Recently, the topic of forgiveness has been popping up everywhere, last Sunday's sermon, Monday school assembly, today chaplain's assembly.
Is God trying to tell me to forgive someone? Or is He asking me to pass on the message to somebody? Shall share some points from Sunday's sermon.

Forgiving isn't forgetting. The phrase "forgive and forget" is almost impossible to achieve. When you're hurt, it not very possible or likely that you'll totally forget that incident. Forgiving is starting the healing process of the heart. By thirsting for revenge just stops that healing process and at the same time, implying to God that you don't need his control and you can settle all this yourself. Forgiving isn't easy and I know that from experience. People have hurt me and after a while, I learnt to let go. Put the matter into God's hands and He will solve the problem for you. He is always in control and will never forsake you. It is a matter of whether or not you believe and have faith in Him to be in control and solve your problems.

Forgiving doesn't also mean a relationship. Some people will just hurt you over and over again. There's no point in continuing being related to them. A relationship needs both parties to work for it. If the other party isn't willing, you're just wasting your time and you'll just get hurt over and over again.

Because we are forgiven, we should forgive. Break the cycle of revenge and spread God's love, the essence of christianity. Trust that He knows and He heals. There is a parable in the bible in which a lord showed mercy and forgave his servant who did not return his money on time when the servant pleaded with him. That same servant then went to another servant who owed him money. When the debtor pleaded with the creditor, that creditor who was pardoned did not show mercy and threw the debtor servant into jail until he returned every single cent. When the other servants heard of this, they went to the master and told him. The master then called the servant he had pardoned and reprimanded him for not showing mercy that he was shown. That servant was thrown into jail and tortured until every cent was returned. In the same way, show God's grace that He has shown to you.

Today, during mustard, we were also talking about why bad things happen on Earth. Bad things is an understatement but I have no idea what other words I should use. There isn't a why doesn't God send us this and provide us with that. I don't think that there's such things as "God, I want rain, please send rain". I believe He has reasons for all His doings and sometimes these catastrophes are caused by the devil to rock your faith. In the same way, God may use these catastrophes to save people and let the victims grow deeper in faith. I listened to a sermon a while back and the preacher said "It's not that God provides rich people with all their money and possessions, if it's that way, God is being unfair and why would He do that? It just happened that you're born in the right time in the right environment, in the right place." I guess it's sort of true because why would God provide so much for one person and not so much for another? But in times of trouble, in times of need, it's sometimes really hard to turn your eyes to God, especially when you've been waiting. I, for one am so familiar with this waiting. My family's been waiting for the 6th year now. But I believe God is moving. Situation has improved and I trust that God will take care of us and solve the problem. It hasn't been easy and many times, my parents have asked God, "How long more do we have to wait?". Waiting is difficult and sometimes you just want to give up. You just have to have the faith that God will do a miracle and solve whatever problems you have. Trust that God knows best and He'll love you and will always be there for you no matter what.
Hope anyone who reads this feels encouraged to continue through your hardship! ♥





Forgive me for saying so but don't you think you're soooo ridiculously unreasonable?
cooking the rice 10 minutes later won't kill you. Just because David needs to get out by 5.30 doesn't mean I have to cook rice in blazer and jumper. ARE YOU AWARE THAT ALL THE CLOTHES I'M WEARING ARE LONG SLEEVED AND ISN'T VERY CONVENIENT TO WASH RICE? Does it matter to you that I'm feeling sick? It's not like I want to be but hello? can't even change clothes first isit? Yes, go on insulting me. It's not my fault David has to get out by 5.30. I'm not the one who signed him up for lacrosse. I'm not the person who introduced him to lacrosse and it's my fault the hole puncher disappeared? And it's also my fault david can't find the stupid pack of raisins that was supposed to be in the pantry but WASN'T? Can't you just admit you're wrong instead of saying WHATEVER? Yes, I owe my life to you but then be a bit more reasonable can-.- everything also my fault when we're rushing for David. Yes, totally..



It's NATIONAL DAY!! :D


Funny how we feel more patriotic overseas. I was never the really crazy enthusiastic patriot in singapore, not saying that I am one now. Still remember singing 'Home' super loud in P6 with Ruth and Winnie. Don't know how are they right now. It's been 5 years already!! I just found Winnie's facebook :O don't know if she still remembers me or not, but just add anyway :D

Anyway, back to the topic of national day. For  a government to have a nation with national pride is not easy. Recently the inflating influx of foreigners mainly scholars and expats haven't exactly made singaporeans jump with joy. The US economy downturn isn't going to help the economic situation either. But I think it's a long way that Singapore as a country, a nation has come. Today celebrates the 46th year of independence, the 46th anniversary of LKY's achievement in the history of Singapore. I'm not a supporter of any political group but the fact that LKY helped achieve Singapore's independence will not be changed. The fact that he once loved Singapore THAT much(I have no idea about his love now though) and the fact that Singapore has come this far. We came from a generation of poor immigrants, seeking the hope of a better life. Look where Singapore stands now. It's too crowded but at the same time the modern city is it's image. Singapore has moved from literally a kampong to a city. Although there're so many people and it's really overcrowded, public transport is just PACKED, construction of the new train line going on in various areas, in a way, everything is progressing.

To me, singapore is still my home. My home with all my friends and relatives, all my memories, my childhood. There are some people who I'm so thankful to God that I met. People who stood by me, quarreled but made up. Honest statement from me, if you can have a big quarrel with your friend and still end up as good friends, it shows that they treasure that friendship as much as you and your friendship will be even stronger. Singapore is where all my memories lie and there it shall stay.

Home
Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home

When there are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That home's about its people too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There'll always be Singapore

For this is where I know it's home
For this is where I know I'm home


It's been so long but this is still my favourite ndp song. (On the topic of ndp songs, the new versions are so....it ruins the meaning of the song. BRING BACK THE ORIGINAL VERSIONS!! :D)
家



Was going to memorise the first page of my detail study but uh, doesn't work. I think I memorise these things best in my room or on the train.
Really tired and sleepy although I slept earlier than usual yesterday. Feel like just going home to sleep somemore-.-
Got chem midyear results yesterday. The result's ok but not exactly jumping with joy about it. The percentage of boys compared to girls who got A+ is so different.
This week is pretty relaxed compared to last week. Chinese teacher is on camp, no tests/sac this week! But then I still need to memorise the first page of my detail study. I have no idea how I'm going to remember any of it. I think at most I'll get through to half the page.
I think I've lost my motivation to study this week. I've been putting of studying probability since last week. Should probably start soon...

Some people just don't know when to stop. They don't know when enough is enough. They just keep going on and on, assuming everyone has to talk to them, assuming they know everything, assuming that they're the boss. People who constantly say "you're a genius, I should be the one who should be worried", just STAY AWAY FROM ME. Stop talking like you know me so well. You don't. Just stop. Enough is enough. I just wanted to make a friend, and you? You just have to go on and on about how your studies arne't that good. If you're trying to praise me, you're doing it wrong. I know I'm not a genius. I'm not the type of kid that doesn't study and still gets full marks on a test or anything like that. I can study and still fall short of the full mark by a lot. Know your place and stop saying things like that. I don't like how you ask me how's my day and this sac and that sac EVERY SINGLE DAY AFTER SCHOOL. This just screams one word - "DESPERATION". Leave me alone ok? I'm not interested, will never be. At first I thought you were just being friendly, now I just want you to disappear. Stop asking me every single thing that's going on in my life. If I want to tell you, I'll tell you. Stop asking. I don't need to tell you anything, don't need to reply your messages, don't need to carry out small talk with you. If I want to talk to you, I will, just stop everything you're doing now, go and study and leave me alone! After not replying you since last thursday, do you not know how to take the hint to stop-.- I'm talking to you because I'm nice ok? I'm not interested in you, full stop, period. No one else talks to you because you're just so...I don't know, naggy? I have no idea how to describe it or even to respond. I'm being nice because I just think it's mean to ignore people like that but it's too much, I don't feel like being the nice person to you anymore.



200th post! :D
longest blog I've ever kept, although I'm not that faithfully updating and no one comes to read anyway.
everyone's doing their own thing, I'm doing my own.
SO BOREDDD
school is so boring, everything is so boring
I live just for the days,
live day by day, solving problems day by day
no future plan.


觉得可惜，觉得遗憾，觉得失落
虽然以前的中文水平不是那么的高，现在好像变更低了。好不甘心。
做detail study后的一些感想还要写说这提高了我的中文水平。明明就没有，为什么一定要这样说呢？我的中文水平本来就比现在的程度高，现在还要装说这对我很有帮助，为何要这样说？以前中文对我来说很难，但是现在其实满怀念的。真想不到以前一个半小时就把700－800个字的作文写完，现在却在写250字的作文，一切不如从前。
很怀念也很想念，依旧。
Australia' chinese oral examination is not even a test of oral skills on how fluent you are or how accurate you are. Bluntly said, IT'S A WASTE OF TIME. You want to test standard, test reading not MEMORISING. Chinese oral here is PURE MEMORISING. Hello? This is oral not a test of memorisation skills-.- Who can remember a total of almost 10 pages full of words for examiners to ask less than half of those questions?! ridiculous.
but then again, it's good that I left. I don't think I can continue in that kind of environment, juggling cca, school work, test, tuition etc. We aren't made of steel-.-
ohwell, end of rant.

melbourne's weather is going crazy again-.-
last week was so nice and warm and sunny and then it has to rain today
which means the coming week is going to be COLD. -sigh-
I used to complaing about how hot singapore was but I think having a stable weather condition is better than having weather that plays jokes on you and is so TEMPERAMENTAL-.- seriously. I rains for like 5 minutes, stops and THE SUN COMES OUT. Really hard to gauge when to wash the clothes because when the sun comes out, you bring the clothes out to dry.  After bringing all the clothes out, a grey cloud floats into vicinity and it's going to rain-.- so many times already!



好想停留在这个时刻。
从未成熟到现在的我，长大得好快。
转眼间已经是在读最后一年了。
从来没有想过要赶快长大，可是现在渐渐成长就好想要停止时间。
从不想到这里来，却开始喜欢这里的读书环境。
放弃了很多，得到了也很多。
我遇见的朋友，我都很珍惜。
很羡慕弟弟还在长高的状态，哪像我，没有再长高了。

ohman, why am I so reflective today>.<
is it because VCE's only 3 months away now?
the time to make the most important decision in my life is around the corner.
This term's a flurry. Week after week, it seems like a mundane routine but then each week brings us one week closer to the last year of high school. Never thought this would be so soon. I still remember thinking how old people in JC were, and now I'm here myself, I can't believe I'm this age. I can't believe I'm going to uni next year. I can't believe everything that's happening now in fact. I think I've changed a lot ever since I came here. I don't know in what way but I just have. When I went back to singapore, it felt like I just continued where I left off/of(?) It's just like my time in singapore was on pause and started to continue playing when I went back to visit, and now it's on pause again. People I know, enlisting soon, others going to uni already...



Finally am almost done with detail study. It's been taking up so much time to find information and then answer questions, edit answers etc. Now I just mainly left the questions on why I chose this topic and what I learnt from this topic.
Honestly, I have no idea what I learnt from Zhenghe's expeditions. I first knew him through my chinese textbook in primary school talking about how he travelled to the West Sea and gave all the expensive jewels etc. to other countries. I don't recall any motive being mentioned or what they were trying to achieve through his expeditions. Well, in a way, I did learn a lot more about Zhenghe and the whole situation of his maritime exploration. He actually made it all the way to East Africa, which is a major feat itself, and his treasure fleet consisted of ships larger to Columbus ships. He traded with many different countries and got other countries to pay tribute to China, in a way expanding the empire. But what did I learn from this event? Perseverance? Patience? Planning of journey?

my phone is so inactive it's just crazy..I used to send about 15-20sms a day last time because I got 10 free when I sent 5. Now? 1 message is so expensive, 1 call costs just $1.17 to hear the phone ring whether or not the person picks up. Going out just costs too much like eating etc. I live like a hermit-.-



so dead x_x
14 practice umat papers to finish. If it was chem, it wouldn't be a problem since each paper only take 1.5 hours BUT umat is a HUGE problem, since each paper takes 3 hours to complete. AND I LEFT 7 DAYS TO DO ALL 14 INCLUDING TODAY...which means I have to do about 2 papers every day and I still have drills to do...umat is next wednesday 1.30pm and I have to leave house before 12 I think, to get there on time, which also means I can't do a paper on wednesday...which means I have to rush papers this weekend...Doesn't help that there's a chem sac next thursday and methods sac next friday, and then englsih sac the week after. I honestly think I'm going to waste $770 because I don't think it's that possible for me to get like 91% to get an interview-.- it's just crazy-.-
adding on, super tired-.- I slept early last night, like 10.30, woke up at 6.30, slept all the way to school on the train like some pig. Couldn't actually keep my eyes open>.< then the stupid train at richmond had to be delayed for 10 minutes and then I missed the tram therefore had to walk to school then when I was halfway there the tram came. Not funny-.- today is windyyy~



so pissed.
Why must you always do all the sai gang/shit work when only you and me are home-.- and then you make me do half of it-.- where is David when you need help? POOING HIS HEAD OFF. and when you're cooking, he's at the dining table RIGHT NEXT TO THE KITCHEN, who do you call? ME, when I'm doing WORK. Me, black face? fyi, you looks like that too ok. You just don't want to let me use computer because I can and you can't, using study as an excuse-.- I can study on the computer too ok. You just don't want me to touch. And how come David touches for hours and hours PLAYING GAMES? HUHUHUH? please explain?! Who wakes up at 9am on a saturday morning to do housework-.- I woke up in ANTICIPATION for the FORMAL, and now I have no mood to even care. Every minutes you ask me to run off to do some shit. I NEED TO GET READY TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE BY ABOUT 1.30pm OK! Just because some people are coming to our house doesn't mean they will come and inspect the stupid floor and lick it or something-.- Nobody's going to stare at your toilet' bin's contents. Nobody's going to inspect each and every room and approve of it or something.
Stayed up till 12 last night doing my nails and some got ruined so I had to do it again this morning and you ask me to run all over the house, from vacuuming the living room+my room+David's room to hanging the wet laundry-.- Not funny woman-.- I HATE MY VACUUM CLEANER-.- It's the OSIM iEcologi and it WEIGHS A TONNE no joke. You thought is was good because you could steam mop too but NO it had to spoil. And then the stupid tubing had to be replaced. And best part of all, we shipped it down before all this happened-.- We shipped a stupid heavy vacuum cleaner that doesn't steam mop(which it's supposed to) and now a wheel has to drop off meaning we have to CARRY the vacuum cleaner around the house to vacuum the floor-.-
I may sound like some spoilt brat here but seriously? This vacuum cleaner is a KILLER-.-



