Struggling to focus here.
Listening to the recording of a lecture and it's so heavily loaded with content..and I decided to be stingy and print my notes smaller, which leaves me with tiny little spaces to write notes -.-

Just did a total lecture count..I have at least 27 lectures to listen to. Not even including the pre-recorded ones they like to give us as extra work. Add self-study topics on top of that, plus assignment due on wednesday. The next three weeks ain't going to be easy. But I guess if I have to stay up late to get work done then so be it..it's a sacrifice I will have to make.

Exam timetable is out. It's not..terrible but we start quite early this time. One on the 10th then 17th then 19th June. It's alright, not that terrible. Well nothing can compare to having exams on consecutive days right. Been there, done that. The night in between was a mad rush of balancing I-need-to-finish-revision and I-deserve-a-break. Lol. I always feel entitled to have a break after a test or an exam and seriously do nothing for the rest of the day but you know, some circumstances just don't work that way.

I don't even sleep well nowadays :/ Can't fall asleep at night and then waking up at 7++ in the morning isn't exactly the best thing. I used to be able to fall back to sleep if I woke up to early but now I can't..I just get so restless :/ Getting old maybe?!!

Things are somewhat starting to fall in place. I'm waiting on a few deliveries to arrive this week so hopefully they all arrive in time. Spent my day packing thy room, completed something, did 1 lecture..and in the process of finishing another one at the moment. Well yea, that's my day.

We have this group assignment thing due on wednesday and gahhhh there is this someone. Someone with more patience than I do has explained what needs to be done for her segment and she goes to do it..and what is typed up is not even relevant to the information that the question is asking for. Had to look through it and redo it last night, but it's lacking references everywhere for that part :/ We're meeting up tomorrow to complete it so hopefully we will be able to complete it...Well it is due on wednesday so we do have to finish it no matter what..Sigh, this never ending group work with people who don't contribute their fair share. WHY DO THESE PEOPLE EXIST WHYYYYYY.

Alright, enough of the ranting..effective studying needs to be completed!!!



The real craziness has begun. Or so I think. Okok it isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Just have to finish up the assignment due on Wednesday, study for the test for this Friday and work on the other assignment due the 27th.



Really shouldn't be blogging right now D:
I don't know why, I keep typing up posts and deleting them. I've typed up 2 posts just before typing this one but I've decided to keep them unpublished. Maybe I'll post them one day. When I do well in the future perhaps. One day when I can look back and tell myself how foolish I was back then to worry so much. 

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:34

I'm so tired. Yesterday was one of those crappy days. Even thinking about it now is putting me in a bad mood. I really can't wait until April is over. It's been so...tumultuous even though we're only a bit more than halfway through it. At this point in time, I just want out. Go somewhere where I can breathe in peace without having to think of repercussions and the future. 





Blundering through storms.
Not literally but still.
I wasn't expecting it to be a walk in the park but definitely am I not prepared for what's coming up next. In the 3 weeks of April that we have in uni before the next placements block,
16th April - Test
20th April - Test
22 April - Group Assignment due
24 April - Test, applications for internship in a certain area finish
30 April - Test
And then intersperse those with gazillion lectures and tutes and workshops and what does that give you? A dead me. LOL. Not literally.
And so I have spent my 1 week midsem break trying to get some studying and note writing down so I don't find myself sinking in a deep never-ending abyss of doom. And also in between those, we have so many self-study topics and readings to do I can't even D:
Do you know how discouraging it is? To finally be able to feel that you've caught up only to realise that you've only just got to the foot of the real mountain you've to climb?
Doesn't really help that no one else in my group for the group assignment has done ANY work at all for it. I can safely say that I've done almost half of the assignment already, myself. And this was meant to be a 5-person group. 1 person is un-contactable even. With all these tests in the way, why wouldn't they want to work on it now?! ARGH. I don't want to end up working on the stupid assignment when we have a test due 2 days after it's due. As much as you guys are busy, I'm busy too, but can't you even bother to reply?!! Some people...
There I was waiting for May and a good holiday when I realised all this crap was going to happen..before May -.- So until May, it's wading in the good ol' waist-deep mud until I reach the other end...
All the uni peeps in sg, jiayou for your exams!!



