I was just thinking, why does God make us wait?
And I think it's not only because God has His own plan for us, but also if we always get what we want quickly, wouldn't we view God as being at our beck and call?
Think of it this way. If I pray for something to happen and it happens the next day, and it always happens this way, I think I would take it for granted that God would grant me whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted it. God would be just a God that makes my wishes come true but I don't think He wants to be seen that way. He is the mighty God, the God who saves, will He tolerate such treatment? Similarly, it's like spoiling a child with materialistic wealth. A child may wish for something and his/her parents wanting to make their kid happy gets the thing for the child. I think God wants to share a relationship that is much closer than that of a Father who gives presents and gifts whenever we please. That is a really materialistic kind of relationship that can't compare to real kinship that a father may have with his kids. Also, I think waiting also in a way nurtures your faith. If you always get what you want, it's very shallow faith and relationship because then, you have faith for the reaping of materialistic wealth. After a long time, it is common to feel impatient and even abandoned, but then if you are able to hang on until God helps, it shows that your faith has the power to help you hang on to God, and the faith that God will perform miracles and help you.

Humans always tend to turn to God when in need or in trouble but forget about Him when life is all good and happy. It's hard to not be like that because in a way, I guess, it's sort of human nature. You can't help what's going to happen, but I think it's most important to thank Him every day for his provisions, for having a safe and settled life every day.

Give thanks, with a grateful heart
Give thanks to the Holy One



have been wanting to change blogskin for a while now but then blogskins.com search engine always isn't working for me. So I shall just have to stick with the current one :/
Someone's going nuts in his own room for no apparent reason. Yes just insult and call me names when all I did was leave the key in the door UNLOCKED. I didn't even say anything to you when you got back like dude seriously? Who do you think you are. All the eff words and I'm wondering how old you actually are DUDE YOU'RE NOT EVEN 12!! What is the world coming to? Lower primary school kids have phones that are touch screen/slide etc. P6 boy having his own iPod touch?!!technological revolution.

My earphones died T.T both sides totally no sound. I went back to using the original one that came with the mp3 but that one the left side has already died so left the right side only. 3-4 sets of earphones died within 3-4years is that bad? About 1 set each year. Most of them is because the left side no sound the one that just got spoilt is the first one that both sides have totally zero sound. Went to look up if I can fix it but uh...apparently you can but it's not easy, might as well get another one-.- There are some people whose earphones spoil once every 3-4 months-.- Have no idea what they do with their earphones-.-

Anywayy, it's free dress day tomorrow! :D And there's band tmr morning too! I love band o.0 although it's so tiring to wake up so early(although in singapore I always woke up at that time every single day). To other people band is a burden but I enjoy it...lol performance in 3 weeks!! :O I have a solo ;) It's actually an oboe solo but the oboe girl doesn't want to play it-.- As if you don't want your solo!! And it's not like it's very hard but uh...really thankful for the solo then? I think it's one of the last performances EVER so it's like a perfect ending I guess, for me that is.  Dedication is not easy I guess, that's why not many people come on time...

ok I really should go now...need to go study more probability and memorise my chinese detail study(oral) stuff>.< update another time



Recently, the topic of forgiveness has been popping up everywhere, last Sunday's sermon, Monday school assembly, today chaplain's assembly.
Is God trying to tell me to forgive someone? Or is He asking me to pass on the message to somebody? Shall share some points from Sunday's sermon.

Forgiving isn't forgetting. The phrase "forgive and forget" is almost impossible to achieve. When you're hurt, it not very possible or likely that you'll totally forget that incident. Forgiving is starting the healing process of the heart. By thirsting for revenge just stops that healing process and at the same time, implying to God that you don't need his control and you can settle all this yourself. Forgiving isn't easy and I know that from experience. People have hurt me and after a while, I learnt to let go. Put the matter into God's hands and He will solve the problem for you. He is always in control and will never forsake you. It is a matter of whether or not you believe and have faith in Him to be in control and solve your problems.

Forgiving doesn't also mean a relationship. Some people will just hurt you over and over again. There's no point in continuing being related to them. A relationship needs both parties to work for it. If the other party isn't willing, you're just wasting your time and you'll just get hurt over and over again.

