more.

I also finished watching Iljimae, the Lee JunKi version. Can I say, I do not regret spending 20 hours of my life watching that drama. This is one of the dramas that made me cry and laugh throughout. I started the drama on wednesday I think and then already from episode 1 I started crying because it's so..sad and touching. The child actors are really good, especially the boy that acted as the young Lee Geom. No show ever has made me cry in the first episode, not even One Litre of Tears, and this drama definitely caught my attention from the first episode. I have no idea why people find the first 5 episodes or so boring. The OSTs are so sad but beautiful at the same time. I really wouldn't mind watching this again. I took really long to decide what show to watch because nowadays, most of the taiwanese dramas have storylines that are very..typical? I don't really know how to describe them but they don't have storylines that get your attention from the first episode. Don't think I'll watch any taiwanese dramas in the meantime, even the older ones. Not even planning to watch sunshine angel that I planned to watch ages ago, it has my favourite singers/actors in it but the storyline just doesn't sound interesting. Should I watch The Return of Iljimae? Somehow, Lee JunKi is stuck in my head as THE Iljimae and he doesn't act in The Return of Iljimae. Dara has a small feature in it though :/ Should I watch it? I read somewhere that JunKi's version of Iljimae was more action-packed and has an older demographic whereas The Return of Iljimae is for a younger group of people. Went to read some reviews about Iljimae and quite a few of them say the script was messed up? I thought it was pretty ok/good. One thing most of the reviews put down as the good points was the acting, and that one I do agree. The acting was so real that I sort of thought they were the actual characters themselves, I thought it was really convincing. Meanwhile, shall watch the latest episode of running man! hahhaha

Casually posting during dinner since I haven't posted in quite a while..ok maybe just over a week. The past week I've been attempting to study, notice the word attempting. No idea why but I've lost every single bit of motivation to study now..how easily I get distracted just shocks me. I think I know my stuff for tomorrow's exam so hopefully I won't be thrown off my feet and walk out confidently knowing I did well. I've never felt this calm before exams before..really worrying considering this is the day before my fort exam. To be honest, I haven't even started studying for my other exams a next week. More crazy cramming coming up so won't be blogging anytime until 12 nov. To all A level takers, all the best!!

It has been a very uneventful birthday today, not that I was expecting any surprises.
It is quite sad that no one from my high school has wished me happy birthday yet. Today is ending in 3 hours and I haven't got a single one from people I called my 'close friends'. Maybe they forgot, or they remembered the wrong day or something? Somehow people keep remembering my birthday at october 20-something. No..it's not. Especially one of them..I thought we were pretty close and during my high school reunion she mentioned the exact number of days left till my birthday, but then how come today..ohwell, I shall not let myself get too disappointed about this because there is more.

First happy birthday came from zoenin in facebook messages. Second from my dad on iMessages. Third, surprisingly, from a uni friend by text. I find it EXTREMELY ironic how I only told maybe 1 friend from uni when my birthday is and I get a text message from another person while my high school friend publicly declared my birthday when nobody knew(so technically all of them know now) and I haven't received a single message. Hmm..interesting. Got to uni(had a test today-.-) and the birthday wishes started pouring down haha. I had no idea everyone knew, I don't even know how..

Most disappointing thing was when I got home. Turns out because my brother wants to learn baseball, he went to a baseball practice thing at 5 and came back at like..7+ I think. In then end, no cake and no eating out, and here I am, going to end my birthday listening to my lecturer talk about pregnancy and lactation just like a usual friday night. I didn't want my birthday to be a big deal in school/uni but like at least at home would be nice you know, just saying. Instead, our activities have to revolve around my brother, yea thanks so much. I could have found someone to go out and eat dinner with and sort of celebrate, but I didn't, just to come home and slack off and help to cook my own dinner. It was only until 8+ that my mum asked whether I wanted to go out and get a cake and I was like...what shop is open for you to buy a cake at this hour. Yes I do appreciate the effort my mum tried to put in but it seems sort of insensitive to ask whether or not I want to get a cake when there probably isn't going to be a store open. My mum actually wanted my dad to drive her out to buy a cake but my dad said the same thing and refused to drive. So in the end, we're going to buy a cake tomorrow and go out for dinner. I think I'm sort of anal about celebrating birthdays ON the birthday itself but, what can I do? My family isn't the kind to plan surprises, nor do they place a strong emphasis on birthdays because..it's just a birthday. Celebrating early or late doesn't really matter. I wouldn't argue with this if my birthday was on a weekday but today is friday..and it's my 18th...I'm sorry and I know I sound spoilt saying this but I'm going to say it anyway. It's my 18th birthday, why does my birthday have to revolve around what my brother wants to do? All my friends were asking what I'm going to do tonight and I said nothing, because that's how my family celebrates birthdays. It's always a cake just before we go to sleep and that's it for a birthday. For the first time ever, I don't have a cake on my birthday. Way to remember my 18th?

Just logged into facebook and saw that I got a message from my senior haha, I'm quite surprised to see it since he's quite busy. But then again, my birthday isn't that hard to remember for band members because I have the same birthday as the conductor! Happy birthday ms chan!

So..this will be my last post ever as a 17-year-old.
5 minutes to midnight now. Do I sound like I'm anticipating it? I'm not, really.
Truthfully, tomorrow will just pass like any other day and I might even forget that it's my birthday.
I think in the recent years, my parents have been more excited about my birthday than I have been. Just now, my parents asked whether I wanted to go out with friends or do something tomorrow. Well, I don't think my friends know when's my birthday and I don't exactly want them to know. Turned off my facebook timeline. Hmm, I don't think I'll do anything special tomorrow. Go to uni for a test, come home, slack off, maybe do some work, and there you go, a perfectly ordinary friday night. No wild crazy 18th party for me. I'm not the crazy party type where everyone gets drunk.
2 minutes to midnight now, I better read up my prac manual for the test tomorrow><



So many happenings in the span of 2 hours today..I'm so tired physically right now-.-

