Since the last post, a lot has happened. It's been 5 months since I got my full qualifications and finally done with studying for real. I then started with a part-time job which has transitioned into a full time job recently due to staff shortages. Actually, the only reason why I decided to post today was because I got annoyed/pissed at work today and now I feel slightly guilty about it. I must have been crazy when I volunteered to cover an extra day because someone is on leave. Tomorrow is the end of the 3rd week of 6-day work weeks for me with 1 more to go. Mentally tired of having to deal with everything day after day at work. It's not even the physical component anymore, the thought of having another full 8-hour day tomorrow is draining in itself. I don't even know what day it is anymore when I turn up for work. Just annoyed with the things I have to do which are sometimes against my principles. There's either a very strong newbie prejudice from customers or they're just very loyal to the manager. Of course it doesn't help that I look younger than my age. To be honest, at 5 months into the job, I'm already considering stepping out. The people I work with are great, the job is alright but it's sort of a "where to next?". I honestly don't see myself in this job 10 years from now, maybe not even 5. Don't get me wrong, I was very fortunate to have been offered a permanent part time position from the moment I got my full qualifications which has then moved on to a full time position meaning stable income. But it's like I've reached the top of the chain, the end point of the 5 years I spent studying and working like crazy for. I am grateful for my position and the people I work with but at the same time, every day is just me swimming in the same circle round and round and there is no other way to go. Different day, different work, different shit to deal with but all essentially still the same thing. It's like now I've reached the top and there's nowhere else to go but round and round. Plus the pay isn't even all that fantastic. Understandably, I'm only a new graduate, I can't demand a higher pay without showing I have more to give. At the same time, it feels so...aimless. Maybe I should give myself more time to figure my life out, whether I do want to go back to studying, what I want to study if I did go back to studying, when should I start going back to study etc. Or maybe I'm just fed-up and sick of work. Really...what was I thinking when I volunteered to do 6 days a week for the 4 weeks that one of the other staff is on holidays. *mentally slaps self*

Also does not help that my legs were aching like no tomorrow today from my workout 2 days ago..going up and down the stairs and ladder was just DEATH. And squatting down to get stuff was just impossible. Add this on to already overworked me just resulted in an internal boom at work today. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day, and just 1 more week to go!

Since the last post, a lot has happened. It's been 5 months since I got my full qualifications and finally done with studying for real. I then started with a part-time job which has transitioned into a full time job recently due to staff shortages. Actually, the only reason why I decided to post today was because I got annoyed/pissed at work today and now I feel slightly guilty about it. I must have been crazy when I volunteered to cover an extra day because someone is on leave. Tomorrow is the end of the 3rd week of 6-day work weeks for me with 1 more to go. Mentally tired of having to deal with everything day after day at work. It's not even the physical component anymore, the thought of having another full 8-hour day tomorrow is draining in itself. I don't even know what day it is anymore when I turn up for work. Just annoyed with the things I have to do which are sometimes against my principles. There's either a very strong newbie prejudice from customers or they're just very loyal to the manager. Of course it doesn't help that I look younger than my age. To be honest, at 5 months into the job, I'm already considering stepping out. The people I work with are great, the job is alright but it's sort of a "where to next?". I honestly don't see myself in this job 10 years from now, maybe not even 5. Don't get me wrong, I was very fortunate to have been offered a permanent part time position from the moment I got my full qualifications which has then moved on to a full time position meaning stable income. But it's like I've reached the top of the chain, the end point of the 5 years I spent studying and working like crazy for. I am grateful for my position and the people I work with but at the same time, every day is just me swimming in the same circle round and round and there is no other way to go. Different day, different work, different shit to deal with but all essentially still the same thing. It's like now I've reached the top and there's nowhere else to go but round and round. Plus the pay isn't even all that fantastic. Understandably, I'm only a new graduate, I can't demand a higher pay without showing I have more to give. At the same time, it feels so...aimless. Maybe I should give myself more time to figure my life out, whether I do want to go back to studying, what I want to study if I did go back to studying, when should I start going back to study etc. Or maybe I'm just fed-up and sick of work. Really...what was I thinking when I volunteered to do 6 days a week for the 4 weeks that one of the other staff is on holidays. *mentally slaps self*

Also does not help that my legs were aching like no tomorrow today from my workout 2 days ago..going up and down the stairs and ladder was just DEATH. And squatting down to get stuff was just impossible. Add this on to already overworked me just resulted in an internal boom at work today. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day, and just 1 more week to go!