Struck lottery and posting twice a day?
I didn't realise I already posted this morning but whatever, another post won't kill.

It has suddenly hit me that I am actually not good at anything in particular.
In school, despite it being a bilingual school, the students' command of both English and Chinese was neither very good nor very bad. Speaking in general here, because there are definitely some who are very good in either. Me being the average or even below average student is fluent in both English and Chinese but I cannot safely say that I have mastered either.
This doesn't end with my command of languages. Even though I play at least 2 instruments(attempting to learn one more now), I cannot say I have mastered either one. Both are somewhat there, neither excellent nor terrible.
It's like everything is hanging in limbo, being neither good nor bad and in that sense I guess I haven't found what I am good at.
How do I stand out from the crowd? At the moment, I believe I'm overshadowed in every single aspect.



So fed-up right now.
Writing up my resume so I can finally go get a job and I am getting so fed-up with it.
First of all, there isn't really much to put on it other than my academic stuff. I have no work experience nor do I have any references. Even volunteer work..the only volunteer work I ever remember doing was CIP - cleaning beaches, visiting a children's home, hanging up national flags at a HDB block for national day and hamper wrapping, and to be honest, that's it. I don't have anything else and all the CIP that I've ever done is not even relevant to what I'm applying for. Also, all the CIP activities were done more than 3 years ago. I have nothing. Singapore education has never prepared me for half studying and half working. I didn't even have to work during holidays in Singapore because holidays were spent studying, doing holiday homework and cca. Can't I just honestly tell the interviewer about this? I was actually planning to put my high school teachers contacts. I asked my friend about it and she thought it would be weird if I was already past 1st year uni but still using high school teacher contacts. She thought using uni lecturers or tutors would be more appropriate. But then, my lecturers or tutors don't even know of my existence!! Should I still email and ask anyway? I was thinking maybe I could email one of the lecturers because I did quite well in the assignments, but then I realised that's the subject which I screwed up the exam, maybe not such a good idea since he would probably look it up to see what he could say. Furthermore, he's not a full-time lecturer. So again, I'm stuck in a rut.  I googled about the lack of work experience and they said you can put volunteer work instead, or odd jobs like baby-sitting. But then again, it's not very relevant at all to what I'm applying for-.- Then I googled about the lack of references. They said you could use personal references such as family friends who can testify your character and how you work. But then it was also said that use of personal references should be minimised and emphasis on those are often not taken into account. I read somewhere that sometimes if you blow the interviewer away at the interview, they often won't ask for the references.
I honestly feel like coming clean and telling the interviewers that I don't have any work experience whatsoever, nor do I have any references, but I'm willing to work hard to prove myself given the chance.

I texted another friend about what she put on hers(she got a job recently) and she also said she had no work experience and had nothing on her resume(although I do think she has some work experience from year10 that was..compulsory if I'm not wrong). Asked her about the work experience part and the references part. Hopefully she sees it soon.
If I really can't write up a resume, then I guess I'll have to volunteer somewhere.



Today's weather is HOTHOTHOT!! High of 34 degrees today. It's the kind of weather where you don't feel like doing anything. This apparently is a behavioral mechanism with regards to body temperature regulation. Less movement means less heat production, preventing increase of the body's core temperature.

Anyway, something funny happened last Thursday. My mum brought my brother(year 7) for some trial Maths tuition and then having nothing better to do, I tagged along. We walked into the room and then the tutor was like uh..so who is here for the trial? Hahaha so do I look that young or does my brother look matured or both..

I know there's a lack of structure and flow in this post but whatever, I shall blame the weather.



Exams are over, it's the holidays and I have time on my hands so, why not blog?
Talking about exams..I really feel uneasy about my results. They're not out yet but I still feel..very uneasy about it.

Anyway, it is really about time I started blogging again after the crazy exam study period.
I owe my friend a birthday letter and I still haven't gotten down to writing it yet because I can't find some stuff..argh I really have to start doing something before I waste my entire life away.
Need to finish my resume this weekend and start the job hunting next week. My mum keeps bugging me to quickly get one before all the spots are taken. I think the only reason why I keep putting it off is firstly, my resume is so empty and..embarrassing if you think about it. Other than academic qualifications, nothing else is worth putting on it. Secondly, I'm so worried about the interview. Generally I'm terrible at spontaneous replies. I'm just hoping that the place that I apply will take me even though I don't have any work experience or whatsoever. One thing Singapore education didn't exactly prepare students for. Well, in Singapore it makes sense to not work until after A levels but over here, people start working early and rack up all types of work experience. It's so hard><

Anyway, I was thinking about something the other day and it hit me that it's interesting how our brains register something as funny and trigger laughter. There are many different types of things that make us laugh, different things for different people but how do we determine if something is funny or not? Do we learn to tell what is funny or not funny?