sometimes, I think during quarrels, people should step down from their pride and just apologise. What's holding you back? What do you lose for apologising? Your pride? And is it worth losing your friendship for a meaningless quarrel? What's the point of quarreling? If you were really good friends, you would make up after the quarrel. You wouldn't stop speaking to each other, you would be friends with an even stronger friendship. Sometimes, you shouldn't take things so seriously. From the experiences I had, why let these bother you? You just become angry and resentful and you can't do anything well. The fact that you are getting angry shows you care about what the other person is thinking. If you genuinely don't care about the person, then you wouldn't be angry with the person in the first place-.- AND it's probably just a misunderstanding...clear that up and won't you be fine already-.-



not sure what I'm doing here at this time. It's 10/47pm, I should be sleeping-.-
just finished marking the 2009 paper. OHMAN at this rate I'm going to screw VCE midyears AGAIN which I CANNOT AFFORD. But then that paper apparently was one of the hardest so far...so is that a good sign? I did pretty ok except for the careless ones and a few I didn't have time to complete. Looks like I need to work a lot more quicker.
Honestly, I can't WAIT till the exams are over. I'm also not very extremely prepared. But then, so many things to do, so little time. Stupid chinese detail study takes over from general conversation. Much more research, much more time, MUCH MORE MEMORISATION. And then there's chem. And methods. And basically that's all I care about o.0 I shall go sleep now. Chem sac tmr! practice exammmmmm): I must finish it! -reminds self to bring watch tmr-



it's been a few days...
tired this week, no reason why though...no sacs, I sleep not very late etc.

ohwell, sometimes some people are just not worth your time and effort.
If you have nothing nice to say then don't say anything.
Some people treat you like you're invisible even though you're bang right in front of them.
They pretend to be nice to you in front of people they care about.
But that just shows how fake they are.
If you are ignored by someone like that, they are not worth your sincerity.
They think they're all up there but they don't realise what they really are and that is probably their loss.
To have a character like that does not make you be the top.
Insecurity maybe? I don't know but it's definitely not my business.
I'm not going to be bothered by the fact that you ignore me(gee why would I care honestly-.-)
I shall end my rant because it is kind of late now.
Good night!(morning actually..)



tired tired tired
such a bad idea to sleep late on a sunday night.
I am just wondering how I used to survive waking up at 6am every single morning, staying back like 6-6.30pm twice a week and then eating lunch at 3++ every single day. Not to mention chinese bu ke every monday then ends at 4++?!! Of course it's much more intense now in Singapore. Lessons end mostly at 4pm almost every day and that's without cca...

think I'm going to do bound feet for detail study...
pictures are gruesome but there isn't much to do on Zheng He(the famous explorer guy for those who don't know) can't find much information about him except that he's muslim, he's a eunuch and he sailed all the way to Africa..so I need 4 general areas from that but not much to say in each point right?
so I guess I'm going to do bound feet...Reading about how it's done, it just shows how sadistic men were...subjecting women to such pain for your um...sexual desire is very...self-centred. And apparently it was pro-confucious in the aspect that women had to be reliant on their husbands and couldn't run about the place and stay mostly at home...Tie your feet to get married?!! But then again, men used to have more powere over women so...women were subjected to such a harsh practice as KIDS. Robbed them of their childhood, caused them to suffer for the rest of their lives. And the worst thing of all is that it was carried out for about 1000 years!! Good thing it was stopped.



Melbourne weather's driving me nuts-.-
was already so called and now it has to rain NON-STOP
how is this even possible-.- should be close to snowing soon-.- in the morning it's 4-6 degrees, at night maybe 1-2 degrees more..it wasn't this cold last year...
but also because of the rain that I saw a beautiful glowing rainbow. Was on the train(glen waverley line) and saw a rainbow that had it's base on the opposite sides of the train...which makes it seem like the train is passing through the rainbow arch. So beautiful especially when the sun came out and the left side of the rainbow started GLOWING. It disappeared exactly at 2.59pm...then as I was going to cross the road(at 3.11pm) I saw another one...how do I know it was another one? the arch was pointing in a different direction. Lasted for a much shorter time but still first time I ever saw 2 rainbows in one day couldn't take any pictures because well, my phone camera wouldn't e able to see it anyway...
beautiful sight in a freezing cold day...

wonder what's wrong with melbourne weather this week...it's absurdly/unbearably COLD...not to mention the rain that soaks into your shoes...this is no fun-.- I wear like a shirt and a jumper AND a fleece jacket thing at home-.- in school, it's shirt, school shirt, school jumper, school blazer AND it's still cold>< wind and rain just doesn't make it any better><

David's off to camp for the whole week...I wonder how he's surviving when I'm freezing...
and the downside of him going to camp is I have to wash the dishes AND dry the dishes(which is his job-.-) and furthermore...the air is FREEZING so technically, touching water is a retarded action to be doing-.- Using the computer and playing the piano makes my hands freeze up, but then again, my hands freeze up pretty easily. The upside about David going to camp is, the house is much more quieter...would this be how it would be like if he wasn't born? My mother's back late, freezes then microwaves our dinner, makes me pack my own recess/lunch etc. It's a slightly different story when David is around...

busy weekend ahead, I better get a headstart!
This friday: Chinese role-play SAC
Next monday: Chem SAC; further bring-home SAC due
don't rmb what else I have...but that's it for now(:



funny how everyone has to return to their daily hermit life when just a night ago, everyone was on fb, encouraging each other.
Read some fb statuses and it seems like...it didn't go that well? Am I right? all the statuses seem so down...or maybe it's because it's the last performance with this batch of year 6s...

Feel kind of left out at the moment...everyone knows what happened except me, no one is around to tell me, all the statuses updated after syf don't include me o.0 (of course it wouldn't since I'm not even there-.-) I'm thinking too much. I shall stop. Everyone goes on with their life and so should I. I think band was my main source of motivation in rv. Sure band pracs were crazy, the number of band pracs during the holidays and before syf were crazy, but in the end, it's the place I met so many people, people who made my life different in rv.  I learnt so much. So, thank you seniors(and batchmates) for all the memories you have given me.



I resisted the urge to blog yesterday but then I blog today-.-
ohwell, here goes
RVSeniorBand SYF 2011 is here.
Regardless of the result, everyone knows how much effort and practise you peeps have put in so that in itself is commendable. The whole 10 minutes on that stage is yours. It's your decision what to do with it. Hopefully, past mistakes were learnt from and you guys come back triumphant this time!!(: Here's wishing you all the best in today's syf at 3.05pm.
I actually feel really sad that I can't be with this batch to play and work hard for this syf...it's the batch of band peeps that I'm closest to, probably spent the most time in band with and now after this last performance with seniors(year 6s) they're finally stepping down. It seems like yesterday that I was sec1. I still rmb the first band prac where I didn't know how to set up the music stand and zoenin helped me. And then sebby and jiayi being super scary when I was in sec1. And now, we've advanced from a sec1 junior recruit to a senior. The responsibilty increases, the skill has improved by a lot(especially after syf) and the bonds created become stronger by each band prac. It's the last time performing on stage with the current batch of RVseniorband peeps, treasure it.
RVSeniorBand, JIAYOU!!
klarinutz ftw <3
firsts! seconds! thirds! bass! GOGOGO!!
Sebastian, Jiayi, Lihua, Kaizhen
Kimyee, Zoenin, Kimberly, Yijun, Evan
all the best!!(:

the best I played on  stage was with this current batch,
the best I've ran 100m is also with this batch.
memories forever.



don't get it why parents make their kids clean up the house when a visitor visits...
like it actually becomes some major spring cleaning event every time
and of course, everyone knows that it's going to be equally messy the next day-.-
so what's the point?
your visitors aren't here to see the house-.- they're here to see YOU
I didn't invite them to come and stay in our house for a week, neither did you
but that doesn't give you the right to call for me to do things every single minute
that doesn't give you the right to scream at every person in the house
What's the point of cleaning up when by day 3, the house will be messy again?
vacuum, wash toilet, mop floor etc.
they're not going to freaking TOUR the whole house for the WHOLE DAY
they won't go to you and say IT'S NOT CLEAN HERE
they aren't health/hygiene inspectors
why do we have to clean the WHOLE HOUSE so that they can be introduced to a neat/clean house which will be dirty by at most day 3?
even so, it doesn't give you the right to scream.

it's miriam's birthday today!!(: so fast and it's already a year...still remember trying to rush out her present last year...not much time to do so this year though...it's test period in singapore(well, basically for my whole holiday-.-) so at the moment I have no one to talk to and no one to go out with(not like I very free luh-.-) ohwell...sometimes I feel like I'm living 2 lives...the aussie life and the singapore life...go to school, one life. Come back home, switch to other life again...



the holidays are half over and the amount of work I've done is not commendable
I don't want school to reopen):
parent's friends from singapore coming on thursday, staying at our house, going on holiday with us...

australia used to be a place I visit for holiday but now I live here. Never even thought of this before.
If you ask me to choose where I would like to live between singapore and australia, honestly, I can't give you an answer. To me, these two places will always be my home. Whether or not I will go back to singapore to work, I can't make up my mind. But I will definitely study uni here.

One thing that is different is that asian artistes hardly ever come here-.-
Singapore and malaysia gets so many visits from korean and taiwan stars every single year. While over here so far JJ lin had 1 concert here last year and show luo's concert recently. Even if you want to see them also cannot. They probably think that there aren't enough fans here to bring them here o.0

ohwell, enough ranting for today.







I just realised the previous post was on the 2 year anniversary of my first and last syf ever o.0
and now I'm blogging about the one tomorrow.
12 april, 9.00am, rvcb klarinutz jiayou!!
I will be uh, morally supporting you guys all the way!!
I'm really sorry I can't be there to tell you this personally or even help you guys(stupid ambitious me wanted to do so much to help when I went back but totally forgot when I was actually back-.-)
all I just want to say is, don't regret any single moment you have on that stage. Every minute gone is past. Enjoy your time on stage, show the judges what you've been practising and aiming for and putting in so much effort. I know you guys can do it! There's only been 4 GWH so far and quite a number of Golds compared to syf '09(I think) You guys have the chance, the skill and the ability, so go for it and show people who RVCB is! CUE AND JERK(LOLOL kill the jerk o.0) make the judges enjoy it as much as you do! play out! don't be afraid!
as a 过来人, I don't want anyone to regret. Want to go, go all the way, don't turn back halfway! Even primary school students can tell you 不要半途而废! So in conclusion, JIAYOU ALL THE BEST RVCB KLARINNUTZ!! Don't disappoint yourself!!



Saw that melbourne high guy again with the man with the guide dog. Happy to see that he know what to do now(:

I don't get why people like to say 'oh my god'. After hearing this explanation I know why it is so insulting to God. Imagine if someone used your name. Oh my ____(enter your name here)! Oh my Mary, Oh my Tom. Would you like it? It is a pure insult. Similarly God is a name, not a title. Isn't this the same as insulting Him? Over time, I guess it becomes a habit but of course you can still do something about it.

Random girl was peeking at my chinese conversation script just because it's chinese and she thinks it's hers?! Doesn't give her the right to do that right? She doesn't even know my name and pops her head right over my paper. Sure, I'm not even looking at it-.- IT'S NOT YOURS WOMAN!

It is FIANLLY the last day of term 1. It just hit me that this will be the last term 1 I will ever have in high school o.0 and in english today, my teacher was telling us we had 19 weeks of school(exclu has alreading holidays) left. That seriously is very short. It has already been 10 weeks and in 2 times of term 1, I have graduated?!! This thought is so...(no words to describe) I want to finish school but not really looking forward to university. All the assignments etc. in university seems very hard>< I really can't wait for today to end. This holiday's going to be super busy and I better go sleep more before school reopens!!



sometimes there's nothing great about being asian
was on the train this morning.
got onto the train and there was a person with a guide dog and well, the guide dog was trained to go to the nearest priority seat. So as usual the dog directed its owner there but this asian melbourne high guy was sitting there. With a dog sniffing at his bag how can he not see that he should give up his seat? so what if the other priority seat is vacant? Don't you have the grace to give up your seat for someone who needs it much more than you? That seat is not called PRIORITY SEAT for nothing. Or are you so smart until you can't read 'priority seat' right? Who cares if you're smart/from melbourne high or not. Have you not learnt about BASIC COURTESY? If you have, where has it gone? Because evidently you have not heard of such a thing. Where are your moral values? Are you studying too hard until you NEED a seat? Gee, it wasn't made for you to sit when there's someone who needs it more than you. Can't you see the person? At least apologise? No grace.
Worst thing is, his friends came on board at later stations and sat there too, obviously oblivious to the fact. AND in the end, they stood up and 2 other asian men sat there. If you can stand up to accompany your friends, why can't you give up your seat in the first place? It's just standing for a few more stations only anyway. Can you not hear how displeased the guy was? Or was your music blasting too loud through your earphones? The seat is meant for him and there you go plonking yourself there. Learn your manners and have the grace(of a man) and give up your seat. It's not that hard. It's not like you don't know how to do it. Right at the moment I felt like screaming at you. Go and reflect.



how is it possible that there is an 8 DEGREE MORNING in AUTUMN-.-



it's been about a week...but nobody reads anyway, so who cares HAHA
went for parent-teacher interview just now...
lol...all the teachers say I have to talk more etc.
but I'm just the sort of person that sits there and listen...
HAHA mr gowdie is so cute LOL
'assessment books are actually a rip-off' HAHA
rdm fact of the day? the sun was red just now...

my attempt to trim my fringe failed...
every time the first time I trim it it's ok...and then the second time is just pffft LOL...
and it's not like I can pin it up because I look even weirder-.-
can't wait for it to grow out >.<

one week to the holidays!!!! hahahaha why am I so happy...
can't wait to get more sleeeeeeeep...
should I go for symphonic band on thursday?
I have to wake up so early in the morning to go for 1 hour-.-
but we're going to play Mancini! (the song title does actually have the exclamation mark) which is a new piece...

