stars and the moon

2011-12-27T19:45:00.000+11:00

Ok, so I've left Singapore at about 11.55am this morning, I'm now in Brunei, at Bandar Seri Bengawan Airport at the transit area with nothing much to do..
I'm in wuzun's hometown!!
hahahaha
Advice from me? Don't stopover so long here, or have a plan if your stopping over for a VERY LONG TIME. Stuck here for about 8hours..until 10pm tonight(was here since 2pm)..There isn't much to do here..apart from a few shops and coffee bean..
It's been quite an eventful visit to Singapore this time round. Will post about it sometime later.
That's all for now!

2011-12-12T13:50:00.000+11:00

It's funny how I can't sleep in although I have all the time to do so :/
wake up, can't get to sleep, check around facebook and end up here.

Have not been in Singapore for THAT long(it's been about 4 days and 5 nights now) and already some singaporeans are really beyond belief and are just..disgusting. But first I must have a disclaimer. I'm not being racist because I'm Singaporean myself, born and raised here so I believe I have every right to say something? And it's not only one incident.

Believe it or not, I witnessed one in the first hour I touched down here. Was at some kopitiam at the airport waiting for my cousin and grandma's arrival. Was with my uncle and was drinking grass jelly and I heard this guy(About my age maybe?) Doesn't look like he's working and has a steady income but anyway, he was with an older lady, presumably his mum and throughout the time I was there waiting, his mum would say/ask something and he would just shout at her saying "SHUT UP LUH" or "WHATEVER JUST SHUT UP". Just because you're probably texting your friend? What kind of respect do you show. Who would you be now without your mother? You would be NOTHING to be honest. If you don't have a mother, who would clean up after you? Who will cook for you? Who will pass you money? I bet you're not even working, you're just a student and there you are shouting at your mum like she owes you something. If you didn't realise, you owe your life to her. The lack of basic respect is just astounding. Coming from the same generation as you, I'm ashamed. Yes, I'm ashamed of your behaviour not only because you did it in public.

Second incident was yesterday on the train. A lady carrying an infant walked onto the pretty crowded mrt. Did anyone give up their seat? NO. People, just because your seat doesn't say "reserved seat" doesn't mean you don't have to give up your seat. What's the point of being a first world country and having people who don't have grace OR courtesy to even ask if other people want a seat? All they did was just to pretend that they didn't see until this older lady gave up her seat. These moments you just feel ashamed to be singaporean.

Even in australia, sometimes you just feel SO ashamed to be from the same country.

We went to a koala conservatory centre when my cousin and grandma were there. We went to the toilet after and apparently, my grandma was queuing and some singaporeans just conveniently cut her queue. One woman even waited outside the toilet cubicle waiting to rush in. Since you are not in your own country, shouldn't you people at least learn how to behave properly? You're just showing how rude singaporeans are. As a person from Singapore, having a holiday overseas means your behaviour represents singaporeans. If this is how you want people to interpret Singaporeans behaviour then so be it.

Last incident I'm going to write about was when we went to see caves(with my grandma and cousin). There was this singaporean family, kids(working generation) with their mother, so their mother wasn't as old as my grandma but still generally older. We were told not to touch any thing inside the caves(like the stalactites and stalagmites - go search them up if you don't know what I'm talking about). Anyway, we can't touch these because our skin secretes oil and these formations are created from the dripping of water droplets(yes, one by one) over millions of years(no exaggeration here). Any oil on these will repel the water and it will stop forming. Well, either because the mother didn't know or her kids didn't inform her, she touched things 3 times in the cave until I almost exploded. She touched a pool of water and 2 formations. HELLO NOT SUPPOSED TO TOUCH THANK YOU. For one, she touched the bottom surface of one so that's the end of that formation there. I have no idea why her kids didn't let her walk in front of them because they obviously didn't see anything and didn't tell her not to touch anything else. Why I didn't stop her? I saw her touching it from a distance. When she touched the last one the tour ended so it's not like I could tell her. She just ruined a natural formation so simple with a touch and I bet she doesn't even know about it up till now.

Singaporeans, just a reminder. Take note of your behaviour in public, especially overseas. People are watching and judging. The world's not only about you. Learn to care for other people and things for the future generations. Show some basic respect to your parents, they are the ones always there for you. You wouldn't be anything without them.

2011-12-10T18:25:00.000+11:00

I'm so bored it's almost ridiculous..
I have nothing to do, amazingly, even on the computer. Just stuck on facebook all day with no one to stalk and no interesting news. Not like I can watch any videos because I don't have earpieces to listen, especially korean variety shows. Honestly, I didn't really love korean music, it didn't really appeal to me. Then I started listening to shinee, big bang and 2ne1. Love big bang's music, firstly because they write their own music and the tunes are catchy. Then I watched some shows and their interaction is sooo cute..really admire GD's ability to compose songs.
Want to start on sunshine angel and some other shows but uh..too lazy lolol
It's the weekend, nobody to go out with. Stuck at home with the computer but nothing to do online.
Really weird feeling. Wonder what I'm going to do for the whole of jan and feb..find a job? I also don't know..

2011-12-09T02:00:00.000+11:00

Back in singapore. The humidity is killing me..actually need to live in air-con areas><
Did singapore become hotter or did melbourne just become colder..

My grandma is extremely angry that my dad booked a flight for me that has a stopover of 8hours in brunei.
She said that why save money and let a girl wait in a random country for 8hours. Honestly, I understand her reason for being angry but then she can't assume that we have that much money to just throw around everywhere. We don't have what we used to have. The fact that I have flown back twice is already a strain on our resources, and it's not like my future school fees are free. My dad isn't earning as much as he used to and now all the remainder of his salary goes into the house mortgage. My school fees, cost of plane tickets, spending money is all out of my dad's savings. We can't afford to throw money everywhere. Already when my cousin and grandma came over we spent how much money. Bringing them around etc. My dad also took a week's leave in total to bring them out. In total, I believe we spent more than half a thousand dollars. We can't afford to keep spending so much money. It would be nice if she can understand our financial position. In our family, me and david have learned not to ask for anything because we know it will have to come out of our savings. We now, are practically living on savings, and what are we going to do when we run out? Every time I go out I don't dare to spend money carelessly because every cent means something. I can understand that she is very 不放心 and all I ask is that she understands our financial position. She says she wants to scold my dad the next time he calls but seriously, as long as I stay in the airport I'm pretty safe-.- If wuzun can walk around Brunei freely, why can't I walk around the airport? Plane tickets aren't that cheap. Just hope she doesn't actually call my dad and "scold" him..
Now I feel bad for even mentioning the stopover at Brunei to my uncle and then he had to tell my grandma-.- Not that I'm complaining but she didn't really have to know..

2011-11-19T15:23:00.000+11:00

..
Cleaning the house is crazy-.-
My mum has a fetish for big heavy vacuum cleaners because they can steam mop and vacuum at the same time. Sounds very high-tech but each of these vacuum cleaners weigh about 17kg. So imagine you lugging a 17kg vacuum cleaner just to clean the house. That's like carrying a child and running a few rounds in your house. First heavy vacuum cleaner? Osim iEcologi. I think it's about 17kg as well. Then the steam function had to die. And my mum, having enough of Australia's lack of steam mop/vacuum cleaners, decided to get ANOTHER FREAKING OSIM VACUUM CLEANER, called the uEcologi.

Dear Osim,
Yes, the idea and technology of putting both the steam mop and vacuum cleaner into one device is very attractive but can you also PLEASE TAKE INTO ACCOUNT OF THE WEIGHT YOU HAVE TO LUG AROUND YOUR HOUSE?!! Yes it's convenient but the weight just puts you off having anything to do with it.

Finished vacuuming the living room and my room and already starting to pant. Partly because my stamina decreased but also because that vacuum cleaner is SOOOO heavy ok.

Right now, we also have no water because my dad cut off the water supply to change the pipes. So currently we can't wash anything, can't go toilet, can't bathe etc.
AND it looks like it's going to rain so we may have no water for the rest of today and even tonight..Shower in the rain? lol..

2011-11-11T23:13:00.000+11:00

hahhaa yes! I caught the 11/11/11 11.11pm! lolol, I've become..even more childish-.-
it's been a while, half my exam's over. Still have chem and chinese to go..
I think I screwed my maths): ohwell, have to compensate with chem and chinese.

2011-11-11T23:11:00.001+11:00

attempting to catch the 11.11pm of 11/11/11! <3
yes, go count how '1's there are! hahhh :D

2011-11-02T17:40:00.000+11:00

ok, considering my first VCE paper is tomorrow, I shouldn't even be online but uh, I saw this on facebook on because I'm trying to keep off facebook I will not share it for now but post it here.

"THE (SCIENTIFIC) DEATH OF JESUS
For the next 60 seconds, set aside whatever
You're doing and take this opportunity! Let's see if Satan
Can stop this.

... ... ... ... THE
(SCIENTIFIC) DEATH OF JESUS

At the age of 33,
Jesus was condemned to death .

At the time
Crucifixion was the "worst" death. Only the worst
Criminals were condemned to be crucified. Yet it was
Even more dreadful for Jesus, unlike
Other criminals condemned to death by
Crucifixion Jesus was to be nailed to the
Cross by His hands and feet.

Each nail
Was 6 to 8 inches long.

The nails
Were driven into His wrist. Not
Into His palms as is commonly
Portrayed. There's a tendon in the wrist that
Extends to the shoulder. The Roman guards knew
That when the nails were being hammered into the
Wrist that tendon would tear and
Break, forcing Jesus to use His back
Muscles to support himself so that He could
Breath.

Both of His feet
Were nailed together. Thus He was forced to
Support Himself on the single nail that
Impaled His feet to the cross. Jesus could
Not support himself with His legs because of the pain
So He was forced to alternate between arching His
Back then using his legs just to continue to
Breath. Imagine the struggle, the pain, the
Suffering, the courage.

Jesus endured this
Reality for over 3 hours.

Yes,
Over 3 hours! Can you imagine this kind of
Suffering? A few minutes before He died,
Jesus stopped bleeding. He was simply pouring water
From his wounds.

From common images
We see wounds to His hands and feet and even the spear wound
To His side... But do we realize His wounds
Were actually made in his body. A hammer
Driving large nails through the wrist, the feet overlapped
And an even large nail hammered through the arches, then a
Roman guard piercing His side with a spear. But
Before the nails and the spear Jesus was whipped and
Beaten. The whipping was so severe that it tore the
Flesh from His body. The beating so horrific that His
Face was torn and his beard ripped from His face. The
Crown of thorns cut deeply into His scalp. Most men
Would not have survived this torture.

"

He had no more blood
To bleed out, only water poured from His
Wounds.
The human adult body contains about 3.5 liters
(just less than a gallon) of blood.

Jesus poured all 3.5
Liters of his blood; He had three nails hammered into His
Members; a crown of thorns on His head and, beyond
That, a Roman soldier who stabbed a spear into His
Chest..

All these without
Mentioning the humiliation He suffered after carrying His own
Cross for almost 2 kilometers, while the crowd spat in his
Face and threw stones (the cross was almost 30 kg of weight,
Only for its higher part, where His hands were
Nailed).

Jesus had
To endure this experience, to open the
Gates of Heaven,
So that you can have free
Access to God.

So that your sins
Could be "washed" away. All of them, with no exception!
Don't ignore this situation.

JESUS
CHRIST DIED FOR YOU!

He died for you! It
Is easy to pass jokes or foolish photos by e-mail, but
When it comes to God, sometimes you feel ashamed to forward
To others because you are worried of what they may think
About you.

God
Has plans for you, show all your friends what He experienced
To save you. Now think about this! May God bless your
Life!

60
Seconds with God...

For the next 60
Seconds, set aside what you're doing and take
This opportunity! Let's see if Satan can stop
This.

All you have to do
Is:

1. Simply
Pray for the person who sent this message to
You:

2.Then, send this
Message to people.. The more the better.

3. People will
Pray for you and you will make that many people pray to God
For other people.

4. Take a
Moment to appreciate the power of God in your life, for
Doing what pleases Him.

If you are not
Ashamed to do this, please, follow Jesus' instructions.
He said (Matthew 10:32 & 33): "Everyone therefore
Who acknowledges me before others, I also will acknowledge
before My Father in heaven; but whosoever denies Me
before others, I will deny before my Father in heaven."

By Jennifer Flores

The thought that He bled all 3.5litres of his blood for us just made my heart stop. This story has been over and over again, causing it to become something so ordinary in a Christian's life. After reading this, I was just wondering how anyone could endure something like that for more than 3 hours, and even at the point of death Jesus said "Lord, forgive these people for they know not what they are doing". He was dying at the hands of the very people he was willing to forgive. Only God can provide us with this perfect, unconditional love. I'm still stunned now...

Was watching S.H.E Selina's wedding on monday night(31st oct) Well, it's her birthday and now her wedding anniversary. First of all, really admire her spirit in facing her challenges. It's easy for me to say she's suffered a lot and has worked very hard but for her, the past 376(plus minus) days have been a very long and hard road. Watched it live on the web through some taiwan news channel and I feel really happy for her. She found a man who loves her so much and was her pillar of support and of course she loves him a lot as well. Just felt the happiness spreading through the web hahahah. Her wedding was soooo star-studded and elaborate. The theme, the dresses, the decorations, the guests etc. There were about 92 tables in total, with about 800-1000 people turning up. Despite her burns etc. she looked really pretty last night and her gowns were just WOW, especially the first one.

ok, shall end my 感想 here because as I said, I should be studying :D will continue some other time.

2011-10-27T19:17:00.005+11:00

You may have realised I changed my blogskin.
Been wanting to change it for a veryyyyy long time but then blogskins.com refuses to let me search any key words so I have to rely on the "tags" on the blogskins. I actually changed to another one that was pink but uh, I couldn't really match the colour of the tagboard and the blogskin so I just kinda gave up-.- it was quite a nice one though :/ the pictures on it were nice. But then there were quite a few restrictions on the size/length of some things like the tagboard and links so..decided to change it to another one. Another one that is easier to match the tagboard to and also has the cool one-picture-a-post thing. I actually changed the title of the blogskin and the big word on top so..
I've been using "wish upon a star" for AGES but then I don't have creativity and haven't come up with anything else yet so, will have to stick with it for now. It may make me sound like a daydreamy kind of person but uh, I'm not really like that ok. I just realised something wrong with the date and time-.- the year and the time joins together and looks like some futuristic number/year of the future-.-
I really like the picture that comes with every post hahahah anyone free to look for nice blogskins like that for me? :D
A downside though, is that the font is TINY. All of the blogskins I see have tiny font and it's normal-sized. I know we're young and stuff but seriously-.- the size is like ants crawling on my screen.
AND I realised the "memory" part is getting longer and longer! o.0 It used to be so short haha
It's the longest I've ever had a blog so, an achievement? Alright, I should be going hahahha
Sorry for my temporary obsession with dandelions><

music can be as light as the dandelion seeds.

dandelions are beginning to bloom.