Because we are forgiven, we should forgive. Break the cycle of revenge and spread God's love, the essence of christianity. Trust that He knows and He heals. There is a parable in the bible in which a lord showed mercy and forgave his servant who did not return his money on time when the servant pleaded with him. That same servant then went to another servant who owed him money. When the debtor pleaded with the creditor, that creditor who was pardoned did not show mercy and threw the debtor servant into jail until he returned every single cent. When the other servants heard of this, they went to the master and told him. The master then called the servant he had pardoned and reprimanded him for not showing mercy that he was shown. That servant was thrown into jail and tortured until every cent was returned. In the same way, show God's grace that He has shown to you.

Today, during mustard, we were also talking about why bad things happen on Earth. Bad things is an understatement but I have no idea what other words I should use. There isn't a why doesn't God send us this and provide us with that. I don't think that there's such things as "God, I want rain, please send rain". I believe He has reasons for all His doings and sometimes these catastrophes are caused by the devil to rock your faith. In the same way, God may use these catastrophes to save people and let the victims grow deeper in faith. I listened to a sermon a while back and the preacher said "It's not that God provides rich people with all their money and possessions, if it's that way, God is being unfair and why would He do that? It just happened that you're born in the right time in the right environment, in the right place." I guess it's sort of true because why would God provide so much for one person and not so much for another? But in times of trouble, in times of need, it's sometimes really hard to turn your eyes to God, especially when you've been waiting. I, for one am so familiar with this waiting. My family's been waiting for the 6th year now. But I believe God is moving. Situation has improved and I trust that God will take care of us and solve the problem. It hasn't been easy and many times, my parents have asked God, "How long more do we have to wait?". Waiting is difficult and sometimes you just want to give up. You just have to have the faith that God will do a miracle and solve whatever problems you have. Trust that God knows best and He'll love you and will always be there for you no matter what.
Hope anyone who reads this feels encouraged to continue through your hardship! ♥





Forgive me for saying so but don't you think you're soooo ridiculously unreasonable?
cooking the rice 10 minutes later won't kill you. Just because David needs to get out by 5.30 doesn't mean I have to cook rice in blazer and jumper. ARE YOU AWARE THAT ALL THE CLOTHES I'M WEARING ARE LONG SLEEVED AND ISN'T VERY CONVENIENT TO WASH RICE? Does it matter to you that I'm feeling sick? It's not like I want to be but hello? can't even change clothes first isit? Yes, go on insulting me. It's not my fault David has to get out by 5.30. I'm not the one who signed him up for lacrosse. I'm not the person who introduced him to lacrosse and it's my fault the hole puncher disappeared? And it's also my fault david can't find the stupid pack of raisins that was supposed to be in the pantry but WASN'T? Can't you just admit you're wrong instead of saying WHATEVER? Yes, I owe my life to you but then be a bit more reasonable can-.- everything also my fault when we're rushing for David. Yes, totally..



It's NATIONAL DAY!! :D


Funny how we feel more patriotic overseas. I was never the really crazy enthusiastic patriot in singapore, not saying that I am one now. Still remember singing 'Home' super loud in P6 with Ruth and Winnie. Don't know how are they right now. It's been 5 years already!! I just found Winnie's facebook :O don't know if she still remembers me or not, but just add anyway :D

Anyway, back to the topic of national day. For  a government to have a nation with national pride is not easy. Recently the inflating influx of foreigners mainly scholars and expats haven't exactly made singaporeans jump with joy. The US economy downturn isn't going to help the economic situation either. But I think it's a long way that Singapore as a country, a nation has come. Today celebrates the 46th year of independence, the 46th anniversary of LKY's achievement in the history of Singapore. I'm not a supporter of any political group but the fact that LKY helped achieve Singapore's independence will not be changed. The fact that he once loved Singapore THAT much(I have no idea about his love now though) and the fact that Singapore has come this far. We came from a generation of poor immigrants, seeking the hope of a better life. Look where Singapore stands now. It's too crowded but at the same time the modern city is it's image. Singapore has moved from literally a kampong to a city. Although there're so many people and it's really overcrowded, public transport is just PACKED, construction of the new train line going on in various areas, in a way, everything is progressing.

To me, singapore is still my home. My home with all my friends and relatives, all my memories, my childhood. There are some people who I'm so thankful to God that I met. People who stood by me, quarreled but made up. Honest statement from me, if you can have a big quarrel with your friend and still end up as good friends, it shows that they treasure that friendship as much as you and your friendship will be even stronger. Singapore is where all my memories lie and there it shall stay.