First of all, IT'S WUZUN'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!! Hahah it's been quite a few years now and it's been getting harder to follow his news since he sort of disappeared from the media's radar..but anyway, happy birthday to him! So many people have the 1010 birthday. Ok, maybe not that many but quite a few. It's wuzun's birthday, miss A's Suzy(she's the same age as me :O) and my friend from uni's birthday! Mine's coming up soon too, but honestly, I don't want anybody to know..I don't know why but I want it kept..private, I don't need surprises or presents on my birthday. I think at the moment, the people who know my birthday are my closest friends and my parents. No, not my entire family knows because..my brother is not cool and doesn't know when my birthday is-.- it was quite a shock when I was having a prac today and a friend came up and said that my birthday's coming p really soon too. I almost does of a heart attack, because I was looking at the lay day of this semester(which also happens to be my birthday) and then she asked of that was my birthday and I can't..lie about it can I? So I told her yes and I can't believe she remembers it till now..really hope she doesn't tell other people when it is. If I could, I wouldn't even turn up on my birthday but then..I have a test on that day...

Anyway, on to what made me so tired. The genius that I am forgot to bring my Myki(public transport card - same thin as the ez-link card) and when I was going home(about 5) just before I was going to tap my card, I realised my card wasn't in my bag. Being the klutz that I am, I immediately sat down somewhere and rummaged in my bag, even resorting to taking everything out and putting everything back in again. Of course, it was sitting at home and I couldn't find it, so I thought it dropped somewhere. I immediately caught a tram back to uni, searched near some areas in uni where I sat down and found nothing. With nothing I can do, I caught the tram again and headed back to the train station(melb central), hoping I can buy a metcard(a paper ticket system the government is trying to phase out). The metcard is a paper ticket that you can buy before each trip you travel. And as they are trying to stop that system and move to Myki, which is the same system as the ez-link cards, they don't sell those cards anymore. Went to the customer service to ask, only to be told I have to get another myki so i can get home. Not willin to spend so much money, I walked the distance of 5 tram stops o another big train station(flinders st) to see if they still sold metcards. They didn't, so i went to catch a tram again since some of the old ones still have the machines that sell the metcards. Little did I know, the machine only accepts coins and I only have notes. Attempted to change money with passengers on the tram and I was pleasantly surprised haha. Asked this man if he had coin change for $10. I needed $6.50 in coins for the metcard an since Australia doesn't have $2 notes, he had to give me all in coins. He literally dug in all of his pockets to see of he had change. Turns out he only had $4 in coins and told me it's ok to take it if it was enough(without giving him back any money). I gave it back to him since it wasn't enough and thanked him. Asked a woman after that and she emptied her entire wallet coin pocket for me, counting all her 10 and 20 cents for me. In the end she was short by a dollar and then somehow I ended up with $4 from her. Thanked her profusely and decided to risk buying the cheaper concession ticket for kids under 17. Bought the ticket, got off and went to the station(melb central) and put my card in. Put the card in, and the machine said "no trips left" and I was wondering why. Took the card back and saw the EXPIRED on it-.- I feel so cheated..in Facebook terms, I was trolled. Seriously, I was panicking and thinking I finally found a way to get home and I'm told my ticket is expired..no choice but to buy a full fare Myki card and spent $10. But then, at least I got home and found my card. I was praying so hard on the train that my card wasn't lost but at home, so praise God!

To the gentleman and the lady who tried so hard to find change for me and volunteered to just give me the money, thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart. It's just a small gesture and although you'll probably never see me again or read this, I was really touched by your actions and so once again, thank you so so so much for trying to help!

Ok, here I am posting again as if I've nothing better to do, but really though, I've tons of things to do. Just had to go crazy over some things hahaha.

Firstly, 빅뱅 is currently in Singapore, in the midst of their alive tour concert at this moment in time. AHHHHHHH>< And here I am, not doing much with my life. Maknae Seungri who is 3 years older than me has already earned millions and here I am, slacking my life away. So ironic how I like them now and then they hold their first south-east asian concert leg and have 2 concert nights in Singapore when I'm not there now. I was thinking if only I was in Singapore but then again, I would be studying for A lvls at this time of the year, so not really much hope of seeing them just yet lol. Tickets are expensive though. Ticket prices start at $128. I remember the Fahrenheit one starting at $68 or $78 I think. But then now that I think about it, it's been 4 years already. Inflation maybe? Watched a few of the alive tours already performed on youtube and yea, it's quite similar I guess, just without the thrill of being in the crowd and being able to see them with your own eyes and breathe the same air hahahha.

Second thing I have to mention is, that 炎亞綸's new EP/album is going to be officially released on my birthday! No kidding. I've always seen facebook comments on singers promotion pictures that the albums are released on their birthday and now finally, there's one released on my birthday!! HAHHAHA.

Ok, enough of going crazy for today. I know I said a week ago that I would post about the testimony that I heard but I haven't got down to doing that yet. I'll have to do that when I'm free, not at the moment. Maybe I'l try to type a bit every day. We'll see. Have a calculations test this coming tuesday. Second day we're back in uni and they have to have a test that requires 80% to pass. It's open book though, so I hope I'll do well. That elusive full mark is really..elusive.

Like today's weather, I've been feeling sort of grey, gloomy and rainy today. 不知为什么，心里就是觉得空虚虚的。

Went to a birthday dinner buffet last night. So many people went, as many as 40 I believe, all but one are older than me. Well considering that they were celebrating two peoples' birthday, I guess it's reasonable for that size. Anyway, I know both birthday girls from high school and so there were quite a few of them from high school and a few boys. Some of the girls I'm quite close to I guess. But then I found it so tiring last night, just trying to socialize and catchup with what's going on in their life. I found myself shrinking as the night went on, maybe also due to the fact that I woke up at 7 in the morning. Went to sleep once I got home.

Today though, I'm still feeling an emptiness. Maybe it's the hormones going mad or something but I still feel the same as last night. Not much joy or enthusiasm in doing anything, not even for eating(with regard to buffet last night). So tired of socializing, so tired of forcing myself to study, so tired of everything. Feeling so lonely in this world somehow. Yes I have friends here, yes I contact my friends in Singapore, yes I still contact my best friends, but yet I feel alone, like some void. Is God going to fill that void? I don't know, maybe my hormones are really going mad. I haven't even contacted my 'close-friend' from uni yet this week. She has contacted me either, maybe because she doesn't really use Facebook or something. Anyway, end of this emo post, have to listen to at least one more lecture before I sleep tonight!

