The things that happen..seriously.
Woke up this morning, realised there was no electricity, thought the power tripped, and turns out they were replacing the power poles without informing us. WHAT. And it's no power until 3pm. And on a day where I do need internet. In the end I had to pack up my stuff and head to the library to use the power and internet. -.- Still at the library now..going to leave at 3. It's so noisy here right now with all the kids supposedly "studying for exams" and clearly the study is not getting done. On the bright side, since I was here pretty early, I had a short period of peace without the noisy school kids and the kids program (singing songs and stuff).  Managed to finish 4 lectures which is pretty good considering my low productivity yesterday. Aiming to finish 6 more when I get back home. WITH INTERNET. AND POWER. Of all days, it had to happen today. They even blocked off all the roads in the area. I was going to finish 1 more lecture but then I couldn't download the notes and print them because lack of internet. Plus, the library printing fees are no joke. Hence, I'm stuck with about half an hour with nothing better to do and thus this post. I seriously have no idea how I'm going to start studying for exams..there's so much to get through. Sigh.
Alright I shall start packing and leave nowwww.



"할 일은 더럽게 많은데
하고 싶은 건 하나도 없어"

Perfectly describes my procrastination valleys amidst the rare peaks of motivation. 

GAH. I have exams in a week. Was "determined" to finish up 4 lectures over the weekend and it didn't happen..as usual. As of today, I've only really managed to finish ONE. And half the day is already gone. Considering I almost fell asleep listening to that one lecture, clearly today has not been very productive and it may not be looking up for the rest of the day either. Sigh, this week is going to go by so fast before I know it and I'll be crapping my pants the night before each exam in addition to insomnia. Motivation always hits rock bottom just before exams and then it gets to the point of oh crap I really need to study and by then, you just barge your way through all the information and not remember or retain very much of it all. 

To be honest, I just can't wait to go on holiday. I'll be going to Tasmania for a week with a friend the week right after exams and then off to Bali for a week in January. Can't wait to go. And travel. And enjoy life. And spend money (oops). Haven't even started earning and here I am blasting money. But hey, it's been a tough semester. Not even semester. The whole year has been difficult, I have no idea how I've made it through till now. This year while studying, I really hit the depths of hopelessness before tests and exams because it was just so full on, it's mind boggling. 

Also, finally settled my friend's birthday present (the Her Fashion Box subscription thingo). Finally had the time so I called them up, only to be sent to their voicemail. Decided that it couldn't wait anymore so I sent them a message on Facebook and also an offline message on their website. Finally managed to get a reply and also got a copy of the gift certificate so my friend can access her gift. LOL, moral of the story? Please contact Herfashionbox through Facebook or by the offline messaging system they have(after you log in). It's likely you'll get a quicker reply...from experience. Oh whatever, as long as I've got my reply and my friend has got the "gift", I've done my part. 

Alright, so now it's back to work for me and..enjoy the rest of the day for you! :P



At the start of the week I said this was going to be a crazy week, the craziest we've ever had it.
And finally it's all over. Last test, last assignment, last lecture.

Just spent close to 10 hours staring at tons of articles and statistics trying to come up with evidence to support what I had to write for the assignment. The word limit is really short too so while they want detail and justification for writing what you did, the word limit just doesn't allow for it. Had to cut down what I wrote by half. Hopefully it still makes some sense. It was due at 5 and at 3 I started panicking because I hadn't even started on the first part of the assignment but thankfully I got it done with legit 10 minutes till it was due. I've never started/completed an assignment this close to the due date before but you know circumstances..I'm just happy I managed to get it done because honestly before this morning, I hadn't even started on it while people were already submitting. Oh whatever, I'm so over it now.

Finally submitted this last assignment for the 4 years. Finally finished lectures for the last 4 years. Finally done the last test in the 4 years. Done with a Bachelor's.

I don't know..I think it hasn't hit me that I'm done. Done with all this. Done with the studying that has happened for the past..15 years. Nothing much is feeling real these days. Lecture, tests, assignments. It's like my brain has stopped working. This past year has been packed full with everything imaginable. The first half of the year killed us with having a million placements and then a mountain of lectures AND pre-recorded lectures. The second half of the year killed us because we had our last placement and then the job hunting started and then now we have to settle the ton of paperwork before we can start amongst the multitude of tests and assignments and catching up on lectures we skipped to catch up on the other stuff. It's been a vicious cycle after cycle. By God's grace I've made it this far. Who knows what will happen going forward. What I do know, is that I'm thankful for the people I've met and the things I've learnt.
It's not goodbye just yet with exams on the way.
Where has the 4 years gone?



