I'm on a roll, or so it seems.
It's been a really long day. And it's so hot as well. Summer's almost over and yet today hit a top of 39 degrees I think?!! Like what....

Spent my day running between workplaces, plastering on the smile that I have just for work purposes. It took the longest time for me to get home today too. The jam was just UGH. It was weird that there even was a jam considering it wasn't peak hour and there weren't any accidents on the way at all.

There are those good days, where the smile I have on my face at work isn't an artificial one and I actually know what I'm doing/talking about. I got home around 8 today, had dinner, did the dishes, went straight to do my online discussion thing and then here I am blogging because I can't be bothered to find that 1 reference I can't seem to find. It's always when you're trying to find something then you can't find it. Murphy's law is real y'all. Nothing special is going on my life really, I guess this is what work life is like..LOL I could fall asleep in my chair right now. I must say though..I'm so sick of tuna and crackers for lunch. No joke, I just couldn't down my entire lunch today. Ate half and decided to chuck the rest. Or maybe I'm just fedup with going to that place. Who knows.

Anyway, I'm off to washup and then to bed it is :D



It's clearly not my day today..I should just go home and curl up into a ball.

It's only midday and already so much is not going my way fml.

For starters, I'm back "there" again. Yes, that place 1.5 hours away from home. This morning on the drive here, I got confused with the GPS and made a wrong turn. My ETA predicted would mean I was going to be late so I called in to inform them, only just to make ANOTHER wrong turn. When I finally got the car park and parked, the entrance from the basement to the shops was SEALED because they just painted the ground and it was still wet. So already late as I was I had to search for another entrance. When I got to the place, I was told I was meant to be in the other workplace and I had to bump into the lady boss as well. I pretty much spent my morning running errands between the 2 places -.- . Remind me again why I slogged for 4 years....

Back to the madness.
Ciao



It's back to...THAT place again tomorrow. I'm already dreading it.
After chatting with a senior (whose position I took over), the same thing happened to him too. Why send us all the way there to do stocktake or put stock away. If we were replacing someone higher up in position, why are we doing these menial tasks 1.5 hours away from the place we are supposed to be working at? Isn't it a bit of stretch to send us so far away just to put away stock or do stocktake? Like how is that even cost effective?!! The whole hierarchy of the place is just..weird. I don't understand why the manager there orders me around when technically I'm not shop staff. I mean, if you have a shortage of staff because you need someone to put stock away or count your stock then you need to go hire someone else. I didn't study 4 crazy years to put stock away. I wouldn't need a university degree to be able to do that. I don't have to be that smart to know I'm being exploited for cheap labour (although I'm pretty expensive to be putting away stock for hours on hand). I can't believe the manager could walk out smiling when she finished work before me. Like why am I even being rostered there when you don't even need me -.-

I've also found out my pet peeve of all time. I really really hate it when someone tells me to do something, I do it, and then the same person comes up to me and says THAT'S NOT HOW IT'S DONE, DO IT THIS OTHER WAY. And of course they could not have told me that in the first place. Of course not. Because I was supposed to read their minds and do things their way. Like I get there's some procedures or standard you have to follow but seriously, if you're not going to tell me what they are, then don't expect me to know what they are..like why even!?!?!?

A lot of things and people baffle me and piss me off to no end these days. I don't even know why I bother anymore.



Ok, I had to sit down and think really hard what the itinerary was for the last half of the trip and here goes.











Tired is an understatement.

Just had another shitty day.

And I think it's been enough to put me off this profession. I always knew I didn't want to stay but in my mind it was always "come on, only x years to go". Am I happy? Not in the least.
I'm so sick of the facade I have to put on, in front of customers, in front of the other people I work with. Tired of having to smile and pretend I'm feeling great when I'm feeling shit inside. I'm tired of it all. I feel like I've been sucked so dry my mind is like the desert. Empty. Desolate. Lost.

And it's at this point I'm thinking, I'm done with this profession. That's it. On the train ride back today I was seriously considering just quitting right now and just going to study something else or take the year off to think about what I want while working part time. But it also means I've wasted 4 years of my life. But this is the strongest I have felt it yet.