Not been posting for a week or so, been trying to catch up with lectures but obviously not really working haha.

Anyone keeping up with kpop news will know about seungri's scandals, yes with an 's'. There's been like 2 in such a short period of time. Well in the first scandal, apparently he had intercourse with a woman who took pictures of him while he was sleeping(topless) and revealed some really weird supposedly 'sexual habits' that he had. Well honestly, if you tip your head to the right to look at the picture of the sleeping face, it doesn't really look like him..like the face shape doesn't look right, or maybe it's just me. Although I don't support celibacy, he's an adult that can be responsible for his own actions so I guess in a sense, I'm not that concerned whether or not it's true. Didn't see an official statement from YG about this translated on websites so I'm not sure if they've made an official statement about it. Second scandal was a Japanese actress/model hugging and kissing him in the late night. I watched the video and well, she hugged him and kissed him but he didn't have any reaction. He didn't push her away or hug her/kiss he back. It said somewhere that she was drunk? So awkward at this part in the video where the girl adjusts her clothes before leaving the karaoke lounge and she just pulls her dress down slightly and revealing her chest..but anyway, it was published by apple daily from Taiwan. Trust taiwan's paparazzi...taiwan I still love you but I have no respect for your paparazzi I'm sorry. YG made an official statement saying nothing scandal worthy was done that night. Funny how everyone shut up after that. All it requires is A sentence. Interesting to see how private lives are invaded just because they're famous.

On another note, saw 2 articles that caught my eye yesterday on yahoo. One was about how science may one day prove God doesn't exist. Well, you don't exactly see people looking for how science does prove that God exists do you. Like my previous post about how tree is some sort of physical proof of God's existence? What are the chances that a big bang occurs that can create one planet out of 8(used to be 9) that has perfect conditions to support life? Why do some people want to believe so badly that God doesn't exist? Let's move on to the second article now. Some Harvard researcher examined some fragment that showed that early Christians believed Jesus had a wife because apparently the fragment says that Jesus said 'my wife' 'can be my disciple' or something like that. First of all, the bible never said Jesus had a wife. How is it possible for Jesus who is God himself to marry a sinful human? And in Hebrews 5:8-10, God appointed Jesus as a high priest with his obedience. Being the Son, he would obey his Father and therefore obey the 10 commandments. God doesn't allow celibacy, do you think Jesus would commit Celibacy? I don't think so.

Heard a testimony from a guy that God literally rise him front the dead. When everyone gave up on him, God revived him. Shall share about it in a post tomorrow.

Blogging at this unearthly hour is unhealthy. Really. I have no idea why I am posting now at 1am. Didn't post over the weekend so maybe my hands are getting itchy.

Went jogging/walking when I got back from uni today. Time to start exercising since spring has started and it's not that cold anymore. I used to complain about PE and didn't enjoy it much(especially 2.4) but now I guess I sort of appreciate the government's efforts in incorporating PE into the curriculum. In Melbourne once you get to the senior years o high school, you no longer have compulsory PE lessons and lazy people like me just don't exercise at all except for those once a year sport events. When you get to uni it's even worse. You eat outside more for lunches and obviously don't have PE. A lot of people here go jogging and swimming regularly but not having that kind of lifestyle, I just sit at home all day sitting and hermit-ing around the house. Realized how bad my stamina is now. Think I shall work toward building it up again, about my previous standard 2 and a half years ago? I read somewhere that when you have more muscles you have a higher metabolism so you tend to burn up more calories even at rest. Well, for now just trying to build up some stamina and then next will be abs haha. Not like rock hard pacs but more toned? I think it is slightly unsightly to wear tighter shirts and have a bulge sitting there, especially now since summer is coming and well, you wear less material compared to winter where you're all covered up.

Was thinking about stuff in the shower(lol I'm weird it's ok..) I think I blogged about this before but I'll just talk about it since it's stuck in my head. Anyway, when I went back last year, I went to this church gathering thing for the helpers of the kids church and then we were doing some worksheet that was involved in the game that we played. Anyway, there was a question on the worksheet in Chinese asking you to classify certain materials and there was 橡皮 on it. Although being quite certain 橡皮 is rubber, it din't fit on the flow chart and I asked to double check what it was. This older girl answered me and told me 橡皮 is plastic..and then she said in a sort of superior voice that she confirmed it was correct and she was from some JC(I don't remember which one, but it was quite good I think). Now that I keep thinking of it, it's so funny lol. Can you imagine a 橡皮袋?!! A 橡皮擦 is called 橡皮擦 for a reason, it's called a rubber, I'm pretty sure 塑胶 is plastic. Anyway, stupidly I accepted what she said hahah but anyway, anyone reading this will now know that 橡皮 is rubber and 塑胶 is plastic.

Alright, shall end here for today. Going to dreamland!



EEEEEEnteresting statistics I have for this blog. Yes I know I spelt 'interesting' wrong there.

So weird..I have 2 page views from people who searched 'your butt has touched me most 9gag' like what?! I don't think I have a picture from 9gag that came with those words. Don't have that many readers since I started this long time ago when everyone had a blog and I don't think my life is that interesting that many people will read about it. 21 pageviews from singapore, and I have readers from Russia, Australia, Germany, US, China and Mexico(in order of decreasing pageviews) I didn't even know about this stats thing until recently. Obviously I haven't been exploring the new blogger dashboard layout.

Really tired today. Had a test today and it went well so..at least my lack of sleep paid off.
Was going to finish studying one topic each day since monday but that obviously didn't work out very well since I had to stay until 11.30pm the night before and wake up at 5.30am to actually finish studying all the notes. Arrived in uni at 8.30am, skipped 2 lectures to study some more and look through the tute sheets and the workshop I had yesterday.