Home
Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home

When there are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That home's about its people too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There'll always be Singapore

For this is where I know it's home
For this is where I know I'm home


It's been so long but this is still my favourite ndp song. (On the topic of ndp songs, the new versions are so....it ruins the meaning of the song. BRING BACK THE ORIGINAL VERSIONS!! :D)
家



Was going to memorise the first page of my detail study but uh, doesn't work. I think I memorise these things best in my room or on the train.
Really tired and sleepy although I slept earlier than usual yesterday. Feel like just going home to sleep somemore-.-
Got chem midyear results yesterday. The result's ok but not exactly jumping with joy about it. The percentage of boys compared to girls who got A+ is so different.
This week is pretty relaxed compared to last week. Chinese teacher is on camp, no tests/sac this week! But then I still need to memorise the first page of my detail study. I have no idea how I'm going to remember any of it. I think at most I'll get through to half the page.
I think I've lost my motivation to study this week. I've been putting of studying probability since last week. Should probably start soon...

Some people just don't know when to stop. They don't know when enough is enough. They just keep going on and on, assuming everyone has to talk to them, assuming they know everything, assuming that they're the boss. People who constantly say "you're a genius, I should be the one who should be worried", just STAY AWAY FROM ME. Stop talking like you know me so well. You don't. Just stop. Enough is enough. I just wanted to make a friend, and you? You just have to go on and on about how your studies arne't that good. If you're trying to praise me, you're doing it wrong. I know I'm not a genius. I'm not the type of kid that doesn't study and still gets full marks on a test or anything like that. I can study and still fall short of the full mark by a lot. Know your place and stop saying things like that. I don't like how you ask me how's my day and this sac and that sac EVERY SINGLE DAY AFTER SCHOOL. This just screams one word - "DESPERATION". Leave me alone ok? I'm not interested, will never be. At first I thought you were just being friendly, now I just want you to disappear. Stop asking me every single thing that's going on in my life. If I want to tell you, I'll tell you. Stop asking. I don't need to tell you anything, don't need to reply your messages, don't need to carry out small talk with you. If I want to talk to you, I will, just stop everything you're doing now, go and study and leave me alone! After not replying you since last thursday, do you not know how to take the hint to stop-.- I'm talking to you because I'm nice ok? I'm not interested in you, full stop, period. No one else talks to you because you're just so...I don't know, naggy? I have no idea how to describe it or even to respond. I'm being nice because I just think it's mean to ignore people like that but it's too much, I don't feel like being the nice person to you anymore.



200th post! :D
longest blog I've ever kept, although I'm not that faithfully updating and no one comes to read anyway.
everyone's doing their own thing, I'm doing my own.
SO BOREDDD
school is so boring, everything is so boring
I live just for the days,
live day by day, solving problems day by day
no future plan.


觉得可惜，觉得遗憾，觉得失落
虽然以前的中文水平不是那么的高，现在好像变更低了。好不甘心。
做detail study后的一些感想还要写说这提高了我的中文水平。明明就没有，为什么一定要这样说呢？我的中文水平本来就比现在的程度高，现在还要装说这对我很有帮助，为何要这样说？以前中文对我来说很难，但是现在其实满怀念的。真想不到以前一个半小时就把700－800个字的作文写完，现在却在写250字的作文，一切不如从前。
很怀念也很想念，依旧。
Australia' chinese oral examination is not even a test of oral skills on how fluent you are or how accurate you are. Bluntly said, IT'S A WASTE OF TIME. You want to test standard, test reading not MEMORISING. Chinese oral here is PURE MEMORISING. Hello? This is oral not a test of memorisation skills-.- Who can remember a total of almost 10 pages full of words for examiners to ask less than half of those questions?! ridiculous.
but then again, it's good that I left. I don't think I can continue in that kind of environment, juggling cca, school work, test, tuition etc. We aren't made of steel-.-
ohwell, end of rant.

melbourne's weather is going crazy again-.-
last week was so nice and warm and sunny and then it has to rain today
which means the coming week is going to be COLD. -sigh-
I used to complaing about how hot singapore was but I think having a stable weather condition is better than having weather that plays jokes on you and is so TEMPERAMENTAL-.- seriously. I rains for like 5 minutes, stops and THE SUN COMES OUT. Really hard to gauge when to wash the clothes because when the sun comes out, you bring the clothes out to dry.  After bringing all the clothes out, a grey cloud floats into vicinity and it's going to rain-.- so many times already!