I have this friend. She constantly makes me question the definition of a good/true friend.
To her, a good friend is someone who would correct you when you're doing something wrong or behaving in a way that would turn people off etc.
But to me, isn't a good friend someone who would accept you for the way you are?
I am very blessed to be able to say I have 2 of these who have been there for me no matter what, even after all these years - and we're not even in the same continent now! But never in the close to 10 years that I've known both of them has any one of them told me I shouldn't say something in a certain way or I shouldn't complain or I should do this this this. These are friends I can feel comfortable with even if we're silent.
But with this other friend, it's different. I feel like she's judging me for the way I talk, for the things that I say and she'll correct me because she thinks that's what a good friend would do. She does have a point but I feel like it doesn't have to be in my face every time we talk. She says she's very blunt and it can come off the wrong way and if I feel there's something she needs to change I can always bring it up to her. That's something she accepts but sometimes I really hate it that something or other will come up in a conversation over the phone. If it's correcting me over a word I say wrong or funny, it's ok, but I don't exactly want to be told how to do things or how to say things because someone else thinks it's not right. Is this really what a true friend should be like?
You know, we're all looking for acceptance in this vast cold world. In the workforce, the one who tells you off are the people who care about you and the people who sit there and do nothing are the ones who will shoot you down later. But do I really need to be corrected on how I said/asked something in a group chat with people I never knew existed? Maybe I'm in a late rebellious stage but I really don't think I need to be told how to behave or how I should do things.
A lot of the times it really gets on my nerves and maybe we're this way because we have a different perception of what a good friend should be like. Both are correct but I think there has to be a balance and a limit for what your friend should and should not interfere with. Is this going too far this time? Yes I think so. I have to admit, I was so very close to flaring up and after the phone call I was actually quite pissed off and I could tell she was too. But you have to have your limits when approaching people.
What's your definition of a good friend?

Struggling to focus here.
Listening to the recording of a lecture and it's so heavily loaded with content..and I decided to be stingy and print my notes smaller, which leaves me with tiny little spaces to write notes -.-

Just did a total lecture count..I have at least 27 lectures to listen to. Not even including the pre-recorded ones they like to give us as extra work. Add self-study topics on top of that, plus assignment due on wednesday. The next three weeks ain't going to be easy. But I guess if I have to stay up late to get work done then so be it..it's a sacrifice I will have to make.

Exam timetable is out. It's not..terrible but we start quite early this time. One on the 10th then 17th then 19th June. It's alright, not that terrible. Well nothing can compare to having exams on consecutive days right. Been there, done that. The night in between was a mad rush of balancing I-need-to-finish-revision and I-deserve-a-break. Lol. I always feel entitled to have a break after a test or an exam and seriously do nothing for the rest of the day but you know, some circumstances just don't work that way.

I don't even sleep well nowadays :/ Can't fall asleep at night and then waking up at 7++ in the morning isn't exactly the best thing. I used to be able to fall back to sleep if I woke up to early but now I can't..I just get so restless :/ Getting old maybe?!!

Things are somewhat starting to fall in place. I'm waiting on a few deliveries to arrive this week so hopefully they all arrive in time. Spent my day packing thy room, completed something, did 1 lecture..and in the process of finishing another one at the moment. Well yea, that's my day.

We have this group assignment thing due on wednesday and gahhhh there is this someone. Someone with more patience than I do has explained what needs to be done for her segment and she goes to do it..and what is typed up is not even relevant to the information that the question is asking for. Had to look through it and redo it last night, but it's lacking references everywhere for that part :/ We're meeting up tomorrow to complete it so hopefully we will be able to complete it...Well it is due on wednesday so we do have to finish it no matter what..Sigh, this never ending group work with people who don't contribute their fair share. WHY DO THESE PEOPLE EXIST WHYYYYYY.

Alright, enough of the ranting..effective studying needs to be completed!!!