I really shouldn't be complaining because all my friends(in Singapore) are probably only getting 3-4 hours sleep just studying for prelims and preparing for A's. It's so soon I can't believe it. That would be me now if I didn't move. Till today, I still believe I wouldn't have survived if I stayed. I think coming to melbourne has made me mature a lot in regards of motivation. Went to a pretty good high school but then kinda slacked off without the motivation. I wasn't doing well, I wasn't really paying attention in class and all those kind of things. When I came here, everything changed. In a sense, things seemed more achievable than it is in Singapore. I guess that made me feel more motivated to study hard and to actually do well and aim high, because no matter how high I aimed in Singapore, I never ever met my goal. To date, the only time I have met my goal in terms of academic results would probably be my PSLE result. Everything else hasn't been able to meet up to that yet.

Anyway, sorry for the lack of a picture in this post. Didn't find anything interesting to take pictures of. Weather was so-so today, one minute with the crazy wind and the next with blue sky and sun, that's melbourne weather for you. Apparently the wind's going to be very strong(120km/h) for the next 2 days or so. Every night, the wind's blowing like crazy, it almost feels like the house will start shaking. Maybe that's why I saw 2 ambulances and 1 fire engine drive past uni today. How often do you see so many emergency services dispatched in a day? \

Alright, I'm really sleepy now. Will post again tomorrow, hopefully with a picture too!

Back from uni now, been a long day..especially without my pencil case! Was walking home just now along the train tracks, not the main pathway past the front of houses but by the back and look what I saw! The beauty of God's creation never fails to make me smile(:
Have a good day!

This dumb person here(points to self) forgot to bring her pencil case today, meaning I have no stationary..the lat time I forgot to being my pencil case was like years ago I think..it's been a while. Blogging gin my lecture now because I don't have my notes nd neither do I have my stationary-.- such. Genius, forgetting to do do many things..ok I should start acting attention.

Spring is officially here!! Well, yesterday was the first day of spring but I sort of forgot to post about it. It's really early but I can't get back to sleep due to the chorus of birds outside my window. No kidding. I ever called my friend once on Skype and she was like DO YOU LIVE IN A FOREST?!! So many birds...

Once I get out of bed, the bird chorus stops-.- jut went outside to take some nice pictures and the air is cold and fresh! Wouldn't mind going jogging in this weather. Should probably get some work done since I'm already up.. Have a test on Thursday, not much time left to study..

Finally finished my 2000 word essay! Stayed up till 1am last night finishing up the referencing. I think towards the end my argument points were quite..rubbish. But I finished it before the deadline so..thankful that I managed to finish it on time. Was super malu and didn't know about the declaration for original work. In the end I printed another copy in uni, stuck a note to it and handed in a second copy. Better to be safe than sorry!

Had a lot of free pancakes today too! Uni had free pancakes during lunch and of course I put maple syrup! Then after uni, went to eat free pancakes at pancake parlor. You have to like their page an claim the offer. It's so nice haha. It probably sounds disgusting but pancakes with ice cream and maple syrup is so delicious!

Anyway, why I titled this post realization? I read something online yesterday(while I was supposed to be doing my essay) and one thing was quite interesting really. People who don't believe in God believes our universe began from what is known as the big bang. Scientists may have theorized it and even proven that it is true but what they are unsure of, is why or rather, the cause of the big bang that created the universe one fine day. Did the big bang just happen to occur and just happen to create the universe in which earth is the only planet able to support life? Is it just coincidence that earth is the only planet with an appropriate amount of water and an atmosphere to support life? Is it coincidence that the Earth is located not too far and yet not too near the sun? There was some info about the moon being perfectly sized too but I don't remember the details. On deeper thought, I don't think all this is coincidence. It was made to happen. If not, wouldn't we all exist out of coincidence? In the beginning, God commanded for light and it was given. It wasn't said how but it just did. Maybe the big bang did occur on God's command. Some food for thought(: accompanied by a picture of pancakes!


Spring is here!! Fixed the piasaweb thing and so here's the first of the barrage of pictures that I hope to post in future updates!

Guess I was wrong after all, which is a good thing of course :D

Weather's turning sososo nice. I will go fix the blogger app on my iPod after I finish this post..it's been a bit too long-.- Yay! Then I can post pictures more often! Pictures of..stuff I see around, nature etc.

Apparently it's going to rain tomorrow and it's really cold tomorrow too so boooo):

Anyway, had a single tute today from 3-4pm, and that's my entire timetable for today. For one of the few rare times I actually knew how to do the tute sheet. It's  not a good sign that I'm not sure what I'm doing but I think it's getting better now because I actually know how to do my chem tute sheets with all the mechanisms, determining starting products and products because now I actually get it. Did mechanisms last term too but..I didn't really get it and had to resort to memorising tons of equations that in the end I forgot almost half so..at least now I understand it and can try to end up with some possible product.

Still now done with my essay :/ Finished like a quarter of my last point and the conclusion. I must finish it tonight because I need to start studying for my test next week. Need to edit the answers for some questions for a group assignment also due on friday.

Meeting my primary school friend next thursday! Actually, I think we knew each other since kindergarten. I AM NOT KIDDING. Since K2 to be exact. We were in the same class and then ended going to the same primary school. Was never really THAT close but it's still quite amazing that she remembered me lol. Being very..unpopular in primary school(not like I was extremely popular in high school or over here either), I didn't expect anyone other than less than 10 people to remember me. I actually remember quite a lot of people but I think they probably won't remember/recognise me anymore. I think I've changed so much, character-wise or appearance-wise, I've changed so much I think not many people will recognise me haha. I'll be quite shocked if some people see me in public and actually recognise me haha. Even in sec2/sec3 in chinese tuition I met 3 other guys all my year from the same primary school and I'm quite sure not a single one of them recognised me. I just found one of them on facebook lol. I even remember his full name-.- Only 3 other peihwa people are mutual friends..should I add him? We were even tablemates in P3 I think. Anyway, the friend I'm meeting, I don't she has changed that much honestly. More mature looking, straight hair now, probably still as tall haha (yes she and her twin sister were so tall last time). She has a twin sister haha, don't think I'm going to meet the sister. Was closer to her than to her sister I think. I couldn't tell them apart in primary school lol. Now after a bit of facebook stalking, I realise the way they smile for photos is different haha. Think we're going for churros! :D Quite excited and nervous about the meeting haha. Don't know if I'll have anything interesting to say lol I'm quite a boring person.