2011-10-25T14:03:00.000+11:00

Shall continue my update on yesterday because I realised there were some things I missed out on.
Well, after the ceremony and we left the hall there is this tradition of running out of the school by the driveway with other students waving blue and white balloons(school colours), the "final exit" from school. Anyway, it was raining and so we ran super fast then walked back into school by the back carpark for the accomodation(food and drinks). There was also the valedictory dinner last night but I didn't go. Too expensive hhaha..but whatever, not going to pay $85 for a 3 course dinner at the botanic gardens-.-

ahahha, just felt I had to blog because some random woman called and it was..quite funny
woman: hi, how're you today?
me: good?!! (how awkward would it be if I said terrible hahahah)
woman: that's good, (and then she begins talking about I don't know what-.- with a word complimentary in her sentence)
me: what?! (her background was quite noisy)
woman: I'm inviting you to a complimentary meal next week!!
me: oh, where? (I meant to ask where I should be going to have the complimentary meal)
woman: A COMPLIMENTARY MEAL!! (and she was actually shouting into the phone by now-.-)
anyway, we ended the convo with her hanging up hahahhaha so funny><
I'm not deaf woman-.- I was going to specify my question and you just cut in so of course now it seems like you're talking to some deaf old woman-.-
First of all, please cut that CRAZY AUSTRALIAN ACCENT, normally I would understand that but your accent was just...
AND, please CALL IN A QUIET PLACE-.-
Don't scream into the phone, I can tell, thankyou.

ohlol, so funny how these advertisement people who call you always have funny accents and speak in a ridiculously fast pace-.- I didn't even catch a single word. Especially those Australians that call and talk in the super thick Australian accent and speaks like a bullet train. Dude, you want to be heard/understood, talk slower thanks. No one's going to get what you're saying if you talk at 1000000mph=.= Somehow all these people have really thick accents and after they've said hi you're actually like WHATT SAY YOU?!! Got called by another person once, an Indian lady, called a couple of times actually and I think she gave up HHAHAHAHAH sorry just so funny I have to share.

woman: Hi, how're you today? (their favourite greeting)
me: uh..good
woman: do you have a bank loan for your house? If so which bank? and how much?
me: uh, I'm not sure
woman: You don't have to disclose any personal information. (lol and she asked how much-.-)
me: uh, I'm not the owner of the house, I'm not sure of any bank loan.
woman: It's ok, do you have a bank loan? (IS SHE ON REPLAY OR WHAT-.-)
-facepalm- and then I just put down the phone hhahahahha
so ridiculous and funny LOL...ah, these people. Make me feel like an idiot talking to them but then after thinking about it, it's so funny hahahhaha XD

2011-10-24T20:06:00.000+11:00

News of the day: I HAVE GRADUATED OFFICIALLY FROM HIGH SCHOOL

only to return to take exams(VCE) starting next thursday, English paper.

It feels so unreal, I can't believe I've finished high school. I can't believe I've graduated.

So much drama this morning, but overall, in that sense, it was memorable.

The last day of lessons(last friday) when we were doing the countdown to the bell, I thought I could control any tears/emotions. Once the bell went, everyone started cheering. Some people began crying, and after seeing Steph cry, I started to cry too. I guess, it's the sense of leaving all these amazing people I've met in this school, going into our own world now we've graduated and not having lessons with each other anymore. It's only in your teens that I believe you begin to cry because you're leaving you're friends. I didn't cry when I graduated from phpps, some people were just so..but it's ok, I've forgiven and let go of what happened. I cried for the first time, on the last day of school in 2008, sec2. Tears just started welling up when we were doing a class cheer, because it's the last time we would ever do that together. When my parents confirmed the move to australia, I cried, departure, leaving everything behind means a lot to me. Surprisingly, I didn't feel like crying at the airport with all the lovely people I met in rv and pkc. Only started tearing when I saw my ahma tearing too. Teared again on the last day of lessons last friday, 21oct. I think I don't cry over the same thing twice. Have a good cry, get over it and move on. That's the only thing you can do.

About the crazy drama this morning? I have no comment. I shall narrate what happened. But first, some background info. There is a tradition at my school to have dress-up for the last 3 days of school. On the last day, there are no lessons and there is a year12 concert run by the year12s, for the whole school(in all the dress-up costumes of course). After this concert, there will be some break and the year12s will get changed into full summer uniform with blazer and attend the leavers service, again in front of the whole school. Leavers service is like the official graduation ceremony with parents attending and you are presented with some school badge thing and your testimonial. And, last thursday, we had presentation night, where we are presented with awards etc. On presentation night, the principal gave a speech on "shift happens".

Well, someone(not sure who), went into the school hall(where the concert and ceremony takes place) and graffiti-ed "shift happens on the walls etc. (I heard because maybe it sounds like shit happens-.-). The principal took it as a personal attack on her and the school and cancelled the year12 concert. The school(principal still makes the final decision) assumed that one of the year 12s did it and cancelled the concert. To add on, a few people wrecked a toilet bowl and "disappointed [the principal]" last week, so obviously, the school wouldn't be very happy with us because of a few people..And this of course resulted in more tears and anger by some people who spent a lot of time on preparing for the concert. The leavers service wasn't cancelled and so it went on as usual, but the principal didn't wait outside and talk to parents after the service. But what really touched me was that after the service when the year12s were leaving the hall first(we were on stage) the rest of the school started cheering for us. Their support and encouragement means a lot, so thank you.

Girl from a younger year level said(on fb) "To all the year 12's, you guys handled yourselves really well today and it just goes to show what amazing women you have all become. I'm so proud of you :')"

My friend "year 7 - 11 girls, you guys are truly amazing. thanks for all the support. cggs class of 201. We will make it through anything because we are one big family :)" - well said haha(:

many people were affected and it's over, let's just move on.

Honestly, I was disappointed but I wasn't sad to the extent of balling my eyes out. The concert content was good but we couldn't share it with the school. Disappointed that someone would do this. Disappointed for being blamed for doing something we probably didn't do(I still cannot rule out the possibility that a year12 did it). We'll just wait patiently for the day, this misunderstanding is cleared.

Start of the day was great. Today's theme is harry potter and well, everyone dressed up, went early to the train station and marched up the school together. Then we started "sorting" the younger girls that were coming in. Was supposed to ply Quidditch on the field/oval as well but it was raining and no one had the mood. And then the drama kicks in after the bell rings for the younger girls to go to class.

20oct theme - teenyboppers(crazy stuff you wore as a teen)

21oct - cartoon characters(I went as..patrick star)

24oct - harry potter(asian hermione?! lol or some random person from gryffindor..)

It's been a crazily amazing year in this school, and honestly, I think I enjoyed myself. Thanks for the love, the friendship and care in the past 2 years!

I spent my 16th and 17th in this school, had all my firsts and lasts as a 17th this year):

first solo and band performance on stage the day after my birthday,

first time I cried as a 17-yr-old on friday(2 days after my birthday)

and now, graduating!

Looking back now, I just realised how many years I've studied for..and how many more there are to come..

studystudystudy!!

2011-10-18T21:27:00.000+11:00

Last day of being 16.
Am I the only who doesn't want to grow up?
So many responsibilities, being mature etc.
and I don't know why but I don't like mentioning my birthday in melb.
I just don't want people to know I'm that much younger I guess...especially that one person.
I must NOT lose out to you.
Birthdays seem like such a big thing over here it's weird.
They have birthday parties/dinners every birthday..a bigger 18th and a very big 21st.
The last birthday party I had was when I was 12..the first birthday that is after exams in the period of primary school. Because PSLE ends earlier than normal school exams so my birthday falls in the week of PSLE marking week. Yes, it used to be a week and I believe now it's a few days. And then since then, my birthday has always been around exam period..even here-.-
I just want to..stay 16 forever hahahhaha (tells self to dream on)
I'm going to graduate next monday 24 oct. I still remember thinking in primary 4, how many more years I had to study before even going to uni and realising I had more than 10 years to go. I'm already halfway there. So soooon, don't even know what I want to do in uni. Sometimes, I really wonder if it was the right decision to skip a year..it's not like I can beat a rgs girl that is one year older(already, rgs already better than me but also one year older?!!) and not only that but also other smarttt people/hardworking people. Was doing maths and I realised how much work that needs to be done and it's taking me sooo long to do just 1 practice paper and that's only paper 2..there's still paper 1.
Tomorrow is the last day we're officially in school uniform, having lessons. thursday, friday dress-up, monday dress-up then change back to school uniform for my last assembly(leavers service) ever...last church service tmr too..all the 'last' stuff keeps coming up everywhere. I'm not sure I'm that happy to finally graduate. I don't even know what I want to do with my life. I just realised how hard it is to score that well..and me? sadly, is far far away from that target.
Screwed my chem sac on monday. So hard): And I probably made like a million careless mistakes as I always do...
Anyway, I guess this is the end of my 感言 as a 16-year-old.
Actually technically, I was born 4++pm singapore time 19 oct but Australia time is 7++ so I have...less than 24 hours still o.0

2011-10-10T23:35:00.002+11:00

without realising it, today's wuzun's birthday!!
First birthday after being separated from fahrenheit):
it's really late now, I should be going><

2011-10-07T00:00:00.000+11:00

“No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

—Steve Jobs

Know who Steve Jobs is? The co-founder of Apple.

Apple's Steve Jobs has died from cancer at the age of 56, a premature end for a visionary who revolutionized modern culture and changed forever the world's relationship to technology through inventions such as the iPad and iPhone.

"We are deeply saddened to announce that Steve Jobs passed away today," the California-based gadget-maker's board of directors said in a statement released after his death on Wednesday, surrounded by his family.

"Steve's brilliance, passion and energy were the source of countless innovations that enrich and improve all of our lives. The world is immeasurably better because of Steve."

Tributes flowed in from around the world for Jobs, while Apple fans flooded social networking sites to voice their sorrow at the passing of the man who helped put mini computers in the shape of phones in millions of pockets.

Ordinary people, many of whom learned of his death on their iPhones and iPads, swamped Twitter using the trending hashtag #thankyousteve to pay tribute to Jobs "for all you have done for this generation," as one person tweeted.

Another called on Jobs to make an "iHeaven to connect us with God."

Jobs was just 21 when he founded Apple Computer in 1976 with his 26-year-old friend Steve Wozniak in his family garage.

From such humble beginnings the company, with its ubiquitous trademark of an apple with a bite taken out of it, grew to eventually become one of the world's most valuable firms.

In July, Apple's second quarter profit hit $7.31 billion on revenue of $28.57 billion.

US President Barack Obama paid tribute to one of America's "greatest innovators."

"He transformed our lives, redefined entire industries, and achieved one of the rarest feats in human history: he changed the way each of us sees the world," Obama said in a statement.

Wozniak told CNN he was "dumfounded" by news of the death of his former partner, comparing it to the untimely and traumatic loss of John F. Kennedy and Martin Luther King in the 1960s, and saying it had left "a big hole."

"I'm a little bit, like, awestruck, just dumbfounded, and I can't put my mind into gear, I can't do things," a distressed Wozniak, now 61, said.

"Here is a guy that created tools that everyone in the world -- billions of people -- just love, and feel happy and good about."

Microsoft boss Bill Gates along with other titans of the high-tech industry agreed, with some people hailing Jobs as a modern-day Thomas Edison, who invented the light bulb.

"The world rarely sees someone who has had the profound impact Steve has had, the effects of which will be felt for many generations to come," Gates said in a statement.

The two men were rivals in the race to dominate the market at the start of the personal computer era.

But while personal computers powered by Microsoft software ruled work places, Jobs envisioned people-friendly machines with mouse controllers and icons to click on to activate programs or open files.

Tim Cook -- who had been handling Apple's day-to-day operations since Jobs went on medical leave in January, and was made CEO in August after his resignation -- led the praise for the Silicon Valley legend.

"Steve leaves behind a company that only he could have built, and his spirit will forever be the foundation of Apple," he said in a statement.

Apple turned its home page into a tribute to Jobs, posting a large black-and-white photo of the bearded high-tech maestro in his trademark black turtleneck and small round glasses. The only caption: "Steve Jobs, 1955-2011."

Jobs's family also issued a statement, saying he had lost his long battle with pancreatic cancer surrounded by his relatives.

"In his public life, Steve was known as a visionary; in his private life, he cherished his family," it said.

Born on February 24, 1955 in San Francisco to a single mother and adopted by a couple in nearby Mountain View at barely a week old, Jobs grew up among the orchards that would one day become the technology hub known as Silicon Valley.

Under Jobs, Apple introduced its first computers and then the Macintosh, which became wildly popular in the 1980s.

He was elevated to idol status by ranks of Macintosh computer devotees, but left Apple in 1985 after an internal power struggle and started NeXT Computer company specializing in sophisticated workstations for businesses.

He co-founded Academy-Award-winning Pixar in 1986 from a former computer graphics unit he bought from movie industry titan George Lucas.

Apple's luster faded after Jobs left the company, but they reconciled in 1996 with Apple buying NeXT for $429 million and Jobs ascending once again to the Apple throne.

Apple went from strength to strength as Jobs revamped the Macintosh line, launching a "post-PC era" in which personal computers give way to smart mobile gadgets -- the iPod, iPhone and the iPad, as well as the popular iTunes site.

His passing will raise doubts over whether the Cupertino, California-based company can continue its dominance in the hugely competitive technology sector.

His death comes only a day after Cook presided over the launch of the new iPhone 4S in a move that failed to dazzle investors.

Jobs is survived by his wife Laurene, with whom he had three children. He also had a daughter with a woman he dated prior to marrying.

Yahoo News today

I'm pretty sure everyone knows his contribution through the "Apple revolution"

Everywhere you'll see a person with an iPod, iPhone, iPhone4, iPad, macbooks etc.

I myself, am also blogging from the macbook pro. I think Apple has revolutionised the way we connect, they have the leading touch-screen technology, graphics etc.

“ When does a man die? When he is hit by a bullet? No. When he suffers a disease? No. When he ate a soup made out of a poisonous mushroom? No! A man dies when he is forgotten! ” -Steve Jobs

After facing pancreatic cancer for 7 years, he passed away this morning at the age of 56.
It is the very same cancer wuzun's mum had.

I guess when you're facing Death like this, you don't think so much about how much longer you have to live, it's more about making every day count. Making every day meaningful because one day, all this will pass, one day, everyone will die. No one is going to live forever and what's the point of slogging your whole life and regretting your whole life when you're done?

Right now, facebook and probably other networking sites are flooding with RIPs Steve Jobs, all mostly from his creation, apple devices. This is how many people he has impacted with his creation. Indeed, we do owe him many thanks for his contribution and inspiration to this generation. So, thankyou for what you've done for this generation. You will be remembered, Father of Apple.

2011-10-04T23:23:00.000+11:00

Just a really quick one.
Finally, the wait is over! Into the sixth year now I believe and they called today to confirm. Thank you God for looking out for us and performing this miracle.
It's been 5 full years and a bit and the realisation that it's over...
so relieved, so thankful.

2011-09-28T20:15:00.000+10:00

it's been raining like crazy today..and it was 25 degrees yesterday..
It's supposed to be spring-.-
But how come we're like back to winter again? >.<
Just realised howww much more work I have to do and sooo little time to do. Chem exam papers, methods exam papers, further exam papers. And I am super unprepared for the maths stuff..
chinese is only so-so
english is...my essays are getting shorter and shorter
and then that's it. So basically...I'm prepared for NONE OF MY SUBJECTSS!!
die..better go do some work..