Today has been such an eventful day, my heart is literally still racing from the adrenaline.

Anyway, starting from the top, I had a test this morning which didn't go super well..it will be good if I can pass....saw a lot of questions and went ASDKJDANF@ because I remembered reading it somewhere but I just couldn't recall the detail that the question required -.- Tbh, for this test I really took the heck care route. Not that I didn't study. I wrote notes, read them. But didn't absorb them. That's where the problem lies.

Moving on to more exciting interesting heart-pounding stuff, Bigbang finished their one and only show in melbourne, and concluded their tour in australia tonight. How was it? It was awesomely mind-blowing, like there is nothing like it. I've been to only 1 other concert a long time ago (2008) for fahrenheit and Bigbang is on a whole new level. The quality and their energy just radiates and they really feed off the crowd's energy. Melbourne, you were an amazing audience tonight and if like we promised 태양 , I hope we will still generate the same energy the next time they tour here again. Whether or not the money was worth it, it was 200% worth it. Initially they only had 1 sydney show and I was legit prepared to book flight tickets to syndey just for that one show. Would I go again? OF COURSE. Zero regrets whatsoever...even if I did crap for the test. Was so sweet when the crowd started chanting daesung's name. The people were crazy over GD and T.O.P..and also nyongtory. The live band was also really really good. Honourable mention about the cameras, super high quality so we can enjoy gushing over our 빅뱅 오빠들 in glorious HD. I don't know how my VIP heart survived. It was entertaining from start to end, and never a dull moment. In fact, time passed so quickly, it was surprising when they announced that they only had 1 song left. Ohyea, their fan service is awesome too. T.O.P with his wink and smirk and "you like" and his finger heart, seungri with his getting high himself (HAHA), GD with his sit on the edge of the stage really close to GA standing, tae yang and daesung with having fun with the audience and finger hearts. ARGH I KEHNUT. Had so much love from daesung in this concert ♥ - that was totally me the whole concert. May I just say, they sound terrific live and even better than the recordings (plus jumping and dancing around). Forget about MR removed, they can sing. And boy do they sing freaking well. I melted.
Ohhh Daesung was so funny, he had his fringe covering his eyes in the first talking break they had and he was like I can't see you guys tonight because of my hair so I want to hear you guys alright!! *Screams* Do you want to see my eyes? *Screams some more* Camera zooms in and he show us his eyes..super big HAHAHHA watch the big bang episode on Happy Together and you'll get what I mean. After the show, people were waiting around to wait for them to exit. Didn't manage to catch them leaving but I saw a whole ton of people waving ): We didn't have the same send-off event that some places in the US had so no chance of selfies..it was literally a whole ton of people looking down into a car park, hoping to catch them for the last time before they leave. Apparently GD was in Crown yesterday/earlier today and they ate lunch at oriental spoon HAHA. I understand why they want Korean food though. While my friends were saying they should go get a steak or something, I sort of get where they're coming from. They've been the touring the US, probably have not been back in Korea for a while, will continue touring within the next few weeks = no korean food. When you get the opportunity, why not right?!

Anyway, for the concert setlist, I think it was pretty much the same as the Sydney one. I DO NOT RMB THE ORDER GAH.
It was..
BANG BANG BANG
Tonight (English rap) - GD PLAYS THE ELECTRIC GUITAR LIKE A BOSS (it even had a green laser pointer on the end)
Stupid Liar
Haru Haru (acoustic)
Then the middle I don't rmb (Blue, If You, Bad Boy, Loser, Crooked, We Like 2 Party)
In terms of solo/duets we had Strong Baby, Doom DaDa, Wings, Crooked, Zutter, Good Boy, Eyes Nose Lips
Sober (plus daesung on drums)
Fantastic Baby
Encore: BANG BANG BANG, BAE BAE, We Like 2 Party

I had so much fun and really truly enjoyed myself. It was an excellent show and I really hope they come back again. I bought the ticket as a 21st birthday present to myself. I went alone and it was totally fine. (Actually I wanted to go alone so I can fangirl like crazy myself and not look...crazy) Did not regret going alone and anyone who's thinking of going but the price of tickets is putting you off, I say go for it. First concert I attended alone and it was AWESOME..even with a possible sore throat on the way for all that screaming. But, it was worth it. During the encore, someone even threw the national flag on the stage and Seungri took it and carried it off haha.
That's all the sneak peeks folks.
Goodnight ♥



If it's not obvious enough, yes I turn 21 today. 