Ohyes, before I forget haha
Spotted a double rainbow today! For the first time too! Really clear double rainbow, and then the entire primary rainbow(the obvious one) could be seen. So the entire arch was over the road. It was drizzling slightly, grey skies and the sun from the back. So beautiful haha God's promise ;)

无奈

Downloaded the blogger app on my ipod and tried to post something on it with a picture and it says I have to sign on to picasaweb first..what is that?! I thought it would be more convenient so I don't have to log in all the time and it will be more convenient to post pictures since I take pictures most of the time with my iPod but noooo, now I have to fix the picasaweb thing-.- Going to spend a bomb tomorrow..quite literally. Going out for lunch with my friends tomorrow(XIAO LONG BAO HAHAHA). The food at that shop isn't too expensive..aiming maybe about $10. Then after that, going for coffee at max brenners(I don't even know where the outlet is) with other friends and then going bowling. Bowling itself is..not cheap. Ok to someone who's working will probably find all this reasonable but to the non-working me..it's quite a large spenditure(did I spell it right?!) of money ok! And then getting a lift back from a friend. Yes, I have friends that can drive haha 

Goodness..I really have no comment about one of my lecturers..
The notes he gives don't even make sense and he keeps cancelling lectures and says it's for active learning. In the first lecture, he said, if you don't understand, read your lecture notes. And a few lectures later he says OH you don't need to know this stuff, you just have to understand it. Like SERIOUSLY?!  Even in the lectures, he doesn't even teach properly, like I have not taken a single thing out of his lectures at all. Shall not reveal about his position too much but he is like one of the deans. We don't pay our fees to walk out of every lecture wondering what the heck the lecturer is talking about. First of all, even if you want us to do active learning, give us clear and understandable notes first! Not the notes that you give us with barely any information explaining what is going on. If the whole cohort of students are complaining, shouldn't it be a problem with the lecturer? Even the tute sheet that was uploaded. How are we supposed to do it when everything is so vague? Even the units for measurements aren't even put in WHO IN THE WORLD KNOWS WHAT YOU MEAN?! I can't read your mind, that's for sure. You can have all the knowledge about this topic but you obviously aren't teaching it to us in a comprehensible way. Yes, we shouldn't be spoon-fed but the amount of information you give us is way too little. What do you expect us to do with that meagre bit of information that jumps around everywhere? Even in your lectures you can go from the first page to the last page and back to the middle somewhere. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS YOU-.-

Really shouldn't be blogging(considering I have an oral presentation tmr) but nevertheless, here is another blog post.

I think I really do think a lot. Or maybe I'm just insecure. Or maybe I'm just oversensitive. My friend from uni recently started treating me sort of differently, not like being mean to me but just not as..lively/friendly as when we first became friends. Like with other people she seems quite cheerful and happy but then somehow she seems distant from me. Because she gets off the train stop after mine and we have the same timetable, we usually go home together and for about maybe the past week, we have had almost nothing to say on the train journey home, and in uni I just sit and listen. I'm not exactly her best friend but like I think the friendship is changing? Or am I just thinking too much as usual? I'm quite confused right now. Like I think last thursday, I purposely disappeared to the uni library after lecture and she was walking in front to the tram stop. She texted me about 10minutes later asking where I went, and the next morning I met her on the tram and all was good, and then now it has returned to the slightly awkward atmosphere again. So many questions passing through my mind, some of which are quite stupid..like is she angry at me? Did I do something? Or is she just tired of hanging out with me-.- I think I'm thinking too much right. I keep reassuring myself that I am thinking too much but..it isn't really working. Well, all I can do now is see how it develops.

I'm a pretty slow person also. I'm quite awkward as well, especially with adults, teachers and strangers. I am the kind of person that doesn't know what to say and my slow mind takes a hundred years to think of something to say or a conversation topic-.- Usually before I sleep I think about my day and all the stupid things I did that day haha, and end up regretting a lot of things I said and I even think up funny replies to something someone said that day. Yes, I'm that weird. I don't know why. And just out of the blue, I want to thank all my best friends who have put up with my weirdness and lameness and uh..slowness/retardedness over the years, especially miriam and sarah and zoenin. I can't seem to find a best friend here. I mean I do have friends, quite a lot I guess, but not any close/good friends that I can share everything with. Maybe it's too soon to speak since it's only been 3 years but it isn't impossible.

愛 - heart, friendship.
Friendship from the heart?

ahhhh I remember what I was going to post about hahahah
Saw this posted on youtube I think on the singapore 9gag account



I must really be getting old-.-
Was organising thoughts in my head about a post and then when I logged in I don't remember what I was going to post..

It's the end of the first week back at uni! So tired..just the first week and they let us know that we have to do a presentation in 3 weeks and a 2000-words essay end of next month..looks like it's going to get very busy :/ Research itself already takes so long and then plus preparing the actual end product plus doing all the referencing..and it's only the first week back. Need to kick myself into the studying rhythm again. After the holidays..I've continued sloth-ing and still watching videos and going around facebook. I really need to start getting serious soon><

Unlike what I planned..as usual..I haven't finished the birthday stuff, like the inefficient person I am-.- ahhh I will try my veryveryvery best to finish it this weekend and post it next week.

Hmm..I forgot what else I was going to post so I'll update again sometime..

Really weird for me to post so many times a day in such a long time, especially considering that I posted a long one just before.


Before logging in I had plenty of things to type up but then I suddenly blanked when I came to the posting screen..


Yet another hectic semester ahead. Was laughing at a friend's timetable last semester(he had 8am starts 3 times a week) and then now..I have 9am starts 3 or 4 times a week-.- I don't end as late though, latest I've seen so far is at 4, and usually it's about 2-3pm which is still ok I guess..I have weird tutorials though :/ One tutorial(same subject) once every 2 weeks is at 3-4pm and that's the only thing I have in uni that day-.- In short,  I have to travel at least 2 hours to and fro from uni and spend an hour in uni..waste of my time. Talking about uni, I forgot to pay my semester 2 fees hahhahaha. I paid only last night when it was due last friday lol. Called the uni yesterday to check if I could still pay and was answered by this very bored-sounding receptionist person. Well, anyway, paid up and it takes 5 days to process. At most, I just don't have internet access in uni for the first 2 days.