I shall decide later><
for now,
SLEEEEEEEEP~



the revolution of Apple is so amazing...
was going home on the trin yesterday,
and realised I was surrounded by 8 people using iPhones.
3 Iphone4s and the rest iPhones.
and this was just randomly standing on the train.

anyway, two days ago 万里香was on sbs2!!
showing hainan chicken rice found in London, Beijing and Tokyo.
lol where is the melbourne one-.- so now we can't go and eat because we don't know where the best hainan chicken rice in melboure is. So ironic how some people don't learn how to cook it in singapore but learnt to cook it in some foreign far-away country. The chicken looks so nice on tv>< I want to eat tooo!! apparently you have to pull the chicken limbs before cooking because then the met will be soft as when it's getting killed they may be tense o.0 and then after cooking you dunk it in cold water o.0 but still, it looks so good!! they even make the chilli sauce and the ginger thing. ohman>< it would be nice to eat singapore hawker food at this moment.

it's going to rainnn...but it's already so cold...why is it still going to rain-.-
ohwell...chinese lesson ends in 4 minutes!!



sometimes I feel like the dumbest person in the world...
now is one of those moments...



it's been a awhile since I've posted
had a long weekend last week because monday was labour day
seriously can't wait for the holidays and I have no idea why...
people in singapore having march holidays now but knowing rv,
a holiday is never a holiday with all the homework and all the cca
syf is coming!! secondary school level 12 april
apparently tuning is good so does that mean that there's hope? haha..
feel so regretful that I didn't help when I went back>< didn't get to go to your sectionals and only went for 1 combine...ohwell, it's beyond my capability now...
not sure about senior band though

cabaret night this friday!! playing the incredibles theme song and some boradway mix of songs(which includes the circle of life and always look on the bright side of life)
should I get someone to record it for meee? or should I just bring a camera onto the stage and record everything from my stand o.0 but that means you can only see the people behind me in the recording?!! hahahhaa...solo-ing first o.0 if I squeak everyone will knoww><
hope we don't screw it...every performance last year we had was screwed...all stupid reasons eg. not in tune, out of rhythm, not watching conductor, the whole band playing at different speed etc. a repetition of every single mistake that happened before in rvcb...it's not easy but since the band is smaller shouldn't it be easier?

and then there's open day on saturday and the school made it some compulsory event but anyway all the music groups have to attend for 1 hour 'pretend' rehearsal...LOL...rehearsal for what? no idea..



I hate it when people come to visit...
they will tour the house like it's very fun-.-
and then we have to spend the whole day cleaning up the house so that it's presentable?
just don't show your guests the rooms!! you can say it's private and there's nothing wrong with that.
have some people coming over tonight but they are very....
ohwell...the kids are kind of...not sociable...
lol if you meet them you might be ?!!! I didn't even do anything...
argh...overall, not looking forward to tonight.
another chem sac this coming friday...why can't the world just stop for one day and everyone can play and be happy...
if technology didn't advance then we would all still be cavemen?!!
the world out there is so competitive, the society is just a race to the top of the ladder...
why has mankind become so greedy?
greedy for money, for power etc. of course there are people in the world who aren't like that...
but I believe everyone wants to succeed whether they try or  not...

it is a hot day today...stepping out in the sun will probably give you heatstroke.
water plants!!~ grapevine in my backyard refuses to grow...even though I flood it's pot at least once every day unless it's raining...
before I left for singapore, the whole vine was covered in leaves and then now when I came back the vine was pratically dead-.- all the leaves drying up and dropping off etc. looks like we have to wait till next year...



school's starting again): the day after tomorrow
not looking forward at all-.-
lol...I think I'm becoming a pig, sleeping almost 10 hours every night!! ;P
thursday, go to to school, 3.30 leave school for "camp" go back the next day from there by yourself-.-
and most of the school starts on 4 feb!!! which is like one week later!!
school hasn't even started and I know when's my next test o.0
haven't even got all my textbooks yet...have to get it tomorrow...
another year I say,
and realise it's the last year in high school=I'm old?!!
well, there's no point grabbing at the past
the past will remain the past...but I'm so uncertain about my future><
at the moment I'm just trying to get the highest ATAR score possible...so that I can have a larger variety of courses I can take...but after VCE then what...LOL...
anyway, rdm fact o.0
my eyelid's swollen for no reason o.0 it looks more like it gained weight...and it doesn't hurt or itch so WHAT IS IT!!!!!!!!



do you really not know? are you pretending not to know?
since young I hated that place.
do you know how I felt?
It's not like I like it
I hate spectacles
I hate it
do you not know?
It's not like I ask for a high degree
Do I look like I like it?
I can't stand the way the stupid optometrist stares at me and talks to me as if I don't care about my eyes enough to take care of them
Even if I did take care my degree still increases every time
It's not my fault.
I hate it.
Every time, spending money on new lenses, new frame etc.
you think I want to?
every optician shop makes me shudder
why are there so many in the world?
why is it just ME that has such a high degree?
just because we have to use up the insurance we payed for.
thanks a lot.



have been wanting to post about my trip back in singapore but too lazy...hehe...
in the last 10 minutes of 2011, I should talk about the year.
it has been an eventful year
so will the next and the next
each year more memories are added, so has the memories of this year
I met many new friends, got to know people from a new church, but still being in contact with singapore friends
maybe I've got the best of both worlds! :P
didn't do as well as I wanted to for VCE but I will do my best next year
anyway,
here's wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!! and set your goals!!



since it's going to be the last night I'll be online at this kind of hour(12.15am) in singapore, I think I should blog
went to miriam's house today
sat downstairs and talked and took pictures
now gina has a lot of unglam pictures-.-
too bad michelle couldn't come today because of sore throat
yesterday we went to bugis to uh...take neoprints
lol...in conclusion, we wasted $12 altogether
ate pepper lunch fr lunch again yesterday
ate chicken instead
walked to iluma, went to the arcade only to realise that you need the card to play
and obviously we didn't have any so ended up walking around city hall
although it was kind of boring but somehow it was fun
I actually enjoyed it
slippers gave me blisters again today
I think I should get another pair...even after pasting so many plasters on my slippers and on my foot,
I still get blisters-.-
went to take passport photos this morning
didn't take too long to find the place(:
then I went to my grandma's house, ate lunch then went to jurong point
and finally, I found fahrenheit's album. Finally found it after looking through quite a few popular stores.
then went to miriam's house(:
spent abot an hour just eating the pacifier lollipop thing HAHA
not going out tomorrow until about 3
until then~



decided to write my gan xiang about band now since there's no band next week=I won't see them anymore
and also the erm...review of my bad haircut that I wasted $14 on-.-
let's talk about the waste of money first. I paid $14 and now my fringe is too short and my ponytail is fat and short(no shape at all) all I can say is I can't wait for my hair to grow out again

anyway, regarding band, I want to first thank the hostel gate uncle for letting me in(not like the one at the front gate-.-) although yesterday you told me no visitors can go in by hostel gate(or any other gate) without a teacher's permission, thanks for letting me in. It meant a lot to me. But, what if I told you the next time you see me is many years later? What if I told you my juniors/seniors/batchmates might not see me until maybe a few years later?
anyway, enough about that. Shall talk about senior band first. Listening to a full band(although not with many people) again feels really good. A totally different soud from a band comprising of mostly flutes and with the lowest instrument being the trombone. For once I actually heard an in tune note from a whole band. this has actually never occurred in my life in junior band. Ms Chan hopes that senior band will perform well for syf, either maintaining a silver or even getting a gold. Listening the pieces senior band is not too bad. Although I won't be able to experience the bonding of the whole band for the same purpose again, I wish senior band all the best and I hope you will really perform well. I also wish I could play with klarinutz once again but I guess that's just not possible. Tried playing Jiayi's instrument and realised my air is super weak now. Maybe it's because I haven't practised at all since the last band practice.
now,junior band. Until now, tuning is still terrible, high notes still killing chickens(sha ji), crescendo still forcing. Did we pass all these mistakes on to our juniors? Tuning has always been a big problem, so has high notes. How to make you all understand that crescendo does not mean jut forcing more air to make your volume louder? It doesn't in fact. Can you even tell you are going FLAT when you crescendo? I almost fainted on Tuesday when I heard the band crescendo during warm-up. Excuse me, that is not called crescendo but that's called from normal air to forced air. Juniors high C still flat, that one no choice but to train air. Quite understandable why ms chan will scold junior band. She's much nicer in senior band you know? maybe it's because the junior band has so many people so it's harder to control? But honestly I also like senior band's soud more than junior band. More people may mean more volume but more people have to be kept in line like for running notes etc. And how come you all come in the same note same time also can cue differently one arh? Anyway, you all must jiayou ok!! I know it's not easy to get back that gold but try your best and have no regrets once you get off that stage. I just hope no one will step off that stage feeling regretful over what you did on that stage. Remember, one chance and it's over.



went to band today
finally got into school
attended mdm so kah lay's farewell ceremony
no tears were shed, good thing principal didn't see me in my section tee and shorts
stayed for junior band but I believe I wasted my time
spent more than an hour just on warmup and tuning
and they already tuned before assembling-.-
in the end left when they almost finished tuning and warming up
left for lunch with my batch ppl!!(:
but so many people weren't here today
band is diferent
I don't know so many people, so many people don't know me
senior band is really relaxed compared to junior band
now I can fully understand why teaching junior band is so hard
firstly, there are so many people, so many sections
secondly, people don't listen to each other, high notes also just blast, crescendo also force until so flat
thirdly, whatever you say just goes in and comes out
sure some people try to apply whatever they learn but there are some just don't do anything
tuning also don't listen whether in tune or not, so many waves
As a person playing clarinet, I know how hard it is to be in tune all the time but at least TRY to listen to maybe the person beside you?
and junior arh...how come the note is come in the same time but cue different time one leh? if you cue different time then isn't it equating to not playing together, needless to say come in together?
honestly, I'm kind of disappointed
I was hoping something might change but nothing has changed for the better so far, well in the tuning aspect that is
tuning out how to talk about playing pieces?
by putting how many days to syf on the board does it motivate the band to work harder? or will it just serve as a count down for a day of disappointment that you will remember for a very long time
most people will only experience syf once in sec school
very few will go twice
those who go twice know what it's like, lead the rest
I hope the result won't be disappointing as it was last year
see you guys on thursday then...
would be good if you guys had a short sectionals because there are some things I hope to say, but don't actually know how to say it.



I believe my holiday is ruined
can't even enter rv anymore
I thought I could always call that place mine but I guess I thought wrong
I can't even go in, much less surprise anyone or help with any problems
It's so fustrating knowing that there are so many problems and NONE are getting solved
and I can't even go in to see them
you want me to watch from outside the gate?!!
I spent so long finding the school, finding the school's main entrance only to be told I can't go in
come on, I will most like see them for about 2 weeks once a year,
is that fair to me?
I understand it's the rule but do I look like I will cause chaos in the school?
I just want to visit the people I haven't seen in a whole year,
is that so difficult? I have things to give them can I just see them to at least personally give it to them?
no obviously I can't.
I just thought I could help a little bit, but now I can't
I don't want to get caught, I don't want anybody who helps me to be in trouble
this is really fustrating



finally took the uh...long-anticipated pictures of my new house(:

My house from outside

the garage on the right

small wooden balcony outside

cherry blossom tree outside my house

My front door(look at the handle!!)

hallway

on the left of the hallway is the piano/computer room

go a little further and it's my room(bookshelf opp. bed,cupboard on the left of bed, study table opp. my very messy dressing table)

hallway continued

David's room after the hallway turn(we painted his whole room including ceiling!!!)

then there is the toilet after David's room(redid this toilet)

another toilet, in another turn in the hallway

laundry/pantry opposite the toilet above

pantry

and opposite the turn, is the kitchen(: and further down is my dining table)

living room on the right of the front door(opposite the piano/computer room)

backyard(see the grape vine?) good weather so we washed a lot of clothes(:

shed at the back of the house(our temporary storeroom)

lemon tree

apricot tree

that's all(:



THE YEAR IN REVIEW
today marks one year from the first day I had in Australia, 1 December 2009
once again, thanks to everyone who took the time to see me off the airport, it meant a lot to me
this day marks a new chapter in my life, the big move - to Australia
and last Saturday I moved to my permanent home
sure, everything has changed.
Lifestyle, school, friends etc.
of course I miss things in Singapore
but I've learnt to move on
we aren't separated for life and we can always email/webcam/call
still remember the reasons holding me back from moving,
firstly, leaving all me close friends behind
secondly, clarinets. As a senior, you can't stop worrying about your section, especially when each batch is getting worse and worse and you have no idea what's the problem
thirdly, pkc. After serving there for 3 years, I kind of miss that place.
but, ohwell, there are many new things to look forward to in Australia

so many things have changed in Singapore too
the new school compound, new teachers(especially new principal), moving on to year4
I actually feel really old talking about being year 4 but I'm now in year 5?!! haha
doing VCE next year, have no idea about my degree of preparedness
don't even ask me what I want to do when I grow up or what course I want to do in uni
I'm just going to study hard, do my best and see what my score can get me into
likewise, you people study hard too ok!! and practise hard(klarinutters) and don't get kicked out of the school!!

most importantly, I want to thank my friends for being there through everything and  may our friendship will last the test of time.