2011-09-22T22:07:00.000+10:00

...so dead...
零时抱佛脚是件不好的现象，千万不要学>.<
not even kidding...memorising my general convo is just...:O
and I'm only on page 3..
3.5 half pages to go and it's already 10.06pm...looks like I'll be sleeping really late tonight):

2011-09-21T09:25:00.000+10:00

hm..shall just casually post since I'm already logged in...

had a practice english exam eyesterday..screwed my last essay. Don't even know I was writing and I think it totally went out of point-.- I'll be lucky if I pass. I didn't even have a conclusion. Misjudged the time because I didn't read the stupid instructions carefully. Yes, I'm that blur-.-

Got umat results on monday...they suck LOL..not even kidding. It's average but like, too average to get me an interview LOL when I say average I mean I got (51% -.-) for me, I think that's still pretty good>.< because in that sense, I'm younger and don't have so much..I don't know-.- but the fact that I'm younger and can be in the average I feel ok about it after a while. This just means that I've to work like crazy for eoys..

Went to state library after english exam yesterday. Wow, I discovered the effectiveness of studying there. I did soooo much work LOL..much more work than I would have done at home..mainly because there wasn't a computer there to distract me LOL. We were studying at the dome area of the library and it was really echoey so everyone in the dome can hear you when you make some random sound and therefore there is no motivation to even make sound and then in the end you just spend all your time doing work :D which is good(: rawrrrr so little time>.<

2011-09-17T14:24:00.000+10:00

sometimes, I'm just so clueless as to what my mum wants me to do.
When I'm not studying, she wants me to study.
When I'm studying she asks me to do this and that(mainly housework).
So uh, do you want me to study or what?!
Hello, you're not the only person busy with assignments to finish. Mind you, I'm the one taking vce this year. I'm the one that's studying to go to uni next year...

intense mugging for the next month and a half or so...well, 6 weeks to be exact. So little time, so much to do. I better get working!

2011-09-13T23:14:00.000+10:00

shall do a really quick one...actually I'm just complaining about my life LOL
really tired, I have no idea what I'm doing right now
All I know is I MUST FOCUS
I think I will actually stick the word 'FOCUS' somewhere in my room..
Concentration means so much, competition is everything, doing well then of course, is a must.
Have to start getting a move on, got to start printing exam papers, got to start doing maths like crazy etc.
It just hit me that there's 7 weeks to exams including this week and there's millions of papers waiting to be done, so many maths questions waiting to be completed, chinese general convo and detail study to prepare for. In conclusion, I shouldn't even BE online-.-
goodnight world!(:

2011-09-12T00:25:00.000+10:00

10 years on....it's the 10th anniversary of 911 (US time)
It's a tragedy that shook the world. The news was replayed and replayed...I still remember wondering what was happening in primary 1..
10 year on..I'm now turning 17...
time passes fast
but it takes a long time to heal.
It is hard to forgive, hard to forget.
I pray for peace to be endowed upon those affected by 911. God, may they feel comforted and touched by your love. In Jesus name, Amen.

2011-09-08T23:00:00.000+10:00

I think this will probably be one of the last posts(or maybe the last actually) before vce examss...although it starts in november...the amount of work I need to do has just dawned upon and I finally 领悟了 and so basically, I will...be temporarily be going on a internet hiatus most likely by the end of this month. But before that I have to blog :D so here goes...

Prayer is basically the way you connect and maintain a relationship with God. Honestly, sometimes it's really hard to pray to a God you've never been able to see, and sometimes you just feel He isn't there, like He isn't listening. Has it ever occurred to you that He's remaining silent on purpose? Prayer to me, should be said from the heart and not pre-arranged speeches. I find it difficult to say "Dear Lord..." in that flat monotone voice because it isn't from my heart. How do you actually pray without meaning it. It is like 口是心非, you don't mean what you're saying then what's the point of saying? If you don't praise with all your heart and mean it then what's your purpose of praying...it just seems like a show, a meaningless show for people to watch. My primary school teachers used to tell us that if we don't study and pray to God to help us do well, He can't help us...which is sort of true in that sense. I guess God keeps from you what He thinks you shouldn't have or gives you things you deserve. It's reasonable in the way that you don't get everything you pray for then God's purpose would become your genie literally, to grant your every wish-.- His silence sometimes, I guess is also a small test of faith. By praying for more faith, your are just asking for more trials to test your faith, but then your faith will be strengthened :D

sorry>.< I ran out of content...shall blog again soon(:

2011-08-27T21:17:00.000+10:00

I was just thinking, why does God make us wait?
And I think it's not only because God has His own plan for us, but also if we always get what we want quickly, wouldn't we view God as being at our beck and call?
Think of it this way. If I pray for something to happen and it happens the next day, and it always happens this way, I think I would take it for granted that God would grant me whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted it. God would be just a God that makes my wishes come true but I don't think He wants to be seen that way. He is the mighty God, the God who saves, will He tolerate such treatment? Similarly, it's like spoiling a child with materialistic wealth. A child may wish for something and his/her parents wanting to make their kid happy gets the thing for the child. I think God wants to share a relationship that is much closer than that of a Father who gives presents and gifts whenever we please. That is a really materialistic kind of relationship that can't compare to real kinship that a father may have with his kids. Also, I think waiting also in a way nurtures your faith. If you always get what you want, it's very shallow faith and relationship because then, you have faith for the reaping of materialistic wealth. After a long time, it is common to feel impatient and even abandoned, but then if you are able to hang on until God helps, it shows that your faith has the power to help you hang on to God, and the faith that God will perform miracles and help you.

Humans always tend to turn to God when in need or in trouble but forget about Him when life is all good and happy. It's hard to not be like that because in a way, I guess, it's sort of human nature. You can't help what's going to happen, but I think it's most important to thank Him every day for his provisions, for having a safe and settled life every day.

Give thanks, with a grateful heart
Give thanks to the Holy One

2011-08-24T17:01:00.000+10:00

have been wanting to change blogskin for a while now but then blogskins.com search engine always isn't working for me. So I shall just have to stick with the current one :/
Someone's going nuts in his own room for no apparent reason. Yes just insult and call me names when all I did was leave the key in the door UNLOCKED. I didn't even say anything to you when you got back like dude seriously? Who do you think you are. All the eff words and I'm wondering how old you actually are DUDE YOU'RE NOT EVEN 12!! What is the world coming to? Lower primary school kids have phones that are touch screen/slide etc. P6 boy having his own iPod touch?!!technological revolution.

My earphones died T.T both sides totally no sound. I went back to using the original one that came with the mp3 but that one the left side has already died so left the right side only. 3-4 sets of earphones died within 3-4years is that bad? About 1 set each year. Most of them is because the left side no sound the one that just got spoilt is the first one that both sides have totally zero sound. Went to look up if I can fix it but uh...apparently you can but it's not easy, might as well get another one-.- There are some people whose earphones spoil once every 3-4 months-.- Have no idea what they do with their earphones-.-

Anywayy, it's free dress day tomorrow! :D And there's band tmr morning too! I love band o.0 although it's so tiring to wake up so early(although in singapore I always woke up at that time every single day). To other people band is a burden but I enjoy it...lol performance in 3 weeks!! :O I have a solo ;) It's actually an oboe solo but the oboe girl doesn't want to play it-.- As if you don't want your solo!! And it's not like it's very hard but uh...really thankful for the solo then? I think it's one of the last performances EVER so it's like a perfect ending I guess, for me that is. Dedication is not easy I guess, that's why not many people come on time...

ok I really should go now...need to go study more probability and memorise my chinese detail study(oral) stuff>.< update another time

Forgiveness

2011-08-17T18:32:00.000+10:00

Recently, the topic of forgiveness has been popping up everywhere, last Sunday's sermon, Monday school assembly, today chaplain's assembly.
Is God trying to tell me to forgive someone? Or is He asking me to pass on the message to somebody? Shall share some points from Sunday's sermon.

Forgiving isn't forgetting. The phrase "forgive and forget" is almost impossible to achieve. When you're hurt, it not very possible or likely that you'll totally forget that incident. Forgiving is starting the healing process of the heart. By thirsting for revenge just stops that healing process and at the same time, implying to God that you don't need his control and you can settle all this yourself. Forgiving isn't easy and I know that from experience. People have hurt me and after a while, I learnt to let go. Put the matter into God's hands and He will solve the problem for you. He is always in control and will never forsake you. It is a matter of whether or not you believe and have faith in Him to be in control and solve your problems.

Forgiving doesn't also mean a relationship. Some people will just hurt you over and over again. There's no point in continuing being related to them. A relationship needs both parties to work for it. If the other party isn't willing, you're just wasting your time and you'll just get hurt over and over again.

Because we are forgiven, we should forgive. Break the cycle of revenge and spread God's love, the essence of christianity. Trust that He knows and He heals. There is a parable in the bible in which a lord showed mercy and forgave his servant who did not return his money on time when the servant pleaded with him. That same servant then went to another servant who owed him money. When the debtor pleaded with the creditor, that creditor who was pardoned did not show mercy and threw the debtor servant into jail until he returned every single cent. When the other servants heard of this, they went to the master and told him. The master then called the servant he had pardoned and reprimanded him for not showing mercy that he was shown. That servant was thrown into jail and tortured until every cent was returned. In the same way, show God's grace that He has shown to you.

Today, during mustard, we were also talking about why bad things happen on Earth. Bad things is an understatement but I have no idea what other words I should use. There isn't a why doesn't God send us this and provide us with that. I don't think that there's such things as "God, I want rain, please send rain". I believe He has reasons for all His doings and sometimes these catastrophes are caused by the devil to rock your faith. In the same way, God may use these catastrophes to save people and let the victims grow deeper in faith. I listened to a sermon a while back and the preacher said "It's not that God provides rich people with all their money and possessions, if it's that way, God is being unfair and why would He do that? It just happened that you're born in the right time in the right environment, in the right place." I guess it's sort of true because why would God provide so much for one person and not so much for another? But in times of trouble, in times of need, it's sometimes really hard to turn your eyes to God, especially when you've been waiting. I, for one am so familiar with this waiting. My family's been waiting for the 6th year now. But I believe God is moving. Situation has improved and I trust that God will take care of us and solve the problem. It hasn't been easy and many times, my parents have asked God, "How long more do we have to wait?". Waiting is difficult and sometimes you just want to give up. You just have to have the faith that God will do a miracle and solve whatever problems you have. Trust that God knows best and He'll love you and will always be there for you no matter what.
Hope anyone who reads this feels encouraged to continue through your hardship! ♥

2011-08-12T17:22:00.001+10:00

Forgive me for saying so but don't you think you're soooo ridiculously unreasonable?
cooking the rice 10 minutes later won't kill you. Just because David needs to get out by 5.30 doesn't mean I have to cook rice in blazer and jumper. ARE YOU AWARE THAT ALL THE CLOTHES I'M WEARING ARE LONG SLEEVED AND ISN'T VERY CONVENIENT TO WASH RICE? Does it matter to you that I'm feeling sick? It's not like I want to be but hello? can't even change clothes first isit? Yes, go on insulting me. It's not my fault David has to get out by 5.30. I'm not the one who signed him up for lacrosse. I'm not the person who introduced him to lacrosse and it's my fault the hole puncher disappeared? And it's also my fault david can't find the stupid pack of raisins that was supposed to be in the pantry but WASN'T? Can't you just admit you're wrong instead of saying WHATEVER? Yes, I owe my life to you but then be a bit more reasonable can-.- everything also my fault when we're rushing for David. Yes, totally..

2011-08-09T21:00:00.000+10:00

It's NATIONAL DAY!! :D

Funny how we feel more patriotic overseas. I was never the really crazy enthusiastic patriot in singapore, not saying that I am one now. Still remember singing 'Home' super loud in P6 with Ruth and Winnie. Don't know how are they right now. It's been 5 years already!! I just found Winnie's facebook :O don't know if she still remembers me or not, but just add anyway :D

Anyway, back to the topic of national day. For a government to have a nation with national pride is not easy. Recently the inflating influx of foreigners mainly scholars and expats haven't exactly made singaporeans jump with joy. The US economy downturn isn't going to help the economic situation either. But I think it's a long way that Singapore as a country, a nation has come. Today celebrates the 46th year of independence, the 46th anniversary of LKY's achievement in the history of Singapore. I'm not a supporter of any political group but the fact that LKY helped achieve Singapore's independence will not be changed. The fact that he once loved Singapore THAT much(I have no idea about his love now though) and the fact that Singapore has come this far. We came from a generation of poor immigrants, seeking the hope of a better life. Look where Singapore stands now. It's too crowded but at the same time the modern city is it's image. Singapore has moved from literally a kampong to a city. Although there're so many people and it's really overcrowded, public transport is just PACKED, construction of the new train line going on in various areas, in a way, everything is progressing.

To me, singapore is still my home. My home with all my friends and relatives, all my memories, my childhood. There are some people who I'm so thankful to God that I met. People who stood by me, quarreled but made up. Honest statement from me, if you can have a big quarrel with your friend and still end up as good friends, it shows that they treasure that friendship as much as you and your friendship will be even stronger. Singapore is where all my memories lie and there it shall stay.

Home
Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home

When there are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That home's about its people too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There'll always be Singapore

For this is where I know it's home
For this is where I know I'm home

It's been so long but this is still my favourite ndp song. (On the topic of ndp songs, the new versions are so....it ruins the meaning of the song. BRING BACK THE ORIGINAL VERSIONS!! :D)
家

2011-08-09T09:29:00.001+10:00

Was going to memorise the first page of my detail study but uh, doesn't work. I think I memorise these things best in my room or on the train.
Really tired and sleepy although I slept earlier than usual yesterday. Feel like just going home to sleep somemore-.-
Got chem midyear results yesterday. The result's ok but not exactly jumping with joy about it. The percentage of boys compared to girls who got A+ is so different.
This week is pretty relaxed compared to last week. Chinese teacher is on camp, no tests/sac this week! But then I still need to memorise the first page of my detail study. I have no idea how I'm going to remember any of it. I think at most I'll get through to half the page.
I think I've lost my motivation to study this week. I've been putting of studying probability since last week. Should probably start soon...

Some people just don't know when to stop. They don't know when enough is enough. They just keep going on and on, assuming everyone has to talk to them, assuming they know everything, assuming that they're the boss. People who constantly say "you're a genius, I should be the one who should be worried", just STAY AWAY FROM ME. Stop talking like you know me so well. You don't. Just stop. Enough is enough. I just wanted to make a friend, and you? You just have to go on and on about how your studies arne't that good. If you're trying to praise me, you're doing it wrong. I know I'm not a genius. I'm not the type of kid that doesn't study and still gets full marks on a test or anything like that. I can study and still fall short of the full mark by a lot. Know your place and stop saying things like that. I don't like how you ask me how's my day and this sac and that sac EVERY SINGLE DAY AFTER SCHOOL. This just screams one word - "DESPERATION". Leave me alone ok? I'm not interested, will never be. At first I thought you were just being friendly, now I just want you to disappear. Stop asking me every single thing that's going on in my life. If I want to tell you, I'll tell you. Stop asking. I don't need to tell you anything, don't need to reply your messages, don't need to carry out small talk with you. If I want to talk to you, I will, just stop everything you're doing now, go and study and leave me alone! After not replying you since last thursday, do you not know how to take the hint to stop-.- I'm talking to you because I'm nice ok? I'm not interested in you, full stop, period. No one else talks to you because you're just so...I don't know, naggy? I have no idea how to describe it or even to respond. I'm being nice because I just think it's mean to ignore people like that but it's too much, I don't feel like being the nice person to you anymore.