The holidays has passed by really quickly, and as usual, didn't accomplish much of what  wanted to do.

Don't even know what I DID accomplish during the holidays lol not even watching/finishing any dramas. I somehow lost interest..maybe I'll start watching sungkyungkwan scandal hahah(song joongki!! :D) Finished only one drama series which has to be my record low for a 5 week holiday lol. Not even interested in fahrenheit's dramas. Was planning to watch so many not long ago, like sunshine angel(wuzun and rainie yang), fated to love you 2(rainie yang), absolute boyfriend(Jiro and goo hye sun), Alice in wonder city(Aaron yan) and I have lost total motivation to watch any of them. Apparently the ratings for the more recent ones being absolute boyfriend and alice in wonder city doesn't have very good viewership ratings and the storylines are all a bit... Also read a bit of news about Jiro being rumoured to leave Fahrenheit which will cause permanent disbanding of Fahrenheit. Here: http://asianfanatics.net/forum/topic/772261-fahrenheit-on-the-verge-of-disbandment/
I wasn't really shocked when I read it. Honestly, I used to really like them and then after wuzun left and I came to melbourne everything sort of cooled down. After wuzun left there was no news about them and I don't even know what they all are doing now. I didn't even know aaron was shooting a drama until it finished shooting-.- Apparently all the movies wuzun has worked on since he left(2-3 movies) were all bombs at the box office, and maybe aaron is preparing a new album? Calvin is still hosting the Asia entertainment show thing(I don't even know the name and can't watch it anywhere) and Jiro I think is moving off into acting also. So anyway, there are speculations that after he releases his album, he might not renew his contract. Well, they all are getting quite old(especially compared to the kpop stars and other young taiwan singers) so I'm not surprised that they're heading off in different directions.  What has happened has happened and what is to come will come. At least there's the memory off all 4 together, once upon a time.

Was going to learn korean this holidays too..as of now, I can read the korean alphabet but..vocab is still a problem :/ It's so hard to learn it now at this age..and I'm not even that old-.- Been watching a lot of running man episodes hahah. It's so funny! The permanent members are all so funny lol. Would watch family outing season 1 if there were more episodes..I think I finished most of them long time ago..

Shall move on to what I actually DID do during the holidays hahah. Spent the first week hermitting at home-.- because some people still had exams and I didn't really want to disturb anybody during the exam season. Went out a lot the first 2 weeks of holiday, met friends, went out almost every day and then when the school holidays for high school began, I stopped going out that much lol, went out like once a week-.- AND THEN, here comes the exciting event lol! I WENT SKIING! Drove to mt buller last thursday, arrived in the evening. Weather forecast for mt buller was raining(and that's not good because it will melt the snow and then if it turns to cold it will turn to ice and you can't exactly ski on ice..) so we didn't rent the skis when we arrived. Stayed at a nice place overlooking a lake and some hills and it had a real fireplace! We were provided with a full basket of firewood and uh..2 logs remained when we left lol..Anyway, that night my brother and I used the jacuzzi bath tub in the toilet. It's been so long since I've been in a bathtub hahah. Anyway, next morning(friday) my dad woke us at 7.30 in the morning, got out of the house an hour later and went to rent the skis. Got fitted with all the stuff and then drove up the mountain. Had like 2 runs on the beginner run and uh, I was so scared lol, so scared of losing control and falling down-.- Furthermore it was really foggy and raining a bit so visibility was quite low. Anyway, my dad signed us all up for lessons and so my brother went to the kids one(because he's under 15 hahahhaha) and I went to the same one as my dad. Actually, I went to a class for level 3 skiers and there weren't enough people to supervise so..we joined with the level 4 people(which my dad went to. I think I was the youngest and super paiseh because I was super slow and kept getting tangled/falling down and everyone had to wait for me-.- Learnt parallel skiing and I think I sort of got it. Anyway, my brother lost the helmet that we rented before his lesson and the kids must have helmet to take the lesson so..in the end he took mine and we didn't find the one he lost. How was it lost?(so amazing right-.-) He was complaining about it being troublesome etc. and gave it to my dad to put in his bag and the genius of my brother didn't zip the bag and it quite simply fell out when we took the chairlift..cost like $50 to replace it. The person at the shop was also quite stunned how we lost a helmet lol..like a helmet is so huge..it's quite hard to lose right? WRONG.