Quick one again because I really feel like I need to vent.
Every year is seriously getting worse than the year before. This semester alone, each coming week has been worse than the last.
I have test on monday, group assignment due on monday, test on wednesday, concert on wednesday night, last day of uni(ever) on thursday, assignment (with research) due on friday.
Expecting little to no sleep at all this week fml.
So much for I'm-going-to-start-studying-early. I did start..but it wasn't specifically for these tests..
It's so ironic that I'm going mad and mentally pulling my hair out while I'm staring at my notes for psychoses. Yoohoo, I'm going to be the one starting to hear voices very soon -.- Mental overload and sleep deprivation, wait till you see me at the end of this week. So much for ending uni with a bang. I feel like I'm drowning..or already drowned. I really wanted to attend band today but now I'm really glad I didn't. If not, I wouldn't be here now and will be in my corner crying my heart out because I know I won't even finish studying for both of the tests. I don't even know how I will manage to finish the assignment by friday 5pm and still attend the last day of uni. So much motivation to  attend classes for the last time huh. And the group assignment..sigh, I've finished my part, and some of the others haven't really finished..and there's one person with unsatisfactory answers wtf. One does not simply give 4 short causes if the question asks for minimum of 4. One is expected to ELABORATE and do some RESEARCH. And it's not like it's the only question that they did that has a ridiculously short answer. Anyway..my group is not even finished yet. Some of the referencing is not done, some answers are all over the place, I have no idea how we're going to finish it by Monday 9am AND finish studying for that test. It's just an MCQ test but D: . Such a great way to celebrate turning 21. Gah my week. To top these, I still have got no reply regarding my friend's gift (inefficient company ahem) and to give them the benefit of doubt, maybe there might be something wrong with my friend's email but seriously, where is the correspondence?! If the gift subscription could be refunded, I would have cancelled the order when my friend hadn't received the email for a whole WEEK when apparently it was supposed to be "mailed out" by post literally, in 1-2 working days. Stress levels have blown past the roof. I better move to my table now instead of studying on my bed, if not I really won't fall asleep tonight due to poor sleep hygiene. Don't want to be a live zombie at work tmr...
KBYE.



It's one of those days I thought I should just sit down and be reflective. Actually I've been having a lot of these days and that's why I end up blogging instead of studying oops.

Over the past few months, I've just been scrambling over opportunities I thought was best for me and then feeling so disappointed because nothing worked out. All the while I thought I could find a better opportunity and wasn't 100% happy with what I already had, and yesterday it finally hit me that I haven't been thankful for what I already have, and instead I was looking over the fence at opportunities other people were getting without realising I was standing in a green pasture myself. All I had to do was ask and it was given. I cannot be more thankful for this person who gave the chance first and has continued to give me opportunities. I was talking with a friend yesterday and she still hasn't secured a position this late in the year when most people have already got theirs and it was then that I really felt blessed for what I did have and finally understood why so much stuff happened 1-2 years back when I first started hunting around. I have been put in a place that I'm comfortable with by His grace and I shall stop looking back and around because I can safely say that I am happy. Anyone having a hard time, He has a plan for you. Throwback to 1-2 years ago, I was struggling to find a job. I didn't know anything, I had no job experience, no one wanted to employ me. I'm not sure if I posted about this before but for an extended amount of time, I was working about 3 hours a week for free at this place that said they would hire me but it never came to fruition until I was about to leave. Nevertheless, I was taken advantage of at that place and was genuinely not happy. I hated that I was doing it for free and yet I was learning nothing. I dreaded turning up for 3 hours every week and had to pretend to be confident and happy when inside I was tearing myself apart. The people were nice but I just felt so out of place, so dumb and yet I stuck with it for at least a whole semester. I was doing this without my parents knowledge and at the time I was really questioning why I was doing what I was doing. Again and again they gave me false hope and so I finally quit after I managed to secure a position elsewhere. It was a tough ride because on one hand my parents were not happy with me saying I didn't even bother looking for a job and on the other hand I was doing crap work (tills and cleaning) for free. But at the end of this, I got my experience, took it and left and am much happier where I am now.  I won't compare standards but I am so much happier where I am now and I don't dread turning up each week(although I do miss sleeping in on the weekends). Back then, would I have known this? Never. Things do work out, and He does have a plan for you.