It's been quite a while since I updated.
Exams finished on monday, so in short, I've been doing nothing for this entire week. Well, not exactly nothing haha. Packed my room and when I say pack up I mean like take everything of the shelves and out of the drawers and start packing again. One thing to note..I have so much stuff. Dug out a lot of things that had sentimental value to me and reading all of it just made me smile and think how blessed I am for the friends God has put in my life. Sure I've met a few unpleasant people along the way, misunderstandings formed in some friendships and now I can safely say it was all worth it. Without meeting those unpleasant people and having the misunderstandings that I did, I would not have the same close friends I have today. I'm a person that values sentimental stuff a lot, like I keep letters and birthday letters from my friends (I even have a metal box for it haha). I even have some notes we ever passed in class. Digging all of it out and taking a look at those things again makes me miss them so much more.

I also finished watching Iljimae, the Lee JunKi version. Can I say, I do not regret spending 20 hours of my life watching that drama. This is one of the dramas that made me cry and laugh throughout. I started the drama on wednesday I think and then already from episode 1 I started crying because it's so..sad and touching. The child actors are really good, especially the boy that acted as the young Lee Geom. No show ever has made me cry in the first episode, not even One Litre of Tears, and this drama definitely caught my attention from the first episode. I have no idea why people find the first 5 episodes or so boring. The OSTs are so sad but beautiful at the same time. I really wouldn't mind watching this again. I took really long to decide what show to watch because nowadays, most of the taiwanese dramas have storylines that are very..typical? I don't really know how to describe them but they don't have storylines that get your attention from the first episode. Don't think I'll watch any taiwanese dramas in the meantime, even the older ones. Not even planning to watch sunshine angel that I planned to watch ages ago, it has my favourite singers/actors in it but the storyline just doesn't sound interesting. Should I watch The Return of Iljimae? Somehow, Lee JunKi is stuck in my head as THE Iljimae and he doesn't act in The Return of Iljimae. Dara has a small feature in it though :/ Should I watch it? I read somewhere that JunKi's version of Iljimae was more action-packed and has an older demographic whereas The Return of Iljimae is for a younger group of people. Went to read some reviews about Iljimae and quite a few of them say the script was messed up? I thought it was pretty ok/good. One thing most of the reviews put down as the good points was the acting, and that one I do agree. The acting was so real that I sort of thought they were the actual characters themselves, I thought it was really convincing. Meanwhile, shall watch the latest episode of running man! hahhaha

Struck lottery and posting twice a day?
I didn't realise I already posted this morning but whatever, another post won't kill.

It has suddenly hit me that I am actually not good at anything in particular.
In school, despite it being a bilingual school, the students' command of both English and Chinese was neither very good nor very bad. Speaking in general here, because there are definitely some who are very good in either. Me being the average or even below average student is fluent in both English and Chinese but I cannot safely say that I have mastered either.
This doesn't end with my command of languages. Even though I play at least 2 instruments(attempting to learn one more now), I cannot say I have mastered either one. Both are somewhat there, neither excellent nor terrible.
It's like everything is hanging in limbo, being neither good nor bad and in that sense I guess I haven't found what I am good at.
How do I stand out from the crowd? At the moment, I believe I'm overshadowed in every single aspect.

So fed-up right now.
Writing up my resume so I can finally go get a job and I am getting so fed-up with it.
First of all, there isn't really much to put on it other than my academic stuff. I have no work experience nor do I have any references. Even volunteer work..the only volunteer work I ever remember doing was CIP - cleaning beaches, visiting a children's home, hanging up national flags at a HDB block for national day and hamper wrapping, and to be honest, that's it. I don't have anything else and all the CIP that I've ever done is not even relevant to what I'm applying for. Also, all the CIP activities were done more than 3 years ago. I have nothing. Singapore education has never prepared me for half studying and half working. I didn't even have to work during holidays in Singapore because holidays were spent studying, doing holiday homework and cca. Can't I just honestly tell the interviewer about this? I was actually planning to put my high school teachers contacts. I asked my friend about it and she thought it would be weird if I was already past 1st year uni but still using high school teacher contacts. She thought using uni lecturers or tutors would be more appropriate. But then, my lecturers or tutors don't even know of my existence!! Should I still email and ask anyway? I was thinking maybe I could email one of the lecturers because I did quite well in the assignments, but then I realised that's the subject which I screwed up the exam, maybe not such a good idea since he would probably look it up to see what he could say. Furthermore, he's not a full-time lecturer. So again, I'm stuck in a rut.  I googled about the lack of work experience and they said you can put volunteer work instead, or odd jobs like baby-sitting. But then again, it's not very relevant at all to what I'm applying for-.- Then I googled about the lack of references. They said you could use personal references such as family friends who can testify your character and how you work. But then it was also said that use of personal references should be minimised and emphasis on those are often not taken into account. I read somewhere that sometimes if you blow the interviewer away at the interview, they often won't ask for the references.
I honestly feel like coming clean and telling the interviewers that I don't have any work experience whatsoever, nor do I have any references, but I'm willing to work hard to prove myself given the chance.