Then on saturday, we planned to go skiing again and then drive back from there afterwards. So we got up around 8 and then eat breakfast, pack up ad checkout. The owner has a veryveryvery friendly/passionate black dog which I also know is a female lol. My dad went to return some DVDs and the cabin keys and then the dog was there at the door. I opened the car door slightly and made this clicking noise and then the dog came right next to the car immediately :O and then I made the clicking sound again and the dog like turned on it's back for my to rub the belly lol. So cute! But then it wasn't a very pretty dog but still! And then the dog like turned back and fit it's head under my arm lol and started licking my chin. I spent days and weeks with my cousin's dog and he refuses to show any attention ot affection for me and this dog licks my face the first time I touch it lol what is this-.- My dad came out and was going to leave so I stood up and then the dog stood on it's hind legs also and like "hugged" me at the waist and it actually wouldn't let go, it was hugging quite tightly lol. My dad was like you can stay here, we're leaving and then he laughed and started the engine, so I had to push he dog off ): then I smelt like a dog after I got in the car.. drove up the mountain again and yes, went skiing again. Went on the beginner runs a few times and my brother who kept calling me a noob kept falling down and I had to help him get up-.- Went for 2 or 3 rounds on the beginner run and then had nut bars for lunch haha the nut bar was so cold and hard-.- Went to try an intermediate run that my dad claimed to be ok and not too difficult. THE SLOPE WAS SO STEEP AND THE PATH WAS SO NARROW, and all the other people are literally speeding down the slope. If you don't know, you increase your skiing speed by going straight, and you slow down by turning left and right making a continuous 'S' shape. So, the path being narrower means you have less space to turn on a steep slope and you go veryveryvery fast, and I tend to lose control..but anyway, my brother fell face forward and when you're skiing you can't move your legs as you like because you can break your leg. And so, when he fell down, I was behind him and..I tried to stop beside to help and crashed into him/under him and then he started screaming like a banshee-.- I honestly thought I like cut his fingers or broke his leg seriously-.- He screamed so loud, my dad almost 10-20m in front stopped skiing and walked up the steep slope to see what happened, and about 5 ladies came to see what was wrong and if they could help. In the end, there was a ski teacher and she called for ski patrol and so, my brother had to walk somewhere and got driven to the end of that run to take the chairlift up. And then I continued skiing down with my dad, fell down quite a few times also..super steep slopes. At the end I was surprised I wasn't aching anywhere lol. It started snowing very heavily at the end, like just queuing for the chairlift left us covered in snow. Met my brother at the top and turns out he was ok-.- so we went back to the beginner run and went on that quite a few times, each time having to wait for my brother somewhere..visibility was so bad that day. Snowing and hailing non-stop. It got quite painful when it hailed when we were on the chairlift lol because all the ice is flying and hitting your face-.- collected so much snow and hail just sitting on the chairlift haha. Visibility levels were so low especially at the top of the mountain, like people 3-5metres away would appear very hazy, on the chairlift you can barely see the chair in front. Anyway, we finished skiing about 4 and then there was a massive queue to take the shuttle bus back to the car park and so, collected more snow there while waiting for the bus. Finally got back to the carpark and our car was snowed in lol..like the roof and the windscreen and the windows. Was quite cool seeing this scene after more than a decade(I don't even remember that much of seeing this in the US). Brother had fun sweeping the snow. Sooo, we got changed, like removed the ski boots(too cold to change the wet ski pants) and began driving down the mountain and then it was DARK, like once we finished removing the ski boots and loading the ski gear in the backseat(no space in the boot lol), the sky was BLACK. Drove the mountain slightly and was stopped and told to put on the snow chains for the tyres. Dad couldn't get it on properly, spent half an hour fixing it, but at least we got it on. began driving down from there at about 6.45pm, took maybe half an hour or less to get to the down to return the ski gear and then begin on the way home. Stopped at a small town on the way home at 9+ and got a pizza because my dad was hungry(we only ate a nut bar for lunch and no dinner). When we finally reached the suburb we live in(so tempted to say MY suburb hahhaha) we went to this restaurant 'Straits of Malacca' ate char kway teow at like 11+ lol..was quite embarassed because I was wearing a hoodie and big fat track pants with slippers(since I changed in the car and it's harder to put on tights and shorts) and my hair was in a mess(I even tied my fringe up ok-.-) and I walked in with the hood covering almost my entire face lol and everyone inside stared at me when I walked in hahahha I seriously looked like I was wearing pyjamas hahahha. And then we finally went home from there and reached home at 12++am. Couldn't be bothered taking shower and since I'm already dressed in sleeping attire, I slept with my hood on on the sofa hahah with the cushions lol. Woke up bright and early to shower and wash hair hahaha. Good memories though, I enjoyed myself a lot! :D

The day after skiing is the worst..your whole body is aching hahahah. Your arms from pulling yourself using the ski poles, your thighs for..I don't know what and your butt..from falling down(ok luh..this time wasn't as bad as 2 years ago when I went to Falls Creek(another skiing area). It was quite painful to hold up pots and pans and water jugs with one hand hahahha

some pictures!












the new blogger format is really...
finally managed to finish one of the birthday presents!! Finished it last night haha
But I think postage is going to be quite expensive..

I'm feeling sort of nervous..I really really hope I pass organic chem. I'm not even worried about the other subjects, just stupid organic chem..argh I don't want to fail and do it again next year><

After being redirected to several different pages, I'm finally on this 'publish post' page -.-
I figured I should blog more now that it's the holidays and I actually have time to blog now, then leave my blog to partially rot during the school term.
Would look for a new blogskin but..I'm a bit too unmotivated(nice word for lazy) and I don't think as many blogskins are being put up anymore since blogger is sort of losing popularity(or already has..)
The number of people who read my blog is probably close to zero, but then again, my blog was never THAT popular haha.

It's been 2 and a half weeks, half of my holiday gone, nothing much accomplished LOL.
Good news, I got full marks for my mydispense test! :D Exam result out next monday, not really anticipating that one ): Don't think I'll do well, keep thinking that I failed organic chem too..typing this out just makes me scared :O

High school holiday ends after next week and so..stuck with my brother for one more week.
Apparently my dad's planning to go skiing but then there isn't enough snow to ski yet. My dad's friend(church friend) wants to go along with us as well and..I think it's going to be a bit awkward? Like he has 2 daughters, 1 a year older than me but same level(1st year uni) and 1 younger(a year older than David) and how should I put this. They're very err..independent? The older daughter won't go(we're friends but..not that close) and the younger daughter is quite :O Like super independent, I think even much more than me lol, I wouldn't so she's mature but..aiya I also don't know how to describe. Never mind I give up trying to describe-.-

Was supposed to go ice-skating(again) with my brother on tuesday but then hmm..we had an optometrist appointment and then ice-skating on tuesdays turn out not to be at half price during school holidays so yes, it was a lot more expensive and so we aren't going lol. But then also because we spent almost our whole afternoon at the optometrist-.- Because my brother, mother and I had scheduled eye tests and my brother went to try wearing contact lens(and took quite a while) and uh..just casual scanning of the insides and curvatures of our eyes(whatever that may indicate) so we spent quite a while there..
Would like to go one more time before uni starts again but I don't think anyone will go with me LOL..then  I think the week school reopens for my brother, there aren't trains running-.- Train line maintenance = bus replacement service. A bit troublesome to get around :/