2011-08-06T16:13:00.000+10:00

200th post! :D
longest blog I've ever kept, although I'm not that faithfully updating and no one comes to read anyway.
everyone's doing their own thing, I'm doing my own.
SO BOREDDD
school is so boring, everything is so boring
I live just for the days,
live day by day, solving problems day by day
no future plan.

觉得可惜，觉得遗憾，觉得失落
虽然以前的中文水平不是那么的高，现在好像变更低了。好不甘心。
做detail study后的一些感想还要写说这提高了我的中文水平。明明就没有，为什么一定要这样说呢？我的中文水平本来就比现在的程度高，现在还要装说这对我很有帮助，为何要这样说？以前中文对我来说很难，但是现在其实满怀念的。真想不到以前一个半小时就把700－800个字的作文写完，现在却在写250字的作文，一切不如从前。
很怀念也很想念，依旧。
Australia' chinese oral examination is not even a test of oral skills on how fluent you are or how accurate you are. Bluntly said, IT'S A WASTE OF TIME. You want to test standard, test reading not MEMORISING. Chinese oral here is PURE MEMORISING. Hello? This is oral not a test of memorisation skills-.- Who can remember a total of almost 10 pages full of words for examiners to ask less than half of those questions?! ridiculous.
but then again, it's good that I left. I don't think I can continue in that kind of environment, juggling cca, school work, test, tuition etc. We aren't made of steel-.-
ohwell, end of rant.

melbourne's weather is going crazy again-.-
last week was so nice and warm and sunny and then it has to rain today
which means the coming week is going to be COLD. -sigh-
I used to complaing about how hot singapore was but I think having a stable weather condition is better than having weather that plays jokes on you and is so TEMPERAMENTAL-.- seriously. I rains for like 5 minutes, stops and THE SUN COMES OUT. Really hard to gauge when to wash the clothes because when the sun comes out, you bring the clothes out to dry. After bringing all the clothes out, a grey cloud floats into vicinity and it's going to rain-.- so many times already!

2011-07-31T19:51:00.000+10:00

好想停留在这个时刻。
从未成熟到现在的我，长大得好快。
转眼间已经是在读最后一年了。
从来没有想过要赶快长大，可是现在渐渐成长就好想要停止时间。
从不想到这里来，却开始喜欢这里的读书环境。
放弃了很多，得到了也很多。
我遇见的朋友，我都很珍惜。
很羡慕弟弟还在长高的状态，哪像我，没有再长高了。

ohman, why am I so reflective today>.<
is it because VCE's only 3 months away now?
the time to make the most important decision in my life is around the corner.
This term's a flurry. Week after week, it seems like a mundane routine but then each week brings us one week closer to the last year of high school. Never thought this would be so soon. I still remember thinking how old people in JC were, and now I'm here myself, I can't believe I'm this age. I can't believe I'm going to uni next year. I can't believe everything that's happening now in fact. I think I've changed a lot ever since I came here. I don't know in what way but I just have. When I went back to singapore, it felt like I just continued where I left off/of(?) It's just like my time in singapore was on pause and started to continue playing when I went back to visit, and now it's on pause again. People I know, enlisting soon, others going to uni already...

2011-07-22T21:01:00.000+10:00

Finally am almost done with detail study. It's been taking up so much time to find information and then answer questions, edit answers etc. Now I just mainly left the questions on why I chose this topic and what I learnt from this topic.
Honestly, I have no idea what I learnt from Zhenghe's expeditions. I first knew him through my chinese textbook in primary school talking about how he travelled to the West Sea and gave all the expensive jewels etc. to other countries. I don't recall any motive being mentioned or what they were trying to achieve through his expeditions. Well, in a way, I did learn a lot more about Zhenghe and the whole situation of his maritime exploration. He actually made it all the way to East Africa, which is a major feat itself, and his treasure fleet consisted of ships larger to Columbus ships. He traded with many different countries and got other countries to pay tribute to China, in a way expanding the empire. But what did I learn from this event? Perseverance? Patience? Planning of journey?

my phone is so inactive it's just crazy..I used to send about 15-20sms a day last time because I got 10 free when I sent 5. Now? 1 message is so expensive, 1 call costs just $1.17 to hear the phone ring whether or not the person picks up. Going out just costs too much like eating etc. I live like a hermit-.-

2011-07-20T09:57:00.000+10:00

so dead x_x
14 practice umat papers to finish. If it was chem, it wouldn't be a problem since each paper only take 1.5 hours BUT umat is a HUGE problem, since each paper takes 3 hours to complete. AND I LEFT 7 DAYS TO DO ALL 14 INCLUDING TODAY...which means I have to do about 2 papers every day and I still have drills to do...umat is next wednesday 1.30pm and I have to leave house before 12 I think, to get there on time, which also means I can't do a paper on wednesday...which means I have to rush papers this weekend...Doesn't help that there's a chem sac next thursday and methods sac next friday, and then englsih sac the week after. I honestly think I'm going to waste $770 because I don't think it's that possible for me to get like 91% to get an interview-.- it's just crazy-.-
adding on, super tired-.- I slept early last night, like 10.30, woke up at 6.30, slept all the way to school on the train like some pig. Couldn't actually keep my eyes open>.< then the stupid train at richmond had to be delayed for 10 minutes and then I missed the tram therefore had to walk to school then when I was halfway there the tram came. Not funny-.- today is windyyy~

2011-07-02T11:07:00.000+10:00

so pissed.
Why must you always do all the sai gang/shit work when only you and me are home-.- and then you make me do half of it-.- where is David when you need help? POOING HIS HEAD OFF. and when you're cooking, he's at the dining table RIGHT NEXT TO THE KITCHEN, who do you call? ME, when I'm doing WORK. Me, black face? fyi, you looks like that too ok. You just don't want to let me use computer because I can and you can't, using study as an excuse-.- I can study on the computer too ok. You just don't want me to touch. And how come David touches for hours and hours PLAYING GAMES? HUHUHUH? please explain?! Who wakes up at 9am on a saturday morning to do housework-.- I woke up in ANTICIPATION for the FORMAL, and now I have no mood to even care. Every minutes you ask me to run off to do some shit. I NEED TO GET READY TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE BY ABOUT 1.30pm OK! Just because some people are coming to our house doesn't mean they will come and inspect the stupid floor and lick it or something-.- Nobody's going to stare at your toilet' bin's contents. Nobody's going to inspect each and every room and approve of it or something.
Stayed up till 12 last night doing my nails and some got ruined so I had to do it again this morning and you ask me to run all over the house, from vacuuming the living room+my room+David's room to hanging the wet laundry-.- Not funny woman-.- I HATE MY VACUUM CLEANER-.- It's the OSIM iEcologi and it WEIGHS A TONNE no joke. You thought is was good because you could steam mop too but NO it had to spoil. And then the stupid tubing had to be replaced. And best part of all, we shipped it down before all this happened-.- We shipped a stupid heavy vacuum cleaner that doesn't steam mop(which it's supposed to) and now a wheel has to drop off meaning we have to CARRY the vacuum cleaner around the house to vacuum the floor-.-
I may sound like some spoilt brat here but seriously? This vacuum cleaner is a KILLER-.-

2011-06-19T21:31:00.000+10:00

sometimes, I think during quarrels, people should step down from their pride and just apologise. What's holding you back? What do you lose for apologising? Your pride? And is it worth losing your friendship for a meaningless quarrel? What's the point of quarreling? If you were really good friends, you would make up after the quarrel. You wouldn't stop speaking to each other, you would be friends with an even stronger friendship. Sometimes, you shouldn't take things so seriously. From the experiences I had, why let these bother you? You just become angry and resentful and you can't do anything well. The fact that you are getting angry shows you care about what the other person is thinking. If you genuinely don't care about the person, then you wouldn't be angry with the person in the first place-.- AND it's probably just a misunderstanding...clear that up and won't you be fine already-.-

2011-06-05T22:53:00.000+10:00

not sure what I'm doing here at this time. It's 10/47pm, I should be sleeping-.-
just finished marking the 2009 paper. OHMAN at this rate I'm going to screw VCE midyears AGAIN which I CANNOT AFFORD. But then that paper apparently was one of the hardest so far...so is that a good sign? I did pretty ok except for the careless ones and a few I didn't have time to complete. Looks like I need to work a lot more quicker.
Honestly, I can't WAIT till the exams are over. I'm also not very extremely prepared. But then, so many things to do, so little time. Stupid chinese detail study takes over from general conversation. Much more research, much more time, MUCH MORE MEMORISATION. And then there's chem. And methods. And basically that's all I care about o.0 I shall go sleep now. Chem sac tmr! practice exammmmmm): I must finish it! -reminds self to bring watch tmr-

2011-05-28T00:18:00.000+10:00

it's been a few days...
tired this week, no reason why though...no sacs, I sleep not very late etc.

ohwell, sometimes some people are just not worth your time and effort.
If you have nothing nice to say then don't say anything.
Some people treat you like you're invisible even though you're bang right in front of them.
They pretend to be nice to you in front of people they care about.
But that just shows how fake they are.
If you are ignored by someone like that, they are not worth your sincerity.
They think they're all up there but they don't realise what they really are and that is probably their loss.
To have a character like that does not make you be the top.
Insecurity maybe? I don't know but it's definitely not my business.
I'm not going to be bothered by the fact that you ignore me(gee why would I care honestly-.-)
I shall end my rant because it is kind of late now.
Good night!(morning actually..)

2011-05-23T11:20:00.000+10:00

tired tired tired
such a bad idea to sleep late on a sunday night.
I am just wondering how I used to survive waking up at 6am every single morning, staying back like 6-6.30pm twice a week and then eating lunch at 3++ every single day. Not to mention chinese bu ke every monday then ends at 4++?!! Of course it's much more intense now in Singapore. Lessons end mostly at 4pm almost every day and that's without cca...

think I'm going to do bound feet for detail study...
pictures are gruesome but there isn't much to do on Zheng He(the famous explorer guy for those who don't know) can't find much information about him except that he's muslim, he's a eunuch and he sailed all the way to Africa..so I need 4 general areas from that but not much to say in each point right?
so I guess I'm going to do bound feet...Reading about how it's done, it just shows how sadistic men were...subjecting women to such pain for your um...sexual desire is very...self-centred. And apparently it was pro-confucious in the aspect that women had to be reliant on their husbands and couldn't run about the place and stay mostly at home...Tie your feet to get married?!! But then again, men used to have more powere over women so...women were subjected to such a harsh practice as KIDS. Robbed them of their childhood, caused them to suffer for the rest of their lives. And the worst thing of all is that it was carried out for about 1000 years!! Good thing it was stopped.

2011-05-11T17:21:00.000+10:00

Melbourne weather's driving me nuts-.-
was already so called and now it has to rain NON-STOP
how is this even possible-.- should be close to snowing soon-.- in the morning it's 4-6 degrees, at night maybe 1-2 degrees more..it wasn't this cold last year...
but also because of the rain that I saw a beautiful glowing rainbow. Was on the train(glen waverley line) and saw a rainbow that had it's base on the opposite sides of the train...which makes it seem like the train is passing through the rainbow arch. So beautiful especially when the sun came out and the left side of the rainbow started GLOWING. It disappeared exactly at 2.59pm...then as I was going to cross the road(at 3.11pm) I saw another one...how do I know it was another one? the arch was pointing in a different direction. Lasted for a much shorter time but still first time I ever saw 2 rainbows in one day couldn't take any pictures because well, my phone camera wouldn't e able to see it anyway...
beautiful sight in a freezing cold day...

wonder what's wrong with melbourne weather this week...it's absurdly/unbearably COLD...not to mention the rain that soaks into your shoes...this is no fun-.- I wear like a shirt and a jumper AND a fleece jacket thing at home-.- in school, it's shirt, school shirt, school jumper, school blazer AND it's still cold>< wind and rain just doesn't make it any better><

David's off to camp for the whole week...I wonder how he's surviving when I'm freezing...
and the downside of him going to camp is I have to wash the dishes AND dry the dishes(which is his job-.-) and furthermore...the air is FREEZING so technically, touching water is a retarded action to be doing-.- Using the computer and playing the piano makes my hands freeze up, but then again, my hands freeze up pretty easily. The upside about David going to camp is, the house is much more quieter...would this be how it would be like if he wasn't born? My mother's back late, freezes then microwaves our dinner, makes me pack my own recess/lunch etc. It's a slightly different story when David is around...

busy weekend ahead, I better get a headstart!
This friday: Chinese role-play SAC
Next monday: Chem SAC; further bring-home SAC due
don't rmb what else I have...but that's it for now(:

2011-05-04T16:26:00.000+10:00

funny how everyone has to return to their daily hermit life when just a night ago, everyone was on fb, encouraging each other.
Read some fb statuses and it seems like...it didn't go that well? Am I right? all the statuses seem so down...or maybe it's because it's the last performance with this batch of year 6s...

Feel kind of left out at the moment...everyone knows what happened except me, no one is around to tell me, all the statuses updated after syf don't include me o.0 (of course it wouldn't since I'm not even there-.-) I'm thinking too much. I shall stop. Everyone goes on with their life and so should I. I think band was my main source of motivation in rv. Sure band pracs were crazy, the number of band pracs during the holidays and before syf were crazy, but in the end, it's the place I met so many people, people who made my life different in rv. I learnt so much. So, thank you seniors(and batchmates) for all the memories you have given me.

2011-05-03T09:22:00.000+10:00

I resisted the urge to blog yesterday but then I blog today-.-
ohwell, here goes
RVSeniorBand SYF 2011 is here.
Regardless of the result, everyone knows how much effort and practise you peeps have put in so that in itself is commendable. The whole 10 minutes on that stage is yours. It's your decision what to do with it. Hopefully, past mistakes were learnt from and you guys come back triumphant this time!!(: Here's wishing you all the best in today's syf at 3.05pm.
I actually feel really sad that I can't be with this batch to play and work hard for this syf...it's the batch of band peeps that I'm closest to, probably spent the most time in band with and now after this last performance with seniors(year 6s) they're finally stepping down. It seems like yesterday that I was sec1. I still rmb the first band prac where I didn't know how to set up the music stand and zoenin helped me. And then sebby and jiayi being super scary when I was in sec1. And now, we've advanced from a sec1 junior recruit to a senior. The responsibilty increases, the skill has improved by a lot(especially after syf) and the bonds created become stronger by each band prac. It's the last time performing on stage with the current batch of RVseniorband peeps, treasure it.
RVSeniorBand, JIAYOU!!
klarinutz ftw <3
firsts! seconds! thirds! bass! GOGOGO!!
Sebastian, Jiayi, Lihua, Kaizhen
Kimyee, Zoenin, Kimberly, Yijun, Evan
all the best!!(:

the best I played on stage was with this current batch,
the best I've ran 100m is also with this batch.
memories forever.