Amazingly managed to stay awake till 2 last night catching up with lectures. Sadly, it's not happening tonight. Connection issues are not helping and I think it's just a sign that I should go sleep soon.

It's been a busy day. Had work in the morning, went for band late because I was caught up with transferring photos from the previous laptop and washing dishes. -.- Got home, went for a run for half an hour, came back and spent at least 2 hours transferring and organising more photos. I never knew there were so many photos on the laptop until I had to start transferring them so my brother can restore the old laptop to factory settings because it's running super slow. Gahh, first I buy my own laptop so he doesn't have to use a crap one, and now I even have to clear all the photos for him so he can reset it. It's not like he's even doing any work. I was honestly getting quite pissed because I spent so many hours trying to clear photos, and then I had to help with dinner and wash stupid pots and pans which made me late for band in the first place. AND, it's not like I would be chilling anyway, I have work to do, things to catch up on, tests to study for and assignments that are due. Why do I even bother..

Did a mental check of my deadlines and what I have to do and gahhh still have so much to do in so little time. I'm not at the super stressed stage yet but wait till you see me next weekend. Will be totally ready to bite heads off of whoever dares disturb me. The year has ended way too quickly, and yet I feel like I've accomplished nothing.

What am I even saying...sleepy mind = incoherent, delirious ranting.
Gdnight.



I feel like crap just happened.



Struggling to get my studying pace back.

Was doing very well and staying super motivated and had everything planned out at the end of last week and then once it lapsed on to this week, everything died down again. Have spent the whole week since monday just trying to get done with 1 mere lecture that I kept putting off and could not get on with any other work.

Instead of studying like I should be, I ended up watching Ponyo and Princess Mononoke. To be honest, I watched them out of interest for the music composed by Joe Hisaishi which was so beautiful. The animations were great but no comment about the storyline. I thought they were pretty alright, but princess mononoke did have a more engaging story I feel. Trying to refrain from starting a drama because then I'll end up spending whole days just doing a drama marathon. Knowing myself, it's better to not start than stop myself later on.

Spring is finally here! The sun's out again after a chilly day yesterday. Really want to go out and have fun but..I've got my work to do ): Although I must say..I think I really am developing hay fever which I never had when we first came here. Not a good thing to have because it renders you in tears and a runny nose that flows like a tap.

Anyway, enough procrastinating. Back to work!!!!!



Suddenly had an urge to blog for some reason, even though I haven't been up to much.

Midsem break just ended and it's back to school life for the last 3 weeks before exams D:

I had a pretty chill holiday this time round and started going crazy toward the end because I was too chill at the start and got no work done-.- Seriously, holidays are meant for us to relax but instead we are catching up with lectures, starting assignments. So there I was, trying to finish catching up with lectures, attempting to start on assignments and attempted to try starting to study for exams...which did not happen. The only thing that did happen was some catching up with lectures. And...that's how I spent my midsem break.

OH, I finally decided to rip my pocket out to get my own laptop, a macbook pro retina. It's pretty fast, the screen resolution is sooooo good, I'm in love HAHAHAHA. Like the deluded apple fan that I am. It's a lot lighter than the pro and the shape is a bit flatter but overall..I better take good care of it LOL. I just got a tiffany blue keyboard cover that was delivered today which is really pretty too :DD Was trying to look for a vinyl skin for the exterior so it doesn't get scratches but nothing on eBay has really caught my eye and the ones elsewhere are like $30 for 1 sheet of sticker which is not including shipping cost either. -.-

Uni and life isn't giving anyone a break either, everything is just piling on. Study, work, eat, finish assignment.

On a side note, the weather has been AMAZING, super hot but finally not freezing anymore. Beautiful blue skies and hot hot sun. Michelle dropped by in melbourne for 2 days so I brought her to brighton beach to take pictures of the insta-worthy boathouse thingo's. So hot but it was fun haha.

Sarah noted I like to take pictures of the sky a lot and I realised I really do. Like there's something about the sky that I really love. The colour, the vastness, the inability of it to be captured fully in a painting or a photograph. I think the colours are the best part plus the clouds. No two sunsets are the same. I've attempted to paint the sky multiple times and I can never get the right colours or even the right...depiction of the sky. Ok, maybe because I'm not an artist/art-student and lack the artistic skill to do so but the colours you see in the sky and the different patterns are just something that is so difficult to recreate.