I remember spouting some generic rubbish about wanting to help people in an interview. I don't want to help anyone anymore. I need to help myself first.

The whole day was shitty, right from the start to the end. Usually if I have a shitty day, it's just one thing that makes the whole day suck but today was just terrible.

2 shifts now, I've had to travel 3 hours return journey to another workplace because the boss said the S workplace was understaffed while we were overstaffed. I'm not even paid a single cent to travel there mind you, and not to mention, it has a reputation for being a dodgy area.

I had to juggle between an impatient/rude doctor and an impatient customer. And then the manager had to keep unloading jobs for me to do like take stock according to this list, can you serve this customer, can you go up to the tills, can you check if that man is alright, can you put this stock away, that needs to be double priced, extra stock can't just be stacked behind blah blah you get the gist. In short, my whole day after the stupid phone call was pretty much can you do this/that. And the doctor was just wth. I had to call like 3 times until I was finally able to speak to her only to find out she didn't know what was going on as well. Had to put the doctor on hold because who am I to make any decision and I had to check with my supervisor. And I suspect the doctor wasn't very happy because she put down the phone before I even "finished" per se. Like wth, it's your patient, get your shit right. All this shit. On my first day at this other workplace. WTH? I don't know anything and am doing things super slow because..surprise, it's my first time there?!! Why am I the one expected to run errands and do all the "chores". I even had to close shop today which involves rolling all the display stuff outside the shop or in the doorway of the shop inside. Myself. There were so many it was just wth. Felt like the biggest idiot today, running around like a headless chicken to fend for myself. Didn't help that customers came to ask me where things were when I served them (I had to serve them -.-) and all the disapproving looks I got when I didn't know where anything was. One does not simply learn where everything is in that kind of sized shop in 7.5 hours. NO WAY. Too slow? Well I'm fucking sorry, I've never worked there before.

I do sound like I'm whining huh. Got home, had a good long cry and now let's hope shit doesn't happen again when I go there next friday.

I'm on a roll, or so it seems.
It's been a really long day. And it's so hot as well. Summer's almost over and yet today hit a top of 39 degrees I think?!! Like what....

Spent my day running between workplaces, plastering on the smile that I have just for work purposes. It took the longest time for me to get home today too. The jam was just UGH. It was weird that there even was a jam considering it wasn't peak hour and there weren't any accidents on the way at all.

There are those good days, where the smile I have on my face at work isn't an artificial one and I actually know what I'm doing/talking about. I got home around 8 today, had dinner, did the dishes, went straight to do my online discussion thing and then here I am blogging because I can't be bothered to find that 1 reference I can't seem to find. It's always when you're trying to find something then you can't find it. Murphy's law is real y'all. Nothing special is going on my life really, I guess this is what work life is like..LOL I could fall asleep in my chair right now. I must say though..I'm so sick of tuna and crackers for lunch. No joke, I just couldn't down my entire lunch today. Ate half and decided to chuck the rest. Or maybe I'm just fedup with going to that place. Who knows.

Anyway, I'm off to washup and then to bed it is :D

It's clearly not my day today..I should just go home and curl up into a ball.

It's only midday and already so much is not going my way fml.

For starters, I'm back "there" again. Yes, that place 1.5 hours away from home. This morning on the drive here, I got confused with the GPS and made a wrong turn. My ETA predicted would mean I was going to be late so I called in to inform them, only just to make ANOTHER wrong turn. When I finally got the car park and parked, the entrance from the basement to the shops was SEALED because they just painted the ground and it was still wet. So already late as I was I had to search for another entrance. When I got to the place, I was told I was meant to be in the other workplace and I had to bump into the lady boss as well. I pretty much spent my morning running errands between the 2 places -.- . Remind me again why I slogged for 4 years....