The real craziness has begun. Or so I think. Okok it isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Just have to finish up the assignment due on Wednesday, study for the test for this Friday and work on the other assignment due the 27th.

Really shouldn't be blogging right now D:
I don't know why, I keep typing up posts and deleting them. I've typed up 2 posts just before typing this one but I've decided to keep them unpublished. Maybe I'll post them one day. When I do well in the future perhaps. One day when I can look back and tell myself how foolish I was back then to worry so much. 

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:34

I'm so tired. Yesterday was one of those crappy days. Even thinking about it now is putting me in a bad mood. I really can't wait until April is over. It's been so...tumultuous even though we're only a bit more than halfway through it. At this point in time, I just want out. Go somewhere where I can breathe in peace without having to think of repercussions and the future. 



Blundering through storms.
Not literally but still.
I wasn't expecting it to be a walk in the park but definitely am I not prepared for what's coming up next. In the 3 weeks of April that we have in uni before the next placements block,
16th April - Test
20th April - Test
22 April - Group Assignment due
24 April - Test, applications for internship in a certain area finish
30 April - Test
And then intersperse those with gazillion lectures and tutes and workshops and what does that give you? A dead me. LOL. Not literally.
And so I have spent my 1 week midsem break trying to get some studying and note writing down so I don't find myself sinking in a deep never-ending abyss of doom. And also in between those, we have so many self-study topics and readings to do I can't even D:
Do you know how discouraging it is? To finally be able to feel that you've caught up only to realise that you've only just got to the foot of the real mountain you've to climb?
Doesn't really help that no one else in my group for the group assignment has done ANY work at all for it. I can safely say that I've done almost half of the assignment already, myself. And this was meant to be a 5-person group. 1 person is un-contactable even. With all these tests in the way, why wouldn't they want to work on it now?! ARGH. I don't want to end up working on the stupid assignment when we have a test due 2 days after it's due. As much as you guys are busy, I'm busy too, but can't you even bother to reply?!! Some people...
There I was waiting for May and a good holiday when I realised all this crap was going to happen..before May -.- So until May, it's wading in the good ol' waist-deep mud until I reach the other end...
All the uni peeps in sg, jiayou for your exams!!

I have this friend. She constantly makes me question the definition of a good/true friend.
To her, a good friend is someone who would correct you when you're doing something wrong or behaving in a way that would turn people off etc.
But to me, isn't a good friend someone who would accept you for the way you are?
I am very blessed to be able to say I have 2 of these who have been there for me no matter what, even after all these years - and we're not even in the same continent now! But never in the close to 10 years that I've known both of them has any one of them told me I shouldn't say something in a certain way or I shouldn't complain or I should do this this this. These are friends I can feel comfortable with even if we're silent.
But with this other friend, it's different. I feel like she's judging me for the way I talk, for the things that I say and she'll correct me because she thinks that's what a good friend would do. She does have a point but I feel like it doesn't have to be in my face every time we talk. She says she's very blunt and it can come off the wrong way and if I feel there's something she needs to change I can always bring it up to her. That's something she accepts but sometimes I really hate it that something or other will come up in a conversation over the phone. If it's correcting me over a word I say wrong or funny, it's ok, but I don't exactly want to be told how to do things or how to say things because someone else thinks it's not right. Is this really what a true friend should be like?
You know, we're all looking for acceptance in this vast cold world. In the workforce, the one who tells you off are the people who care about you and the people who sit there and do nothing are the ones who will shoot you down later. But do I really need to be corrected on how I said/asked something in a group chat with people I never knew existed? Maybe I'm in a late rebellious stage but I really don't think I need to be told how to behave or how I should do things.
A lot of the times it really gets on my nerves and maybe we're this way because we have a different perception of what a good friend should be like. Both are correct but I think there has to be a balance and a limit for what your friend should and should not interfere with. Is this going too far this time? Yes I think so. I have to admit, I was so very close to flaring up and after the phone call I was actually quite pissed off and I could tell she was too. But you have to have your limits when approaching people.
What's your definition of a good friend?

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