I was just thinking, why does God make us wait?
And I think it's not only because God has His own plan for us, but also if we always get what we want quickly, wouldn't we view God as being at our beck and call?
Think of it this way. If I pray for something to happen and it happens the next day, and it always happens this way, I think I would take it for granted that God would grant me whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted it. God would be just a God that makes my wishes come true but I don't think He wants to be seen that way. He is the mighty God, the God who saves, will He tolerate such treatment? Similarly, it's like spoiling a child with materialistic wealth. A child may wish for something and his/her parents wanting to make their kid happy gets the thing for the child. I think God wants to share a relationship that is much closer than that of a Father who gives presents and gifts whenever we please. That is a really materialistic kind of relationship that can't compare to real kinship that a father may have with his kids. Also, I think waiting also in a way nurtures your faith. If you always get what you want, it's very shallow faith and relationship because then, you have faith for the reaping of materialistic wealth. After a long time, it is common to feel impatient and even abandoned, but then if you are able to hang on until God helps, it shows that your faith has the power to help you hang on to God, and the faith that God will perform miracles and help you.

Humans always tend to turn to God when in need or in trouble but forget about Him when life is all good and happy. It's hard to not be like that because in a way, I guess, it's sort of human nature. You can't help what's going to happen, but I think it's most important to thank Him every day for his provisions, for having a safe and settled life every day.

Give thanks, with a grateful heart
Give thanks to the Holy One

have been wanting to change blogskin for a while now but then blogskins.com search engine always isn't working for me. So I shall just have to stick with the current one :/
Someone's going nuts in his own room for no apparent reason. Yes just insult and call me names when all I did was leave the key in the door UNLOCKED. I didn't even say anything to you when you got back like dude seriously? Who do you think you are. All the eff words and I'm wondering how old you actually are DUDE YOU'RE NOT EVEN 12!! What is the world coming to? Lower primary school kids have phones that are touch screen/slide etc. P6 boy having his own iPod touch?!!technological revolution.

My earphones died T.T both sides totally no sound. I went back to using the original one that came with the mp3 but that one the left side has already died so left the right side only. 3-4 sets of earphones died within 3-4years is that bad? About 1 set each year. Most of them is because the left side no sound the one that just got spoilt is the first one that both sides have totally zero sound. Went to look up if I can fix it but uh...apparently you can but it's not easy, might as well get another one-.- There are some people whose earphones spoil once every 3-4 months-.- Have no idea what they do with their earphones-.-

Anywayy, it's free dress day tomorrow! :D And there's band tmr morning too! I love band o.0 although it's so tiring to wake up so early(although in singapore I always woke up at that time every single day). To other people band is a burden but I enjoy it...lol performance in 3 weeks!! :O I have a solo ;) It's actually an oboe solo but the oboe girl doesn't want to play it-.- As if you don't want your solo!! And it's not like it's very hard but uh...really thankful for the solo then? I think it's one of the last performances EVER so it's like a perfect ending I guess, for me that is.  Dedication is not easy I guess, that's why not many people come on time...

ok I really should go now...need to go study more probability and memorise my chinese detail study(oral) stuff>.< update another time

Recently, the topic of forgiveness has been popping up everywhere, last Sunday's sermon, Monday school assembly, today chaplain's assembly.
Is God trying to tell me to forgive someone? Or is He asking me to pass on the message to somebody? Shall share some points from Sunday's sermon.

Forgiving isn't forgetting. The phrase "forgive and forget" is almost impossible to achieve. When you're hurt, it not very possible or likely that you'll totally forget that incident. Forgiving is starting the healing process of the heart. By thirsting for revenge just stops that healing process and at the same time, implying to God that you don't need his control and you can settle all this yourself. Forgiving isn't easy and I know that from experience. People have hurt me and after a while, I learnt to let go. Put the matter into God's hands and He will solve the problem for you. He is always in control and will never forsake you. It is a matter of whether or not you believe and have faith in Him to be in control and solve your problems.

Forgiving doesn't also mean a relationship. Some people will just hurt you over and over again. There's no point in continuing being related to them. A relationship needs both parties to work for it. If the other party isn't willing, you're just wasting your time and you'll just get hurt over and over again.