2011-04-20T19:45:00.000+10:00

don't get it why parents make their kids clean up the house when a visitor visits...
like it actually becomes some major spring cleaning event every time
and of course, everyone knows that it's going to be equally messy the next day-.-
so what's the point?
your visitors aren't here to see the house-.- they're here to see YOU
I didn't invite them to come and stay in our house for a week, neither did you
but that doesn't give you the right to call for me to do things every single minute
that doesn't give you the right to scream at every person in the house
What's the point of cleaning up when by day 3, the house will be messy again?
vacuum, wash toilet, mop floor etc.
they're not going to freaking TOUR the whole house for the WHOLE DAY
they won't go to you and say IT'S NOT CLEAN HERE
they aren't health/hygiene inspectors
why do we have to clean the WHOLE HOUSE so that they can be introduced to a neat/clean house which will be dirty by at most day 3?
even so, it doesn't give you the right to scream.

it's miriam's birthday today!!(: so fast and it's already a year...still remember trying to rush out her present last year...not much time to do so this year though...it's test period in singapore(well, basically for my whole holiday-.-) so at the moment I have no one to talk to and no one to go out with(not like I very free luh-.-) ohwell...sometimes I feel like I'm living 2 lives...the aussie life and the singapore life...go to school, one life. Come back home, switch to other life again...

2011-04-19T17:38:00.000+10:00

the holidays are half over and the amount of work I've done is not commendable
I don't want school to reopen):
parent's friends from singapore coming on thursday, staying at our house, going on holiday with us...

australia used to be a place I visit for holiday but now I live here. Never even thought of this before.
If you ask me to choose where I would like to live between singapore and australia, honestly, I can't give you an answer. To me, these two places will always be my home. Whether or not I will go back to singapore to work, I can't make up my mind. But I will definitely study uni here.

One thing that is different is that asian artistes hardly ever come here-.-
Singapore and malaysia gets so many visits from korean and taiwan stars every single year. While over here so far JJ lin had 1 concert here last year and show luo's concert recently. Even if you want to see them also cannot. They probably think that there aren't enough fans here to bring them here o.0

ohwell, enough ranting for today.

2011-04-12T20:39:00.000+10:00

GOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLD

I can't describe how I feel right now in words. Words alone are not enough. My heart is almost flying into space with the amount of joy and pride I feel right now.

Congratulations juniors!! You did a very good job, you got back the gold for us and that means a lot. You've done yourself/ms chan/seniors proud. Great work klarinutz!!<3 The immense joy is overwhelming. And apart from the fact that you guys did get a gold, you were the ONLY BAND TODAY THAT GOT A GOLD!! I'm so happy for you all and so proud of your performance. Life goes on but this will definitely be something no one will forget! Once a bandsmen/klarinutter, always a bandsmen/klarinutter <3

BE PROUD TO BE A MEMBER OF RVCONCERTBAND!

2011-04-11T21:19:00.000+10:00

I just realised the previous post was on the 2 year anniversary of my first and last syf ever o.0
and now I'm blogging about the one tomorrow.
12 april, 9.00am, rvcb klarinutz jiayou!!
I will be uh, morally supporting you guys all the way!!
I'm really sorry I can't be there to tell you this personally or even help you guys(stupid ambitious me wanted to do so much to help when I went back but totally forgot when I was actually back-.-)
all I just want to say is, don't regret any single moment you have on that stage. Every minute gone is past. Enjoy your time on stage, show the judges what you've been practising and aiming for and putting in so much effort. I know you guys can do it! There's only been 4 GWH so far and quite a number of Golds compared to syf '09(I think) You guys have the chance, the skill and the ability, so go for it and show people who RVCB is! CUE AND JERK(LOLOL kill the jerk o.0) make the judges enjoy it as much as you do! play out! don't be afraid!
as a 过来人, I don't want anyone to regret. Want to go, go all the way, don't turn back halfway! Even primary school students can tell you 不要半途而废! So in conclusion, JIAYOU ALL THE BEST RVCB KLARINNUTZ!! Don't disappoint yourself!!

2011-04-08T09:47:00.000+10:00

Saw that melbourne high guy again with the man with the guide dog. Happy to see that he know what to do now(:

I don't get why people like to say 'oh my god'. After hearing this explanation I know why it is so insulting to God. Imagine if someone used your name. Oh my ____(enter your name here)! Oh my Mary, Oh my Tom. Would you like it? It is a pure insult. Similarly God is a name, not a title. Isn't this the same as insulting Him? Over time, I guess it becomes a habit but of course you can still do something about it.

Random girl was peeking at my chinese conversation script just because it's chinese and she thinks it's hers?! Doesn't give her the right to do that right? She doesn't even know my name and pops her head right over my paper. Sure, I'm not even looking at it-.- IT'S NOT YOURS WOMAN!

It is FIANLLY the last day of term 1. It just hit me that this will be the last term 1 I will ever have in high school o.0 and in english today, my teacher was telling us we had 19 weeks of school(exclu has alreading holidays) left. That seriously is very short. It has already been 10 weeks and in 2 times of term 1, I have graduated?!! This thought is so...(no words to describe) I want to finish school but not really looking forward to university. All the assignments etc. in university seems very hard>< I really can't wait for today to end. This holiday's going to be super busy and I better go sleep more before school reopens!!

2011-04-06T16:43:00.000+10:00

sometimes there's nothing great about being asian
was on the train this morning.
got onto the train and there was a person with a guide dog and well, the guide dog was trained to go to the nearest priority seat. So as usual the dog directed its owner there but this asian melbourne high guy was sitting there. With a dog sniffing at his bag how can he not see that he should give up his seat? so what if the other priority seat is vacant? Don't you have the grace to give up your seat for someone who needs it much more than you? That seat is not called PRIORITY SEAT for nothing. Or are you so smart until you can't read 'priority seat' right? Who cares if you're smart/from melbourne high or not. Have you not learnt about BASIC COURTESY? If you have, where has it gone? Because evidently you have not heard of such a thing. Where are your moral values? Are you studying too hard until you NEED a seat? Gee, it wasn't made for you to sit when there's someone who needs it more than you. Can't you see the person? At least apologise? No grace.
Worst thing is, his friends came on board at later stations and sat there too, obviously oblivious to the fact. AND in the end, they stood up and 2 other asian men sat there. If you can stand up to accompany your friends, why can't you give up your seat in the first place? It's just standing for a few more stations only anyway. Can you not hear how displeased the guy was? Or was your music blasting too loud through your earphones? The seat is meant for him and there you go plonking yourself there. Learn your manners and have the grace(of a man) and give up your seat. It's not that hard. It's not like you don't know how to do it. Right at the moment I felt like screaming at you. Go and reflect.

2011-04-01T08:16:00.001+11:00

how is it possible that there is an 8 DEGREE MORNING in AUTUMN-.-

2011-03-29T22:07:00.000+11:00

it's been about a week...but nobody reads anyway, so who cares HAHA
went for parent-teacher interview just now...
lol...all the teachers say I have to talk more etc.
but I'm just the sort of person that sits there and listen...
HAHA mr gowdie is so cute LOL
'assessment books are actually a rip-off' HAHA
rdm fact of the day? the sun was red just now...

my attempt to trim my fringe failed...
every time the first time I trim it it's ok...and then the second time is just pffft LOL...
and it's not like I can pin it up because I look even weirder-.-
can't wait for it to grow out >.<

one week to the holidays!!!! hahahaha why am I so happy...
can't wait to get more sleeeeeeeep...
should I go for symphonic band on thursday?
I have to wake up so early in the morning to go for 1 hour-.-
but we're going to play Mancini! (the song title does actually have the exclamation mark) which is a new piece...

I shall decide later><
for now,
SLEEEEEEEEP~

2011-03-23T09:56:00.000+11:00

the revolution of Apple is so amazing...
was going home on the trin yesterday,
and realised I was surrounded by 8 people using iPhones.
3 Iphone4s and the rest iPhones.
and this was just randomly standing on the train.

anyway, two days ago 万里香was on sbs2!!
showing hainan chicken rice found in London, Beijing and Tokyo.
lol where is the melbourne one-.- so now we can't go and eat because we don't know where the best hainan chicken rice in melboure is. So ironic how some people don't learn how to cook it in singapore but learnt to cook it in some foreign far-away country. The chicken looks so nice on tv>< I want to eat tooo!! apparently you have to pull the chicken limbs before cooking because then the met will be soft as when it's getting killed they may be tense o.0 and then after cooking you dunk it in cold water o.0 but still, it looks so good!! they even make the chilli sauce and the ginger thing. ohman>< it would be nice to eat singapore hawker food at this moment.

it's going to rainnn...but it's already so cold...why is it still going to rain-.-
ohwell...chinese lesson ends in 4 minutes!!

2011-03-20T22:26:00.001+11:00

sometimes I feel like the dumbest person in the world...
now is one of those moments...

2011-03-16T08:24:00.000+11:00

it's been a awhile since I've posted
had a long weekend last week because monday was labour day
seriously can't wait for the holidays and I have no idea why...
people in singapore having march holidays now but knowing rv,
a holiday is never a holiday with all the homework and all the cca
syf is coming!! secondary school level 12 april
apparently tuning is good so does that mean that there's hope? haha..
feel so regretful that I didn't help when I went back>< didn't get to go to your sectionals and only went for 1 combine...ohwell, it's beyond my capability now...
not sure about senior band though

cabaret night this friday!! playing the incredibles theme song and some boradway mix of songs(which includes the circle of life and always look on the bright side of life)
should I get someone to record it for meee? or should I just bring a camera onto the stage and record everything from my stand o.0 but that means you can only see the people behind me in the recording?!! hahahhaa...solo-ing first o.0 if I squeak everyone will knoww><
hope we don't screw it...every performance last year we had was screwed...all stupid reasons eg. not in tune, out of rhythm, not watching conductor, the whole band playing at different speed etc. a repetition of every single mistake that happened before in rvcb...it's not easy but since the band is smaller shouldn't it be easier?

and then there's open day on saturday and the school made it some compulsory event but anyway all the music groups have to attend for 1 hour 'pretend' rehearsal...LOL...rehearsal for what? no idea..

2011-02-26T15:38:00.000+11:00

I hate it when people come to visit...
they will tour the house like it's very fun-.-
and then we have to spend the whole day cleaning up the house so that it's presentable?
just don't show your guests the rooms!! you can say it's private and there's nothing wrong with that.
have some people coming over tonight but they are very....
ohwell...the kids are kind of...not sociable...
lol if you meet them you might be ?!!! I didn't even do anything...
argh...overall, not looking forward to tonight.
another chem sac this coming friday...why can't the world just stop for one day and everyone can play and be happy...
if technology didn't advance then we would all still be cavemen?!!
the world out there is so competitive, the society is just a race to the top of the ladder...
why has mankind become so greedy?
greedy for money, for power etc. of course there are people in the world who aren't like that...
but I believe everyone wants to succeed whether they try or not...

it is a hot day today...stepping out in the sun will probably give you heatstroke.
water plants!!~ grapevine in my backyard refuses to grow...even though I flood it's pot at least once every day unless it's raining...
before I left for singapore, the whole vine was covered in leaves and then now when I came back the vine was pratically dead-.- all the leaves drying up and dropping off etc. looks like we have to wait till next year...

2011-01-25T11:06:00.000+11:00

school's starting again): the day after tomorrow
not looking forward at all-.-
lol...I think I'm becoming a pig, sleeping almost 10 hours every night!! ;P
thursday, go to to school, 3.30 leave school for "camp" go back the next day from there by yourself-.-
and most of the school starts on 4 feb!!! which is like one week later!!
school hasn't even started and I know when's my next test o.0
haven't even got all my textbooks yet...have to get it tomorrow...
another year I say,
and realise it's the last year in high school=I'm old?!!
well, there's no point grabbing at the past
the past will remain the past...but I'm so uncertain about my future><
at the moment I'm just trying to get the highest ATAR score possible...so that I can have a larger variety of courses I can take...but after VCE then what...LOL...
anyway, rdm fact o.0
my eyelid's swollen for no reason o.0 it looks more like it gained weight...and it doesn't hurt or itch so WHAT IS IT!!!!!!!!

2011-01-11T22:23:00.000+11:00

do you really not know? are you pretending not to know?
since young I hated that place.
do you know how I felt?
It's not like I like it
I hate spectacles
I hate it
do you not know?
It's not like I ask for a high degree
Do I look like I like it?
I can't stand the way the stupid optometrist stares at me and talks to me as if I don't care about my eyes enough to take care of them
Even if I did take care my degree still increases every time
It's not my fault.
I hate it.
Every time, spending money on new lenses, new frame etc.
you think I want to?
every optician shop makes me shudder
why are there so many in the world?
why is it just ME that has such a high degree?
just because we have to use up the insurance we payed for.
thanks a lot.

2010-12-31T23:55:00.000+11:00

have been wanting to post about my trip back in singapore but too lazy...hehe...
in the last 10 minutes of 2011, I should talk about the year.
it has been an eventful year
so will the next and the next
each year more memories are added, so has the memories of this year
I met many new friends, got to know people from a new church, but still being in contact with singapore friends
maybe I've got the best of both worlds! :P
didn't do as well as I wanted to for VCE but I will do my best next year
anyway,
here's wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!! and set your goals!!

2010-12-24T03:29:00.000+11:00

since it's going to be the last night I'll be online at this kind of hour(12.15am) in singapore, I think I should blog
went to miriam's house today
sat downstairs and talked and took pictures
now gina has a lot of unglam pictures-.-
too bad michelle couldn't come today because of sore throat
yesterday we went to bugis to uh...take neoprints
lol...in conclusion, we wasted $12 altogether
ate pepper lunch fr lunch again yesterday
ate chicken instead
walked to iluma, went to the arcade only to realise that you need the card to play
and obviously we didn't have any so ended up walking around city hall
although it was kind of boring but somehow it was fun
I actually enjoyed it
slippers gave me blisters again today
I think I should get another pair...even after pasting so many plasters on my slippers and on my foot,
I still get blisters-.-
went to take passport photos this morning
didn't take too long to find the place(:
then I went to my grandma's house, ate lunch then went to jurong point
and finally, I found fahrenheit's album. Finally found it after looking through quite a few popular stores.
then went to miriam's house(:
spent abot an hour just eating the pacifier lollipop thing HAHA
not going out tomorrow until about 3
until then~

2010-12-17T13:21:00.000+11:00

decided to write my gan xiang about band now since there's no band next week=I won't see them anymore
and also the erm...review of my bad haircut that I wasted $14 on-.-
let's talk about the waste of money first. I paid $14 and now my fringe is too short and my ponytail is fat and short(no shape at all) all I can say is I can't wait for my hair to grow out again

anyway, regarding band, I want to first thank the hostel gate uncle for letting me in(not like the one at the front gate-.-) although yesterday you told me no visitors can go in by hostel gate(or any other gate) without a teacher's permission, thanks for letting me in. It meant a lot to me. But, what if I told you the next time you see me is many years later? What if I told you my juniors/seniors/batchmates might not see me until maybe a few years later?
anyway, enough about that. Shall talk about senior band first. Listening to a full band(although not with many people) again feels really good. A totally different soud from a band comprising of mostly flutes and with the lowest instrument being the trombone. For once I actually heard an in tune note from a whole band. this has actually never occurred in my life in junior band. Ms Chan hopes that senior band will perform well for syf, either maintaining a silver or even getting a gold. Listening the pieces senior band is not too bad. Although I won't be able to experience the bonding of the whole band for the same purpose again, I wish senior band all the best and I hope you will really perform well. I also wish I could play with klarinutz once again but I guess that's just not possible. Tried playing Jiayi's instrument and realised my air is super weak now. Maybe it's because I haven't practised at all since the last band practice.
now,junior band. Until now, tuning is still terrible, high notes still killing chickens(sha ji), crescendo still forcing. Did we pass all these mistakes on to our juniors? Tuning has always been a big problem, so has high notes. How to make you all understand that crescendo does not mean jut forcing more air to make your volume louder? It doesn't in fact. Can you even tell you are going FLAT when you crescendo? I almost fainted on Tuesday when I heard the band crescendo during warm-up. Excuse me, that is not called crescendo but that's called from normal air to forced air. Juniors high C still flat, that one no choice but to train air. Quite understandable why ms chan will scold junior band. She's much nicer in senior band you know? maybe it's because the junior band has so many people so it's harder to control? But honestly I also like senior band's soud more than junior band. More people may mean more volume but more people have to be kept in line like for running notes etc. And how come you all come in the same note same time also can cue differently one arh? Anyway, you all must jiayou ok!! I know it's not easy to get back that gold but try your best and have no regrets once you get off that stage. I just hope no one will step off that stage feeling regretful over what you did on that stage. Remember, one chance and it's over.