I texted another friend about what she put on hers(she got a job recently) and she also said she had no work experience and had nothing on her resume(although I do think she has some work experience from year10 that was..compulsory if I'm not wrong). Asked her about the work experience part and the references part. Hopefully she sees it soon.
If I really can't write up a resume, then I guess I'll have to volunteer somewhere.

Today's weather is HOTHOTHOT!! High of 34 degrees today. It's the kind of weather where you don't feel like doing anything. This apparently is a behavioral mechanism with regards to body temperature regulation. Less movement means less heat production, preventing increase of the body's core temperature.

Anyway, something funny happened last Thursday. My mum brought my brother(year 7) for some trial Maths tuition and then having nothing better to do, I tagged along. We walked into the room and then the tutor was like uh..so who is here for the trial? Hahaha so do I look that young or does my brother look matured or both..

I know there's a lack of structure and flow in this post but whatever, I shall blame the weather.

Exams are over, it's the holidays and I have time on my hands so, why not blog?
Talking about exams..I really feel uneasy about my results. They're not out yet but I still feel..very uneasy about it.

Anyway, it is really about time I started blogging again after the crazy exam study period.
I owe my friend a birthday letter and I still haven't gotten down to writing it yet because I can't find some stuff..argh I really have to start doing something before I waste my entire life away.
Need to finish my resume this weekend and start the job hunting next week. My mum keeps bugging me to quickly get one before all the spots are taken. I think the only reason why I keep putting it off is firstly, my resume is so empty and..embarrassing if you think about it. Other than academic qualifications, nothing else is worth putting on it. Secondly, I'm so worried about the interview. Generally I'm terrible at spontaneous replies. I'm just hoping that the place that I apply will take me even though I don't have any work experience or whatsoever. One thing Singapore education didn't exactly prepare students for. Well, in Singapore it makes sense to not work until after A levels but over here, people start working early and rack up all types of work experience. It's so hard><

Anyway, I was thinking about something the other day and it hit me that it's interesting how our brains register something as funny and trigger laughter. There are many different types of things that make us laugh, different things for different people but how do we determine if something is funny or not? Do we learn to tell what is funny or not funny?

It's been quite a while since I updated.
Exams finished on monday, so in short, I've been doing nothing for this entire week. Well, not exactly nothing haha. Packed my room and when I say pack up I mean like take everything of the shelves and out of the drawers and start packing again. One thing to note..I have so much stuff. Dug out a lot of things that had sentimental value to me and reading all of it just made me smile and think how blessed I am for the friends God has put in my life. Sure I've met a few unpleasant people along the way, misunderstandings formed in some friendships and now I can safely say it was all worth it. Without meeting those unpleasant people and having the misunderstandings that I did, I would not have the same close friends I have today. I'm a person that values sentimental stuff a lot, like I keep letters and birthday letters from my friends (I even have a metal box for it haha). I even have some notes we ever passed in class. Digging all of it out and taking a look at those things again makes me miss them so much more.

I also finished watching Iljimae, the Lee JunKi version. Can I say, I do not regret spending 20 hours of my life watching that drama. This is one of the dramas that made me cry and laugh throughout. I started the drama on wednesday I think and then already from episode 1 I started crying because it's so..sad and touching. The child actors are really good, especially the boy that acted as the young Lee Geom. No show ever has made me cry in the first episode, not even One Litre of Tears, and this drama definitely caught my attention from the first episode. I have no idea why people find the first 5 episodes or so boring. The OSTs are so sad but beautiful at the same time. I really wouldn't mind watching this again. I took really long to decide what show to watch because nowadays, most of the taiwanese dramas have storylines that are very..typical? I don't really know how to describe them but they don't have storylines that get your attention from the first episode. Don't think I'll watch any taiwanese dramas in the meantime, even the older ones. Not even planning to watch sunshine angel that I planned to watch ages ago, it has my favourite singers/actors in it but the storyline just doesn't sound interesting. Should I watch The Return of Iljimae? Somehow, Lee JunKi is stuck in my head as THE Iljimae and he doesn't act in The Return of Iljimae. Dara has a small feature in it though :/ Should I watch it? I read somewhere that JunKi's version of Iljimae was more action-packed and has an older demographic whereas The Return of Iljimae is for a younger group of people. Went to read some reviews about Iljimae and quite a few of them say the script was messed up? I thought it was pretty ok/good. One thing most of the reviews put down as the good points was the acting, and that one I do agree. The acting was so real that I sort of thought they were the actual characters themselves, I thought it was really convincing. Meanwhile, shall watch the latest episode of running man! hahhaha

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