Back to the madness.
Ciao

It's back to...THAT place again tomorrow. I'm already dreading it.
After chatting with a senior (whose position I took over), the same thing happened to him too. Why send us all the way there to do stocktake or put stock away. If we were replacing someone higher up in position, why are we doing these menial tasks 1.5 hours away from the place we are supposed to be working at? Isn't it a bit of stretch to send us so far away just to put away stock or do stocktake? Like how is that even cost effective?!! The whole hierarchy of the place is just..weird. I don't understand why the manager there orders me around when technically I'm not shop staff. I mean, if you have a shortage of staff because you need someone to put stock away or count your stock then you need to go hire someone else. I didn't study 4 crazy years to put stock away. I wouldn't need a university degree to be able to do that. I don't have to be that smart to know I'm being exploited for cheap labour (although I'm pretty expensive to be putting away stock for hours on hand). I can't believe the manager could walk out smiling when she finished work before me. Like why am I even being rostered there when you don't even need me -.-

I've also found out my pet peeve of all time. I really really hate it when someone tells me to do something, I do it, and then the same person comes up to me and says THAT'S NOT HOW IT'S DONE, DO IT THIS OTHER WAY. And of course they could not have told me that in the first place. Of course not. Because I was supposed to read their minds and do things their way. Like I get there's some procedures or standard you have to follow but seriously, if you're not going to tell me what they are, then don't expect me to know what they are..like why even!?!?!?

A lot of things and people baffle me and piss me off to no end these days. I don't even know why I bother anymore.

Ok, I had to sit down and think really hard what the itinerary was for the last half of the trip and here goes.









Tired is an understatement.

Just had another shitty day.

And I think it's been enough to put me off this profession. I always knew I didn't want to stay but in my mind it was always "come on, only x years to go". Am I happy? Not in the least.
I'm so sick of the facade I have to put on, in front of customers, in front of the other people I work with. Tired of having to smile and pretend I'm feeling great when I'm feeling shit inside. I'm tired of it all. I feel like I've been sucked so dry my mind is like the desert. Empty. Desolate. Lost.

And it's at this point I'm thinking, I'm done with this profession. That's it. On the train ride back today I was seriously considering just quitting right now and just going to study something else or take the year off to think about what I want while working part time. But it also means I've wasted 4 years of my life. But this is the strongest I have felt it yet.

I remember spouting some generic rubbish about wanting to help people in an interview. I don't want to help anyone anymore. I need to help myself first.

The whole day was shitty, right from the start to the end. Usually if I have a shitty day, it's just one thing that makes the whole day suck but today was just terrible.

2 shifts now, I've had to travel 3 hours return journey to another workplace because the boss said the S workplace was understaffed while we were overstaffed. I'm not even paid a single cent to travel there mind you, and not to mention, it has a reputation for being a dodgy area.

I had to juggle between an impatient/rude doctor and an impatient customer. And then the manager had to keep unloading jobs for me to do like take stock according to this list, can you serve this customer, can you go up to the tills, can you check if that man is alright, can you put this stock away, that needs to be double priced, extra stock can't just be stacked behind blah blah you get the gist. In short, my whole day after the stupid phone call was pretty much can you do this/that. And the doctor was just wth. I had to call like 3 times until I was finally able to speak to her only to find out she didn't know what was going on as well. Had to put the doctor on hold because who am I to make any decision and I had to check with my supervisor. And I suspect the doctor wasn't very happy because she put down the phone before I even "finished" per se. Like wth, it's your patient, get your shit right. All this shit. On my first day at this other workplace. WTH? I don't know anything and am doing things super slow because..surprise, it's my first time there?!! Why am I the one expected to run errands and do all the "chores". I even had to close shop today which involves rolling all the display stuff outside the shop or in the doorway of the shop inside. Myself. There were so many it was just wth. Felt like the biggest idiot today, running around like a headless chicken to fend for myself. Didn't help that customers came to ask me where things were when I served them (I had to serve them -.-) and all the disapproving looks I got when I didn't know where anything was. One does not simply learn where everything is in that kind of sized shop in 7.5 hours. NO WAY. Too slow? Well I'm fucking sorry, I've never worked there before.

I do sound like I'm whining huh. Got home, had a good long cry and now let's hope shit doesn't happen again when I go there next friday.

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