2010-12-14T22:10:00.000+11:00

went to band today
finally got into school
attended mdm so kah lay's farewell ceremony
no tears were shed, good thing principal didn't see me in my section tee and shorts
stayed for junior band but I believe I wasted my time
spent more than an hour just on warmup and tuning
and they already tuned before assembling-.-
in the end left when they almost finished tuning and warming up
left for lunch with my batch ppl!!(:
but so many people weren't here today
band is diferent
I don't know so many people, so many people don't know me
senior band is really relaxed compared to junior band
now I can fully understand why teaching junior band is so hard
firstly, there are so many people, so many sections
secondly, people don't listen to each other, high notes also just blast, crescendo also force until so flat
thirdly, whatever you say just goes in and comes out
sure some people try to apply whatever they learn but there are some just don't do anything
tuning also don't listen whether in tune or not, so many waves
As a person playing clarinet, I know how hard it is to be in tune all the time but at least TRY to listen to maybe the person beside you?
and junior arh...how come the note is come in the same time but cue different time one leh? if you cue different time then isn't it equating to not playing together, needless to say come in together?
honestly, I'm kind of disappointed
I was hoping something might change but nothing has changed for the better so far, well in the tuning aspect that is
tuning out how to talk about playing pieces?
by putting how many days to syf on the board does it motivate the band to work harder? or will it just serve as a count down for a day of disappointment that you will remember for a very long time
most people will only experience syf once in sec school
very few will go twice
those who go twice know what it's like, lead the rest
I hope the result won't be disappointing as it was last year
see you guys on thursday then...
would be good if you guys had a short sectionals because there are some things I hope to say, but don't actually know how to say it.

2010-12-09T23:52:00.000+11:00

I believe my holiday is ruined
can't even enter rv anymore
I thought I could always call that place mine but I guess I thought wrong
I can't even go in, much less surprise anyone or help with any problems
It's so fustrating knowing that there are so many problems and NONE are getting solved
and I can't even go in to see them
you want me to watch from outside the gate?!!
I spent so long finding the school, finding the school's main entrance only to be told I can't go in
come on, I will most like see them for about 2 weeks once a year,
is that fair to me?
I understand it's the rule but do I look like I will cause chaos in the school?
I just want to visit the people I haven't seen in a whole year,
is that so difficult? I have things to give them can I just see them to at least personally give it to them?
no obviously I can't.
I just thought I could help a little bit, but now I can't
I don't want to get caught, I don't want anybody who helps me to be in trouble
this is really fustrating

2010-12-06T15:59:00.000+11:00

finally took the uh...long-anticipated pictures of my new house(:

My house from outside

the garage on the right


small wooden balcony outside


cherry blossom tree outside my house


My front door(look at the handle!!)

hallway

on the left of the hallway is the piano/computer room

go a little further and it's my room(bookshelf opp. bed,cupboard on the left of bed, study table opp. my very messy dressing table)

hallway continued

David's room after the hallway turn(we painted his whole room including ceiling!!!)

then there is the toilet after David's room(redid this toilet)

another toilet, in another turn in the hallway

laundry/pantry opposite the toilet above

pantry

and opposite the turn, is the kitchen(: and further down is my dining table)

living room on the right of the front door(opposite the piano/computer room)


backyard(see the grape vine?) good weather so we washed a lot of clothes(:

shed at the back of the house(our temporary storeroom)


lemon tree


apricot tree

that's all(:

2010-12-01T17:37:00.002+11:00

THE YEAR IN REVIEW
today marks one year from the first day I had in Australia, 1 December 2009
once again, thanks to everyone who took the time to see me off the airport, it meant a lot to me
this day marks a new chapter in my life, the big move - to Australia
and last Saturday I moved to my permanent home
sure, everything has changed.
Lifestyle, school, friends etc.
of course I miss things in Singapore
but I've learnt to move on
we aren't separated for life and we can always email/webcam/call
still remember the reasons holding me back from moving,
firstly, leaving all me close friends behind
secondly, clarinets. As a senior, you can't stop worrying about your section, especially when each batch is getting worse and worse and you have no idea what's the problem
thirdly, pkc. After serving there for 3 years, I kind of miss that place.
but, ohwell, there are many new things to look forward to in Australia

so many things have changed in Singapore too
the new school compound, new teachers(especially new principal), moving on to year4
I actually feel really old talking about being year 4 but I'm now in year 5?!! haha
doing VCE next year, have no idea about my degree of preparedness
don't even ask me what I want to do when I grow up or what course I want to do in uni
I'm just going to study hard, do my best and see what my score can get me into
likewise, you people study hard too ok!! and practise hard(klarinutters) and don't get kicked out of the school!!

most importantly, I want to thank my friends for being there through everything and may our friendship will last the test of time.

“时间是一道不能反转的门”，
一旦过去了，就永不回头。
再多的想念也没用，
还是继续为自己的未来努力吧！

2010-11-02T10:56:00.000+11:00

was watching a video on fb of kids singing 'in whom I can trust' in phpps hall
it has been a long time since I saw the hall...
don't even remember much of the hall...just rmb the important areas of the schcool...
1st level, canteen
2nd level, staff room
3rd level, library
4th level, hall
and the rest are classrooms...still remember complaining about having to climb up 14 flights of stairs at least twice every day bcos as the oldest we get the highest classrooms BUT we don't need to share lockers with other levels...and the puny-sized field that got transformed into a small little triangle you can hardly call a field(it used to be bigger in the old building) spent 2 years in each school compound, the oldest, holding school and the new one...quite even-ed out..I sort of miss out
David in contrast doesn't miss a single part of peihwa-.- he claims he can't even remember the school song when I still can remember it...

urgh-.- have to go now...wil continue the post another day

2010-11-01T14:49:00.000+11:00

no school todayyy~
tomorrow is melbourne cup = horse racing = public holiday
going to pon house swimming on friday so technically I only have 2 days of school this week!!(: haha...

posted a video of me playing yu jian on facebook not long ago...
that song means a lot to me I guess...it's hard to put it in words...
only my batch knows it...and plays it err...occasionally(:
klarinutz arh...how are you guys doing now huh!! are you ppl improving in the right direction or the wrong direction!! so true that every batch is worse than the last...rvcb used to be a good band and we...kinda ruined it-.- ohwell...我无话可说

Also, this is kinda late but...
thanks to the people who wished me happy birthday and the manymany people who err...forgot since I deactivated my facebook then for bio exam...lol...IM THE PERSON WITH THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS MS CHAN *waves hand* felt like a really normal day, even more normal than other days...will uh...post a picture of the cake a later time since the picture's not in this computer...felt quite old after my birthday o.0

2010-10-25T18:06:00.001+11:00

this shall be the last post before bio exam(friday)
I THINK I'm prepared...not very sure....need to memorise all the definitions for the different terms...read through...err...evolution again? I think that's all actually o.0 then back to doing practice papers...
saw on yahoo singapore that haze is very bad!!

anyway, today's perforance was ok...and there was actually extra bio revision lessons after school so i sat there for 20minutes hopped off to my performance, hopped back in 30 minutes...the performance was.......
screwed the introduction of the last piece...but the rest was...kinda ok...not as good as the rehearsals

have an ugly sock tan): it's mayb 7cm above my ankle?!!! it's not very obvious but can sort of see a line there>< i used to have a sock tan like BELOW MY ANKLE and now it's way higher, a random place above my ankle-.-

dinner now...study later(: blog NEXT WEEK...lol...

2010-10-24T17:43:00.000+11:00

AHHH dead dead dead
first of all, friday bio paper...I have no idea whether I'm prepared or not...did like at least 10 papers already I think...but my short-answer is still very lousy...
secondly, tmr I have a quartet performance AFTER SCHOOL(what in the world was I thinking when i agreed><) AND I need to pick David and WALK HOME WITH HIM FROM THE TRAIN STATION and how am I supposed to do that when the stupid performance starts at 4 and he ends school at 3.30(walk to the station 4.00?!)?!!! and it's not like I can tell my mother that I have performance...she will just bite off my head-.- bcos she needs to go somewhere?!! and now I can't pick David and what am I supposed to do nowwwww><
checked the stupid tram and train times(inefficient transport) I will reach the station like 4.45-.- which is 1 hour later...and obviously David will kill me>< and my mum will kill me too>< AHHHHH....WHY OF ALL DAYS AND TIMES SERIOUSLY?!!! why must we start at 4!!!!!!!>< can't we start once school ends? I believe none of the people need lunch since we get lunch time during school hours...35 minutes break before starting...IT'S NOT NEEDED LUH!!! agreeing to play in that quartet is a stupid mistake in itself
ate up my whole week's lunchtime(every day) and now I even need to stay back for the stupid performance that starts at 4 and practically wastes my whole day after school when my VERY IMPORTANT EXAM is on FRIDAY what the?!! I can't even email the girl by school email because there are SO MANY PEOPLE IN THE SCHOOL WITH THE SAME NAME AND I DON'T KNOW HER SURNAME-.- and it's weird if I just email the teacher DIRECTLY which I bet she won't see until tmr or mayb even later...HOWHOWHOWHOWHOW....somebody help me>< if I tell my mum I go see teacher then she will ask why cannot go another day-.-...AHHHHHHHHHHH....HELPHELPHELP>< I am regretting my decision a whole lot...if only the stupid performance starts EARLIER...shall try asking tmr...because I really can't stay...if they insist then...I'm sorry I really can't stay...

2010-10-10T12:43:00.000+11:00

it's 10/10/10 today!!(:
and I should start getting off the computer...
3 more weeks til bio exam...
first week of school was ok...
just that i had to fall sick right on the first day of school until now-.-
performance next week level of readiness? ZERO
lol...the band just sounds nothing like what we're supposed to sound...well, in my view anyway.
everything is everywhere...and so....quite messed up

2010-09-13T20:51:00.000+10:00

term break!! 3 weeks of holiday/studying/sleeping
haha...lots to catch up this holiday...
had formal last week...i think a lot of people saw the pictures?
and I guess it's high time I post again haha...since the last post was like in june o.0 long time ago...
last term of the year
it has been really quick...been in Australia for 10 months alr...
2 more months to mark a year..
I actually have nothing to do when I'm bored of homework...
just a lot of studying for biology since I have 2 sacs to do...
and 2 chapters to go through for the holidays...

found the scores for taeyang's wedding dress online...I can play the introduction now haha...and the rest...sounds quite weird at the moment...

what else can I talk about):

hmm...it's spring now!! although it was cold today...all the clouds arh): blow yourself away luh-.-
but it's getting a lot warmer haha...can wear summer dress to school next term already...after 2 terms(half a year) of wearing winter uniform...take at least 10 minutes wearing winter uniform...
because need to wear shirt inside and then the school shirt and school jumper and then for the bottoms, wear stockings and then wear shorts and then wear skirt and last of all blazer...
ah...that's all for today~

2010-06-22T18:49:00.000+10:00

the degree of coldness is crazy-.-
currently is uh...11.6 degrees, overnight 7 degrees-.-
locked out of classroom today-.- the whole class
during like class assembly thing and the whole class was like standing outside freezing...
it feels exaggerated-.-
like my shampoo is more solid?!!
and my mother buys coconut milk in cans and the top SOLIDIFIES bcos it's cold-.-
and to top it off i have a runny nose-.-

but anywayyyyyy,
school closes next weeeeeeeeek~
last week of school b4 holidays and only 2 levels are actually having normal lessons while the rest of the school is like away having fun-.-
going skiing on 2 july XD although i dunoe how to ski hehe...
so irritating that singapore hols end when i start...
ohwell...i will make very good use of this holiday to studyy
haha...i always say that but end up otherwise-.-

my batch stepping down on friday o.0
never thought that this day would come so fast...
klarinutz uh...after seniors step down you all must work hard ok!!(:
although i have no idea how you all sound right now...but...definitely after seniors leave the section and band will sound weaker but you all just have to jiayou and play louder luh ok!!(:
can't believe next year is syf again...2 years seems quite fast uh><
last week of band prac o.0 and drills HAHA
does anyone know when the sec 1s are joining junior band as in like main band?

OHYES...i twas the shortest day in Australia ystd, dunoe if anyone knew? dunoe whether it applies in singapore or not? didn't know until somebody told me o.0 can't really tell anyway
the sun sets super early nowadays...like 4++ 5? and in summer at 9pm then the sun sets-.- so much difference...2 more months of winter~ in korean shows when it's like winter then when they speak then have the fog coming out of their mouth right, then over here today at like 10++am still have that fog thing...so cold uh><

anybody watch world cup? o.0 i somehow tend to watch the very late ones and end up sleeping but waking up occasionally to watch o.0 watched the south korea vs Greece one haha SO PRO!!(:but then lost to argentina...lol...ok...this was quite a while ago no idea about recent matches o.0 i just know usa played? haha...
that's uh..all for today?!!

2010-06-08T16:34:00.001+10:00

it's been a long time

and it's one of the most disappointing days in my life...
don't want to talk anymore about it
what's past is past, it's the future that's important(:

no upcoming events,

heard that fantasia VIII was great!!(:
songhua says on fb he is excited about the upcoming plans for RV band,

SOMEBODY BETTER TELL ME WHAT THEY ARE (LOL)

and uh....that's it.