Alright, enough of me ranting about random happenings. Go be productive everyone! (:

The things that happen..seriously.
Woke up this morning, realised there was no electricity, thought the power tripped, and turns out they were replacing the power poles without informing us. WHAT. And it's no power until 3pm. And on a day where I do need internet. In the end I had to pack up my stuff and head to the library to use the power and internet. -.- Still at the library now..going to leave at 3. It's so noisy here right now with all the kids supposedly "studying for exams" and clearly the study is not getting done. On the bright side, since I was here pretty early, I had a short period of peace without the noisy school kids and the kids program (singing songs and stuff).  Managed to finish 4 lectures which is pretty good considering my low productivity yesterday. Aiming to finish 6 more when I get back home. WITH INTERNET. AND POWER. Of all days, it had to happen today. They even blocked off all the roads in the area. I was going to finish 1 more lecture but then I couldn't download the notes and print them because lack of internet. Plus, the library printing fees are no joke. Hence, I'm stuck with about half an hour with nothing better to do and thus this post. I seriously have no idea how I'm going to start studying for exams..there's so much to get through. Sigh.
Alright I shall start packing and leave nowwww.

"할 일은 더럽게 많은데
하고 싶은 건 하나도 없어"

Perfectly describes my procrastination valleys amidst the rare peaks of motivation. 

GAH. I have exams in a week. Was "determined" to finish up 4 lectures over the weekend and it didn't happen..as usual. As of today, I've only really managed to finish ONE. And half the day is already gone. Considering I almost fell asleep listening to that one lecture, clearly today has not been very productive and it may not be looking up for the rest of the day either. Sigh, this week is going to go by so fast before I know it and I'll be crapping my pants the night before each exam in addition to insomnia. Motivation always hits rock bottom just before exams and then it gets to the point of oh crap I really need to study and by then, you just barge your way through all the information and not remember or retain very much of it all. 

To be honest, I just can't wait to go on holiday. I'll be going to Tasmania for a week with a friend the week right after exams and then off to Bali for a week in January. Can't wait to go. And travel. And enjoy life. And spend money (oops). Haven't even started earning and here I am blasting money. But hey, it's been a tough semester. Not even semester. The whole year has been difficult, I have no idea how I've made it through till now. This year while studying, I really hit the depths of hopelessness before tests and exams because it was just so full on, it's mind boggling. 

Also, finally settled my friend's birthday present (the Her Fashion Box subscription thingo). Finally had the time so I called them up, only to be sent to their voicemail. Decided that it couldn't wait anymore so I sent them a message on Facebook and also an offline message on their website. Finally managed to get a reply and also got a copy of the gift certificate so my friend can access her gift. LOL, moral of the story? Please contact Herfashionbox through Facebook or by the offline messaging system they have(after you log in). It's likely you'll get a quicker reply...from experience. Oh whatever, as long as I've got my reply and my friend has got the "gift", I've done my part. 

Alright, so now it's back to work for me and..enjoy the rest of the day for you! :P

At the start of the week I said this was going to be a crazy week, the craziest we've ever had it.
And finally it's all over. Last test, last assignment, last lecture.

Just spent close to 10 hours staring at tons of articles and statistics trying to come up with evidence to support what I had to write for the assignment. The word limit is really short too so while they want detail and justification for writing what you did, the word limit just doesn't allow for it. Had to cut down what I wrote by half. Hopefully it still makes some sense. It was due at 5 and at 3 I started panicking because I hadn't even started on the first part of the assignment but thankfully I got it done with legit 10 minutes till it was due. I've never started/completed an assignment this close to the due date before but you know circumstances..I'm just happy I managed to get it done because honestly before this morning, I hadn't even started on it while people were already submitting. Oh whatever, I'm so over it now.

Finally submitted this last assignment for the 4 years. Finally finished lectures for the last 4 years. Finally done the last test in the 4 years. Done with a Bachelor's.

I don't know..I think it hasn't hit me that I'm done. Done with all this. Done with the studying that has happened for the past..15 years. Nothing much is feeling real these days. Lecture, tests, assignments. It's like my brain has stopped working. This past year has been packed full with everything imaginable. The first half of the year killed us with having a million placements and then a mountain of lectures AND pre-recorded lectures. The second half of the year killed us because we had our last placement and then the job hunting started and then now we have to settle the ton of paperwork before we can start amongst the multitude of tests and assignments and catching up on lectures we skipped to catch up on the other stuff. It's been a vicious cycle after cycle. By God's grace I've made it this far. Who knows what will happen going forward. What I do know, is that I'm thankful for the people I've met and the things I've learnt.
It's not goodbye just yet with exams on the way.
Where has the 4 years gone?