“时间是一道不能反转的门”，
一旦过去了，就永不回头。
再多的想念也没用，
还是继续为自己的未来努力吧！



was watching a video on fb of kids singing 'in whom I can trust' in phpps hall
it has been a long time since I saw the hall...
don't even remember much of the hall...just rmb the important areas of the schcool...
1st level, canteen
2nd level, staff room
3rd level, library
4th level, hall
and the rest are classrooms...still remember complaining about having to climb up 14 flights of stairs at least twice every day bcos as the oldest we get the highest classrooms BUT we don't need to share lockers with other levels...and the puny-sized field that got transformed into a small little triangle you can hardly call a field(it used to be bigger in the old building) spent 2 years in each school compound, the oldest, holding school and the new one...quite even-ed out..I sort of miss out
David in contrast doesn't miss a single part of peihwa-.- he claims he can't even remember the school song when I still can remember it...

urgh-.- have to go now...wil continue the post another day



no school todayyy~
tomorrow is melbourne cup = horse racing = public holiday
going to pon house swimming on friday so technically I only have 2 days of school this week!!(: haha...

posted a video of me playing yu jian on facebook not long ago...
that song means a lot to me I guess...it's hard to put it in words...
only my batch knows it...and plays it err...occasionally(:
klarinutz arh...how are you guys doing now huh!! are you ppl improving in the right direction or the wrong direction!! so true that every batch is worse than the last...rvcb used to be a good band and we...kinda ruined it-.- ohwell...我无话可说

Also, this is kinda late but...
thanks to the people who wished me happy birthday and the manymany people who err...forgot since I deactivated my facebook then for bio exam...lol...IM THE PERSON WITH THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS MS CHAN *waves hand* felt like a really normal day, even more normal than other days...will uh...post a picture of the cake a later time since the picture's not in this computer...felt quite old after my birthday o.0



this shall be the last post before bio exam(friday)
I  THINK I'm prepared...not very sure....need to memorise all the definitions for the different terms...read through...err...evolution again? I think that's all actually o.0 then back to doing practice papers...
saw on yahoo singapore that haze is very bad!!

anyway, today's perforance was ok...and there was actually extra bio revision lessons after school so i sat there for 20minutes hopped off to my performance, hopped back in 30 minutes...the performance was.......
screwed the introduction of the last piece...but the rest was...kinda ok...not as good as the rehearsals

have an ugly sock tan): it's mayb 7cm above my ankle?!!! it's not very obvious but can sort of see a line there>< i used to have a sock tan like BELOW MY ANKLE and now it's way higher, a random place above my ankle-.-

dinner now...study later(: blog NEXT WEEK...lol...



AHHH dead dead dead
first of all, friday bio paper...I have no idea whether I'm prepared or not...did like at least 10 papers already I think...but my short-answer is still very lousy...
secondly, tmr I have a quartet performance AFTER SCHOOL(what in the world was I thinking when i agreed><) AND I need to pick David and WALK HOME WITH HIM FROM THE TRAIN STATION and how am I supposed to do that when the stupid performance starts at 4 and he ends school at 3.30(walk to the station 4.00?!)?!!! and it's not like I can tell my mother that I have performance...she will just bite off my head-.- bcos she needs to go somewhere?!! and now I can't pick David and what am I supposed to do nowwwww><
checked the stupid tram and train times(inefficient transport) I will reach the station like 4.45-.- which is 1 hour later...and obviously David will kill me>< and my mum will kill me too>< AHHHHH....WHY OF ALL DAYS AND TIMES SERIOUSLY?!!! why must we start at 4!!!!!!!>< can't we start once school ends? I believe none of the people need lunch since we get lunch time during school hours...35 minutes break before starting...IT'S NOT NEEDED LUH!!! agreeing to play in that quartet is a stupid mistake in itself
ate up my whole week's lunchtime(every day) and now I even need to stay back for the stupid performance that starts at 4 and practically wastes my whole day after school when my VERY IMPORTANT EXAM is on FRIDAY what the?!! I can't even email the girl by school email because there are SO MANY PEOPLE IN THE SCHOOL WITH THE SAME NAME AND I DON'T KNOW HER SURNAME-.- and it's weird if I just email the teacher DIRECTLY which I bet she won't see until tmr or mayb even later...HOWHOWHOWHOWHOW....somebody help me>< if I tell my mum I go see teacher then she will ask why cannot go another day-.-...AHHHHHHHHHHH....HELPHELPHELP>< I am regretting my decision a whole lot...if only the stupid performance starts EARLIER...shall try asking tmr...because I really can't stay...if they insist then...I'm sorry I really can't stay...



it's 10/10/10 today!!(:
and I should start getting off the computer...
3 more weeks til bio exam...
first week of school was ok...
just that i had to fall sick right on the first day of school until now-.-
performance next week level of readiness? ZERO
lol...the band just sounds nothing like what we're supposed to sound...well, in my view anyway.
everything is everywhere...and so....quite messed up



term break!! 3 weeks of holiday/studying/sleeping
haha...lots to catch up this holiday...
had formal last week...i think a lot of people saw the pictures?
and I guess it's high time I post again haha...since the last post was like in june o.0 long time ago...
last term of the year
it has been really quick...been in Australia for 10 months alr...
2 more months to mark a year..
I actually have nothing to do when I'm bored of homework...
just a lot of studying for biology since I have 2 sacs to do...
and 2 chapters to go through for the holidays...

found the scores for taeyang's wedding dress online...I can play the introduction now haha...and the rest...sounds quite weird at the moment...

what else can I talk about):

hmm...it's spring now!! although it was cold today...all the clouds arh): blow yourself away luh-.-
but it's getting a lot warmer haha...can wear summer dress to school next term already...after 2 terms(half a year) of wearing winter uniform...take at least 10 minutes wearing winter uniform...
because need to wear shirt inside and then the school shirt and school jumper and then for the bottoms, wear stockings and then wear shorts and then wear skirt and last of all blazer...
ah...that's all for today~



the degree of coldness is crazy-.-
currently is uh...11.6 degrees, overnight 7 degrees-.-
locked out of classroom today-.- the whole class
during like class assembly thing and the whole class was like standing outside freezing...
it feels exaggerated-.-
like my shampoo is more solid?!!
and my mother buys coconut milk in cans and the top SOLIDIFIES bcos it's cold-.-
and to top it off i have a runny nose-.-

but anywayyyyyy,
school closes next weeeeeeeeek~
last week of school b4 holidays and only 2 levels are actually having normal lessons while the rest of the school is like away having fun-.-
going skiing on 2 july XD although i dunoe how to ski hehe...
so irritating that singapore hols end when i start...
ohwell...i will make very good use of this holiday to studyy
haha...i always say that but end up otherwise-.-

my batch stepping down on friday o.0
never thought that this day would come so fast...
klarinutz uh...after seniors step down you all must work hard ok!!(:
although i have no idea how you all sound right now...but...definitely after seniors leave the section and band will sound weaker but you all just have to jiayou and play louder luh ok!!(:
can't believe next year is syf again...2 years seems quite fast uh><
last week of band prac o.0 and drills HAHA
does anyone know when the sec 1s are joining junior band as in like main band?

OHYES...i twas the shortest day in Australia ystd, dunoe if anyone knew? dunoe whether it applies in singapore or not? didn't know until somebody told me o.0 can't really tell anyway
the sun sets super early nowadays...like 4++ 5? and in summer at 9pm then the sun sets-.- so much difference...2 more months of winter~ in korean shows when it's like winter then when they speak then have the fog coming out of their mouth right, then over here today at like 10++am still have that fog thing...so cold uh><

anybody watch world cup? o.0 i somehow tend to watch the very late ones and end up sleeping but waking up occasionally to watch o.0 watched the south korea vs Greece one haha SO PRO!!(:but then lost to argentina...lol...ok...this was quite a while ago no idea about recent matches o.0 i just know usa played? haha...
that's uh..all for today?!!



and uh....that's it.



it's a random cloudy day but the clouds aren't dark clouds.
it's the holidays now!!(: haha...lol...
hmm...no motivation to really post something-.-
heard that the promotion criteria was changed o.0
to promote GPA 2.5 and at least B4 for english and chinese o.0
they lowered the gpa o.0
hmm...
whatelsewhatelsewhatelse><
APRIL FOOL'S DAY TMR!!(: not like i'll go prank anyone-.-
whenever i go online hardly anybody is online-.- so i don't use the computer for very long?!! haha...
ohwell...i shall just go reply emails!!(:



super long time before i blogged...lol...
some er...promised pictures i haven't taken yet...lol...
like the one of my house and err...my uniform?!!
haha...

everyone's busy in singapore...
it's chinese new year eve...but it totally feels like a normal weekend...
going to my dad's friend's house for dinner tonight then going some pot luck thing at another person's house...
it's also valentine's day tmr...quite cool haha chinese new year and valentine's day on the same day!!(:

went for band prac on thursday...lol...the intrument i used was...-no comments-
lol...it's plastic and i haven't heard of that brand before...and apparently one of the pads dropped off and i was like squeaking a whole lot...so malu-.- then i had to use a reed size 2...lol...so i was super flat?!! then i decided not to play since i can't play in tune and i keep squeaking lol...
but in the end it sort of got "fixed" then i can play some notes-.- you can actually see the pad MOVING when you press the key to open the hole-.- i was like NO WONDER cannot play properly...lol...found the pieces simple...more of catching up with the speed but yea...but not much of a challenge...like no high notes, no running notes, no weird weird rhythm...oh well...that's so far...but the band is super unbalanced...bcos everyone plays what they want to play...so...no tubas o.0 and a lot of ppl play flutes o.0
about half the band consists of flutes? haha yea...but it's ok...
some ppl may know about this o.0 but my parents said buy a secondhand clarinet for me...my dad says they confirm will not buy a new one for me but then will confirm not buy me a plastic one...can't find any secondhand buffet RC...quite sad...but there is buffet E-11...have to go try to find out...
i think im nuts-.-(as nuts as klariNUTZZ HAHAH) like actually buying a clarinet?!! me?!

heard about all the crazy stuff that's happening in rv...like right now, the crazy gpa year 4s are supposed to get to get promoted and the A2 for o lvl higher chinese...and about extended band hours and more and more practices...all i can say now is JIAYOU!!(: but i can't do much o.0

hmm...what else did i want to say o.0
don't rmb but wish everyone happy chinese new year and valentine's day!!(: haha...



today's date is 01012010
o.0 so many zeros and ones
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!(:

and tmr band members performing for tone poem...
all the best and...dun err...
screw it!!(:

tmr everyone needs to go to school early...
so...finally moving in to the new campus...
and im not there to see it o.0
so...i shall try to go back and see it soon!!(:

that's all~
jiayou for tmr!!(:



it's the last day of 2009...
it's not only the last day of 2009...
it's the last day of this decade...
goodbye to 2009, welcome to 2010 o.0

tmr is the start of a new decade...
the start of a new year...
another day...

the new start of another chapter, with manymany changes...
this century has been said to be the worst century in dunoe how man year's history...
with all the natural disasters and eh...some big stuff like 911...so...
yea...goodbye to the bad endings and hello to a good beginning...
it's not been a very good year from the start i guess...well...
syf starting off etc. etc.
like it wasn't great for band...then for schoolwork it was better than 2008 o.0
but yea...can be better...

hoping to stay up late tonight...
in time to countdown to new year with singapore...haha and taiwan(:
excited and looking forward to the new year...
hope you are too(:

lastly, wishing everyone a
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!



how was everyone's christmas?
spent Christmas with a quite messed up house o.0
bcos had to unpack...
finally have clothes o.0

hmm...school is starting soon in singapore...
shipped stuff have arrived...
done a lot of packing...
there's no trace that i've lived in that house for almost 10 years...
furniture all gone...
house already sold...
fading away...
only source of showing i existed in singapore is my friends...
and the emails...
sometimes i wonder...
what will we talk about the next time i see you all...
will it be different?
will i change?
will everyone change?
i guess so...
but there's nothing i can do...

miss someone calling me AUNTYYYYYYYYYYY *hugs*
and miss someone tlkaing about the DBSK and fahrenheit stuff with me *winks*
and miss being part of band
miss my clarinet(evan how's my clarinet o.0)

memories are still there...but fading...in the future...
in the future...not as many memories...
thanks for being my friend, my sister and yea....applies to YOU!(:
hope we can remain that way...for manymany years to come...
i don't regret knowing you all at all
thanks for being there for me & everything...

anyway...wishing everyone a




have decided to blog like...after one week of arriving in what sarah calls the KANGAROO LAND-.-
lol...i find it amusing but no, melbourne doesn't really have kangaroos, mayb in the wildlife reserves or something but other than that, you don't see them...
wanted to post after hearing the news that ms ek is leaving...well...and compared to the newer principal...she's loads better....from what i heard and read at this article o.0
the new principal is the ex-principal of JJC...and after i read the online article i think he's loads worse than llm...

http://www.gamerzplanet.net/forums/spam/162255-jjcs-principle-removes-his-sheep-clothing-the-true-face-of-torment.html

here's the article...and amazingly i still can log in to ivle?!
haha...aiyooooo...still rmb the time all of us talk about her...lol...and getting pissed bcos of what she said and the veryveryvery long talks she gave during assembly at the field...lol...and well...yea...din appreciate luh...to be honest...

after reading that article im thankful i left><
haha...he's scaryyyyyy>< but i shall still go back and visit><
and tie up my hair in case i get caught by him if i go back><
i scared lehhhhhhh!!><
now the whole school knows she's leaving i think o.0
a lot of ppl know she's leaving at least...

there's a lot of changes for 2010...a year of change we could say...o.0
like i mean...change of school campus, change of principal, im not there anymore, change of school uniforms...etc. etc.

haha...well...things come and go...but the most important thing is to look forward...
a new chapter, a new beginning, an end results in a beginning...a beginning with changes etc. etc.

it was raining this morning...was super cold...good thing i din go out><
won't have internet tmr...and for i dunoe how long...so...post first(:
will try to post more photos on fb(:
haha...
bye for now(:

Recently, the topic of forgiveness has been popping up everywhere, last Sunday's sermon, Monday school assembly, today chaplain's assembly.
Is God trying to tell me to forgive someone? Or is He asking me to pass on the message to somebody? Shall share some points from Sunday's sermon.