Because we are forgiven, we should forgive. Break the cycle of revenge and spread God's love, the essence of christianity. Trust that He knows and He heals. There is a parable in the bible in which a lord showed mercy and forgave his servant who did not return his money on time when the servant pleaded with him. That same servant then went to another servant who owed him money. When the debtor pleaded with the creditor, that creditor who was pardoned did not show mercy and threw the debtor servant into jail until he returned every single cent. When the other servants heard of this, they went to the master and told him. The master then called the servant he had pardoned and reprimanded him for not showing mercy that he was shown. That servant was thrown into jail and tortured until every cent was returned. In the same way, show God's grace that He has shown to you.

Today, during mustard, we were also talking about why bad things happen on Earth. Bad things is an understatement but I have no idea what other words I should use. There isn't a why doesn't God send us this and provide us with that. I don't think that there's such things as "God, I want rain, please send rain". I believe He has reasons for all His doings and sometimes these catastrophes are caused by the devil to rock your faith. In the same way, God may use these catastrophes to save people and let the victims grow deeper in faith. I listened to a sermon a while back and the preacher said "It's not that God provides rich people with all their money and possessions, if it's that way, God is being unfair and why would He do that? It just happened that you're born in the right time in the right environment, in the right place." I guess it's sort of true because why would God provide so much for one person and not so much for another? But in times of trouble, in times of need, it's sometimes really hard to turn your eyes to God, especially when you've been waiting. I, for one am so familiar with this waiting. My family's been waiting for the 6th year now. But I believe God is moving. Situation has improved and I trust that God will take care of us and solve the problem. It hasn't been easy and many times, my parents have asked God, "How long more do we have to wait?". Waiting is difficult and sometimes you just want to give up. You just have to have the faith that God will do a miracle and solve whatever problems you have. Trust that God knows best and He'll love you and will always be there for you no matter what.
Hope anyone who reads this feels encouraged to continue through your hardship! ♥



Forgive me for saying so but don't you think you're soooo ridiculously unreasonable?
cooking the rice 10 minutes later won't kill you. Just because David needs to get out by 5.30 doesn't mean I have to cook rice in blazer and jumper. ARE YOU AWARE THAT ALL THE CLOTHES I'M WEARING ARE LONG SLEEVED AND ISN'T VERY CONVENIENT TO WASH RICE? Does it matter to you that I'm feeling sick? It's not like I want to be but hello? can't even change clothes first isit? Yes, go on insulting me. It's not my fault David has to get out by 5.30. I'm not the one who signed him up for lacrosse. I'm not the person who introduced him to lacrosse and it's my fault the hole puncher disappeared? And it's also my fault david can't find the stupid pack of raisins that was supposed to be in the pantry but WASN'T? Can't you just admit you're wrong instead of saying WHATEVER? Yes, I owe my life to you but then be a bit more reasonable can-.- everything also my fault when we're rushing for David. Yes, totally..

It's NATIONAL DAY!! :D


Funny how we feel more patriotic overseas. I was never the really crazy enthusiastic patriot in singapore, not saying that I am one now. Still remember singing 'Home' super loud in P6 with Ruth and Winnie. Don't know how are they right now. It's been 5 years already!! I just found Winnie's facebook :O don't know if she still remembers me or not, but just add anyway :D

Anyway, back to the topic of national day. For  a government to have a nation with national pride is not easy. Recently the inflating influx of foreigners mainly scholars and expats haven't exactly made singaporeans jump with joy. The US economy downturn isn't going to help the economic situation either. But I think it's a long way that Singapore as a country, a nation has come. Today celebrates the 46th year of independence, the 46th anniversary of LKY's achievement in the history of Singapore. I'm not a supporter of any political group but the fact that LKY helped achieve Singapore's independence will not be changed. The fact that he once loved Singapore THAT much(I have no idea about his love now though) and the fact that Singapore has come this far. We came from a generation of poor immigrants, seeking the hope of a better life. Look where Singapore stands now. It's too crowded but at the same time the modern city is it's image. Singapore has moved from literally a kampong to a city. Although there're so many people and it's really overcrowded, public transport is just PACKED, construction of the new train line going on in various areas, in a way, everything is progressing.

To me, singapore is still my home. My home with all my friends and relatives, all my memories, my childhood. There are some people who I'm so thankful to God that I met. People who stood by me, quarreled but made up. Honest statement from me, if you can have a big quarrel with your friend and still end up as good friends, it shows that they treasure that friendship as much as you and your friendship will be even stronger. Singapore is where all my memories lie and there it shall stay.

