Saturday, August 27, 201611:06 AM
Another quick one.
Deactivated my fb account and just knocked out really early last night. Completely wacked out by 10pm last night..was amazing. Needless to say, no studying got done last night for which I will feel eternally guilty..I can't help but feel screwed at this point in time. Trying desperately to work out when I can and should start taking leave to study.
Feel like a fool really. I should have started way earlier than now. Shouldn't have trusted so naively. It was and is so stupid of me to not have noticed anything.
Thursday, August 25, 20161:20 PM
Quick break because I feel my brain is quite fried atm.
Decided to hop off to the library today because studying at home has just become so very unproductive. Only problem is I have to move the car every 2 hours because parking is limited.
It has finally hit me about how much work I have to do and how much I really need to start getting into my head albeit a bit late. Really should have started earlier but that's what you always say when it's too late. Only can move forward from here really..I got my confirmation email yesterday as well so the shit is getting real..and if I don't study harder, shit will hit the fan.
It's really back to the vicious cycle of having to force myself to study and then feeling guilty when I'm not studying. No idea how I'm meant to finish studying :/ but ohwell, here goes nothing
Wednesday, August 24, 20161:18 AM
It is one of those late nights..the ones I used to have the night leading up to an exam. Except
This time, it's 6 weeks in advance.
It's one of those times where you go to bed telling yourself you need rest for energy for the next day, go to bed and end up tossing and turning. I wouldn't go as far to say it was a panic attack but the panic and stress is really starting to sink in now. The past few days have just been terrible. If I'm not studying I feel guilty, if I am studying, nothing is going in. And it seems like such an insurmountable pile of information and content that I have to unfortunately know by heart at the end of the next 6 weeks or so.
I'm tired..I'm yawning now but the moment I turn off the lights and jump in bed I know I'm wide awake again feeling guilty about not studying more.
It's like I've absolutely forgotten how to study and the stress of it all has never set in this early before it's crazy. It's back to the I'm-staring-at-the-book-but-not-really-reading scenarios. Gah.
Monday, August 15, 201610:38 PM
Nothing keeps you awake better than anger. Not even a triple shot coffee.
Wednesday, August 3, 20169:46 AM
Haven't posted in a while because I didn't really have anything other than complaints and I didn't want to seem whiny LOL.
Current status: Tired.
I should be thankful for my job but I'm so tired having to turn up 6 days a week while people are enjoying their holidays - and no doubt they will have a lot to share about their holidays that will feel like a slap in the face to someone who has to do the extra shifts.
Doesn't help that the fingers on my right hand must have got bitten by something because they've been all swollen and gross looking for a few days now. I've never seen my fingers this fat before HAHA. It's strange because I have no idea what it was because no puncture marks but then there are some redder areas that seem whatever has bitten me has bitten there. The venom must either be super strong or I'm just super allergic. Antihistamines didn't really help so I guess steroid cream it is. I feel like my fingers are bursting when I clench a fist sigh. It definitely isn't bedbugs because trust me I know what that's like. Hopefully it clears soon because at this point it's difficult to even hold a pen to write, plus I'm right-handed as well.
On the plus side, weather seems great today, but then again, I'm typing this as I sit atop the heating vent in my room hahahah. This winter has been ridiculously cold and rainy. Ever since it hit July, it's just been freezing and raining and just crazy unpredictable. Like Sunday was beautiful weather and Monday was just POURING the whole day. Hello melbourne weather lol.