2010-03-31T10:14:00.000+11:00

it's a random cloudy day but the clouds aren't dark clouds.
it's the holidays now!!(: haha...lol...
hmm...no motivation to really post something-.-
heard that the promotion criteria was changed o.0
to promote GPA 2.5 and at least B4 for english and chinese o.0
they lowered the gpa o.0
hmm...
whatelsewhatelsewhatelse><
APRIL FOOL'S DAY TMR!!(: not like i'll go prank anyone-.-
whenever i go online hardly anybody is online-.- so i don't use the computer for very long?!! haha...
ohwell...i shall just go reply emails!!(:

2010-02-13T13:59:00.000+11:00

super long time before i blogged...lol...
some er...promised pictures i haven't taken yet...lol...
like the one of my house and err...my uniform?!!
haha...

everyone's busy in singapore...
it's chinese new year eve...but it totally feels like a normal weekend...
going to my dad's friend's house for dinner tonight then going some pot luck thing at another person's house...
it's also valentine's day tmr...quite cool haha chinese new year and valentine's day on the same day!!(:

went for band prac on thursday...lol...the intrument i used was...-no comments-
lol...it's plastic and i haven't heard of that brand before...and apparently one of the pads dropped off and i was like squeaking a whole lot...so malu-.- then i had to use a reed size 2...lol...so i was super flat?!! then i decided not to play since i can't play in tune and i keep squeaking lol...
but in the end it sort of got "fixed" then i can play some notes-.- you can actually see the pad MOVING when you press the key to open the hole-.- i was like NO WONDER cannot play properly...lol...found the pieces simple...more of catching up with the speed but yea...but not much of a challenge...like no high notes, no running notes, no weird weird rhythm...oh well...that's so far...but the band is super unbalanced...bcos everyone plays what they want to play...so...no tubas o.0 and a lot of ppl play flutes o.0
about half the band consists of flutes? haha yea...but it's ok...
some ppl may know about this o.0 but my parents said buy a secondhand clarinet for me...my dad says they confirm will not buy a new one for me but then will confirm not buy me a plastic one...can't find any secondhand buffet RC...quite sad...but there is buffet E-11...have to go try to find out...
i think im nuts-.-(as nuts as klariNUTZZ HAHAH) like actually buying a clarinet?!! me?!

heard about all the crazy stuff that's happening in rv...like right now, the crazy gpa year 4s are supposed to get to get promoted and the A2 for o lvl higher chinese...and about extended band hours and more and more practices...all i can say now is JIAYOU!!(: but i can't do much o.0

hmm...what else did i want to say o.0
don't rmb but wish everyone happy chinese new year and valentine's day!!(: haha...

2010-01-01T20:58:00.000+11:00

today's date is 01012010
o.0 so many zeros and ones
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!(:

and tmr band members performing for tone poem...
all the best and...dun err...
screw it!!(:

tmr everyone needs to go to school early...
so...finally moving in to the new campus...
and im not there to see it o.0
so...i shall try to go back and see it soon!!(:

that's all~
jiayou for tmr!!(:

2009-12-31T18:49:00.001+11:00

it's the last day of 2009...
it's not only the last day of 2009...
it's the last day of this decade...
goodbye to 2009, welcome to 2010 o.0

tmr is the start of a new decade...
the start of a new year...
another day...

the new start of another chapter, with manymany changes...
this century has been said to be the worst century in dunoe how man year's history...
with all the natural disasters and eh...some big stuff like 911...so...
yea...goodbye to the bad endings and hello to a good beginning...
it's not been a very good year from the start i guess...well...
syf starting off etc. etc.
like it wasn't great for band...then for schoolwork it was better than 2008 o.0
but yea...can be better...

hoping to stay up late tonight...
in time to countdown to new year with singapore...haha and taiwan(:
excited and looking forward to the new year...
hope you are too(:

lastly, wishing everyone a
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

fading away...

2009-12-26T18:20:00.000+11:00

how was everyone's christmas?
spent Christmas with a quite messed up house o.0
bcos had to unpack...
finally have clothes o.0

hmm...school is starting soon in singapore...
shipped stuff have arrived...
done a lot of packing...
there's no trace that i've lived in that house for almost 10 years...
furniture all gone...
house already sold...
fading away...
only source of showing i existed in singapore is my friends...
and the emails...
sometimes i wonder...
what will we talk about the next time i see you all...
will it be different?
will i change?
will everyone change?
i guess so...
but there's nothing i can do...

miss someone calling me AUNTYYYYYYYYYYY *hugs*
and miss someone tlkaing about the DBSK and fahrenheit stuff with me *winks*
and miss being part of band
miss my clarinet(evan how's my clarinet o.0)

memories are still there...but fading...in the future...
in the future...not as many memories...
thanks for being my friend, my sister and yea....applies to YOU!(:
hope we can remain that way...for manymany years to come...
i don't regret knowing you all at all
thanks for being there for me & everything...

anyway...wishing everyone a

MERRY CHRISTMAS

and a

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!(:

going cherry picking tmr!!(:

miss everyone...

2009-12-08T14:10:00.000+11:00

have decided to blog like...after one week of arriving in what sarah calls the KANGAROO LAND-.-
lol...i find it amusing but no, melbourne doesn't really have kangaroos, mayb in the wildlife reserves or something but other than that, you don't see them...
wanted to post after hearing the news that ms ek is leaving...well...and compared to the newer principal...she's loads better....from what i heard and read at this article o.0
the new principal is the ex-principal of JJC...and after i read the online article i think he's loads worse than llm...

http://www.gamerzplanet.net/forums/spam/162255-jjcs-principle-removes-his-sheep-clothing-the-true-face-of-torment.html

here's the article...and amazingly i still can log in to ivle?!
haha...aiyooooo...still rmb the time all of us talk about her...lol...and getting pissed bcos of what she said and the veryveryvery long talks she gave during assembly at the field...lol...and well...yea...din appreciate luh...to be honest...

after reading that article im thankful i left><
haha...he's scaryyyyyy>< but i shall still go back and visit><
and tie up my hair in case i get caught by him if i go back><
i scared lehhhhhhh!!><
now the whole school knows she's leaving i think o.0
a lot of ppl know she's leaving at least...

there's a lot of changes for 2010...a year of change we could say...o.0
like i mean...change of school campus, change of principal, im not there anymore, change of school uniforms...etc. etc.

haha...well...things come and go...but the most important thing is to look forward...
a new chapter, a new beginning, an end results in a beginning...a beginning with changes etc. etc.

it was raining this morning...was super cold...good thing i din go out><
won't have internet tmr...and for i dunoe how long...so...post first(:
will try to post more photos on fb(:
haha...
bye for now(:

2009-11-20T01:54:00.000+11:00

the last band prac...
'the last' suddenly sounds so near...
when i thought it's manymany days away...
but actually...it isn't that long...
reality suddenly sets in...it's 11 days left...
thanks everyone for their well wishes and presents...i really appreciate those little things a lot...
like...the class farewell parties...it was totally something i din expect at all...
although i dun really appear surprised...but i really feel very happy and touched and grateful...
it's been 3 years i have spent in RV and i have gathered another 3 years...of beautiful memories that i will keep and remember...
i type like im leaving tmr-.-
was taking pictures of my instru just now...b4 i left the house...for 3K-ilograms farewell party...
and...yea...had a lot of fun and will miss everyone loads...
and monday had 2Deja vu farewell party too...and tmr...have sec 3 band dinner thing at pizza hut...
and strangely...all are dinners o.0
anyway...im talking about this bcos tmr is the last band prac ir rather the last drills...i dun think we have combines tmr...since they din ask us to bring clothes to change...
hope that everyone will do their best tmr(:
have fun doing PT!!(:

2009-10-30T20:04:00.000+11:00

today is the last day of school...can't believe sec 3 life is OVER
like...wow....term 3 and term 4 pass by super fast!!
then now...school hols alr...
tmr...last day of october(:
and tmr is halloween o.0
and damien huang came to our class when we were in the hall then he wrote on the whiteboard
"happy halloween! and regards from me. damien huang"
lol...and gave everyone a lollipop(:
haha...will miss the air-con class room a lot!!):
like how many schools have so many air-con classrooms?!
lol...have band camp coming up...
6-7 nov...and eh...many band pracs...
haha....
and ms chan said some sec 3s might be able to perform with senior band for the yuhua concert...
on the 20 decemeber...
haha...and she got quite pissed with us today...
lol...what for?
playing rubbish...as usual...lol...
a lot of ppl din come today...hmm...
due to eh....other commmitments o.0
haha...hmm....nothing much to say...just that...
will miss the 3 years we have had in the current campus at queensway...
haha...i mean...2 syf's have been practised in this campus...
dunoe how many lessons and cca we have attended at this campus
and all the events...
so...3 years of memory in the current campus!!(:

2009-10-29T23:55:00.000+11:00

i think there's something wrong with the all the air-cons today...
it's like very cold><
first it was the LT1 air-con...bcos went there to take the CID paper...
then go in immediately freeze...super cold...
ended up shivering o.0
then it was the tuition centre air-con...
wah...super cold also....
whats wrong with all the air-cons today?!
then go home the bus also so cold...lol...
and there was this guy that keep standing in front of me and smoke at the bus stop-.-
ew....
i passed CID!!
and i was expecting to fail/get C6 at most o.0
haha...lol...hmm...why do i have like nothing to say now...

2009-10-26T01:13:00.000+11:00

on thursday...the bicultural programme thing...wah...
6 hours of chinese in school then after go home chinese tuition 2 hours. -.-
studying a whole day of chinese will make you quite...er....

then friday...
after track assembly, then mr lee asked some people to stay back...
then he called my name...
then i was thinking DIE...isit ask me go chem remedial or something?!
lol...then actually is ask us if we interested in suzhou GPP...haha...
lol...then he was like those comfirm cannot one can go alr...then more than half the people walked off...lol...
poor mr lee o.0
but this is like the first time a teacher asked me to join some programme o.0
then friday was like some games day...
started with don't forget the lyrics...
haha....
then had some games....like stations games...
haha...
then there was cca...
and ms chan din come so we had sectionals...and gimling and wenhui came o.0
stress arh!! haha...then we spent a lot of time on tuning o.0
and there's no cca on tuesday o.0
but there's cca on the last day of school...
haha....

2009-10-21T23:18:00.000+11:00

hehe...the next 3 days have some special programme o.0
tmr have some bicultural thing...
but rv's bicultural programme's are forever chinese-.-
lol....BIcultural
means TWO which is english and chinese
but then....
haha....chinese all the way tmr...no lessons o.0
and need to wear pe to school...
then friday and nxt tuesday...
bring pe to school
bcos we have some programme organised by the SCs
then next monday is promotion day(:
so no school....

did CIP in the school library today...
and the ari con was spoilt...
and me and michelle got stuck pasting pages into the book...
lol...and after pasting the pages of the book still can't fit into the book....
and benjamin and joel were doing CIP too...
and for the last 10 minutes or less then we went outside the library...
haha...the temperature in the library is higher than the temperature OUTSIDE the library...-.-
it was so warm...i started sweating after a hour-.-

and i need to dig out my expositary test essay
so dead....i dunoe where is it now><
need to go findddddd):
but i dun think i can find it...
howhowhowhowhowhow!!

2009-10-21T00:45:00.001+11:00

haha...
i think i shall put all the names up after all...lolololol....
haha...

thank you to:
zoenin(emperor(: ),sarah,miriam,michelle,ruth,jieying,yunfei,kimyee,junze,chinhong,weikai,joy,eemin,paul,clement,
james,qianyi,yihan,gimling,vengyi(changjin!!),jialing,hueychyi,Ps yvonne,benson,shimin,sebby(sebastian o.0),danish,gracia,shaokai,evan,liang shixian,kaixuan,meilin,marilyn,billy

lol....zoenin!! i put your name(:!! haha....lol...
thanks for the present also(:
haha...lol...i typed out all the name o.0
haha....all those messages made my day(:

anyway...today was an interesting practice(:
we sight-read 'the sound of music'
and ms chan was asking who know the story...lol...
then she was saying mayb holiday have time will show us the show o.0
lol...i have it at home o.0
haha....movie marathon o.0
zi-highing...
anyway....that's not exactly the main point of today's interesting practice.
haha...
bcos CO air-con spoilt and they open the doors...and so can hear them playing from upstairs...
lol...then they were playing a kitaro song...haha...coincidentally, i also have that at home o.0
from upstairs it sounded quite nice(:
haha....then when they were playing the floor was vibrating...and can hear the drums...was quite cool...haha...
never felt that from CO before o.0
haha...anyway...ms chan was saying...
after listening to CO that song for 3 weeks she forget our melody alr...
haha....
then she say can be fei1 xia2 alr...lol...suit the music...haha...she even did some action with the music and it was very very funny!!
haha....
then a few times before we started playing then CO started the meoldy part again...
then ms chan was like suddenly forget howto conduct us...
HAHAHHAA....super funny...
then everyone will end up laughing...lol...
hhaha...
and...ms christine teo is a new band teacher o.0
and next year the BIG WALK 2 JAN involve only sec3 and sec4...and 2 jan is like a SATURDAY...
lol...
and the school anniversary also...only involve sec3 to year5(current levels)
which means haha...i will be involved o.0
lol...

and mr chng gave loads of maths hw today that im going to do in school tmr...lol...
it's really a lot-.-
haha...and i should be doing not blogging><
haha...
so...that's all~ haha...
thanks everybody for the birthday wishes!!(:

2009-10-19T22:04:00.001+11:00

hmm...today is 19102009
haha...and it's well...
my day....
haha...
and also ms chan's birthday(:
happy birthday n=ms chan!!(:
today's weather was great too...
very sunny and sky was so blue but it was very very hot...
haha....
anyway...
hmm...a lot of people wished me happy birthday and i feel very happy...lol...
it's like...a lot of people know you and so on...
haha...no wonder all those 偶像 can always be very happy on their birthdays o.0
they have like so many fans wishing them happy birthday...
got to know many people this year...haha....
anyway....
want to thank everyone who wished me happy birthday o.0
i was thinking whether i should put down all the names...but nobody will see right...lol...
lol...and i decided not to put it up...but anyway...
thankyou everybody!!
haha...

another year has passed...and i feel old-.-
and i still want to grow taller....lol...
another year....to keep as memories(:
haha...
oh and i got a chocolate cake...went out to buy it and ended up sweating like crazy o.0
haha....i shall put a picture of the cake up soon o.0
haha...
bye~
see everyone tmr(:
haha...

happy birthday to me!!(: lol...
(in the process of zi-highing o.0)

2009-10-17T15:48:00.000+11:00

it's saturday...
and i finished watching 1 litre of tears...
and it's really very sad and very touching....
it makes me appreciate being able to move...
we take our mobility for granted...it is something we do every day...
be it walking, running or even talking...
we do it every day,
not taking to mind that some people can't even walk...
the heartless glances some people show the disabled...
it's not like they like it but they still must face it...
they still can get hurt...although they may appear ok....
"If I were a flower, then now I’d be a bud. I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets." and I really don’t want to say things such as "I want to go back to how things were before." I recognized how I am right now; and I will continue to live on." - Aya Kitô
http://www.symphonyoflove.net/blog/95/1-liter-of-tears.html
i think this is a review of some sort....
it is really inspiring...
like....really appreciate yourself now...and live life to the fullest...
lol...
haha....
and study...lol...
that's all
i think i might watch it again...
when i have the time...
haha...
to motivate myself o.0

2009-10-10T14:04:00.003+11:00

anyway...it's wuzun's birthday today!!(:

haha...and the exams are OVERRR with the exception of CID-.-

haha....finally blogger is ok...

and i can actually out a picture(:

haha...

hmmmm...sometimes blogger goes haywire o.0

not good...lol....