Forgiving isn't forgetting. The phrase "forgive and forget" is almost impossible to achieve. When you're hurt, it not very possible or likely that you'll totally forget that incident. Forgiving is starting the healing process of the heart. By thirsting for revenge just stops that healing process and at the same time, implying to God that you don't need his control and you can settle all this yourself. Forgiving isn't easy and I know that from experience. People have hurt me and after a while, I learnt to let go. Put the matter into God's hands and He will solve the problem for you. He is always in control and will never forsake you. It is a matter of whether or not you believe and have faith in Him to be in control and solve your problems.

Forgiving doesn't also mean a relationship. Some people will just hurt you over and over again. There's no point in continuing being related to them. A relationship needs both parties to work for it. If the other party isn't willing, you're just wasting your time and you'll just get hurt over and over again.

Because we are forgiven, we should forgive. Break the cycle of revenge and spread God's love, the essence of christianity. Trust that He knows and He heals. There is a parable in the bible in which a lord showed mercy and forgave his servant who did not return his money on time when the servant pleaded with him. That same servant then went to another servant who owed him money. When the debtor pleaded with the creditor, that creditor who was pardoned did not show mercy and threw the debtor servant into jail until he returned every single cent. When the other servants heard of this, they went to the master and told him. The master then called the servant he had pardoned and reprimanded him for not showing mercy that he was shown. That servant was thrown into jail and tortured until every cent was returned. In the same way, show God's grace that He has shown to you.

Today, during mustard, we were also talking about why bad things happen on Earth. Bad things is an understatement but I have no idea what other words I should use. There isn't a why doesn't God send us this and provide us with that. I don't think that there's such things as "God, I want rain, please send rain". I believe He has reasons for all His doings and sometimes these catastrophes are caused by the devil to rock your faith. In the same way, God may use these catastrophes to save people and let the victims grow deeper in faith. I listened to a sermon a while back and the preacher said "It's not that God provides rich people with all their money and possessions, if it's that way, God is being unfair and why would He do that? It just happened that you're born in the right time in the right environment, in the right place." I guess it's sort of true because why would God provide so much for one person and not so much for another? But in times of trouble, in times of need, it's sometimes really hard to turn your eyes to God, especially when you've been waiting. I, for one am so familiar with this waiting. My family's been waiting for the 6th year now. But I believe God is moving. Situation has improved and I trust that God will take care of us and solve the problem. It hasn't been easy and many times, my parents have asked God, "How long more do we have to wait?". Waiting is difficult and sometimes you just want to give up. You just have to have the faith that God will do a miracle and solve whatever problems you have. Trust that God knows best and He'll love you and will always be there for you no matter what.
Hope anyone who reads this feels encouraged to continue through your hardship! ♥



Forgive me for saying so but don't you think you're soooo ridiculously unreasonable?
cooking the rice 10 minutes later won't kill you. Just because David needs to get out by 5.30 doesn't mean I have to cook rice in blazer and jumper. ARE YOU AWARE THAT ALL THE CLOTHES I'M WEARING ARE LONG SLEEVED AND ISN'T VERY CONVENIENT TO WASH RICE? Does it matter to you that I'm feeling sick? It's not like I want to be but hello? can't even change clothes first isit? Yes, go on insulting me. It's not my fault David has to get out by 5.30. I'm not the one who signed him up for lacrosse. I'm not the person who introduced him to lacrosse and it's my fault the hole puncher disappeared? And it's also my fault david can't find the stupid pack of raisins that was supposed to be in the pantry but WASN'T? Can't you just admit you're wrong instead of saying WHATEVER? Yes, I owe my life to you but then be a bit more reasonable can-.- everything also my fault when we're rushing for David. Yes, totally..

It's NATIONAL DAY!! :D


Funny how we feel more patriotic overseas. I was never the really crazy enthusiastic patriot in singapore, not saying that I am one now. Still remember singing 'Home' super loud in P6 with Ruth and Winnie. Don't know how are they right now. It's been 5 years already!! I just found Winnie's facebook :O don't know if she still remembers me or not, but just add anyway :D

Anyway, back to the topic of national day. For  a government to have a nation with national pride is not easy. Recently the inflating influx of foreigners mainly scholars and expats haven't exactly made singaporeans jump with joy. The US economy downturn isn't going to help the economic situation either. But I think it's a long way that Singapore as a country, a nation has come. Today celebrates the 46th year of independence, the 46th anniversary of LKY's achievement in the history of Singapore. I'm not a supporter of any political group but the fact that LKY helped achieve Singapore's independence will not be changed. The fact that he once loved Singapore THAT much(I have no idea about his love now though) and the fact that Singapore has come this far. We came from a generation of poor immigrants, seeking the hope of a better life. Look where Singapore stands now. It's too crowded but at the same time the modern city is it's image. Singapore has moved from literally a kampong to a city. Although there're so many people and it's really overcrowded, public transport is just PACKED, construction of the new train line going on in various areas, in a way, everything is progressing.

To me, singapore is still my home. My home with all my friends and relatives, all my memories, my childhood. There are some people who I'm so thankful to God that I met. People who stood by me, quarreled but made up. Honest statement from me, if you can have a big quarrel with your friend and still end up as good friends, it shows that they treasure that friendship as much as you and your friendship will be even stronger. Singapore is where all my memories lie and there it shall stay.

Home
Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home

When there are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That home's about its people too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There'll always be Singapore

For this is where I know it's home
For this is where I know I'm home


It's been so long but this is still my favourite ndp song. (On the topic of ndp songs, the new versions are so....it ruins the meaning of the song. BRING BACK THE ORIGINAL VERSIONS!! :D)
家

Was going to memorise the first page of my detail study but uh, doesn't work. I think I memorise these things best in my room or on the train.
Really tired and sleepy although I slept earlier than usual yesterday. Feel like just going home to sleep somemore-.-
Got chem midyear results yesterday. The result's ok but not exactly jumping with joy about it. The percentage of boys compared to girls who got A+ is so different.
This week is pretty relaxed compared to last week. Chinese teacher is on camp, no tests/sac this week! But then I still need to memorise the first page of my detail study. I have no idea how I'm going to remember any of it. I think at most I'll get through to half the page.
I think I've lost my motivation to study this week. I've been putting of studying probability since last week. Should probably start soon...

Some people just don't know when to stop. They don't know when enough is enough. They just keep going on and on, assuming everyone has to talk to them, assuming they know everything, assuming that they're the boss. People who constantly say "you're a genius, I should be the one who should be worried", just STAY AWAY FROM ME. Stop talking like you know me so well. You don't. Just stop. Enough is enough. I just wanted to make a friend, and you? You just have to go on and on about how your studies arne't that good. If you're trying to praise me, you're doing it wrong. I know I'm not a genius. I'm not the type of kid that doesn't study and still gets full marks on a test or anything like that. I can study and still fall short of the full mark by a lot. Know your place and stop saying things like that. I don't like how you ask me how's my day and this sac and that sac EVERY SINGLE DAY AFTER SCHOOL. This just screams one word - "DESPERATION". Leave me alone ok? I'm not interested, will never be. At first I thought you were just being friendly, now I just want you to disappear. Stop asking me every single thing that's going on in my life. If I want to tell you, I'll tell you. Stop asking. I don't need to tell you anything, don't need to reply your messages, don't need to carry out small talk with you. If I want to talk to you, I will, just stop everything you're doing now, go and study and leave me alone! After not replying you since last thursday, do you not know how to take the hint to stop-.- I'm talking to you because I'm nice ok? I'm not interested in you, full stop, period. No one else talks to you because you're just so...I don't know, naggy? I have no idea how to describe it or even to respond. I'm being nice because I just think it's mean to ignore people like that but it's too much, I don't feel like being the nice person to you anymore.

200th post! :D
longest blog I've ever kept, although I'm not that faithfully updating and no one comes to read anyway.
everyone's doing their own thing, I'm doing my own.
SO BOREDDD
school is so boring, everything is so boring
I live just for the days,
live day by day, solving problems day by day
no future plan.


觉得可惜，觉得遗憾，觉得失落
虽然以前的中文水平不是那么的高，现在好像变更低了。好不甘心。
做detail study后的一些感想还要写说这提高了我的中文水平。明明就没有，为什么一定要这样说呢？我的中文水平本来就比现在的程度高，现在还要装说这对我很有帮助，为何要这样说？以前中文对我来说很难，但是现在其实满怀念的。真想不到以前一个半小时就把700－800个字的作文写完，现在却在写250字的作文，一切不如从前。
很怀念也很想念，依旧。
Australia' chinese oral examination is not even a test of oral skills on how fluent you are or how accurate you are. Bluntly said, IT'S A WASTE OF TIME. You want to test standard, test reading not MEMORISING. Chinese oral here is PURE MEMORISING. Hello? This is oral not a test of memorisation skills-.- Who can remember a total of almost 10 pages full of words for examiners to ask less than half of those questions?! ridiculous.
but then again, it's good that I left. I don't think I can continue in that kind of environment, juggling cca, school work, test, tuition etc. We aren't made of steel-.-
ohwell, end of rant.

melbourne's weather is going crazy again-.-
last week was so nice and warm and sunny and then it has to rain today
which means the coming week is going to be COLD. -sigh-
I used to complaing about how hot singapore was but I think having a stable weather condition is better than having weather that plays jokes on you and is so TEMPERAMENTAL-.- seriously. I rains for like 5 minutes, stops and THE SUN COMES OUT. Really hard to gauge when to wash the clothes because when the sun comes out, you bring the clothes out to dry.  After bringing all the clothes out, a grey cloud floats into vicinity and it's going to rain-.- so many times already!

好想停留在这个时刻。
从未成熟到现在的我，长大得好快。
转眼间已经是在读最后一年了。
从来没有想过要赶快长大，可是现在渐渐成长就好想要停止时间。
从不想到这里来，却开始喜欢这里的读书环境。
放弃了很多，得到了也很多。
我遇见的朋友，我都很珍惜。
很羡慕弟弟还在长高的状态，哪像我，没有再长高了。

ohman, why am I so reflective today>.<
is it because VCE's only 3 months away now?
the time to make the most important decision in my life is around the corner.
This term's a flurry. Week after week, it seems like a mundane routine but then each week brings us one week closer to the last year of high school. Never thought this would be so soon. I still remember thinking how old people in JC were, and now I'm here myself, I can't believe I'm this age. I can't believe I'm going to uni next year. I can't believe everything that's happening now in fact. I think I've changed a lot ever since I came here. I don't know in what way but I just have. When I went back to singapore, it felt like I just continued where I left off/of(?) It's just like my time in singapore was on pause and started to continue playing when I went back to visit, and now it's on pause again. People I know, enlisting soon, others going to uni already...

Finally am almost done with detail study. It's been taking up so much time to find information and then answer questions, edit answers etc. Now I just mainly left the questions on why I chose this topic and what I learnt from this topic.
Honestly, I have no idea what I learnt from Zhenghe's expeditions. I first knew him through my chinese textbook in primary school talking about how he travelled to the West Sea and gave all the expensive jewels etc. to other countries. I don't recall any motive being mentioned or what they were trying to achieve through his expeditions. Well, in a way, I did learn a lot more about Zhenghe and the whole situation of his maritime exploration. He actually made it all the way to East Africa, which is a major feat itself, and his treasure fleet consisted of ships larger to Columbus ships. He traded with many different countries and got other countries to pay tribute to China, in a way expanding the empire. But what did I learn from this event? Perseverance? Patience? Planning of journey?

my phone is so inactive it's just crazy..I used to send about 15-20sms a day last time because I got 10 free when I sent 5. Now? 1 message is so expensive, 1 call costs just $1.17 to hear the phone ring whether or not the person picks up. Going out just costs too much like eating etc. I live like a hermit-.-

so dead x_x
14 practice umat papers to finish. If it was chem, it wouldn't be a problem since each paper only take 1.5 hours BUT umat is a HUGE problem, since each paper takes 3 hours to complete. AND I LEFT 7 DAYS TO DO ALL 14 INCLUDING TODAY...which means I have to do about 2 papers every day and I still have drills to do...umat is next wednesday 1.30pm and I have to leave house before 12 I think, to get there on time, which also means I can't do a paper on wednesday...which means I have to rush papers this weekend...Doesn't help that there's a chem sac next thursday and methods sac next friday, and then englsih sac the week after. I honestly think I'm going to waste $770 because I don't think it's that possible for me to get like 91% to get an interview-.- it's just crazy-.-
adding on, super tired-.- I slept early last night, like 10.30, woke up at 6.30, slept all the way to school on the train like some pig. Couldn't actually keep my eyes open>.< then the stupid train at richmond had to be delayed for 10 minutes and then I missed the tram therefore had to walk to school then when I was halfway there the tram came. Not funny-.- today is windyyy~

so pissed.
Why must you always do all the sai gang/shit work when only you and me are home-.- and then you make me do half of it-.- where is David when you need help? POOING HIS HEAD OFF. and when you're cooking, he's at the dining table RIGHT NEXT TO THE KITCHEN, who do you call? ME, when I'm doing WORK. Me, black face? fyi, you looks like that too ok. You just don't want to let me use computer because I can and you can't, using study as an excuse-.- I can study on the computer too ok. You just don't want me to touch. And how come David touches for hours and hours PLAYING GAMES? HUHUHUH? please explain?! Who wakes up at 9am on a saturday morning to do housework-.- I woke up in ANTICIPATION for the FORMAL, and now I have no mood to even care. Every minutes you ask me to run off to do some shit. I NEED TO GET READY TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE BY ABOUT 1.30pm OK! Just because some people are coming to our house doesn't mean they will come and inspect the stupid floor and lick it or something-.- Nobody's going to stare at your toilet' bin's contents. Nobody's going to inspect each and every room and approve of it or something.
Stayed up till 12 last night doing my nails and some got ruined so I had to do it again this morning and you ask me to run all over the house, from vacuuming the living room+my room+David's room to hanging the wet laundry-.- Not funny woman-.- I HATE MY VACUUM CLEANER-.- It's the OSIM iEcologi and it WEIGHS A TONNE no joke. You thought is was good because you could steam mop too but NO it had to spoil. And then the stupid tubing had to be replaced. And best part of all, we shipped it down before all this happened-.- We shipped a stupid heavy vacuum cleaner that doesn't steam mop(which it's supposed to) and now a wheel has to drop off meaning we have to CARRY the vacuum cleaner around the house to vacuum the floor-.-
I may sound like some spoilt brat here but seriously? This vacuum cleaner is a KILLER-.-