Home
Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home

When there are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That home's about its people too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There'll always be Singapore

For this is where I know it's home
For this is where I know I'm home


It's been so long but this is still my favourite ndp song. (On the topic of ndp songs, the new versions are so....it ruins the meaning of the song. BRING BACK THE ORIGINAL VERSIONS!! :D)
家

Was going to memorise the first page of my detail study but uh, doesn't work. I think I memorise these things best in my room or on the train.
Really tired and sleepy although I slept earlier than usual yesterday. Feel like just going home to sleep somemore-.-
Got chem midyear results yesterday. The result's ok but not exactly jumping with joy about it. The percentage of boys compared to girls who got A+ is so different.
This week is pretty relaxed compared to last week. Chinese teacher is on camp, no tests/sac this week! But then I still need to memorise the first page of my detail study. I have no idea how I'm going to remember any of it. I think at most I'll get through to half the page.
I think I've lost my motivation to study this week. I've been putting of studying probability since last week. Should probably start soon...

Some people just don't know when to stop. They don't know when enough is enough. They just keep going on and on, assuming everyone has to talk to them, assuming they know everything, assuming that they're the boss. People who constantly say "you're a genius, I should be the one who should be worried", just STAY AWAY FROM ME. Stop talking like you know me so well. You don't. Just stop. Enough is enough. I just wanted to make a friend, and you? You just have to go on and on about how your studies arne't that good. If you're trying to praise me, you're doing it wrong. I know I'm not a genius. I'm not the type of kid that doesn't study and still gets full marks on a test or anything like that. I can study and still fall short of the full mark by a lot. Know your place and stop saying things like that. I don't like how you ask me how's my day and this sac and that sac EVERY SINGLE DAY AFTER SCHOOL. This just screams one word - "DESPERATION". Leave me alone ok? I'm not interested, will never be. At first I thought you were just being friendly, now I just want you to disappear. Stop asking me every single thing that's going on in my life. If I want to tell you, I'll tell you. Stop asking. I don't need to tell you anything, don't need to reply your messages, don't need to carry out small talk with you. If I want to talk to you, I will, just stop everything you're doing now, go and study and leave me alone! After not replying you since last thursday, do you not know how to take the hint to stop-.- I'm talking to you because I'm nice ok? I'm not interested in you, full stop, period. No one else talks to you because you're just so...I don't know, naggy? I have no idea how to describe it or even to respond. I'm being nice because I just think it's mean to ignore people like that but it's too much, I don't feel like being the nice person to you anymore.

200th post! :D
longest blog I've ever kept, although I'm not that faithfully updating and no one comes to read anyway.
everyone's doing their own thing, I'm doing my own.
SO BOREDDD
school is so boring, everything is so boring
I live just for the days,
live day by day, solving problems day by day
no future plan.


觉得可惜，觉得遗憾，觉得失落
虽然以前的中文水平不是那么的高，现在好像变更低了。好不甘心。
做detail study后的一些感想还要写说这提高了我的中文水平。明明就没有，为什么一定要这样说呢？我的中文水平本来就比现在的程度高，现在还要装说这对我很有帮助，为何要这样说？以前中文对我来说很难，但是现在其实满怀念的。真想不到以前一个半小时就把700－800个字的作文写完，现在却在写250字的作文，一切不如从前。
很怀念也很想念，依旧。
Australia' chinese oral examination is not even a test of oral skills on how fluent you are or how accurate you are. Bluntly said, IT'S A WASTE OF TIME. You want to test standard, test reading not MEMORISING. Chinese oral here is PURE MEMORISING. Hello? This is oral not a test of memorisation skills-.- Who can remember a total of almost 10 pages full of words for examiners to ask less than half of those questions?! ridiculous.
but then again, it's good that I left. I don't think I can continue in that kind of environment, juggling cca, school work, test, tuition etc. We aren't made of steel-.-
ohwell, end of rant.

melbourne's weather is going crazy again-.-
last week was so nice and warm and sunny and then it has to rain today
which means the coming week is going to be COLD. -sigh-
I used to complaing about how hot singapore was but I think having a stable weather condition is better than having weather that plays jokes on you and is so TEMPERAMENTAL-.- seriously. I rains for like 5 minutes, stops and THE SUN COMES OUT. Really hard to gauge when to wash the clothes because when the sun comes out, you bring the clothes out to dry.  After bringing all the clothes out, a grey cloud floats into vicinity and it's going to rain-.- so many times already!

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