Today has been such an eventful day, my heart is literally still racing from the adrenaline.

Anyway, starting from the top, I had a test this morning which didn't go super well..it will be good if I can pass....saw a lot of questions and went ASDKJDANF@ because I remembered reading it somewhere but I just couldn't recall the detail that the question required -.- Tbh, for this test I really took the heck care route. Not that I didn't study. I wrote notes, read them. But didn't absorb them. That's where the problem lies.

Moving on to more exciting interesting heart-pounding stuff, Bigbang finished their one and only show in melbourne, and concluded their tour in australia tonight. How was it? It was awesomely mind-blowing, like there is nothing like it. I've been to only 1 other concert a long time ago (2008) for fahrenheit and Bigbang is on a whole new level. The quality and their energy just radiates and they really feed off the crowd's energy. Melbourne, you were an amazing audience tonight and if like we promised 태양 , I hope we will still generate the same energy the next time they tour here again. Whether or not the money was worth it, it was 200% worth it. Initially they only had 1 sydney show and I was legit prepared to book flight tickets to syndey just for that one show. Would I go again? OF COURSE. Zero regrets whatsoever...even if I did crap for the test. Was so sweet when the crowd started chanting daesung's name. The people were crazy over GD and T.O.P..and also nyongtory. The live band was also really really good. Honourable mention about the cameras, super high quality so we can enjoy gushing over our 빅뱅 오빠들 in glorious HD. I don't know how my VIP heart survived. It was entertaining from start to end, and never a dull moment. In fact, time passed so quickly, it was surprising when they announced that they only had 1 song left. Ohyea, their fan service is awesome too. T.O.P with his wink and smirk and "you like" and his finger heart, seungri with his getting high himself (HAHA), GD with his sit on the edge of the stage really close to GA standing, tae yang and daesung with having fun with the audience and finger hearts. ARGH I KEHNUT. Had so much love from daesung in this concert ♥ - that was totally me the whole concert. May I just say, they sound terrific live and even better than the recordings (plus jumping and dancing around). Forget about MR removed, they can sing. And boy do they sing freaking well. I melted.
Ohhh Daesung was so funny, he had his fringe covering his eyes in the first talking break they had and he was like I can't see you guys tonight because of my hair so I want to hear you guys alright!! *Screams* Do you want to see my eyes? *Screams some more* Camera zooms in and he show us his eyes..super big HAHAHHA watch the big bang episode on Happy Together and you'll get what I mean. After the show, people were waiting around to wait for them to exit. Didn't manage to catch them leaving but I saw a whole ton of people waving ): We didn't have the same send-off event that some places in the US had so no chance of selfies..it was literally a whole ton of people looking down into a car park, hoping to catch them for the last time before they leave. Apparently GD was in Crown yesterday/earlier today and they ate lunch at oriental spoon HAHA. I understand why they want Korean food though. While my friends were saying they should go get a steak or something, I sort of get where they're coming from. They've been the touring the US, probably have not been back in Korea for a while, will continue touring within the next few weeks = no korean food. When you get the opportunity, why not right?!

Anyway, for the concert setlist, I think it was pretty much the same as the Sydney one. I DO NOT RMB THE ORDER GAH.
It was..
BANG BANG BANG
Tonight (English rap) - GD PLAYS THE ELECTRIC GUITAR LIKE A BOSS (it even had a green laser pointer on the end)
Stupid Liar
Haru Haru (acoustic)
Then the middle I don't rmb (Blue, If You, Bad Boy, Loser, Crooked, We Like 2 Party)
In terms of solo/duets we had Strong Baby, Doom DaDa, Wings, Crooked, Zutter, Good Boy, Eyes Nose Lips
Sober (plus daesung on drums)
Fantastic Baby
Encore: BANG BANG BANG, BAE BAE, We Like 2 Party

I had so much fun and really truly enjoyed myself. It was an excellent show and I really hope they come back again. I bought the ticket as a 21st birthday present to myself. I went alone and it was totally fine. (Actually I wanted to go alone so I can fangirl like crazy myself and not look...crazy) Did not regret going alone and anyone who's thinking of going but the price of tickets is putting you off, I say go for it. First concert I attended alone and it was AWESOME..even with a possible sore throat on the way for all that screaming. But, it was worth it. During the encore, someone even threw the national flag on the stage and Seungri took it and carried it off haha.
That's all the sneak peeks folks.
Goodnight ♥

If it's not obvious enough, yes I turn 21 today. 