sometimes, I think during quarrels, people should step down from their pride and just apologise. What's holding you back? What do you lose for apologising? Your pride? And is it worth losing your friendship for a meaningless quarrel? What's the point of quarreling? If you were really good friends, you would make up after the quarrel. You wouldn't stop speaking to each other, you would be friends with an even stronger friendship. Sometimes, you shouldn't take things so seriously. From the experiences I had, why let these bother you? You just become angry and resentful and you can't do anything well. The fact that you are getting angry shows you care about what the other person is thinking. If you genuinely don't care about the person, then you wouldn't be angry with the person in the first place-.- AND it's probably just a misunderstanding...clear that up and won't you be fine already-.-

not sure what I'm doing here at this time. It's 10/47pm, I should be sleeping-.-
just finished marking the 2009 paper. OHMAN at this rate I'm going to screw VCE midyears AGAIN which I CANNOT AFFORD. But then that paper apparently was one of the hardest so far...so is that a good sign? I did pretty ok except for the careless ones and a few I didn't have time to complete. Looks like I need to work a lot more quicker.
Honestly, I can't WAIT till the exams are over. I'm also not very extremely prepared. But then, so many things to do, so little time. Stupid chinese detail study takes over from general conversation. Much more research, much more time, MUCH MORE MEMORISATION. And then there's chem. And methods. And basically that's all I care about o.0 I shall go sleep now. Chem sac tmr! practice exammmmmm): I must finish it! -reminds self to bring watch tmr-

it's been a few days...
tired this week, no reason why though...no sacs, I sleep not very late etc.

ohwell, sometimes some people are just not worth your time and effort.
If you have nothing nice to say then don't say anything.
Some people treat you like you're invisible even though you're bang right in front of them.
They pretend to be nice to you in front of people they care about.
But that just shows how fake they are.
If you are ignored by someone like that, they are not worth your sincerity.
They think they're all up there but they don't realise what they really are and that is probably their loss.
To have a character like that does not make you be the top.
Insecurity maybe? I don't know but it's definitely not my business.
I'm not going to be bothered by the fact that you ignore me(gee why would I care honestly-.-)
I shall end my rant because it is kind of late now.
Good night!(morning actually..)

tired tired tired
such a bad idea to sleep late on a sunday night.
I am just wondering how I used to survive waking up at 6am every single morning, staying back like 6-6.30pm twice a week and then eating lunch at 3++ every single day. Not to mention chinese bu ke every monday then ends at 4++?!! Of course it's much more intense now in Singapore. Lessons end mostly at 4pm almost every day and that's without cca...

think I'm going to do bound feet for detail study...
pictures are gruesome but there isn't much to do on Zheng He(the famous explorer guy for those who don't know) can't find much information about him except that he's muslim, he's a eunuch and he sailed all the way to Africa..so I need 4 general areas from that but not much to say in each point right?
so I guess I'm going to do bound feet...Reading about how it's done, it just shows how sadistic men were...subjecting women to such pain for your um...sexual desire is very...self-centred. And apparently it was pro-confucious in the aspect that women had to be reliant on their husbands and couldn't run about the place and stay mostly at home...Tie your feet to get married?!! But then again, men used to have more powere over women so...women were subjected to such a harsh practice as KIDS. Robbed them of their childhood, caused them to suffer for the rest of their lives. And the worst thing of all is that it was carried out for about 1000 years!! Good thing it was stopped.

Melbourne weather's driving me nuts-.-
was already so called and now it has to rain NON-STOP
how is this even possible-.- should be close to snowing soon-.- in the morning it's 4-6 degrees, at night maybe 1-2 degrees more..it wasn't this cold last year...
but also because of the rain that I saw a beautiful glowing rainbow. Was on the train(glen waverley line) and saw a rainbow that had it's base on the opposite sides of the train...which makes it seem like the train is passing through the rainbow arch. So beautiful especially when the sun came out and the left side of the rainbow started GLOWING. It disappeared exactly at 2.59pm...then as I was going to cross the road(at 3.11pm) I saw another one...how do I know it was another one? the arch was pointing in a different direction. Lasted for a much shorter time but still first time I ever saw 2 rainbows in one day couldn't take any pictures because well, my phone camera wouldn't e able to see it anyway...
beautiful sight in a freezing cold day...

wonder what's wrong with melbourne weather this week...it's absurdly/unbearably COLD...not to mention the rain that soaks into your shoes...this is no fun-.- I wear like a shirt and a jumper AND a fleece jacket thing at home-.- in school, it's shirt, school shirt, school jumper, school blazer AND it's still cold>< wind and rain just doesn't make it any better><

David's off to camp for the whole week...I wonder how he's surviving when I'm freezing...
and the downside of him going to camp is I have to wash the dishes AND dry the dishes(which is his job-.-) and furthermore...the air is FREEZING so technically, touching water is a retarded action to be doing-.- Using the computer and playing the piano makes my hands freeze up, but then again, my hands freeze up pretty easily. The upside about David going to camp is, the house is much more quieter...would this be how it would be like if he wasn't born? My mother's back late, freezes then microwaves our dinner, makes me pack my own recess/lunch etc. It's a slightly different story when David is around...

busy weekend ahead, I better get a headstart!
This friday: Chinese role-play SAC
Next monday: Chem SAC; further bring-home SAC due
don't rmb what else I have...but that's it for now(:

funny how everyone has to return to their daily hermit life when just a night ago, everyone was on fb, encouraging each other.
Read some fb statuses and it seems like...it didn't go that well? Am I right? all the statuses seem so down...or maybe it's because it's the last performance with this batch of year 6s...

Feel kind of left out at the moment...everyone knows what happened except me, no one is around to tell me, all the statuses updated after syf don't include me o.0 (of course it wouldn't since I'm not even there-.-) I'm thinking too much. I shall stop. Everyone goes on with their life and so should I. I think band was my main source of motivation in rv. Sure band pracs were crazy, the number of band pracs during the holidays and before syf were crazy, but in the end, it's the place I met so many people, people who made my life different in rv.  I learnt so much. So, thank you seniors(and batchmates) for all the memories you have given me.

I resisted the urge to blog yesterday but then I blog today-.-
ohwell, here goes
RVSeniorBand SYF 2011 is here.
Regardless of the result, everyone knows how much effort and practise you peeps have put in so that in itself is commendable. The whole 10 minutes on that stage is yours. It's your decision what to do with it. Hopefully, past mistakes were learnt from and you guys come back triumphant this time!!(: Here's wishing you all the best in today's syf at 3.05pm.
I actually feel really sad that I can't be with this batch to play and work hard for this syf...it's the batch of band peeps that I'm closest to, probably spent the most time in band with and now after this last performance with seniors(year 6s) they're finally stepping down. It seems like yesterday that I was sec1. I still rmb the first band prac where I didn't know how to set up the music stand and zoenin helped me. And then sebby and jiayi being super scary when I was in sec1. And now, we've advanced from a sec1 junior recruit to a senior. The responsibilty increases, the skill has improved by a lot(especially after syf) and the bonds created become stronger by each band prac. It's the last time performing on stage with the current batch of RVseniorband peeps, treasure it.
RVSeniorBand, JIAYOU!!
klarinutz ftw <3
firsts! seconds! thirds! bass! GOGOGO!!
Sebastian, Jiayi, Lihua, Kaizhen
Kimyee, Zoenin, Kimberly, Yijun, Evan
all the best!!(:

the best I played on  stage was with this current batch,
the best I've ran 100m is also with this batch.
memories forever.

don't get it why parents make their kids clean up the house when a visitor visits...
like it actually becomes some major spring cleaning event every time
and of course, everyone knows that it's going to be equally messy the next day-.-
so what's the point?
your visitors aren't here to see the house-.- they're here to see YOU
I didn't invite them to come and stay in our house for a week, neither did you
but that doesn't give you the right to call for me to do things every single minute
that doesn't give you the right to scream at every person in the house
What's the point of cleaning up when by day 3, the house will be messy again?
vacuum, wash toilet, mop floor etc.
they're not going to freaking TOUR the whole house for the WHOLE DAY
they won't go to you and say IT'S NOT CLEAN HERE
they aren't health/hygiene inspectors
why do we have to clean the WHOLE HOUSE so that they can be introduced to a neat/clean house which will be dirty by at most day 3?
even so, it doesn't give you the right to scream.

it's miriam's birthday today!!(: so fast and it's already a year...still remember trying to rush out her present last year...not much time to do so this year though...it's test period in singapore(well, basically for my whole holiday-.-) so at the moment I have no one to talk to and no one to go out with(not like I very free luh-.-) ohwell...sometimes I feel like I'm living 2 lives...the aussie life and the singapore life...go to school, one life. Come back home, switch to other life again...

the holidays are half over and the amount of work I've done is not commendable
I don't want school to reopen):
parent's friends from singapore coming on thursday, staying at our house, going on holiday with us...

australia used to be a place I visit for holiday but now I live here. Never even thought of this before.
If you ask me to choose where I would like to live between singapore and australia, honestly, I can't give you an answer. To me, these two places will always be my home. Whether or not I will go back to singapore to work, I can't make up my mind. But I will definitely study uni here.

One thing that is different is that asian artistes hardly ever come here-.-
Singapore and malaysia gets so many visits from korean and taiwan stars every single year. While over here so far JJ lin had 1 concert here last year and show luo's concert recently. Even if you want to see them also cannot. They probably think that there aren't enough fans here to bring them here o.0

ohwell, enough ranting for today.



I just realised the previous post was on the 2 year anniversary of my first and last syf ever o.0
and now I'm blogging about the one tomorrow.
12 april, 9.00am, rvcb klarinutz jiayou!!
I will be uh, morally supporting you guys all the way!!
I'm really sorry I can't be there to tell you this personally or even help you guys(stupid ambitious me wanted to do so much to help when I went back but totally forgot when I was actually back-.-)
all I just want to say is, don't regret any single moment you have on that stage. Every minute gone is past. Enjoy your time on stage, show the judges what you've been practising and aiming for and putting in so much effort. I know you guys can do it! There's only been 4 GWH so far and quite a number of Golds compared to syf '09(I think) You guys have the chance, the skill and the ability, so go for it and show people who RVCB is! CUE AND JERK(LOLOL kill the jerk o.0) make the judges enjoy it as much as you do! play out! don't be afraid!
as a 过来人, I don't want anyone to regret. Want to go, go all the way, don't turn back halfway! Even primary school students can tell you 不要半途而废! So in conclusion, JIAYOU ALL THE BEST RVCB KLARINNUTZ!! Don't disappoint yourself!!

Saw that melbourne high guy again with the man with the guide dog. Happy to see that he know what to do now(:

I don't get why people like to say 'oh my god'. After hearing this explanation I know why it is so insulting to God. Imagine if someone used your name. Oh my ____(enter your name here)! Oh my Mary, Oh my Tom. Would you like it? It is a pure insult. Similarly God is a name, not a title. Isn't this the same as insulting Him? Over time, I guess it becomes a habit but of course you can still do something about it.

Random girl was peeking at my chinese conversation script just because it's chinese and she thinks it's hers?! Doesn't give her the right to do that right? She doesn't even know my name and pops her head right over my paper. Sure, I'm not even looking at it-.- IT'S NOT YOURS WOMAN!

It is FIANLLY the last day of term 1. It just hit me that this will be the last term 1 I will ever have in high school o.0 and in english today, my teacher was telling us we had 19 weeks of school(exclu has alreading holidays) left. That seriously is very short. It has already been 10 weeks and in 2 times of term 1, I have graduated?!! This thought is so...(no words to describe) I want to finish school but not really looking forward to university. All the assignments etc. in university seems very hard>< I really can't wait for today to end. This holiday's going to be super busy and I better go sleep more before school reopens!!

sometimes there's nothing great about being asian
was on the train this morning.
got onto the train and there was a person with a guide dog and well, the guide dog was trained to go to the nearest priority seat. So as usual the dog directed its owner there but this asian melbourne high guy was sitting there. With a dog sniffing at his bag how can he not see that he should give up his seat? so what if the other priority seat is vacant? Don't you have the grace to give up your seat for someone who needs it much more than you? That seat is not called PRIORITY SEAT for nothing. Or are you so smart until you can't read 'priority seat' right? Who cares if you're smart/from melbourne high or not. Have you not learnt about BASIC COURTESY? If you have, where has it gone? Because evidently you have not heard of such a thing. Where are your moral values? Are you studying too hard until you NEED a seat? Gee, it wasn't made for you to sit when there's someone who needs it more than you. Can't you see the person? At least apologise? No grace.
Worst thing is, his friends came on board at later stations and sat there too, obviously oblivious to the fact. AND in the end, they stood up and 2 other asian men sat there. If you can stand up to accompany your friends, why can't you give up your seat in the first place? It's just standing for a few more stations only anyway. Can you not hear how displeased the guy was? Or was your music blasting too loud through your earphones? The seat is meant for him and there you go plonking yourself there. Learn your manners and have the grace(of a man) and give up your seat. It's not that hard. It's not like you don't know how to do it. Right at the moment I felt like screaming at you. Go and reflect.

how is it possible that there is an 8 DEGREE MORNING in AUTUMN-.-

it's been about a week...but nobody reads anyway, so who cares HAHA
went for parent-teacher interview just now...
lol...all the teachers say I have to talk more etc.
but I'm just the sort of person that sits there and listen...
HAHA mr gowdie is so cute LOL
'assessment books are actually a rip-off' HAHA
rdm fact of the day? the sun was red just now...

my attempt to trim my fringe failed...
every time the first time I trim it it's ok...and then the second time is just pffft LOL...
and it's not like I can pin it up because I look even weirder-.-
can't wait for it to grow out >.<

one week to the holidays!!!! hahahaha why am I so happy...
can't wait to get more sleeeeeeeep...
should I go for symphonic band on thursday?
I have to wake up so early in the morning to go for 1 hour-.-
but we're going to play Mancini! (the song title does actually have the exclamation mark) which is a new piece...