Finished with one birthday letter. The present however..I haven't started on and thus, I haven't sent anything I'm sorry>< I know I'm late by like manymany months and moons but..I will get it done this holiday or else I will drag it on forever to the end of the year-.-



It's almost midnight and I really should be sleeping since my friend's coming over tomorrow to bake(lol it's so funny because I don't even have half of the equipment needed and she has to bring even an electric mixer hahahah)

Anywayyyy, wanted to blog finally because I have something to blog about haha (I'm sorry, I sound a bit hyper now..)
WENT ICE-SKATING TODAYYY!!
Look how happy I still am haha
Went for lunch then took the city circle tram to the medibank icehouse.
Tuesday is half-price day so it cost $13.50 to get in. Was pretty crowded even though the high school kids are supposed to be in school...not saying that high school kids were there but yea..I thought there would be less people there so the number of people there was pretty surprising. When we arrived the ice was incredibly rough and having been away from the ice for more than a year, for a moment I thought I forgot how to ice-skate and it sort of freaked me out..I thought I could skate pretty well(self deception?) Well, as I said, the ice was really rough and having not skated for more than a year I fell..like 3 times today>< Most number of times I have ever fallen on the ice in one time. Usually I fall at most once but today was..eventful LOL Went out of the rink quite a few times to tighten the skate laces, have no idea why my left skate kept moving at an angle. The ice was shaved and WOOHOO 3 quick smooth rounds around the rink and in no time it was rough again. In my opinion, which should be a consensus among everyone, is that the very first round after the ice is resurfaced is the very best one. So smooth and I skated so well haha. It's like literally flying across the ice(although I'm not that pro) but yes, that exhilaration and excitement just pumped. Anyway, watching videos on how to skate backwards and how to do crossovers was a waste of my time-.- Couldn't even try it because there were so many people and I would just crash into another person about to fall down too, and also because my blades of the skates aren't sharp at all and skating normally is hard enough, what more crossovers and skating backwards? So I didn't try at all. With people on professional skates whizzing past me by the second, I have no confidence in trying that safely haha. Looks like I fall less when I skate with Sarah :P

Went to some restaurant/shop place nearby and ate churro's. If you don't know what it is(I didn't know lol I ate it for the first time today) sorry no pictures so go google it! Walked around that area, went into a clothes shop and shoe shop and then went home haha. Felt good catching up with my high school friends although not all of them were there. Had truckloads of fun today (although my feet are a bit sore..hmm) but more fun awaits these holidays! ;D haha

I was bored..so I figures I should blog (it sort of rhymes o.0)
WELL, it's been raining these past few days, the airs still so dry though and I think I'm falling sick ):
It's so hard to practise piano/clarinet and play guitar because firstly, my hands can so cold just playing for 10 minutes. Secondly, my fingers move slower/can't move as fast especially when I play piano.
Been practising a song for a while now and somehow it's still not smooth flowing because my brain isn't processing the notes quick enough and my fingers aren't really coordinating either-.- and then with this cold..it's harddd

Supposed to write birthday letters by this week and I haven't even begun to do that yet. Haven't picked up a pen since my last exam LOL. Been trying to get myself to write but..I guess, there's so much to say and I don't really know how to put all of it in words? I say almost the same things year in and year out, maybe it is starting to sound very repeated, I don't know. ARGH but still, I promised to finish it after my exams and so I have to, no complaints.

Might go ice-skating next tuesday! Well, I am going but not confirmed which day. Been watching the korean drama "Triple", it's an ice-skating show and well..I feel so inspired to learn ice-skating LOL. I guess it's the same with dancing haha, I feel a bit jealous that I'm not so coordinated but yet I want to learn. Been watching videos on how to do crossovers and skating backwards, might try next week when I go. Saw a video of a simple spin as well but I think to actually be able to do things like that you have to wear the professional skates which..I don't have and have no plans to buy. Watched the performances of Kim Yuna, at the winter Olympics(I think she won 2010 gold?) She makes skating look SO EASY-.- Like all her jumps and spins are just :O Very clean spins and jumps, and she was 19 when she won gold. All that is 100% hard work and of course talent.

Now it's the holidays, I figured I should also start exercising. Ever since coming to Australia, the only time I ran was during school cross country and even then I still walked LOL. Unfit level: extreme!! Running to the train station from my house is enough to make me pant like crazy..ok maybe not like after 2.4 but yes, still panting quite heavily. Time to work on the abs too LOL getting fat-.- Especially now it's winter..eating more doesn't really help :/ Really need to start exercising hahahah

oh lol.. blogger format changed and I stupidly tried to scroll down and look for the publish button-.-

It's about time I blogged again. It's been like what, 3 months? And the whole blogger format changed..

Anyway,
THE EARTH SHOOK JUST NOW.
Earthquake somewhere I think, hopefully everyone is safe.
First time experiencing the ground shake. In the past, while watching an earthquake on tv, I actually wondered how it felt for the ground to shake..because obviously the ground doesn't move like a mobile vehicle.
Was sitting on my bed, reading Sarah's blog and then I felt my bed vibrating and for a moment I thought I was trembling(I even lifted up my hand to check) and turns out it wasn't me when suddenly I felt/saw the whole wall opposite me lurch :O and then it stopped. Heart dropped into my stomach slightly and didn't know what  to do. I guess that's what people feel when disasters happen? Helpless. Because you have no idea what is happening and by the time they do know, maybe it's too late.

EXAMS ARE OVERRR
Spent the past 3 weeks sleep deprived and memorising my head off. This is the first time I slept so little before exams seriously. There is so much to study and to memorise and if you start studying too late you're screwed. Was so frantic for my first uni exams LOL. Hopefully, I'll do well. Last minute studying is really terrible. 5 weeks of holiday now. Most people are going  away..guess I'll continue hermit-ing at home for the next 5 weeks haha.

Quite a few things I hope to accomplish this holiday though.
#1 Write my wayyyyy overdue birthday letters and post them
#2 Practise piano and relearn some theory/ guitar too!
#3 Learn Korean?
#4 Painting
#5 Watch shows

hmm..that's all for now actually. One week for each one LOLOL hahah

That's it for today! :D

Been wanting to post for a while but just..been lazy about it.

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