Quick one again because I really feel like I need to vent.
Every year is seriously getting worse than the year before. This semester alone, each coming week has been worse than the last.
I have test on monday, group assignment due on monday, test on wednesday, concert on wednesday night, last day of uni(ever) on thursday, assignment (with research) due on friday.
Expecting little to no sleep at all this week fml.
So much for I'm-going-to-start-studying-early. I did start..but it wasn't specifically for these tests..
It's so ironic that I'm going mad and mentally pulling my hair out while I'm staring at my notes for psychoses. Yoohoo, I'm going to be the one starting to hear voices very soon -.- Mental overload and sleep deprivation, wait till you see me at the end of this week. So much for ending uni with a bang. I feel like I'm drowning..or already drowned. I really wanted to attend band today but now I'm really glad I didn't. If not, I wouldn't be here now and will be in my corner crying my heart out because I know I won't even finish studying for both of the tests. I don't even know how I will manage to finish the assignment by friday 5pm and still attend the last day of uni. So much motivation to  attend classes for the last time huh. And the group assignment..sigh, I've finished my part, and some of the others haven't really finished..and there's one person with unsatisfactory answers wtf. One does not simply give 4 short causes if the question asks for minimum of 4. One is expected to ELABORATE and do some RESEARCH. And it's not like it's the only question that they did that has a ridiculously short answer. Anyway..my group is not even finished yet. Some of the referencing is not done, some answers are all over the place, I have no idea how we're going to finish it by Monday 9am AND finish studying for that test. It's just an MCQ test but D: . Such a great way to celebrate turning 21. Gah my week. To top these, I still have got no reply regarding my friend's gift (inefficient company ahem) and to give them the benefit of doubt, maybe there might be something wrong with my friend's email but seriously, where is the correspondence?! If the gift subscription could be refunded, I would have cancelled the order when my friend hadn't received the email for a whole WEEK when apparently it was supposed to be "mailed out" by post literally, in 1-2 working days. Stress levels have blown past the roof. I better move to my table now instead of studying on my bed, if not I really won't fall asleep tonight due to poor sleep hygiene. Don't want to be a live zombie at work tmr...
KBYE.

It's one of those days I thought I should just sit down and be reflective. Actually I've been having a lot of these days and that's why I end up blogging instead of studying oops.

Over the past few months, I've just been scrambling over opportunities I thought was best for me and then feeling so disappointed because nothing worked out. All the while I thought I could find a better opportunity and wasn't 100% happy with what I already had, and yesterday it finally hit me that I haven't been thankful for what I already have, and instead I was looking over the fence at opportunities other people were getting without realising I was standing in a green pasture myself. All I had to do was ask and it was given. I cannot be more thankful for this person who gave the chance first and has continued to give me opportunities. I was talking with a friend yesterday and she still hasn't secured a position this late in the year when most people have already got theirs and it was then that I really felt blessed for what I did have and finally understood why so much stuff happened 1-2 years back when I first started hunting around. I have been put in a place that I'm comfortable with by His grace and I shall stop looking back and around because I can safely say that I am happy. Anyone having a hard time, He has a plan for you. Throwback to 1-2 years ago, I was struggling to find a job. I didn't know anything, I had no job experience, no one wanted to employ me. I'm not sure if I posted about this before but for an extended amount of time, I was working about 3 hours a week for free at this place that said they would hire me but it never came to fruition until I was about to leave. Nevertheless, I was taken advantage of at that place and was genuinely not happy. I hated that I was doing it for free and yet I was learning nothing. I dreaded turning up for 3 hours every week and had to pretend to be confident and happy when inside I was tearing myself apart. The people were nice but I just felt so out of place, so dumb and yet I stuck with it for at least a whole semester. I was doing this without my parents knowledge and at the time I was really questioning why I was doing what I was doing. Again and again they gave me false hope and so I finally quit after I managed to secure a position elsewhere. It was a tough ride because on one hand my parents were not happy with me saying I didn't even bother looking for a job and on the other hand I was doing crap work (tills and cleaning) for free. But at the end of this, I got my experience, took it and left and am much happier where I am now.  I won't compare standards but I am so much happier where I am now and I don't dread turning up each week(although I do miss sleeping in on the weekends). Back then, would I have known this? Never. Things do work out, and He does have a plan for you.