I shall decide later><
for now,
SLEEEEEEEEP~

the revolution of Apple is so amazing...
was going home on the trin yesterday,
and realised I was surrounded by 8 people using iPhones.
3 Iphone4s and the rest iPhones.
and this was just randomly standing on the train.

anyway, two days ago 万里香was on sbs2!!
showing hainan chicken rice found in London, Beijing and Tokyo.
lol where is the melbourne one-.- so now we can't go and eat because we don't know where the best hainan chicken rice in melboure is. So ironic how some people don't learn how to cook it in singapore but learnt to cook it in some foreign far-away country. The chicken looks so nice on tv>< I want to eat tooo!! apparently you have to pull the chicken limbs before cooking because then the met will be soft as when it's getting killed they may be tense o.0 and then after cooking you dunk it in cold water o.0 but still, it looks so good!! they even make the chilli sauce and the ginger thing. ohman>< it would be nice to eat singapore hawker food at this moment.

it's going to rainnn...but it's already so cold...why is it still going to rain-.-
ohwell...chinese lesson ends in 4 minutes!!

sometimes I feel like the dumbest person in the world...
now is one of those moments...

it's been a awhile since I've posted
had a long weekend last week because monday was labour day
seriously can't wait for the holidays and I have no idea why...
people in singapore having march holidays now but knowing rv,
a holiday is never a holiday with all the homework and all the cca
syf is coming!! secondary school level 12 april
apparently tuning is good so does that mean that there's hope? haha..
feel so regretful that I didn't help when I went back>< didn't get to go to your sectionals and only went for 1 combine...ohwell, it's beyond my capability now...
not sure about senior band though

cabaret night this friday!! playing the incredibles theme song and some boradway mix of songs(which includes the circle of life and always look on the bright side of life)
should I get someone to record it for meee? or should I just bring a camera onto the stage and record everything from my stand o.0 but that means you can only see the people behind me in the recording?!! hahahhaa...solo-ing first o.0 if I squeak everyone will knoww><
hope we don't screw it...every performance last year we had was screwed...all stupid reasons eg. not in tune, out of rhythm, not watching conductor, the whole band playing at different speed etc. a repetition of every single mistake that happened before in rvcb...it's not easy but since the band is smaller shouldn't it be easier?

and then there's open day on saturday and the school made it some compulsory event but anyway all the music groups have to attend for 1 hour 'pretend' rehearsal...LOL...rehearsal for what? no idea..

I hate it when people come to visit...
they will tour the house like it's very fun-.-
and then we have to spend the whole day cleaning up the house so that it's presentable?
just don't show your guests the rooms!! you can say it's private and there's nothing wrong with that.
have some people coming over tonight but they are very....
ohwell...the kids are kind of...not sociable...
lol if you meet them you might be ?!!! I didn't even do anything...
argh...overall, not looking forward to tonight.
another chem sac this coming friday...why can't the world just stop for one day and everyone can play and be happy...
if technology didn't advance then we would all still be cavemen?!!
the world out there is so competitive, the society is just a race to the top of the ladder...
why has mankind become so greedy?
greedy for money, for power etc. of course there are people in the world who aren't like that...
but I believe everyone wants to succeed whether they try or  not...

it is a hot day today...stepping out in the sun will probably give you heatstroke.
water plants!!~ grapevine in my backyard refuses to grow...even though I flood it's pot at least once every day unless it's raining...
before I left for singapore, the whole vine was covered in leaves and then now when I came back the vine was pratically dead-.- all the leaves drying up and dropping off etc. looks like we have to wait till next year...

school's starting again): the day after tomorrow
not looking forward at all-.-
lol...I think I'm becoming a pig, sleeping almost 10 hours every night!! ;P
thursday, go to to school, 3.30 leave school for "camp" go back the next day from there by yourself-.-
and most of the school starts on 4 feb!!! which is like one week later!!
school hasn't even started and I know when's my next test o.0
haven't even got all my textbooks yet...have to get it tomorrow...
another year I say,
and realise it's the last year in high school=I'm old?!!
well, there's no point grabbing at the past
the past will remain the past...but I'm so uncertain about my future><
at the moment I'm just trying to get the highest ATAR score possible...so that I can have a larger variety of courses I can take...but after VCE then what...LOL...
anyway, rdm fact o.0
my eyelid's swollen for no reason o.0 it looks more like it gained weight...and it doesn't hurt or itch so WHAT IS IT!!!!!!!!

do you really not know? are you pretending not to know?
since young I hated that place.
do you know how I felt?
It's not like I like it
I hate spectacles
I hate it
do you not know?
It's not like I ask for a high degree
Do I look like I like it?
I can't stand the way the stupid optometrist stares at me and talks to me as if I don't care about my eyes enough to take care of them
Even if I did take care my degree still increases every time
It's not my fault.
I hate it.
Every time, spending money on new lenses, new frame etc.
you think I want to?
every optician shop makes me shudder
why are there so many in the world?
why is it just ME that has such a high degree?
just because we have to use up the insurance we payed for.
thanks a lot.

have been wanting to post about my trip back in singapore but too lazy...hehe...
in the last 10 minutes of 2011, I should talk about the year.
it has been an eventful year
so will the next and the next
each year more memories are added, so has the memories of this year
I met many new friends, got to know people from a new church, but still being in contact with singapore friends
maybe I've got the best of both worlds! :P
didn't do as well as I wanted to for VCE but I will do my best next year
anyway,
here's wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!! and set your goals!!

since it's going to be the last night I'll be online at this kind of hour(12.15am) in singapore, I think I should blog
went to miriam's house today
sat downstairs and talked and took pictures
now gina has a lot of unglam pictures-.-
too bad michelle couldn't come today because of sore throat
yesterday we went to bugis to uh...take neoprints
lol...in conclusion, we wasted $12 altogether
ate pepper lunch fr lunch again yesterday
ate chicken instead
walked to iluma, went to the arcade only to realise that you need the card to play
and obviously we didn't have any so ended up walking around city hall
although it was kind of boring but somehow it was fun
I actually enjoyed it
slippers gave me blisters again today
I think I should get another pair...even after pasting so many plasters on my slippers and on my foot,
I still get blisters-.-
went to take passport photos this morning
didn't take too long to find the place(:
then I went to my grandma's house, ate lunch then went to jurong point
and finally, I found fahrenheit's album. Finally found it after looking through quite a few popular stores.
then went to miriam's house(:
spent abot an hour just eating the pacifier lollipop thing HAHA
not going out tomorrow until about 3
until then~

decided to write my gan xiang about band now since there's no band next week=I won't see them anymore
and also the erm...review of my bad haircut that I wasted $14 on-.-
let's talk about the waste of money first. I paid $14 and now my fringe is too short and my ponytail is fat and short(no shape at all) all I can say is I can't wait for my hair to grow out again

anyway, regarding band, I want to first thank the hostel gate uncle for letting me in(not like the one at the front gate-.-) although yesterday you told me no visitors can go in by hostel gate(or any other gate) without a teacher's permission, thanks for letting me in. It meant a lot to me. But, what if I told you the next time you see me is many years later? What if I told you my juniors/seniors/batchmates might not see me until maybe a few years later?
anyway, enough about that. Shall talk about senior band first. Listening to a full band(although not with many people) again feels really good. A totally different soud from a band comprising of mostly flutes and with the lowest instrument being the trombone. For once I actually heard an in tune note from a whole band. this has actually never occurred in my life in junior band. Ms Chan hopes that senior band will perform well for syf, either maintaining a silver or even getting a gold. Listening the pieces senior band is not too bad. Although I won't be able to experience the bonding of the whole band for the same purpose again, I wish senior band all the best and I hope you will really perform well. I also wish I could play with klarinutz once again but I guess that's just not possible. Tried playing Jiayi's instrument and realised my air is super weak now. Maybe it's because I haven't practised at all since the last band practice.
now,junior band. Until now, tuning is still terrible, high notes still killing chickens(sha ji), crescendo still forcing. Did we pass all these mistakes on to our juniors? Tuning has always been a big problem, so has high notes. How to make you all understand that crescendo does not mean jut forcing more air to make your volume louder? It doesn't in fact. Can you even tell you are going FLAT when you crescendo? I almost fainted on Tuesday when I heard the band crescendo during warm-up. Excuse me, that is not called crescendo but that's called from normal air to forced air. Juniors high C still flat, that one no choice but to train air. Quite understandable why ms chan will scold junior band. She's much nicer in senior band you know? maybe it's because the junior band has so many people so it's harder to control? But honestly I also like senior band's soud more than junior band. More people may mean more volume but more people have to be kept in line like for running notes etc. And how come you all come in the same note same time also can cue differently one arh? Anyway, you all must jiayou ok!! I know it's not easy to get back that gold but try your best and have no regrets once you get off that stage. I just hope no one will step off that stage feeling regretful over what you did on that stage. Remember, one chance and it's over.

went to band today
finally got into school
attended mdm so kah lay's farewell ceremony
no tears were shed, good thing principal didn't see me in my section tee and shorts
stayed for junior band but I believe I wasted my time
spent more than an hour just on warmup and tuning
and they already tuned before assembling-.-
in the end left when they almost finished tuning and warming up
left for lunch with my batch ppl!!(:
but so many people weren't here today
band is diferent
I don't know so many people, so many people don't know me
senior band is really relaxed compared to junior band
now I can fully understand why teaching junior band is so hard
firstly, there are so many people, so many sections
secondly, people don't listen to each other, high notes also just blast, crescendo also force until so flat
thirdly, whatever you say just goes in and comes out
sure some people try to apply whatever they learn but there are some just don't do anything
tuning also don't listen whether in tune or not, so many waves
As a person playing clarinet, I know how hard it is to be in tune all the time but at least TRY to listen to maybe the person beside you?
and junior arh...how come the note is come in the same time but cue different time one leh? if you cue different time then isn't it equating to not playing together, needless to say come in together?
honestly, I'm kind of disappointed
I was hoping something might change but nothing has changed for the better so far, well in the tuning aspect that is
tuning out how to talk about playing pieces?
by putting how many days to syf on the board does it motivate the band to work harder? or will it just serve as a count down for a day of disappointment that you will remember for a very long time
most people will only experience syf once in sec school
very few will go twice
those who go twice know what it's like, lead the rest
I hope the result won't be disappointing as it was last year
see you guys on thursday then...
would be good if you guys had a short sectionals because there are some things I hope to say, but don't actually know how to say it.

I believe my holiday is ruined
can't even enter rv anymore
I thought I could always call that place mine but I guess I thought wrong
I can't even go in, much less surprise anyone or help with any problems
It's so fustrating knowing that there are so many problems and NONE are getting solved
and I can't even go in to see them
you want me to watch from outside the gate?!!
I spent so long finding the school, finding the school's main entrance only to be told I can't go in
come on, I will most like see them for about 2 weeks once a year,
is that fair to me?
I understand it's the rule but do I look like I will cause chaos in the school?
I just want to visit the people I haven't seen in a whole year,
is that so difficult? I have things to give them can I just see them to at least personally give it to them?
no obviously I can't.
I just thought I could help a little bit, but now I can't
I don't want to get caught, I don't want anybody who helps me to be in trouble
this is really fustrating

finally took the uh...long-anticipated pictures of my new house(:

My house from outside

the garage on the right

small wooden balcony outside

cherry blossom tree outside my house

My front door(look at the handle!!)

hallway

on the left of the hallway is the piano/computer room

go a little further and it's my room(bookshelf opp. bed,cupboard on the left of bed, study table opp. my very messy dressing table)

hallway continued

David's room after the hallway turn(we painted his whole room including ceiling!!!)

then there is the toilet after David's room(redid this toilet)

another toilet, in another turn in the hallway

laundry/pantry opposite the toilet above

pantry

and opposite the turn, is the kitchen(: and further down is my dining table)

living room on the right of the front door(opposite the piano/computer room)

backyard(see the grape vine?) good weather so we washed a lot of clothes(:

shed at the back of the house(our temporary storeroom)

lemon tree

apricot tree

that's all(:

THE YEAR IN REVIEW
today marks one year from the first day I had in Australia, 1 December 2009
once again, thanks to everyone who took the time to see me off the airport, it meant a lot to me
this day marks a new chapter in my life, the big move - to Australia
and last Saturday I moved to my permanent home
sure, everything has changed.
Lifestyle, school, friends etc.
of course I miss things in Singapore
but I've learnt to move on
we aren't separated for life and we can always email/webcam/call
still remember the reasons holding me back from moving,
firstly, leaving all me close friends behind
secondly, clarinets. As a senior, you can't stop worrying about your section, especially when each batch is getting worse and worse and you have no idea what's the problem
thirdly, pkc. After serving there for 3 years, I kind of miss that place.
but, ohwell, there are many new things to look forward to in Australia

so many things have changed in Singapore too
the new school compound, new teachers(especially new principal), moving on to year4
I actually feel really old talking about being year 4 but I'm now in year 5?!! haha
doing VCE next year, have no idea about my degree of preparedness
don't even ask me what I want to do when I grow up or what course I want to do in uni
I'm just going to study hard, do my best and see what my score can get me into
likewise, you people study hard too ok!! and practise hard(klarinutters) and don't get kicked out of the school!!

most importantly, I want to thank my friends for being there through everything and  may our friendship will last the test of time.