2009-08-31T22:05:00.000+10:00

shouldn't be posting...but...
now i know why...
some ppl want to study music...
when you're pissed or whatever, music can change your mood...
it can make you feel sad, happy etc...
it's like listening to music...
is a way to get rid of all the wordly feelings...
playing music, listening to music...it's like being in your own world...
the music just flows...

decided to go back to pei hwa after all....wasn't exactly planning to go back..but since i was early...why not...
went popular first...since it's like opposite each other...then passed by this gift shop so shu bian go buy present and go back lor...
then...i picked my brother...
and i srsly dunoe what the school is trying to do...
the teachers are ok with us going to the staff room but they insist in keeping us in the canteen...
and wait for the teachers to come down...
and it took ages for them to come down..
then i was practically chased home by my mother...
she keep calling me-.-
just bcos my brother was there...
then i was like so pissed then just leave lor...
but luckily o.0
just b4 i left i met my p6 form teacher leh(:
haha...
and my mother was wondering why i so black-face...
is like...NOT MY FAULT OK...
they only allowed us to go in at 12.50 when their school programme end at 12.30 -.-
and i asked my brother if he minded waiting for a while...
and he was OK with that...
and my mother wasn't -.-
just don't understand it sometimes...
somehow i think it's the people that you love most can make you the most pissed, the most sad/hurt....etc....
...............................
and then she started explaining that if i wanted to visit teachers then i should say earlier then dun pick my brother...
but it's like this is one of those rare times i actually get released earlier than him and pick him on the way home so...why not what...i save somebody a trip...
made me quite bad mood for the rest of the day
i sound like im some aunty complaining-.-
so...i shall not continue...
haha...and i shall listen to MUSIC(:
haha...
happy studying everyone o.0
tmr no school...

2009-08-30T22:19:00.000+10:00

"When it comes to getting things done, multitasking is a bane not a blessing, according to Stanford University researchers."
o.0...
haha...thanks to some recent discussion about whether technology is a bane or a boon...i know what a bane means(:
haha...
there's half day tmr...
and i haven't finish chem prac 17...
need to pass up tmr..
and i left the suibi-.-
i think my dad is flying back this wednesday...
o.0...
i think im addicted to joe hisaishi's summer o.0
haha...i keep playing it over and over again o.0
lol...his piano is so nice><
but amazingly he learned violin first...
never heard that he played violin o.0
so cool!!
i want to go out tmr):
but i no money to go...
and anyway need to study...
i decided to become a very very good kid(:
haha...i even made a list of what i have to study...
like worksheets, notes etc.
o.0
and i just realised that we have A LOT A LOT to study...
thank God i dun have to take scs paper for eoys><
haha...
i think we're going to get our progress report soon right...
so not looking forward to it...
this year's really gone very fast..
faster than the past 2 years...
it's like...not long ago...we changed class and dunoe anyone...
and now...it's like...haha...lol...
not say very united lar...
but okok class...
hmm....
yea...many things happened this year...
haha...
"They couldn't help thinking about the task they weren't doing," Ophir said of multitaskers. "They can't keep things separate in their minds."
Testing also showed that multitaskers weren't superior when it came to remembering or organizing information in their minds. Researchers showed students letters and asked them to remember repeated appearances.
"The low multitaskers did great," Ophir said. "The high multitaskers were doing worse and worse the further they went along because they kept seeing more letters and had difficulty keeping them sorted in their brains."
o.0 some yahoo news...o.0
multi-tasking is BAD?!
but it saves time(:
i think this is like the official last post b4 the eoys...unless something crops up...
haha...
i shall go on hiatus~ haha...
JIAYOUS FOR EOYS EVERYBODY!!

2009-08-30T15:20:00.001+10:00

wow...i have to get studying><
was listening to joe hisaishi's piece summer.
wow...his playing is ________
totally stunned...
oriental wind is also quite nice...
and his psirited away song - one summer's night...
haha...
it's really really very nice(:
got our 2nd piece since the sec 4s left...
it feels helpless being a senior...
it's like...we're not improving...
oh...this new piece is called Joe Hisaishi's Works 3 o.0
has 4 songs inside i think
Summer, Oriental Wind, HANA-BI, and some song with japanese name>< dunoe how to read...
and apparently this song has many solos o.0
flutes have like 3 solos...
french horn also have solo...
haha...listened to joe hisaishi playing summer...
wah...i can't believe we have to sound like that><
or rather I have to sound like that...
lol...
why do i feel that we/i will ruin the first part of the piece><
zzz...
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!
to all teachers o.0
haha...although it's early><
haha...ppl...let's go study(:

2009-08-29T02:16:00.000+10:00

o.0...today was and is an amazing day o.0
firstly, miriam slept earlier than me today o.0
how amazing is THAT(:
haha...
and secondly...
we got to sight-read some score composed by joe hisaishi...
and it has like the kind of 6 notes in 1 beat kind of rhythm...and
some of the weird rhythm has caused my sense of rhythm to go haywire...
like if i sing rhythm i dun even know what im singing-.-
zzz...
i shall go sleep now o.0
good night...er...morning everybody...

2009-08-28T00:04:00.000+10:00

lol...i have no idea why im blogging...
when i got so much work to finish...
i dun understand...
why....
i dunoe how to do trigo-.-
when it's e-maths...which is supposed to be easier....
and i can do sum of roots and multiplication of roots and that is a-maths...
it's like supposed to be what...
harder?!
can't believe it...
got to write chinese compo in class tmr...
got to finish bio assignment...
mr chng decided to go super fast...until i dun even know what he's doing><
and he gave us 5 pages of homework today?!
lol...
and the best thing yet...
tmr morning i have section run...
zzz...
and we're like sight-reading some song tmr...
i think it's called summer...
haha...by a japanese guy...i dunoe how to spell his err...surname><
haha...

2009-08-26T00:16:00.000+10:00

time flies..
this year passed by really quickly...
and i can't believe im gonna be sec 4 next year...
never imagined it to be THAT fast...
all the erm...
craziness...
wow...
this year really passed quickly...
like how the wind blows past...
but never blows back...
memories are to be made and kept...
im still thinking whether i should go back on teacher's day o.0
but i dun think i will...i shall see whether they having half day or not(:
haha...
hmm...
still have maths ws to do...
and maths notes trigo part 3...
and i still dunoe how to do -.-
haha...
it's only a few months time...
when we will step down o.0
that's sad):
the sec 2s will be sec 3s and the sec 1s will be sec 2s and the sec 3s will be sec 4s...
o.0...
which reminds me...
i must collect section fund...
next week...
$5 each...
and i am feeling hopelessly BROKE now-.-
lol...

2009-08-24T20:42:00.002+10:00

Anyway…

It’s jiro’s birthday today(:

Hahah…

Hmmm…wishing him happy birthday o.0

Haha…I also dunoe what to say…

I seem to posting everyday -.-

Not a good sign…

it's the 123rd post(:

and i can't post a picture):

o.0 i edited the post...and now i can add picture(: haha...

so happy(:

2009-08-23T16:32:00.000+10:00

I am wondering why so many people changed to livejournal-.-
lol...and i can't figure out the problem with the archiving thing...
err...anybody know how to do?
i din have to do it last time
and now i dunoe why it doesn't work-.-
my mother keeps saying that need to go study...
zzz...sec 1s are officially in main band now...
and ms chan decided to play pomp and circumstance
finally we get to actually play something proper...
like pecori night and the version of the Gong qi jun...
those are like warm-ups...and yet...
we cant play the, properly without mistake...
was searching through my old scores...
found the old gong qi jun
the other version...the harder one...
if we played that now our band will crash...
honestly...
sometimes i just can't stand it...
someone keeps thinking she's damn pro...and is like...comeone...you're no better than all of us...
among the the rest your age yes, you may be good BUT other people will catch up...
you will never be the best in the future with this kind of attitude...
you'll just make people dun like you...
i think i sound mean...
do i?
finally managed to settle the tagboard and fixed the broken links o.0
changing blogskin makes ppl busy o.0
tmr is jiro's birthday(:
haha...
hmmm...i dunoe what to write now...
LOL...
5 weeks to eoys!!
better go study><
trigo is horrible/weird-.-

2009-08-22T19:53:00.000+10:00

hmm...changed blogskin...and there's something wrong with the archiving system...
and.. need to change my tagboard o.0
not totally fixed yet...need to get used to using html again...
after not touching it for like SO LONG
haha...
5 more weeks to EOYS
zzz
haha...will ifx up more of my blog...erm...later on...
but anyway...
WHO EVEN COMES HERE-.-
lol....

2009-08-17T21:50:00.000+10:00

hmmm...i just realised how near the exams are><
they are like only 6 weeks away, including this week...
so...better start studying><
haha...this term is really wah...so fast-.-
-not good-
hmm...GOOD LUCK MIRIAM FOR YOUR PIANO EXAM(:
wah...you play the scales so fast...
and i think i play my scales half the speed of yours-.-
lol...
tmr there's band...
another practice, another day
wonder what's new...
nothing in fact...
help the sec 1s fit in,
settle our basics(which are obviously not there)
finally can hear how horrible we sound without the sec 4s and do SOMETHING...
bcos...we aren't what we used to be...
we're worse....much much worse...
there's a long way ahead...
and our standard is dropping like i dunoe what...
zzz...
haha...

2009-08-10T19:23:00.000+10:00

feeling so confused lately...
why is it that in shows the ppl have open places where they can just scream out loud...
like release whatever they're feeling then...and
we don't...singapore is really.....too small -.-
everywhere you go there's concrete...
singapore is really a city...like concrete everywhere...

i really dunoe what to do now...
ppl i want to discuss with...all not online...
telling my parents wun help....like....they wun understand...
it's not that kind of "i-did-something-unforgivable" thing...but...
i just dunoe how to explain it...
im like standing at the crossroads...and can't make a decision...
and the roads dun meet...
in fact...they go further....and further away...
im not sure how to make this decision...
i dun even know...
if im even making the right decision...
it;s so hard...to make this decision...
what does God want me to do...
what does He want us to do...
i dunuoe...
i really don't...
feel so helpless that i can't even make a decision for myself...
feel so useless...
i can't even decide what colour clothes i want to buy...
no wonder i can't make a decision...
no wonder james was saying women are not decisive...
apparently the erm...reservice ppl were sharing...
women dun even know what they want...how can men know what THEY want...
true...if you look at it at a certain angle...
WHYWHYWHY are decisions so hard to make...
i really dunoe what to do...
i dunoe what i want...
so many ppl have their own ambitions...
i dun even know what i want to be...
since young...i never had any ambition...
and when those weird self-introduction things included MY AMBITION
i would just fake something....bcos i really dunoe what i want to be...
i dun even know what i want...
simple decisions i can't make...
others?
no need to say more...
must really start to think through what i want...
those ppl who know...dun tell anybody ok...thanks(:
listening to chu1 kou3...
how come i can't find my chu1 kou3
decisions...
are really hard to make...
im not sure if i will make the right choice....

2009-08-09T16:16:00.000+10:00

haha(: it's national day
and i just realised how great it is to have national day on a sunday(:
bcos we get a super long weekend(:
haha...
shall reply tags...
zoenin - eh...i heard they selling hse o.0i hope they shift out soon o.0
evan - lol...mayb she did-.-

haha...
we shall thank someone for giving us PUBLIC criticism
lol...
we'll SHOW her..
that we can be BETTER
and make her TAKE BACK her words...
lol...
jiayou RVCB(:

2009-08-04T22:19:00.000+10:00

shall post afte after such a long time(:
today had chem prac....and ICAS maths
and ndp rehearsal...
i forgot to bring calculator):
and i think i lost it...zzz...i can't find it...
not good news

apprently my neighbours never got taught manners...
how SAD
like you know my house need to tap card then can go in....and apparently...my neighbour's name is sarah...dunoe how to spell...but HEY it still sounds like that...
well....she was picking her younger sister...and they were like doing the skateboarding thing....and boviously both of them are like younger than me...
then i opened the door bcos i need to get home and apparently they din bring the card...
although i only saw the older sister first...
then apparently their parents din teach them to say THANK YOU
wow...i sound like im insulting their parents but HEY....their children reflect them?! lol...like we have had another encounter with their mother-.- and apparently they behave similarly...
and this is not the first time i opened the door for both sisters...and both times they din say thankyou...
wow....maybe im petty but don't they even know their manners?! i think the older sister is like sec school alr lar...-.-
then when we got into the lift...i din press their floor number...
i pressed my own...
and the older sister pressed it and started staring at me like a got something written on my face...like PLEASE STARE AT ME...lol
my face is super clean lar please....
stare what stare...
somemore she's not until my shoulder lar....still stare
stare what...i have NOTHING written on my face lar...
make me bad mood when i got home...
lioke what is this lar...no manners totally...
staring is like WRONG....lioke did anybody ever tell her that?!
the nxt time i see them i shall walk the other way and totally ignore them...
not WORTH my attention...
like seriously...
being young is NOT an excuse...
as long as you go to school you will know how to say THANKYOU
but apparently THEY don't
hmm....what have their parents been doing-.- or rather what have THEY been doing...
like so what if i dunoe them...it's like basic courtesy...
BASIC BASIC BASIC
like the basics of basics...
i have no idea why im getting so pissed just talking about them...they are like a waste of MY time-.-

and ndp rehearsal was weird...
we supposed to stand in a semicircle and ended in something like a U-shape...
LOL...
and apparently we were not loud enough?
haha...

2009-07-12T02:10:00.002+10:00

life's short...
like really short...
you never know when you'll die...like you may be alive and kicking...and the next day you're dead
CHOICHOICHOI touch wood ok
i mean look at michael jackson...
he was like having REHEARSALS....and everyone knows what a great dancer he is...
short while later? he's dead...
some ppl think ther life's a drama...
i think there are other ppl...who's life is more drama thaan you could ever imagine...
at least i know of someone who'e life is SUPER drama...
although i dun even know her name...but let's just say...
our life is not a drama compared to the lives of others

OH...and miriam asks me to post on my blog that she grew taller and she is about to jump over the moon...and i commented that we can count down and when she jumps over the moon i can like video her-.-
LOL...anybody want to watch also? can contact miriam and we'll arrange a wonderful time to watch her jump over the moon...like a movie you know(:
haha

folding cranes...1000...as sands of time slowly runs out?
as time ticks by...

2009-06-29T23:48:00.002+10:00

hais...all i can say is
thanks H1N1 -.-
bcos of you we can't have concert and dun have speech day-.-
then we had to stay back for the AYG opening when there's only sec 1's again bcos of H1N1
then we were like ignored?!
until the whole thing ended and mrs yiow actually thanked us and said we did a wonderful performance or something like that
and the sky was amazingly full of rain clouds
and it actually din rain and there was NO lightning risk alert
so in the end we did it in at the field
then the person taking photos took a picture of me when we were playing
no lar...it wasn't only me
then they were passing the erm...torch
and it was quite pretty..as in the fire very pretty
haha...
then just now watch on tv then have 3 torch-bearers go light the cauldron at singapore indoor stadium i think...live...
hmmm...looks a bit like a mix of national day and olympics-.-
all the sec sch ppl...
i think...justr watched the last part...
then my mother say YOU WANT TO WATCH THIS WU LIAO THING ARH
then i was like never say anything...
then off the tv...anyway i din even know what they doing
oh...back to the AYG in school...
well...was supposed to play olympic spirit...memorise until so can3 then end up not playing that song-.-
played promotion march instead...haha...

2009-06-28T11:40:00.003+10:00

school reopens tmr...
haha...
got to keep this short...my chem tuition teacher coming soon
like erm...supposed to come in 20 minutes
LOL...
hm...still need to do a bit of last minute homework...
and need to look through alympic spirit again
dun wanna screw up tmr-.-
not a very good thing
hm...
i dunoe what to say-.-