Amazingly managed to stay awake till 2 last night catching up with lectures. Sadly, it's not happening tonight. Connection issues are not helping and I think it's just a sign that I should go sleep soon.

It's been a busy day. Had work in the morning, went for band late because I was caught up with transferring photos from the previous laptop and washing dishes. -.- Got home, went for a run for half an hour, came back and spent at least 2 hours transferring and organising more photos. I never knew there were so many photos on the laptop until I had to start transferring them so my brother can restore the old laptop to factory settings because it's running super slow. Gahh, first I buy my own laptop so he doesn't have to use a crap one, and now I even have to clear all the photos for him so he can reset it. It's not like he's even doing any work. I was honestly getting quite pissed because I spent so many hours trying to clear photos, and then I had to help with dinner and wash stupid pots and pans which made me late for band in the first place. AND, it's not like I would be chilling anyway, I have work to do, things to catch up on, tests to study for and assignments that are due. Why do I even bother..

Did a mental check of my deadlines and what I have to do and gahhh still have so much to do in so little time. I'm not at the super stressed stage yet but wait till you see me next weekend. Will be totally ready to bite heads off of whoever dares disturb me. The year has ended way too quickly, and yet I feel like I've accomplished nothing.

What am I even saying...sleepy mind = incoherent, delirious ranting.
Gdnight.

I feel like crap just happened.

Struggling to get my studying pace back.

Was doing very well and staying super motivated and had everything planned out at the end of last week and then once it lapsed on to this week, everything died down again. Have spent the whole week since monday just trying to get done with 1 mere lecture that I kept putting off and could not get on with any other work.

Instead of studying like I should be, I ended up watching Ponyo and Princess Mononoke. To be honest, I watched them out of interest for the music composed by Joe Hisaishi which was so beautiful. The animations were great but no comment about the storyline. I thought they were pretty alright, but princess mononoke did have a more engaging story I feel. Trying to refrain from starting a drama because then I'll end up spending whole days just doing a drama marathon. Knowing myself, it's better to not start than stop myself later on.

Spring is finally here! The sun's out again after a chilly day yesterday. Really want to go out and have fun but..I've got my work to do ): Although I must say..I think I really am developing hay fever which I never had when we first came here. Not a good thing to have because it renders you in tears and a runny nose that flows like a tap.

Anyway, enough procrastinating. Back to work!!!!!

Suddenly had an urge to blog for some reason, even though I haven't been up to much.

Midsem break just ended and it's back to school life for the last 3 weeks before exams D:

I had a pretty chill holiday this time round and started going crazy toward the end because I was too chill at the start and got no work done-.- Seriously, holidays are meant for us to relax but instead we are catching up with lectures, starting assignments. So there I was, trying to finish catching up with lectures, attempting to start on assignments and attempted to try starting to study for exams...which did not happen. The only thing that did happen was some catching up with lectures. And...that's how I spent my midsem break.

OH, I finally decided to rip my pocket out to get my own laptop, a macbook pro retina. It's pretty fast, the screen resolution is sooooo good, I'm in love HAHAHAHA. Like the deluded apple fan that I am. It's a lot lighter than the pro and the shape is a bit flatter but overall..I better take good care of it LOL. I just got a tiffany blue keyboard cover that was delivered today which is really pretty too :DD Was trying to look for a vinyl skin for the exterior so it doesn't get scratches but nothing on eBay has really caught my eye and the ones elsewhere are like $30 for 1 sheet of sticker which is not including shipping cost either. -.-

Uni and life isn't giving anyone a break either, everything is just piling on. Study, work, eat, finish assignment.

On a side note, the weather has been AMAZING, super hot but finally not freezing anymore. Beautiful blue skies and hot hot sun. Michelle dropped by in melbourne for 2 days so I brought her to brighton beach to take pictures of the insta-worthy boathouse thingo's. So hot but it was fun haha.

Sarah noted I like to take pictures of the sky a lot and I realised I really do. Like there's something about the sky that I really love. The colour, the vastness, the inability of it to be captured fully in a painting or a photograph. I think the colours are the best part plus the clouds. No two sunsets are the same. I've attempted to paint the sky multiple times and I can never get the right colours or even the right...depiction of the sky. Ok, maybe because I'm not an artist/art-student and lack the artistic skill to do so but the colours you see in the sky and the different patterns are just something that is so difficult to recreate.

Alright, enough of me ranting about random happenings. Go be productive everyone! (:

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