“时间是一道不能反转的门”，
一旦过去了，就永不回头。
再多的想念也没用，
还是继续为自己的未来努力吧！

was watching a video on fb of kids singing 'in whom I can trust' in phpps hall
it has been a long time since I saw the hall...
don't even remember much of the hall...just rmb the important areas of the schcool...
1st level, canteen
2nd level, staff room
3rd level, library
4th level, hall
and the rest are classrooms...still remember complaining about having to climb up 14 flights of stairs at least twice every day bcos as the oldest we get the highest classrooms BUT we don't need to share lockers with other levels...and the puny-sized field that got transformed into a small little triangle you can hardly call a field(it used to be bigger in the old building) spent 2 years in each school compound, the oldest, holding school and the new one...quite even-ed out..I sort of miss out
David in contrast doesn't miss a single part of peihwa-.- he claims he can't even remember the school song when I still can remember it...

urgh-.- have to go now...wil continue the post another day

no school todayyy~
tomorrow is melbourne cup = horse racing = public holiday
going to pon house swimming on friday so technically I only have 2 days of school this week!!(: haha...

posted a video of me playing yu jian on facebook not long ago...
that song means a lot to me I guess...it's hard to put it in words...
only my batch knows it...and plays it err...occasionally(:
klarinutz arh...how are you guys doing now huh!! are you ppl improving in the right direction or the wrong direction!! so true that every batch is worse than the last...rvcb used to be a good band and we...kinda ruined it-.- ohwell...我无话可说

Also, this is kinda late but...
thanks to the people who wished me happy birthday and the manymany people who err...forgot since I deactivated my facebook then for bio exam...lol...IM THE PERSON WITH THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS MS CHAN *waves hand* felt like a really normal day, even more normal than other days...will uh...post a picture of the cake a later time since the picture's not in this computer...felt quite old after my birthday o.0

this shall be the last post before bio exam(friday)
I  THINK I'm prepared...not very sure....need to memorise all the definitions for the different terms...read through...err...evolution again? I think that's all actually o.0 then back to doing practice papers...
saw on yahoo singapore that haze is very bad!!

anyway, today's perforance was ok...and there was actually extra bio revision lessons after school so i sat there for 20minutes hopped off to my performance, hopped back in 30 minutes...the performance was.......
screwed the introduction of the last piece...but the rest was...kinda ok...not as good as the rehearsals

have an ugly sock tan): it's mayb 7cm above my ankle?!!! it's not very obvious but can sort of see a line there>< i used to have a sock tan like BELOW MY ANKLE and now it's way higher, a random place above my ankle-.-

dinner now...study later(: blog NEXT WEEK...lol...

AHHH dead dead dead
first of all, friday bio paper...I have no idea whether I'm prepared or not...did like at least 10 papers already I think...but my short-answer is still very lousy...
secondly, tmr I have a quartet performance AFTER SCHOOL(what in the world was I thinking when i agreed><) AND I need to pick David and WALK HOME WITH HIM FROM THE TRAIN STATION and how am I supposed to do that when the stupid performance starts at 4 and he ends school at 3.30(walk to the station 4.00?!)?!!! and it's not like I can tell my mother that I have performance...she will just bite off my head-.- bcos she needs to go somewhere?!! and now I can't pick David and what am I supposed to do nowwwww><
checked the stupid tram and train times(inefficient transport) I will reach the station like 4.45-.- which is 1 hour later...and obviously David will kill me>< and my mum will kill me too>< AHHHHH....WHY OF ALL DAYS AND TIMES SERIOUSLY?!!! why must we start at 4!!!!!!!>< can't we start once school ends? I believe none of the people need lunch since we get lunch time during school hours...35 minutes break before starting...IT'S NOT NEEDED LUH!!! agreeing to play in that quartet is a stupid mistake in itself
ate up my whole week's lunchtime(every day) and now I even need to stay back for the stupid performance that starts at 4 and practically wastes my whole day after school when my VERY IMPORTANT EXAM is on FRIDAY what the?!! I can't even email the girl by school email because there are SO MANY PEOPLE IN THE SCHOOL WITH THE SAME NAME AND I DON'T KNOW HER SURNAME-.- and it's weird if I just email the teacher DIRECTLY which I bet she won't see until tmr or mayb even later...HOWHOWHOWHOWHOW....somebody help me>< if I tell my mum I go see teacher then she will ask why cannot go another day-.-...AHHHHHHHHHHH....HELPHELPHELP>< I am regretting my decision a whole lot...if only the stupid performance starts EARLIER...shall try asking tmr...because I really can't stay...if they insist then...I'm sorry I really can't stay...

it's 10/10/10 today!!(:
and I should start getting off the computer...
3 more weeks til bio exam...
first week of school was ok...
just that i had to fall sick right on the first day of school until now-.-
performance next week level of readiness? ZERO
lol...the band just sounds nothing like what we're supposed to sound...well, in my view anyway.
everything is everywhere...and so....quite messed up

term break!! 3 weeks of holiday/studying/sleeping
haha...lots to catch up this holiday...
had formal last week...i think a lot of people saw the pictures?
and I guess it's high time I post again haha...since the last post was like in june o.0 long time ago...
last term of the year
it has been really quick...been in Australia for 10 months alr...
2 more months to mark a year..
I actually have nothing to do when I'm bored of homework...
just a lot of studying for biology since I have 2 sacs to do...
and 2 chapters to go through for the holidays...

found the scores for taeyang's wedding dress online...I can play the introduction now haha...and the rest...sounds quite weird at the moment...

what else can I talk about):

hmm...it's spring now!! although it was cold today...all the clouds arh): blow yourself away luh-.-
but it's getting a lot warmer haha...can wear summer dress to school next term already...after 2 terms(half a year) of wearing winter uniform...take at least 10 minutes wearing winter uniform...
because need to wear shirt inside and then the school shirt and school jumper and then for the bottoms, wear stockings and then wear shorts and then wear skirt and last of all blazer...
ah...that's all for today~

the degree of coldness is crazy-.-
currently is uh...11.6 degrees, overnight 7 degrees-.-
locked out of classroom today-.- the whole class
during like class assembly thing and the whole class was like standing outside freezing...
it feels exaggerated-.-
like my shampoo is more solid?!!
and my mother buys coconut milk in cans and the top SOLIDIFIES bcos it's cold-.-
and to top it off i have a runny nose-.-

but anywayyyyyy,
school closes next weeeeeeeeek~
last week of school b4 holidays and only 2 levels are actually having normal lessons while the rest of the school is like away having fun-.-
going skiing on 2 july XD although i dunoe how to ski hehe...
so irritating that singapore hols end when i start...
ohwell...i will make very good use of this holiday to studyy
haha...i always say that but end up otherwise-.-

my batch stepping down on friday o.0
never thought that this day would come so fast...
klarinutz uh...after seniors step down you all must work hard ok!!(:
although i have no idea how you all sound right now...but...definitely after seniors leave the section and band will sound weaker but you all just have to jiayou and play louder luh ok!!(:
can't believe next year is syf again...2 years seems quite fast uh><
last week of band prac o.0 and drills HAHA
does anyone know when the sec 1s are joining junior band as in like main band?

OHYES...i twas the shortest day in Australia ystd, dunoe if anyone knew? dunoe whether it applies in singapore or not? didn't know until somebody told me o.0 can't really tell anyway
the sun sets super early nowadays...like 4++ 5? and in summer at 9pm then the sun sets-.- so much difference...2 more months of winter~ in korean shows when it's like winter then when they speak then have the fog coming out of their mouth right, then over here today at like 10++am still have that fog thing...so cold uh><

anybody watch world cup? o.0 i somehow tend to watch the very late ones and end up sleeping but waking up occasionally to watch o.0 watched the south korea vs Greece one haha SO PRO!!(:but then lost to argentina...lol...ok...this was quite a while ago no idea about recent matches o.0 i just know usa played? haha...
that's uh..all for today?!!

and uh....that's it.

it's a random cloudy day but the clouds aren't dark clouds.
it's the holidays now!!(: haha...lol...
hmm...no motivation to really post something-.-
heard that the promotion criteria was changed o.0
to promote GPA 2.5 and at least B4 for english and chinese o.0
they lowered the gpa o.0
hmm...
whatelsewhatelsewhatelse><
APRIL FOOL'S DAY TMR!!(: not like i'll go prank anyone-.-
whenever i go online hardly anybody is online-.- so i don't use the computer for very long?!! haha...
ohwell...i shall just go reply emails!!(:

super long time before i blogged...lol...
some er...promised pictures i haven't taken yet...lol...
like the one of my house and err...my uniform?!!
haha...

everyone's busy in singapore...
it's chinese new year eve...but it totally feels like a normal weekend...
going to my dad's friend's house for dinner tonight then going some pot luck thing at another person's house...
it's also valentine's day tmr...quite cool haha chinese new year and valentine's day on the same day!!(:

went for band prac on thursday...lol...the intrument i used was...-no comments-
lol...it's plastic and i haven't heard of that brand before...and apparently one of the pads dropped off and i was like squeaking a whole lot...so malu-.- then i had to use a reed size 2...lol...so i was super flat?!! then i decided not to play since i can't play in tune and i keep squeaking lol...
but in the end it sort of got "fixed" then i can play some notes-.- you can actually see the pad MOVING when you press the key to open the hole-.- i was like NO WONDER cannot play properly...lol...found the pieces simple...more of catching up with the speed but yea...but not much of a challenge...like no high notes, no running notes, no weird weird rhythm...oh well...that's so far...but the band is super unbalanced...bcos everyone plays what they want to play...so...no tubas o.0 and a lot of ppl play flutes o.0
about half the band consists of flutes? haha yea...but it's ok...
some ppl may know about this o.0 but my parents said buy a secondhand clarinet for me...my dad says they confirm will not buy a new one for me but then will confirm not buy me a plastic one...can't find any secondhand buffet RC...quite sad...but there is buffet E-11...have to go try to find out...
i think im nuts-.-(as nuts as klariNUTZZ HAHAH) like actually buying a clarinet?!! me?!

heard about all the crazy stuff that's happening in rv...like right now, the crazy gpa year 4s are supposed to get to get promoted and the A2 for o lvl higher chinese...and about extended band hours and more and more practices...all i can say now is JIAYOU!!(: but i can't do much o.0

hmm...what else did i want to say o.0
don't rmb but wish everyone happy chinese new year and valentine's day!!(: haha...

today's date is 01012010
o.0 so many zeros and ones
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!(:

and tmr band members performing for tone poem...
all the best and...dun err...
screw it!!(:

tmr everyone needs to go to school early...
so...finally moving in to the new campus...
and im not there to see it o.0
so...i shall try to go back and see it soon!!(:

that's all~
jiayou for tmr!!(:

it's the last day of 2009...
it's not only the last day of 2009...
it's the last day of this decade...
goodbye to 2009, welcome to 2010 o.0

tmr is the start of a new decade...
the start of a new year...
another day...

the new start of another chapter, with manymany changes...
this century has been said to be the worst century in dunoe how man year's history...
with all the natural disasters and eh...some big stuff like 911...so...
yea...goodbye to the bad endings and hello to a good beginning...
it's not been a very good year from the start i guess...well...
syf starting off etc. etc.
like it wasn't great for band...then for schoolwork it was better than 2008 o.0
but yea...can be better...

hoping to stay up late tonight...
in time to countdown to new year with singapore...haha and taiwan(:
excited and looking forward to the new year...
hope you are too(:

lastly, wishing everyone a
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

how was everyone's christmas?
spent Christmas with a quite messed up house o.0
bcos had to unpack...
finally have clothes o.0

hmm...school is starting soon in singapore...
shipped stuff have arrived...
done a lot of packing...
there's no trace that i've lived in that house for almost 10 years...
furniture all gone...
house already sold...
fading away...
only source of showing i existed in singapore is my friends...
and the emails...
sometimes i wonder...
what will we talk about the next time i see you all...
will it be different?
will i change?
will everyone change?
i guess so...
but there's nothing i can do...

miss someone calling me AUNTYYYYYYYYYYY *hugs*
and miss someone tlkaing about the DBSK and fahrenheit stuff with me *winks*
and miss being part of band
miss my clarinet(evan how's my clarinet o.0)

memories are still there...but fading...in the future...
in the future...not as many memories...
thanks for being my friend, my sister and yea....applies to YOU!(:
hope we can remain that way...for manymany years to come...
i don't regret knowing you all at all
thanks for being there for me & everything...

anyway...wishing everyone a


have decided to blog like...after one week of arriving in what sarah calls the KANGAROO LAND-.-
lol...i find it amusing but no, melbourne doesn't really have kangaroos, mayb in the wildlife reserves or something but other than that, you don't see them...
wanted to post after hearing the news that ms ek is leaving...well...and compared to the newer principal...she's loads better....from what i heard and read at this article o.0
the new principal is the ex-principal of JJC...and after i read the online article i think he's loads worse than llm...

http://www.gamerzplanet.net/forums/spam/162255-jjcs-principle-removes-his-sheep-clothing-the-true-face-of-torment.html

here's the article...and amazingly i still can log in to ivle?!
haha...aiyooooo...still rmb the time all of us talk about her...lol...and getting pissed bcos of what she said and the veryveryvery long talks she gave during assembly at the field...lol...and well...yea...din appreciate luh...to be honest...

after reading that article im thankful i left><
haha...he's scaryyyyyy>< but i shall still go back and visit><
and tie up my hair in case i get caught by him if i go back><
i scared lehhhhhhh!!><
now the whole school knows she's leaving i think o.0
a lot of ppl know she's leaving at least...

there's a lot of changes for 2010...a year of change we could say...o.0
like i mean...change of school campus, change of principal, im not there anymore, change of school uniforms...etc. etc.

haha...well...things come and go...but the most important thing is to look forward...
a new chapter, a new beginning, an end results in a beginning...a beginning with changes etc. etc.

it was raining this morning...was super cold...good thing i din go out><
won't have internet tmr...and for i dunoe how long...so...post first(:
will try to post more photos on fb(:
haha...
bye for now(:

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